Draw a circle in his paranoid heart

Chapter 87 Brother, Don't You Believe Me?

Lu Chen looked at her lying in his arms, the tears on her face were still wet, and she said those words as if she was complaining and distressed, and felt extremely painful in her heart.

He didn't want to be like this, he didn't want to be like this, someone who made himself a stranger and afraid of him.

I don't even want her to know, let her understand.

He secretly checked the information himself, and also asked Huang Ning privately.

He fit all the symptoms of paranoid personality disorder, but he stubbornly refused to admit it.

He promised her that he would get better soon, be the same as before, and be a normal person.

But once this term is put on his body, he is not worthy of her.

How can a person who is not mentally sound be worthy of such a beautiful her.

He has been enduring it, pretending that he is still the same as before, only thinking that he is more possessive of her.

But I can't deceive myself, any little bit of her neglect of him will make him fall into pain, unable to extricate himself.

He also thought about it more than once, what would he do if she didn't want him anymore.

In all her life plans, she is ranked first.

If she doesn't want herself anymore, she won't be able to hold on at all.

She is his own fate, affecting all his emotions, and her emotions are also his.

He wants to have everything about her, to think about what she thinks, and to worry about her worries.

No, he couldn't make her sad.

Don't let her cry.

But what to do, he didn't do well, and he made her cry again.

She had just kissed herself so fiercely that she had never done so.

She cried so fiercely, as if immersed in great pain.

Is she feeling sorry for herself?
But the last thing he wanted was to see him sad.

He clenched his hands tightly and didn't know what to do. Seeing her crying, he trembled, and his eyes were even redder.

His voice was a little painful, coming from above her head, "Gently, did I do something wrong, do you not like me anymore?"

Lin raised his head slightly, the tears on his face were still wet, he just looked at him straight, his voice was still crying, "Yes, you did something wrong."

He lowered his head, as if he was both annoyed and remorseful. Lin Qingyuan looked at him for a while, only to hear his low voice, "Qingqing, I'm sorry."

Lin gently asked him back, "Do you know where you went wrong?"

"I shouldn't be sick, I shouldn't make you worry." He admitted his mistake very well, with his head lowered and his eyes red, no matter how he looked, he looked like a little daughter-in-law who was being bullied.

Lin sighed softly, raised his head, and kept them looking straight, his voice became a little serious, "Look at me."

Lu Chen sat up straight and looked at him nervously.

Lin cleared his throat lightly, put on that serious attitude, and turned a blind eye to his pitiful attitude, as if scolding a child.

"Student Lu Xiaoshen, how did I tell you before that no matter what happens, I will always be with you. No matter what illness you get or how bad you become, I never thought of giving up on you. Then What about you, how did you do it?"

She sobbed, and then continued: "Why don't you tell me, you are so painful, but you don't tell me anything, when you wake up every day, your whole body is wrong, and your face is pale, but why don't you tell me Me, what are you afraid of?"

He opened his mouth, but did not answer, Lin Weiqing continued: "You are afraid that I will dislike you, that I will lose you, that I will not want you, right?"

His expression was a bit painful, he nodded hesitantly, Lin lightly knocked a candied chestnut on his head, "You still dare to nod, you, you really pissed me off."

His expression was a little ignorant, he didn't know what to do, he just looked at her so seriously.

She was a little helpless, her eyes seemed to be hurt, and tears slowly filled up, as if they were about to fall.

"Brother, don't you believe me?"

Lu Chen was completely panicked, and hurriedly took out a piece of paper to wipe it for her, and kept repeating a sentence, "No, no, I don't believe you."

Lin gently raised his head, tears fell down as if unconscious, "Then why do you think so? You just don't believe me, you are afraid of everything, afraid that I will not believe you, afraid that I will leave you, afraid that I will dislike you You, but you never asked me what I think.

Is it because my thoughts are not that important in your eyes, as long as you think so, no matter how scared or sad I am, you can just ignore it? "

Lu Chen was in great pain, hugging her tightly, shaking his head non-stop, tears falling on her body one by one.

"No, no, gently, you are the most important, you are the most important, I never did not believe in you. I just did not believe in myself.

I don't want to let myself become like this. My body is better, but my spirit is still sick. My possessiveness towards you is so serious that you can't imagine, even I can't control myself.I rarely dream about my parents now, but I always dream about you, I dream that you leave me, I dream that you like other people.

I kept telling myself in my dream that I should let go, my lightness is so good, I shouldn't be with a sick person, but my heart is in so much pain, I can't let go no matter what.That dream haunted me for a long time, I couldn't sleep all night, I kept my eyes open and waited for dawn.

It's ridiculous, even though you are by my side, I'm still scared like this.

I never thought before that I would become so pitiful, greedily wanting to snatch every trace of your warmth.I'm greedy and selfish, I just want to keep you locked away from other people.

I'm not as good as you think, I'm bad, I want to tie you by my side, I don't let you go anywhere, I don't want others to see you, every time someone sees you, I want to rush up and cover his eyes .

You are mine and mine alone.

No one can take you away, no one can. "

He told her all his thoughts, without any concealment, and showed the worst of himself in front of her.

He waited for her scared eyes, waiting for her panic.

But none.

She just cried harder.

He panicked even more, and this time he didn't even dare to touch her, for fear that she would dislike him.

His hands froze in mid-air, and he didn't dare to move at all. After hesitating for a long time, he clenched his hands into fists, grabbed her shoulders and hugged her into his arms.

His voice was tense, almost trembling, that he didn't expect.

"Gently, I am such a person, will you be afraid of me, will you leave me?"

Lin Weiwei was a little tired from crying, twitched his body, ignored him, and blew his nose loudly after taking out the paper.

Lu Chen: "."

What kind of operation is this, do you not want to take care of yourself?
He was very anxious now, but he didn't dare to rush her at all. He waited for her to blow her nose, drink water, wash her face, and finally walked towards him.

He didn't move, he looked at her nervously, and then watched her stretch out her hand towards him, he hurried forward to be hugged by her obediently.

She patted him on the head, her voice was a little doting and smiling, "What a poor little girl, let me love you."

(End of this chapter)