get married

Chapter 70

My birth was not good, at least it did not bring "benefits" to my mother, but I am still grateful to her for not throwing me away, and then there will be another abandoned baby in this world.When I was very young, I knew that my living environment was not good, especially the people in the village liked to get together and tell gossip in the village, and my mother was a frequent visitor of gossipers since she gave birth to me.Those people spoke vividly, as if they had seen the truth.

They say my mother gave birth to me when she came back from a coastal city.Because she was a daughter, the big boss gave her a sum of money and just sent us mother and daughter away.When I knew the truth, I already had a sister and brother, of course they are different from me, they at least have a father, and I don't.

In this society, there is always a kind of woman cast aside. They love leisure and work hard, and survive by meeting a rich man.It's just that I like to look at those people's comments, and then a sense of sarcasm rises in my heart.No matter how ugly these people's words are, they would never dare to point to our family members and say such words.

No matter what family I was born in, no teacher will reject me, and no classmates will look down on me.Even when I first understood the meaning of mistress, I hid in the corner and cried.I admit that I am very timid and cowardly. Even though I can tell right from wrong, I never dare to say a word about her in front of my mother.She is indeed not a good woman, stealing her husband, and greedy for vanity.But she didn't treat me badly even if I was her least favorite daughter.I still receive the best education, and I have never been owed anything in terms of basic necessities of life.

Until one day, my mother took my hand and said, "I don't want to live in this kind of place forever, and I can't let my children live in this kind of place." This is a village, not remote, but definitely not prosperous. The country road is not far away, and there is a highway next to it, and countless cars can be seen passing by every day.

When it comes to survival, those morals can really be put aside.

It's just that I didn't think that we entered Ye's house at the cost of leaving another mother and daughter.That was the first time I saw Yang Jinning, arrogant but like a poppy, like a beautiful snake, looking into her eyes, it seemed that I could feel the resentment released inside.At that moment, I was a little confused, why this way is necessary to obtain a good life.

Without the slightest hesitation, the mother encouraged Ye Jinpeng to drive away the mother and daughter.In fact, Yang Jinning's mother was only eroded by the years, leaving vicissitudes behind.My mother is not young and beautiful, but she is better at taking care of herself.

In that heavy rain, I saw the mother and daughter leave, and I saw the girl who was not much younger than me turn her head and stare at the small villa for two seconds.At that moment, I suspected that she was casting a curse.

Mother always said.If you want to get it, you can't be soft-hearted.There are only so many things, everyone wants them, and only by pushing others away can they be obtained by themselves.

In this family, I will always be the extra one.

Su Xi and Ye Jinyang are both Ye Jinpeng's biological children, he dotes on him as a matter of course, and my identity naturally becomes embarrassing.Simply, studying gave me the best excuse not to live at home.

The students in the dormitory like to gossip the most. This kind of gossip will always talk about the topic of "little three", and then it will become a denunciation meeting.But the point of view is nothing more than the same: If my good friend becomes a mistress, he must break up.

In the quilt, I often think, when theory and reality collide one day, who is more powerful?
Because the girl who said that sentence robbed her best friend's boyfriend with practical actions.Whoever can't speak empty words depends on who speaks beautifully, and whoever speaks beautifully.

I don't know which side I should stand on.

Every time I go home and see my relatives, I always feel that we are so strange.

Susie will always be a good girl in the hearts of mother and Ye Jinpeng, and she is willing to give her whatever she wants.As for Ye Jinyang, not to mention, Ye Jinpeng trained him as his successor, and he himself was competitive enough, and his grades never fell behind.

Every time, standing on the balcony on the second floor, I saw Ye Jinyang calling "Sister, Sister" to Suzie.I will be sincerely envious, their relationship is so good, I can't get into it.

I know, there must be something wrong with my mind.So there was a gap with my mother, and a gap with my younger siblings.I am always contradictory, Su Qing is my mother, so I have no right to blame her, but I know she is wrong.

Perhaps, she is also the person who knows me best.

"I don't care what you think of me, you just need to remember that you will always be my daughter, and this will never change." Su Qing stood at the door of the room, and left after saying this.

I think she is right.

She has never owed me anything, if you want to blame it, blame yourself for not being reincarnated.

And I, inferior and pitiful, can't make any changes to my life.

I envy Suzy's eternal kindness and beauty, even though I always believe that she will change once she gets out of the society and understands the darkness, but I am envious of her who has not changed.I also envy Ye Jinyang's bravery who is not afraid of anything, and always has passion.They will not ask what is missing in this family. After all, their mother and father are around, which is considered a complete family.

If I hadn't seen the pair of mother and daughter who were kicked out, wouldn't I care about all of this?
I learn to study harder, only in this way, I can change my own life.I can't change others, I can only make my cowardly self better.

When I entered the university with excellent grades, what made me happy was not that I entered this nationally famous university, but that I met such a boy.

I have never seen him, and even occasionally the teacher will roll his name. When this name is called, other boys in the class always raise their hands or answer.At that time, I only thought that this boy should be very popular.

The first time I saw him was during the final exam.Because I arrived at the examination room late, I could only choose between the first row and the second row, and I chose the second row.As soon as I sat down, a boy walked in and sat in front of me.As soon as he sat down, he turned around.There were still fine beads of sweat on his forehead, as if he had just rushed over.He just took the review materials I put on the table for a moment, without saying a word.

At that moment, when I saw his hair sticking into bunches due to sweat, I forgot to speak, even if it was "classmate, you took away my review materials."

And I just stared at him for 10 minutes.He took it very seriously.Very focused.

When the invigilator entered the examination room, he didn't look back, and threw the review materials back on my desk.The whole process is smooth and refreshing.

At that time, I did the questions very slowly, and I didn't know why I behaved like this.But he handed in the paper very early, and he didn't do the last question on the paper at all.He won't know that when he handed in the paper, I was holding a piece of paper in the palm of my hand with the answer to the last question written on it.

In the end, that piece of paper was pinched in my hand, forming countless folds.

After that exam, there was a lot of gossip in the dormitory.

"Who was the boy who came in last? Why have you never seen him before?"

"I've never seen it before, but it's really cool."

"Wouldn't it be rebuilt?"

"No, you have forgotten that there is a mysterious figure in our class who almost never appears? It's Gu Chengdong himself, but I finally saw his true colors..."

"Why don't you say he doesn't come to class? I will definitely grab the seat next to him."

"Who knows, but are you sure your short legs can outrun others?"

I, who have always disliked gossip, listened to the whole process.

They don't know that I will go early to take a seat for the next few exams.Still in the second row.And he didn't let me down, he still came very late, and still picked up my review materials conveniently.

The more than one hour exam time turned out to be exciting and beautiful.I think I finally understand that a certain girl is holding a mirror and silently observing how she likes boys.

At that second, I was sure that I should be in love.

In the next semester, he still didn't show up, but the boys in the class still called for him.And occasionally when the teacher assigns homework, I will quietly write an extra copy.I hope that one day, he will find a girl who silently did all this for him.Until the next class, the teacher took three homeworks and smiled, "Who is Gu Chengdong? Stand up and let the teacher see, do three homework, really the most serious student I have ever taught."

At that time, I realized that there are many people who think the same as me.

Falling in love with someone who others like also seems to be looking for trouble for myself.

Later, I didn't see him again. Some people said that he changed his major, and some people said that he no longer went to this school.In order to find out his whereabouts, I even joined the student union, joined the group, and made friends with some teachers, but all I got was negligible information about him.I even thought that maybe he just changed his major. I started going to the cafeteria to eat, and even after staying for a long time, I wanted to meet him once.

But I still didn't see him, no matter how hard I tried to go out, I couldn't see him.He came in a hurry, didn't even look at me, and then disappeared into my world immediately.

I saw him again.

In the hospital after Susie's illness, he held Susie's hand, ignoring so many eyes.And he, like before, still couldn't see me.

He just looked at Suzy, told her some little things, and laughed with Suzy.Even if the bottom of my heart is sour, I have to admit that it is the softest picture I have ever seen. Even when I recall it many years later, I still feel warm.

He didn't even glance at me until Suzy introduced me to him.

The moment he looked at me, I knew that he and I would never be able to.In this world, there is such a kind of man. After he has a woman, he will never look at other women, nor will he think about other women.And he, I believe, was that kind of man.

(End of this chapter)