Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 28 Liang Sheng, can we not be sad (28)
Perhaps, as he said, Jiang Sheng, I will not hurt you (6)
Xiaojiu became more and more transparent in my dream, like a faint image, and finally disappeared into the tears in the corner of my eyes.Xiaojiu, can I consider us still good friends, but, in this life, we may not meet again.

I didn't tell Bei Xiaowu the reason Xiao Jiu left.

I just said that Xiao Jiu will come back, when she fades away all the injuries.If, next Christmas, you eat another apple.She will appear under the snowy streetlights just like last year.I said, Bei Xiaowu, do you believe it?

Bei Xiaowu didn't speak, he was still studying hard, drawing hard, waiting for the arrival of the college entrance examination.

Has anyone ever told you about it?
All children waiting for love will hold a red apple in the snowy Christmas, waiting for the princess or prince in their hearts to come again.

The news of his mother's death reached the campus before the college entrance examination.I frantically rushed out of the classroom, and Liang Sheng stopped me. He said, Jiang Sheng, you have to calm down, we will go home right away!

I stared at Liang Sheng, and all the resentment caused by my mother gathered in my heart, because in my subconscious, if there was no Liang Sheng, my mother would not have worked so hard, let alone passed away so early.So, I yelled at Liang Sheng without hesitation, that's not your real mother!After yelling, he ran out of the campus.

Liang Sheng caught up and hugged me tightly from behind, his voice was so painful, good Jiang Sheng, calm down, my brother will take you home right away.

When I got home, I saw my mother's body.Her body was already rickety, and her face was green.I suddenly remembered that when I was very young, she was still so plump and beautiful, as if she had been crippled overnight.

I gently touched her hand, hoping that she would wake up like before, look at me, and say, Jiang Sheng, are you back?Are you tired of studying?

But, she didn't, she just lay there stooped like that, her face was bloodless.

I didn't want to cry a sound, but Liang Sheng cried so hard.

Because we had to take the college entrance examination, after my mother was buried, Liang Sheng and I hurried back to school.At that time, I suddenly learned a new sentence called, too late to be sad.

When he left home, his father sat in a wheelchair and aged overnight.He moved to my side inch by inch, raised his stump without a palm, like a child who has done something wrong, and tried to grab the corner of my clothes. He was trembling, his voice was intermittent, and he yelled, child... child, it will be old Tears were turbid, and along the wrinkles on his face, the sea changed instantly.

I glanced at him, feeling so sore in my heart, but I still didn't call him dad, let alone stop.

Liang Sheng's clear eyes were filled with tears, which did not fall for a long time.

78 Jiang Sheng, you must do what you promised to God.

Goodbye God Bless, the college entrance examination is over.

I saw him wandering outside the school gate.He lowered his head, seemingly full of thought.At that moment, I wasn't sure if he was looking for me.I haven't seen you for so long, and suddenly there is a feeling of thousands of mountains and rivers.I called him, but he turned hastily, trying to leave.

I ran to him desperately, stopped him, asked with all my eyes, and said, why are you avoiding me?

Cheng Tianyou looked at me with flustered eyes, even mixed with slight hatred, which made me feel inexplicably suffocated.

At this moment, Tianen appeared out of nowhere, his smile was so sweet, like a pure angel.He said, brother, this is the Jiang Sheng I told you about.It turns out that you also know Jiang Sheng.When he called my name, it was as if he was calling his life-and-death lover.

I suddenly felt that things were getting very mysterious, and I couldn't help becoming nervous. I grabbed Cheng Tianyou's sleeve, and I said, God bless, God bless, speak up.

Tianyou looked at me, those eyes like Liang Sheng were full of sadness.This is the first time that I read despair in the eyes of this strong man.

Tianen grabbed the corner of my clothes and continued to pretend to be innocent. He smiled and said to Tianyou, brother, I originally planned to show you Jiang Sheng in a few days, but I didn’t expect to let you do this today met.He shyly told Cheng Tianyou that Jiang Sheng is very beautiful.Brother, we have known each other for almost three years, and she has always been so beautiful.

I pushed him away desperately, I said, you are a madman!madman!
Tianen looked at me sadly, with an expression of disbelief, and tugged at the corner of my clothes, Jiang Sheng, what's wrong with you?Why are you doing this to me?Didn't you say you will always be with me?Jiang Sheng... His voice was choked up, and tears streamed down his face.He said, Jiang Sheng, you still have my mark on your hand, we said that we will be together forever.After he finished speaking, he took my hand. Under the sun, the scar he left on me shone faintly, and in Cheng Tianyou's eyes, it was more and more cold and painful.

I slammed him away, I knew that Tianyou and I fell into his trap.He used Tianyou's guilt and connivance to him, falsely told Tianyou that he had a girlfriend who had been dating for three years, and then asked Tianyou to come and see me.But, God bless, God bless, why are you so stupid?
Tianyou walked away from me, and left these words in my ears: Jiang Sheng, please treat me well, otherwise, I will never forgive you!

The summer wind blew through his slightly messy hair and blocked his eyes. I couldn't see his expression, whether he hated or hurt.But one thing is certain, he believed Tianen's words.

I feel that the sky is dark and the sky is dark. I have been looking forward to Cheng Tianyou's return, and I have always wanted to tell him how bad I have been these days.I trusted and relied on him so much, but things turned out like this the moment he came back.I yelled at them like I lost my mind, you are all fucking lunatics, your family is all lunatics!
Tianen was frightened, looked at Tianyou in despair, and said, brother, Jiang Sheng has changed her mind!Why did Jiang Sheng change her mind?After finishing speaking, he turned the wheelchair like crazy and rushed to the road!
Tianyou was terrified, threw away the cigarette in his hand, and threw Tianen down desperately.Tianen was thrown to the ground heavily by him, and his face was scratched heavily on the wheelchair, dripping with blood.Cheng Tianyou looked at Tianen distressedly, and while he was trying to stop the bleeding, he said, good Tianen, Jiang Sheng will never change his mind about you in his life, you have to trust your brother.

Tianen, who was almost in a coma, opened his kind eyes and looked at Tianyou with trust.

Tianyou pulled me up, his voice was abnormally stiff, Jiang Sheng, you must do what you promised Tianen!

I said word by word, God bless, why did you treat me like this?
Tianyou hardened his heart and refused to look at the tears in my eyes. He said, Tianen promised his friends today that he would show his girlfriend to them. Didn't you agree?Since you like to do it, you must take responsibility for what you do!After speaking, he dragged me into the car.

I retreated desperately and refused to give in. I hated Cheng Tianyou to death and called him a lunatic and a pig.Cheng Tianyou's hands locked my arm tightly, his eyes started to fire, and he said, Jiang Sheng, don't be self-willed!Otherwise, I'm welcome!
At this time, Liang Sheng and Bei Xiaowu walked out of the school.When Liang Sheng saw that I was being bullied, he rushed up quickly and punched Tianyou hard.Bei Xiaowu rescued me from Tianyou, and just when I was about to stand still, I saw a group of people rushing up and surrounded us with knives.

Tianen pointed at Liang Sheng and Bei Xiaowu like a lunatic and cried to Tianyou, brother, it is because of these men that Jiang Sheng has changed his mind!
79 Tianen is a devil.

Liang Sheng, Bei Xiaowu and I were hijacked by these people to a hidden place.Three years ago, the scene of Xiaojiu's family was repeated.Tianyou looked at me with messy hair, his eyes were full of sadness, but when he looked at poor Tianen, his eyes became sharper, he held my chin, hard, almost crushed, he asked me , whose fingers do you want?
I looked at those gleaming knives, pressed against Liang Sheng's fingers, and I begged, crying, I said, God bless, God bless, please, please, don't hurt them, I beg you !

The blue veins on Tianyou's forehead were exposed. He didn't expect that these two people would make a person with my personality beg him desperately.He looked at me coldly, almost gritted his teeth, and said word by word, so hard, Jiang Sheng, you are not allowed to change your mind about Tianen in this life!

I cried and cried, I held his hand, but I couldn't touch the warmth of the past, I said, God bless, God bless, as long as you don't hurt my brother, I promise you anything!I promise you everything!

After listening to my words, Liang Sheng struggled like crazy, he said, Jiang Sheng, Jiang Sheng, you are so stupid!Then he shouted at Cheng Tianyou, kill me!
Tianyou looked at Liang Sheng coldly, his eyes were bloodshot, and said, it's easy to want to die!After speaking, he took the knife from his subordinate and walked towards Liang Sheng.

I hugged his leg tightly, and begged him in tears, God bless, God bless, if you hurt him, I will never forgive you for the rest of my life!I will never forgive you for a lifetime!

Tianyou's eyes trembled, and mist appeared in them.Three years ago, I was like a lost elf, leaning on him in the middle of the night, calling him brother with a helpless and dependent expression.I begged him to take me home, and I slept on his big bed, giving him a headache like a little rascal, making him so indifferent, saying "If there is one person in the world who can make him grow old with the snap of his fingers, it must be You, Jiang Sheng" and so on.

However, I forgot that Tian En is a devil!
Seeing that Tianyou's heart softened, he rushed to the window desperately, intending to jump down, but was hugged by a group of people.He wailed helplessly, Jiang Sheng changed his mind, you let me die!I don't want to live in this world anymore, let me die!

Tian En's weeping cry made the flames in Tian You's eyes rise again.

He stared at me closely and said, Jiang Sheng, can you really never change your mind about Tianen?

I was psychedelic, just nodded, and I said, I can, I can, I really can!
He said, good!I accept your oath!But, you also have to give me a proof!
I looked at Tianyou in horror, not knowing what was the evidence for what he said.Tianyou slowly pointed to Liang Sheng and Bei Xiaowu, and said, whose fingers do you want as proof of your oath?Finger it out for me!
I frantically grabbed him, and I said, God bless, God bless, I don't want anyone else, please, don't.

Tianyou was so cold, he refused to look at me, and said in a cold and heartless voice, if you don't choose, you will have both?
I watched them raise their knives and cry, and I said, I want, I want.I want... I... want Bei Xiaowu's!In the end, I pointed my finger at Bei Xiaowu, but there were bloody tears in my eyes.

Tianyou gave them a look, only to hear Liang Sheng scream, and his middle finger and index finger left his body!
I looked at Liang Sheng, at the bean-sized beads of sweat on his forehead due to the pain.I remembered what Xiao Jiu said, she said, no matter how Cheng Tianyou looks like Liang Sheng, he is not Liang Sheng either!She said, Jiang Sheng, you can't associate with Cheng Tianyou.

I felt the pain in my heart disappear. I hugged Liangsheng and cried, constantly tearing my clothes to bandage his wound.Every inch and thread is my endless guilt and distress.I would rather die myself than Liang Sheng suffer such pain!
The clothes were torn by me until the skin was exposed.However, I was still torn like a demon, as if everything in this world had nothing to do with me, there was no shame but numbness.Tianyou took off his clothes and put them on me.He put his hands on my shoulders, trying to calm my madness.He said sadly, Jiang Sheng, you can't blame me, I just want to be blessed by God.

I looked up at him, smiled, stroked each of his fingers so carefully, and then bit down hard until my mouth was full of blood, Tianyou would rather tremble than break free.

I said, God bless, there has never been a person in the world who hurt me so deeply like you!Because there is no one in the world who hurt Liang Sheng like you!

Liang Sheng?Tianyou's face suddenly changed.He grabbed my shoulder, shook it vigorously, and said, Jiang Sheng, Jiang Sheng, what are you talking about?what is his name?
I said, his name is Liang Sheng, and he is my brother!

Tianyou's voice began to tremble, Jiang... Who is Jiang Liangzhi from you?

I said he was Liang Sheng's father.Up to now, I still don't want to admit that he is my father, because he has caused too much harm to my mother and me.

Tianyou threw away those who were holding down Liang Sheng like crazy, picked up Liang Sheng's severed finger on the ground, hugged Liang Sheng and rushed out the door.

I held Cheng Tianyou's leg tightly, and I said, how else do you want to hurt him!

Because I refused to let go, Cheng Tianyou hugged Liang Sheng and fell heavily from the stairs. I only saw Liang Sheng's head hit the railing heavily, and blood was everywhere...

80 Because my unspeakable secret is the same as Liang Sheng's, which is endless sadness.

Tianyou told me a long time ago that he is very busy recently and will leave the city, so he will not be able to accompany me.That day, he let off fireworks for me, and we were smiling like flowers in the yard of that villa.I also asked him what he was busy with, and he said he was busy looking for someone.

That man was his little aunt's dearest son.

His little aunt once had entanglements with a married man and gave birth to a child. Grandpa severed the father-daughter relationship with her in a fit of anger. 14 years ago, in a sudden disaster, the little aunt passed away, and the man became disabled.Grandpa was too stubborn at that time and refused to adopt their children... Many years later, when grandpa got old, he always thought of his little daughter who died, and he also began to think about his little grandson who was living in a foreign country, so he asked him to ask around.

However, at that time, Tianyou did not tell me that the child he was looking for was called Liang Sheng.

Liang Sheng was lying quietly in the hospital, his face was quiet, without any expression of pain, just like he fell asleep when he was a child, his eyebrows and eyes were so vivid, even though his face was very pale.

I watched him through the glass of the monitoring room, feeling extremely painful in my heart.God Bless was behind me, silently.I wouldn't look at him, wouldn't talk to him.I don't know how to forgive him, forgive myself.

Liang Sheng's eyes were sometimes opened, but he was in a daze.I wrote the word "brother" repeatedly on the glass window.I write slowly one stroke at a time, how I wish he could see it, how I wish he could get better soon.

Liang Sheng.

brother.

I believe that Liang Sheng can see it, because whenever this time, I can see big clouds of fog from his eyes.If, if, he was really unconscious, why would he cry?
After Liang Sheng's condition stabilized, Bei Xiaowu and I returned home.I have been thinking about what Xiaojiu said, she said that resentment is a devil.

And how did I never feel resentment towards my father and Liang Sheng?I hate Tian En so much, Tian En is just a magnification of my psychological shadow.In fact, I want to be an angel in this way.

I asked Bei Xiaowu, do you hate my choice that day?
Bei Xiaowu shook his head, if I were you, I wouldn't let anyone hurt Liang Sheng.

However, I ended up hurting him.

When he returned home after paying homage to his mother, his father kept looking around in front of the courtyard gate.It wasn't until he saw my shadow that he lowered his head, and like a child who made a mistake, supported the clumsy wheelchair with his hands and quietly returned home.Under the crimson setting sun, he was already very old.

I wonder if there will be a day when I will stop him, call him dad, and then hold his stumped limbs stretched out to me with soft hands.Because of the 18-year stranger, how much he wanted to be close to his children when he was getting old, I would hear him trembling his lips and shouting that word for a long time-child.Then I cried, and he cried too, and we cried like a pair of father and daughter who had been separated for 18 years.

However, there is no such opportunity at all.

Because, my father died of a limb infection long before my mother died.The so-called plot of my meeting with my mother after his death was all my wishful thinking.I thought he could wait for me, I thought he was tough enough to wait until I forgot my resentment towards him.However, I was wrong.My mother said that on the night my father passed away, she kept calling my name tremblingly. He said that the person he was most sorry for in his life was Jiang Sheng, his youngest daughter.

Before he was alive, I never called him dad.

Only today did I realize how much I miss him and how much I need him.

I still climb to the roof to look at the stars.

I imagined that Liang Sheng was at home, and he might climb up to the roof with braised pork at any time and call me, Jiang Sheng.Then watch me eat all the braised pork in my stomach like a kitten.Then, we watched the stars together on the roof and made a wish while watching the stars.

What kind of wish should I make?

I promise, Liang Sheng, you are not my brother.I started to cry, and I started to miss Liang Sheng.Six-year-old Liang Sheng walked into my yard like this, and he called me Jiang Sheng.I made faces at him, scaring him to tears.

On winter nights, I slept next to him, with my little black head leaning against his shoulder, and our little heads were so close to each other on winter nights, like two mushrooms growing tenaciously.

Cold raw ginger has never bloomed.

He once asked me, Jiang Sheng, do you know why it has not bloomed?I shake my head.He told me seriously, because it knew his secret, a secret that could never be revealed, such a sad secret.Therefore, it also learned to be sad, and bid farewell to the flowering period forever.

I didn't tell Liang Sheng that I stole the ten yuan from the class teacher in the first year of junior high school, and it was always in my pillow. I wished so much that I had the ability to let Liang Sheng participate in the spring outing.

Because, my unspeakable secret, like Liang Sheng's, is endless sadness.

(End of this chapter)