Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 60 Liang Sheng, can we not be sad (60)
Spoiler - Ning Xin, stay safe
01 Dream back to Titanic.

2012 4 Month 10 Day.

The 15D version of "Titanic", which swept a generation of sorrow 3 years ago, has been staged again in this noisy city.In the huge movie theater, a beautiful and elegant woman sat quietly, her blue hair was lazily rolled up, her eyes were peacefully watching the movie screen, as if she was watching a past event.

On the screen, the giant ship of the century slowly sank into the surging sea, like a sad tide, flooding the entire cinema in an instant.

——At that moment, all she could hear was Jack's confession to Rose——You jump! I jump!

Tears flowed down quietly with the overflow of the sea, kissing her beautiful cheek lightly.The 3D sea water on the screen drowned the weeping of all the audience, but her tears drowned the distant memory many years ago——

In 2000, just two years after the premiere of "Titanic" in 1998, she was also in a movie theater, and she and the boy named Cheng Tianyou reviewed this legendary love movie together.

At that time, she turned sideways and asked him with the innocence and stubbornness unique to girls, if one day I jumped off, would you jump off too?

Love at 17.

In the dim light of the movie theater, the profile of him in his youth was as perfect as a sculpture.It's just that at that moment, he didn't turn his head and stare at her with star-like eyes like before, but just stared at the screen quietly, and said those two words lightly - no.

will not.

These two words, on that afternoon in the summer of 2000, frozen her entire 17-year-old life.

To this day, she still remembers her astonishment, panic, frustration, and unspeakable embarrassment at that moment—more of it was her serious sadness.

It was these two words that made her sad for many years.

After the breakup, she gradually began to make excuses for him.That was probably the usual answer of a man with an indifferent nature like him. He is a person who is used to wrapping himself in coldness. She firmly believed that, so she gradually forgot about this kind of pain.

But until a few days ago, when she learned that he jumped off the seaside cliff in Sanya for the sake of the woman named Jiang Sheng, the sad memory of her 17-year-old was once again set off.

Yes, it's not that he can't jump, it's just that he won't jump with himself.

That's it.

In the past 12 years, he has gone through the chaos of the world and the impermanence of the world. His heart should be colder, harder, and harder to give than when he was 17 years old... He jumped down for the woman named Jiang Sheng.

In the fairytale-like love between him and her, as an ex-girlfriend, he was alone, as if he had been attached to him all these years, which was a big joke.

Before the movie ended, she left sadly.For so many years, she has always been afraid of the word "the end of the play" on the screen, as if she and him were a prophecy of love.Walking out of the cinema, April in the city is already bright and beautiful.

How long has it been since she was terrified of the beautiful scenery in this world, so she put on sunglasses alone, not watching, not watching, and no one would see her eyes that turned red from tears because of the movie.

All these years, she acted like a good moral actor, and the content of the show was-she didn't love him anymore.

Because she understands that after breaking up, the reason why she can stay by his side safely is because she always hides her love for him so well.

02 How could he not see through her heart?

After coming out of the movie theater, she drove to Tianyou's residence.

As soon as he entered, Ning Xin thanked the female worker who came to open the door, smiled, and said, I'll just go in by myself.

Walking through the tea room, the shadows of flowers are slanting, reflected on the mahogany tables and tables, and there seems to be a faint fragrance floating.The light in the side hall was as soft as the nostalgia she had for him for more than ten years.

She took off her sunglasses, and with plain white hands, she gently combed the fluffy and silky hair at the temples, and she walked through the side hall before seeing him.

He was in the bedroom, quietly guarding the woman named Jiang Sheng—she had a very clean young face, and although she was sick and pale, she was so at ease that she slept on his bed defenselessly.And he was just like this, quietly guarding her bedside, staring at her quietly, with merciless pampering between the corners of his eyes and brows.

This is the happy scene that she has sketched countless times in her heart - she falls asleep peacefully, and there is the affectionate gaze of the man she loves beside her.

With this situation, Ning Xin suddenly felt that his presence seemed so unnecessary.

Before she turned to leave, Cheng Tianyou saw her, stepped forward, and called her softly, Ning Xin?
He carefully closed the door, just not to disturb the sleeping woman.This made Ning Xin feel extremely sad, she sighed softly in her heart, smiled self-deprecatingly, turned around to look at him, and said, yes.Let's see how you are doing.It looked fine just now, but I was planning to leave for fear of disturbing you.

Tianyou smiled, but didn't hold back, and said, then I'll see you off.

Ning Xin lowered his eyes and smiled lightly, he was really stingy, he was stingy to treat himself even a little bit better - as if not looking at himself, not seeing himself, and keeping a certain distance from himself would make him feel safe.

Ning Xin looked at the tea room, smiled at him, and said, "Look, my guest didn't even drink a cup of tea, and I was kicked out by you."

Tianyou was stunned for a moment, and pretended not to know, and said, oh, I thought you were in a hurry.

Then there is no more words.

After a few seconds of silence, Ning Xin was slightly embarrassed.She suddenly wanted to ask him stubbornly and recklessly, how disgusting am I for making you avoid me like this?
But when the words reached her throat, her heart was abruptly suppressed again. She had been hiding it for so many years in front of him, and it seemed a bit hypocritical to explode suddenly.

Just when Ning Xin was about to leave, the maid at home brought hot tea, smiled skillfully and measuredly, and said, Miss Ning, let's have a cup of hot tea.Then he said to Cheng Tianyou, sir, your tea.

Tianyou couldn't say anything right away, he just asked the female worker to bring tea and desserts to the table in the garden, and he walked over with Ning Xin himself.

In fact, in these years, how could he not understand her heart—this woman he met for the first time at the age of 15, fell in love with him at the age of 17, and resolutely left when he was [-]. She is the epitome of all the beauty in his adolescence, and also the most important thing in his life. The epitome of the ugly scene I saw for the first time.

It's just that time has passed for so long, and the past has been forgiven.

He didn't want her to be tied up in that youthful city of love, unable to get out again.

He didn't want to murder her life's happiness.Therefore, every time he was unwilling to accept her restrained and reserved goodness, even though she tried so hard to cover it up, she was the first woman who made him fall in love, how could he not see through her heart.

03 But I never forget.

In the weather of April, the garden is already full of trees and flowers.

Ning Xin took a sip of tea lightly, the afternoon sun was just right, not too hot but still warm, touching someone's face like a sympathetic hand.

She suddenly remembered many, many years ago, when the cherry blossoms were in full bloom in the afternoon, behind his bicycle, it was her waving hand, the sun shone through the shadow of the flower, and fell mottled on her body, all the way through, she felt that the fragrance of the flower was all over her clothes.

At that time, the wind came, and his white shirt was blown up and fluffed up, like a cloud falling into the world, as if she could hug the whole heaven with a light hug.

……

But at this moment, he was sitting in front of his eyes, smiling politely, elegant and distant.

Yes, at this moment, he is no longer pretending to be Ning Xin, but the woman named Jiang Sheng.

Thinking of this, Ning Xin suddenly laughed, she said, I went to see an old movie today.

Tianyou put the teacup on the table, looked up at her, and said, oh.

In fact, as soon as the words came out of her mouth, she was shocked, but she still wanted to continue, even though he was so disinterested in front of her, but on this special day, after she loved him for more than ten years In the afternoon of April, she really wanted to talk to him about what had been in her heart for so long.

She was suddenly afraid that her life would sink without warning like that giant ship.

In this way, wouldn't he never have a chance to let him know about her thoughts?

It would be a great regret.

So, she smiled at him and said, it's a very old movie, you probably don't even remember it.It seems that it was first released in 1998. At that time, we were all very young, only fifteen or sixteen years old. The school even organized us to watch this movie together, "Titanic", remember?

Tianyou looked at her, and said softly, Ning Xin...

She lowered her head, and she knew in her heart that he was calling her name to prevent her from continuing.

However, the sunshine this afternoon was so good, and I was used to covering up, but suddenly I didn't want to cover up anymore.So, she smiled and said, God bless, that day was the first time the two of us met.

Under the silence between the two sides, they both fell into memories...

It was 1998. In that year, she was only 15 years old. Yes, she was at this age, and she didn't understand love yet. "Titanic" is coming - my alma mater, Endo Middle School, organizes everyone to watch this massive century romance.

On that day, for the young students of Endo Middle School, what was dreamy enough to make people blush and heartbeat, apart from Jack drawing a beautiful pencil sketch for Rose on the big screen, was the most beautiful girl in the school. The girl sat with the most handsome boy.

Ning Xin had long heard that there was a boy in the campus who fascinated all the girls.During that lonely adolescence, in every school, there will be such a prince who is loved by thousands of people.

She also didn't know why her seat was next to his, whether it was a coincidence or a deliberate arrangement by some troublemaker.

She remembered that when the two of them were sitting together, they nodded politely to each other. She didn't know how he was at that time, but Ning Xin only felt that his heart was beating very fast.

There was also a burst of booing and whistles from the boys in the movie theater, which was suppressed by the teacher, and then there were whispers from the girls.

Ning Xin remembered that his palms were full of sweat after watching that movie.When the plot progressed to the time when Jack was drawing a nude portrait of Rose, she took a peek at the boy next to her, and the boy suddenly turned to look at her, only to see two nosebleeds flowing from his nose...

At that moment, she suddenly wanted to laugh, but he said to her seriously, is there a handkerchief?

Ning Xin couldn't help laughing at this scene in his memory.She put the teacup in her hand, feeling the warmth of the tea from the bone china, she said to Tianyou, that day, you had a nosebleed in front of Rose!But he also told me seriously that you have a fever.Obviously a young pervert.

Tianyou smiled, seemed slightly embarrassed, and said, you know, I do have a fever.

Ning Xin sighed and said, when we were together, every time I made fun of you with this matter, you didn't answer like that.You always say, what's so lecherous, she's not as good-looking as you!

Tianyou stood up, as if trying to avoid the entanglement of her eyes, and said, I can't remember the past, it's been so long.

Ning Xin looked at him with burning eyes and said, but I never forgot.

Tianyou turned his back to her, without turning his head, he just said, it's getting late, you should go back.

Ning Xin suddenly turned to him, looked at him clearly and said, I just want to ask you a question!
Tianyou couldn't dodge it in time, and said, everything has passed for so long, what good will it do us to mention it again?
(End of this chapter)