the time you love

Chapter 37 I'm going to grow old with you (2)
I slightly lowered my eyelashes, "Actually, you understand in your heart that because my father didn't respond to her love, she chose to die to get rid of it. Love is sometimes colder than death."

"Tourma, I have been blaming myself all these years, thinking that if I could have given her a hand, maybe she would not have died. Because of this mentality, while I hated myself, I also angered your father and you invisibly. "He stared at me and continued, "But there is no reason to speak of feelings, and there is no right or wrong, love is love, no matter your father's love for Enjie is from the relationship between a teacher and a student or a relationship between a man and a woman. Love, Enjie always loved your father, and she died in this love in the end, she chose this path herself, we are not the parties involved, so we cannot understand the pain."

"You are right, we are not the parties involved, and we cannot know the truth of the year. Even if we knew, we would not be able to truly understand the feelings of the parties involved. It is meaningless if we know the difficulties. I love my father deeply. He is what he is in my heart. I don't have to try to prove him to others. If I did, it would be a real insult to him. I don't need to prove anything to you, because never It may change the fact that Jiang Enjie committed suicide for my father."

"It's good if you can think so. The reason why you keep hiding it is because you are really afraid that you will get into a dead end when you find out." He smiled slowly, his eyebrows and eyes were all stretched out, and after many changes, he still looked at me with a hint of love. Pamper.

I looked at him greedily, thinking of the gloomy future, and the sadness in my heart overflowed.

He accompanied me upstairs to get the sample booklet. I didn't bring many things, so I found them out quickly.He was going to help me take it down to her, but I thought about calling him and went downstairs with him.

He went to the parking lot to pick up his car, and I stood by the flower garden waiting for him.

Suddenly someone pushed me from behind, I staggered, almost fell, turned around and saw a woman in a black sweater staring at me with a gloomy and cruel look in her eyes.

My heart skipped a beat, and I blurted out: "Are you Jiang Enai's mother?"

"Are you He Changqing's daughter?" She said quietly, her face somber, "Your father killed my daughter, and you took away the promise. Are you trying to kill my other daughter?"

I saw that her mood was very unstable, so I couldn't help feeling a little panicked. I turned my head and saw Zhou Nuoyan's car approaching from a distance, so I hurried over.Unexpectedly, her mother suddenly reached out and grabbed my hair, and dragged me to the next step.There is a landslide under the steps. I am afraid that I will fall, and I am also afraid that something will happen to her when she is old. I quickly grabbed her hand to stop her from pushing harder. I wanted to take her to a safe place, but she was like crazy. She put on a posture that she wanted to die with me, no, she was already crazy, and during the entanglement, I saw weird smile lines hanging on the corners of her mouth.

Zhou Nuoyan ran over from the car, quickly separated us, pulled me behind, and stood in the middle to block it.

I looked at him with lingering fear, and before he could ask, I took the initiative to say, "I'm fine, you..."

A white light flashed in front of my eyes, but before I could react, the light disappeared.Zhou Nuoyan took a step back and covered me with his body, which also blocked my sight. I couldn't see their movements, and I couldn't even see that crazy woman. A gust of cold wind blew over, and the tip of my nose was filled with the smell of blood.

Is...is anyone injured?

Those two people seemed to be still, and I came back to my senses in an instant. Just now, the white light just now was emitted by a sharp weapon!An ominous premonition welled up in my heart, and I stepped forward to check anxiously, my mind went blank for a moment——

She was holding a dagger in her hand, and the sharp blade completely sank into Zhou Nuoyan's body!
Her eyes gradually changed from dull to terrified. I knew something was wrong and tried to grab her hand, but it was a step too late. She pulled out the knife violently, and the bright red blood gushed out from the wound, splashing all over her.

She widened her eyes and saw that her hands were covered with blood, and suddenly her whole body trembled, and then she fell to the ground unconscious.

My heart was so cold that it was about to freeze, and I shivered involuntarily, but I hugged Zhou Nuoyan's limp body tightly, my hands trembled so badly that I could hardly hold the phone, and while pressing the emergency number with difficulty, , said in a trembling voice: "It's okay, you'll be fine, I promise you to hold on, I'll take you to the hospital..."

He seemed to be enduring great pain, and hooked the corners of his lips weakly, "I didn't expect this to happen, don't be afraid..."

The distant water cannot save the near fire. In my panic, I thought of He Amber outside, and called her cell phone for help: "Hurry up, drive the car in! Nuoyan is injured, take him to the hospital—"

The blood kept flowing, and the large patches of blood were shocking. I covered his wound with my hand, and the warm blood surged under my palm. I could feel his life passing by bit by bit.His face became paler and paler, his mouth kept bleeding, he was completely speechless, he just looked at me straight, and put his palm on the back of my wet and cold hand with difficulty.

I lowered my head and kept kissing him, trying to give him a little warmth.

How did it become like this?A quarter of an hour ago, he was standing in front of me perfectly, but in the blink of an eye, he was dying in my arms.

He Amber drove the car over, and the community security also arrived, and the two hurriedly helped me lift Zhou Nuoyan to the back seat.Along the way, I stared at the person in my arms intently, for fear that I might miss something in the blink of an eye.The situation was very bad, because of excessive blood loss, his face was as white as a piece of flimsy thin paper, his tiredness was getting stronger, his eyes closed slowly, and the last gleam of light was covered by long eyelashes, if it wasn't for the blood at the corner of his mouth and the past With a pale face, he is now as calm as if he is asleep.

I was terrified, and leaned into his ear and kept calling his name, "Nuoyan, don't sleep, don't sleep! Stay awake! Wake up! Look at me..."

He Amber looked at me from the rearview mirror and talked to me intermittently, her voice trembling in the wind like fallen leaves in autumn.

After sending Zhou Nuoyan to the emergency room, my mental and physical strength was stretched to the limit. With the sound of closing the door, my legs could no longer stand, and I fell to the ground with a loud crash.He Amber came to help me, trying to drag me up. I had no strength in my body, and my mind was almost unable to turn. I just stared stubbornly at the light that was on at the door of the operating room.

"Tourmaline, Tourmaline," He Amber looked at my lower body in panic, "You, you bled a lot..."

I've lost a lot of blood?I lowered my head in a daze, and a large amount of blood stains on my clothes came into view. It was the blood of the promise, it was all there.

"Tourmaline, what do you think? Hold on, I'll call the doctor—" She ran so hurriedly that she almost hit the wall.

I don't understand why she is so flustered, I have nothing to do, what is going on is the promise, he protected me with his body.

What did she call the doctor for?Isn't the promise already in the operating room?He's going to be all right, sure!Thinking in a daze, suddenly a sharp pain that seemed to penetrate my body hit me. I realized the source of the pain, and before I could feel anything, I lost consciousness.

I and the promised child failed to keep.

Lying on the operating table, waiting for the anesthetist to give me an injection, I was thinking in a daze, this child really has no destiny with us, I got him in a daze, and caught up with so many things happening, but I really want him At the beginning of the physical examination, Dr. Cheng reminded me that for a person like me with hypoglycemia and anemia, the pregnancy process will be very difficult, but even then, I never thought about not wanting him. He belongs to me and Nuoyan. There will never be any more.

But I can't keep it.

It was like having countless dreams. The moment I opened my eyes, all the images in the dream became blurred, leaving only the beating heart full of fear.After adapting to the light in the room, He Amber's bleak face immediately came into view. After a night without removing her makeup, her delicate makeup became dull.

"Are you awake?" She sat on the chair next to me and looked at me with no joy on her face.

I nodded and wanted to move, but my whole body was weak, as if I had fallen apart.

Guo Yi hurried in. He wanted to say something to Amber, but when he saw that I was awake, he swallowed back the words that came to his lips.

I slowly remembered everything that happened before I fell into a coma, and hurriedly stood up, "Guo Yi, promise, promise..."

He Amber held me down, "He's in a coma and hasn't woken up yet. You just had a dilatation and curettage operation. Stay at ease and don't move around."

"I'll go see him." I insisted, turning my gaze to Guo Yi behind her, "Let me see him!"

Guo Yi and He Hupo exchanged glances, He Hubo turned her head sideways, I couldn't see her face, but I could clearly see Guo Yi's expression of embarrassment.Fear began to overwhelm me again, I no longer consulted them, pushed He Amber's hand away, and was about to get out of bed by myself after throwing off the quilt.

He Amber still wanted to stop her, but Guo Yi stopped her with his eyes, and said to me: "Let me carry you there, his ward is a bit far away, if you don't mind."

"Thank you."

I really can't walk, every step is so difficult, my legs tremble involuntarily when they touch the ground.

He Amber picked up a coat and put it on me. I turned around and met her face at close range, and couldn't help being slightly startled, "Amber, have you ever cried?"

She responded with a straight face: "Who is crying? It's from staying up all night."

However, her eyes were obviously red and swollen.

Nuoyan was still in the intensive care unit, Guo Yi explained a few words to the nurse who took care of him, she nodded at me, and said in a low voice, "Don't take too long, just come out when you have a look." Then she turned and went out.

Guo Yi helped me sit down on the chair, "I'll wait for you outside, call me if you need anything."

I didn't bother to respond, and stared at the person on the hospital bed intently.

He Amber sighed and went out with Guo Yi.

The ward was very quiet, so quiet that one could clearly hear the soft sounds of instruments and infusions nearby.I stretched out my hand tremblingly, and the moment I touched his hand, tears welled up.His face was as pale as a thin sheet of paper, his fingers were cold, but there was a faint warmth coming from the depths.

He is alive, nothing is more important than that.

I held his hand in my palm, just like he used to hold my hand tightly. Unfortunately, my hands and feet were cold, but it didn't matter, I knew he could feel it.

"Promise, don't sleep for too long, you haven't taken me to that mysterious place yet," I smiled and dragged his hand, wiping away the tears on my face, "You said you want me to make up for your birthday, as long as you wake up Come on, I will promise you whatever you want me to do..."

"Promise, the child is gone. I don't know if it's a boy or a girl... People say that whether we are a husband and wife or a mother and child, it is the fate accumulated in the previous life. Maybe we have no fate with that child..."

"Promise, don't leave me. You know I'm confused and clueless, and I don't know how to take care of myself. I used to get into trouble every day when you watched me. If you dare not wake up quickly, I will make trouble every day. When the time comes How do you clean up the mess..." I threatened him while shivering.

"Promise, didn't you say that I would never have to experience the pain of being overwhelmed by death? Why don't you mean what you say?"

I called his name over and over again, and the little things he did for me over the years kept popping up in my mind-he took me back to his home and asked me to call him promise.I had my period for the first time, and I was wearing a white school uniform. I was afraid and hid in the bathroom at a loss. He went to buy me sanitary napkins. The next day there was a girl’s health care guide on my desk.I fell in love with him and he refused mercilessly.When I was admitted to university, he forced me to sign a cohabitation agreement. If I refused, he drove me away.He provided me with the best universities, never interfered with my major choice, and silently transferred money to my bank account, but never mentioned it.I couldn't get a degree certificate, so he endured the stomachache and ran to me to calm the turmoil for me...

He remained motionless, his breathing barely noticeable.I tremblingly put my hand on his heart, and the more I thought about it, the more frightened I became, so I bent down and listened to the beating there.

It was getting dark and the nurse sent me away.

I refuse to go, the promise has not yet woken up, I want to be by his side.I looked eagerly at Guo Yi, expecting him to use his privileges again, but he came to hold my hand and said, "I'll take you back to your room, you also need to rest."

"No, I'm fine, I'm going to watch him here."

"Promise to be taken care of by a nurse, I will also guard him, and I will notify you as soon as there is any situation."

I shook my head, no one wants me to go at this time.

Guo Yi looked back at He Amber, as if he was looking for support.

He Amber understood me, sighed, and said, "Forget it, let her stay here, I won't feel at ease if I don't see her personally."

"But her body..." Guo Yi was still hesitating.

I hastened to assure: "I'm fine, really!"

"Okay, but you have to promise me that if you feel a little uncomfortable, don't be brave and go back to your own ward immediately." Although he chose to compromise, his eyes were still full of worry.

"I promise you." I was afraid that he would go back on his word, so I tried to smile at him, expressing that I was really fine.

He Amber yawned listlessly, her beautiful big eyes were bloodshot at the moment.

"Amber, you go back, thank you this time." Having grown up so much, this is probably the first time I have sincerely thanked her.If she hadn't been by my side, it might have been difficult for me to survive until the moment when Nuoyan entered the operating room. At that time, the child was already showing signs of miscarriage. I was concerned about the safety of Nuoyan and completely ignored the source of my pain.

She didn't say a word, just glanced at me lightly, turned and walked away.

Looking at her back, I suddenly felt something.Over the years, no matter how indifferent or even indifferent we have been to each other, deep down we have always left a place for each other.I usually try to avoid seeing each other as much as possible, because I know that the needlepoint is right, and we will always break up in the end, but even so, she and I know in our hearts that in this world, there are only us, and our bodies flow the same. of blood.

Standing stubbornly by the hospital bed of the promise, the nurse looked at me with great compassion and said, "Mrs. Zhou, you can't do it like this. I haven't recovered yet. Miscarriage is not a trivial matter. If you don't take care of it well, you will be left behind." Root cause."

"When will he wake up?" I held Nuo Yan's still cold hand, but asked casually, I knew she couldn't give me the answer, not even the doctor, so how could she?Feeling that her gaze was always on me, I raised my head and smiled at her, "Don't worry about me, I have done too little for him, I just hope that the first person he sees when he wakes up is me."

The nurse smiled wordlessly and walked out lightly.

The first ray of sunlight shone into the hospital bed in the morning.

I opened my sore and dry eyes, and found that I was in my own ward, and I couldn't make it through last night.

The weather outside was fine, and there were a few snow-white pigeons parked on the lawn, fluttering their wings against the morning sun.

Slowly groping to Nuo Yan's ward, he was still in a deep sleep, except for his pale face, he didn't look like he had experienced life and death at all.I quietly accompanied him until Jiang Enai appeared in front of me.

She wasn't wearing a doctor's uniform, and her hair fell straight to her shoulders.

I didn't want to discuss anything with her in the ward, so I winked and signaled her to go out and talk.

It was still early, and there were not many people in the corridor. I held on to the wall to stop and go, and for a moment, a layer of cold sweat seemed to be steaming from the pores of my body.She stepped forward to help me, but I pushed her away with a cold face.She didn't say anything, stopped doing these unnecessary things, and just followed me silently.

"How is your mother?" Sitting on the lawn bench, I looked up at her.

Jiang Enai's spirit is not very good, there are two groups of faint black and blue under the eye sockets.She hesitated for a moment, then said: "I sent her to a mental hospital, Tourmaline, believe it or not, I really never thought that things would come to this point."

"What's the use of saying this now? The fact is that your mother stabbed promise, and he is still in a coma. Your mother wants to kill me to make you stay with promise. If it wasn't for what you said in front of her, how could she have Such an idea?"

(End of this chapter)