the time you love

Chapter 34 Despair is colder than winter (2)
I sneered: "If you dare to do it, you have to be brave. If you have any dissatisfaction, you can come at me and play this kind of sneaky trick behind your back. Do you think you can hit me like this? Jiang En'ai, you really don't deserve to wear this white coat. "

"You—" Jiang En'ai glared at me, her resentful eyes turned around my face, but turned on Zhou Nuoyan in the crowd, "Yes, I took it, but you came late, I already Throw it into the sea."

"What did you say?" I was startled and angry, "Say it again!"

"I said—I've thrown it into the sea—"

With a crisp sound of "snap", I slapped her.She didn't expect me to make a move suddenly, and she was stunned.

"He Bixi, how dare you hit me?" She came back to her senses, her shock and embarrassment overflowing her words, "I tell you, I lost it, and I put it under my feet and trampled it to pieces! If He Changqing I'm still alive, and I won't make him feel better."

I was a little dazed, "You know my dad?"

Jiang Enai laughed viciously, "If I hadn't seen the photo that day, I would never have dreamed that you were He Changqing's daughter, let alone that he died seven years ago. God knows."

I grabbed her shoulders so hard that my finger bones turned blue, "Speak clearly to me!"

She didn't resist, as if she didn't feel the pain at all, "I promised Zhou Nuoyan not to say anything, since you want to know so much, why not ask him yourself. He Bixi, the luckiest thing in your life is to have Zhou Nuoyan protecting you, If he didn't stop me, do you think you can still stand here safe and sound?"

It wasn't until this moment that I sensed the seriousness of the situation. This was no ordinary jealousy. Judging from her tone, it seemed that it was about to rise to her death or my death at any time. The worst thing was that the root of the hatred was not in me, but in me. My father who passed away many years ago!

When Zhou Nuoyan came to pull me, I subconsciously pushed him away.Jiang Enai glanced at him, let out a sharp smile, then turned and left.

"Tourmaline," he looked at me worriedly, his expression pale, "give me some time and listen to my explanation."

My heart was filled with great fear, and I couldn't help shivering.

While I was in a trance, he quickly dragged me into his office, and then locked the door behind closed doors.The patient hadn't passed the critical period yet, he couldn't leave the hospital, and even our conversation had to be cut short.

"Tourmaline——" He closed the curtains and was about to touch my shoulder with his hand.

I took a step back and stared at him, "Jiang Enai is my father's student?"

He shook his head, his deep voice was a little weak, "Perhaps you don't know, nine years ago your father was sent by the work unit to several colleges and universities in Xijiang City for academic exchanges, and one of the schools is near our medical school. You Dad was very famous, at that time many people in our hospital tried their best to go to listen to the lecture, including... Enjie."

I became squirmed, afraid to even think about what I might hear next.

He continued, "Enjie was very interested in your father's academic lecture, which happened to be the topic she took as an elective in that semester, so she went to listen to it for three days in a row. By the time I realized something was wrong, she was hopelessly in love with your father."

I almost bit my lower lip to bleed, took a deep breath, and asked lightly: "You mean, my father did develop a teacher-student relationship with a female student as rumored, and that female student is your former female student." Friend Jiang Enjie?"

"Yes." He avoided my sight, unwilling to look at me.

"Impossible!" I jumped up anxiously, completely furious, "My father can't do that kind of thing, he loves my mother so much, how could he get involved with Jiang Enjie? This must be a misunderstanding! You, you saw it with your own eyes. Now that she is with my dad? Did you see my dad accepting her with your own eyes? You are just hearsay, subjective! Arbitrary! Because your heart is biased towards Jiang Enjie, so you believe everything she says, I think this is her wishful thinking ..."

"Enough!" He growled, his eyes fell on my face sadly, "On Enjie's 19th birthday, your father promised to spend it with her, and I was standing beside Enjie, looking at her Talking happily to your dad, for that date, she tried her best to plan a lot of programs, but your dad missed the appointment. That night, Enjie drank a lot of wine, took the bottle and went to the roof of the teaching building to blow the air, She called my cell phone and told me how much she loves your dad. I admit that I was very jealous. I hung up her phone and refused to answer it. I received her text message soon. She begged me to go and accompany her, but I ignored it. … Do you know Tourmaline? One of the things I regret the most in my life is that I didn’t go to her right away that night. If I could let go of my grudges and talk to her, maybe she wouldn’t choose to jump from the twelfth floor go down..."

I leaned over and vomited uncontrollably, scratching my stomach.Zhou Nuoyan wanted to help me, I vomited and hid back, tears came out, my eyes were blurred, I was really in a mess.I was shocked by the cause of Jiang Enjie's death, and felt pain in my heart, but I am a cold person, and the pain was not due to others.

It took a while to calm down a little, but he didn't have the strength to stand up. He just looked up at him: "When did you know that I was He Changqing's daughter? Before you took me in?"

He couldn't help but hug me to the sofa next to him, rinse my mouth with mineral water, and said with a sad face: "Tourma, I hope you understand, maybe I was close to you on purpose, but that was seven years ago .”

"Seven years ago?" I repeated blankly, and laughed, "It turns out that you really arranged it on purpose."

I looked up at him as if I didn't recognize him.

"If it wasn't for Jiang En'ai, you plan to keep hiding it from me?"

"I don't want you to know," he admitted. "If I could, I hope you never know."

"If I had a choice, I would rather not know about it, but it's a pity that you haven't done enough. Can you tell me, why me? You obviously met Amber first."

In my conscience, He Amber is definitely more attractive than me. At that time, she was in the prime of her life, and anyone who saw her would be amazed. I stood with her as a foil. Wear a white T-shirt and suspender jeans at night.Furthermore, He Amber fell in love with him at first sight back then, and I couldn't figure out why Zhou Nuoyan had to settle for second best.

This time, he obviously hesitated for a while before he said: "Before Enjie died, he told me on the phone that your father missed the appointment because he was rushing back to celebrate your winning the first prize in the provincial mathematics competition... Your father often goes to Enjie Speaking of his two daughters, especially you, he said that you have many similarities with Enjie, so—"

He didn't go on, I sneered, and said, "So you are curious and want to see if you look like me, and because you think my father loves me more than Amber, so you gave up on Amber He and turned your target to me. "

He frowned and tried to explain: "Tourma, I admit that my motives were not pure when I took you in, but in fact I didn't know what I wanted to do. I didn't want to justify my behavior. I hate your father for indirectly harming you. Enjie died, but believe it or not, I never thought of venting my hatred on you."

"Maybe you haven't thought about it," the scenes of getting along with him in the past seven years, the endless quarrels, and the turnings of faces faster than turning the pages of books, I finally know why, "But, your subconscious You just had this idea, otherwise you wouldn’t have kept me by your side. You took me in, and seeing me, a fool, get stuck in it, you might have felt very proud at first, and torturing me would mean avenging Jiang Enjie, what a pity you Your heart is not ruthless enough, you shouldn’t be soft-hearted to me, once you have feelings for me, you will feel that you are ignoring the dead, you will suffer more than me, so your kindness to me is always capricious, hot and cold, If you stay away, in the end, you are torturing me as well as yourself, Zhou Nuoyan, I pity you."

"Tourmaline—" There was a hint of surprise on his heavy face.

Probably my overly calm reaction frightened him. God knows, I really wanted to be angry and explode, but the feeling of fatigue and nausea kept pestering me endlessly, making me feel light-headed and drowsy.I persisted for a while, but I couldn't resist the tiredness from my bones, my eyes instantly darkened, and then I didn't know anything.

Woke up again, lying on a hospital bed, and put on clean hospital clothes.The surroundings are white, with white walls, white curtains, white quilt sheets, and even the passing figures are white.

After getting used to the light, I fixed my eyes on the people around me, but it wasn't Zhou Nuoyan.

"Are you awake? How do you feel? What's wrong?" The nurse smiled amiably and leaned over to test the temperature of my forehead. "You have a fever, but I dare not give you an antipyretic injection. You are not in good health now. Afraid of affecting the fetus."

I was touched and said weakly: "The fetus..."

"Yes, you are pregnant, the baby is almost two months old..."

She thought I didn't know about it, and after she babbled on, my nerves clamored again, as if there was an awl in my mind that kept drilling deep.Not wanting to show it, I stared at the ceiling patiently.

Probably because she was used to the indifference of patients, she hurried out and came back again, and said, "Mrs. Zhou, get up and have some porridge. Doctor Zhou specially ordered it earlier."

"What about others?"

"Dr. Zhou is in the operating room. Yesterday there was a patient who didn't pass the critical period and was being rescued. If it doesn't work, there is no hope. Fortunately, I met Dr. Zhou, which is considered a great fortune among misfortunes. I have to change to another doctor. This situation has long since been left alone, but it is a pity that he cannot perform the operation himself, otherwise the chance of success will be greater... The most pitiful thing is the patient's family. The child's grandmother is almost 80 years old. Sending the black-haired person away, what a pity..." While expressing regret, she quickly put the porridge in a small bowl and brought it in front of me.

It's porridge with preserved egg and lean meat. I have no appetite. "Leave it alone, thank you."

The nurse smiled and said, "You don't have an appetite, do you? Eat a little, you are a healthy person."

I sat up and ate half a bowl, but as soon as she left, I rushed to the bathroom to vomit cleanly, squatting on the ground weakly, feeling uncomfortable all over my body, I don’t know if all pregnant women are like me Suffering, I suddenly thought of my mother, and couldn't help but feel sad.

At noon, Zhou Nuoyan came to see me.The nurse told him that I was taking a lunch break. In fact, I had already woken up, but I didn't know how to face him, so I just closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.

He dismissed the nurse and pulled up a chair beside my bed.

With my face turned away from him, he gently held my hand and rubbed it on his palm. His slightly cold fingers slid across my skin over and over again, as if speaking silently.I sensed that he was down, even sad, but I wasn't sure if it was me or something else.

I still don't understand this man.

"Tourmaline." He whispered my name.

I wanted to open my eyes, but after a second thought, I still didn't move.

"I know you're awake, and I know you don't want to talk to me." His voice was hoarse and tired.I waited for a while, and heard him say: "A patient passed away just now. It has only been more than a month since I took over this case until today. He is terminally ill, but he is only 14 years old. If he is treated early, his life will be saved." It won't be this short."

I slowly turned my head and met his deep black pupils, "I thought you were used to watching life and death."

He laughed at himself: "I thought so too."

What I want to say is not just this sentence, in fact, I want to say that you can't face the passing of life calmly because that life is too young, like a flower, it has withered before it blooms.

(End of this chapter)