the time you love

Chapter 33 Despair is colder than winter (1)
Zhou Nuoyan has great powers, and he completed the formalities for going abroad in just a few days.

We decided to leave early, firstly to avoid the world, and secondly because we were idle.I asked Ray for a long vacation, at first he refused to approve it, but after I told the truth, he let it go.

Arriving at the airport early in the morning, we didn't have much luggage, but there was a big box of presents, which Zhou Nuoyan took to check in, and I stood in the middle of the crowd waiting for him.Sometimes I’m just lucky that I’m just a model. When I’m working, I wear heavy makeup, and when I take off the makeup, I’m a different person. Unless I have particularly good eyesight, it’s not easy to be recognized.

An orange-red rubber ball rolled to my feet, and I bent down to pick it up. A tiger-headed boy next to the big pillar jumped towards me with a smile. He was only about four or five years old. His round face was like an apple, and he talked Milky voice.

I squatted on the ground and played with him for a while, and saw Zhou Nuoyan coming from a distance.After sending the child back to his parents, I went up to him and was about to talk when I heard his cell phone ring.

I'm almost sure that it was Jiang En'ai who called. This is a unique intuition of women. There is no need to infer the reason, but it is [-]% correct.That eye-catching red lipstick mark came to my mind again, and I suddenly realized a question, if I had never seen that shirt, would I still be so firm in defending Shen Su?

I didn't know what they were talking about, but I saw Zhou Nuoyan's face getting paler and more dignified, and finally I heard him say something like a closing statement: "I'll be there right away, you wait for me."

In an instant, my heart sank.

I don't know how I got on the plane in the end, I just remember that I had an argument with Zhou Nuoyan at the airport, he told me to go first, and he would go there after he finished the matter, I asked him if it was because of Jiang Enai, and he told me not to mess around Thinking, I asked him what happened, and if it was important, I would stay with him, but he flatly refused, as if it would be a kind of torture for him to stay a moment longer.

Suddenly I felt exhausted physically and mentally, and I began to wonder if it was meaningful to try so hard to recover?
When I arrived in Melbourne, my mother-in-law picked me up at the airport in person. She had agreed that the two of us would go together, but I came alone, but she didn't ask a single word. Obviously, Zhou Nuoyan had already explained it.

Facing my mother-in-law's ardent care, I had no choice but to force my smile.Probably to make up for me, she took good care of me. I only stayed here for a few days, but she took care of everything for me, from the food I liked to the decoration of the bedroom.Even with this kind of favor, I fell ill on my third day in Melbourne.

The symptoms I had in China before suddenly became serious, vomiting and diarrhea, and headache. I thought it was acclimatization, but I didn’t worry about it. His mother wanted to take me to the hospital, but I refused to go. I just wanted to sleep and slept day and night. .She seldom goes out for a walk during the day, and sits and chats with her mother-in-law in the small garden when she is awake. There is a private flower garden outside her house, and she spares time to take care of it every day. Sometimes she just moves the flower pots to the sun to dry. She was still having a great time.Once when I was watering the flowers in the garden, she looked at me and suddenly proposed to draw a portrait of me. I readily agreed. Later, she took the half-meter-wide oil painting to frame it and hung it on her desk. In the study.

Zhou Nuoyan didn't come over for a long time, didn't say the reason, and didn't even contact me. He didn't answer my call back, and when he took the initiative to call, I didn't want to answer it either.

His mother said all good things for him in front of me: "The promise must be tied down by work, it's okay, it's just a wedding, the form, let the trustworthy couple go back to China to see you next year, tourmaline, this person is usually a promise It's a bit serious, but he's wholeheartedly devoted to you, if there's any negligence, don't hold it in your heart, just tell him that it's too late for him to love you, how can he be willing to wrong you?"

Tears welled up in my eyes after hearing this, and it took me a long time to hold back, and whispered, "I know."

She sighed and patted my head, "You guys are too young, I think it's okay to quarrel, but it actually hurts the relationship. It's not easy for two people who love each other to be together. Once you quarrel, you should lose a little bit of emotion. In the end, the feelings will be gone, it depends on whether you are afraid or not!"

"Really...will you quarrel with the relationship?" I asked doubtfully, thinking that if this was the case, Zhou Nuoyan probably didn't love me anymore.

"Believe it or not?" She looked at me with a smile, her eyes full of kindness, "son, listen to me, if you have any unhappiness or dissatisfaction, tell them all, and talk openly with the promise. He pushed further and further away, how will you live in the future? Although you have known each other for many years, you have only been married for half a year, right?"

After dinner, I watched TV in the living room on the first floor. I calculated the time to call him, and he finally answered after it rang for a long time.

"Nuoyan, are you busy recently?" I tried to put my tone as softly as possible.

"Well, what's the matter?" He replied casually.

I bit my lip and said very spinelessly: "Well...it's nothing, I miss you."

He was silent for a while, and said, "How is your health? Mom said you are not in good spirits. You should pay more attention to rest. If you can't, go to the hospital."

"I'm fine, I've been much better these two days." After dawdling for a while, I stammered, "Nuo Yan, are you still blaming me for not coming over?"

"No, don't think about it."

"Then why don't you come? Didn't you agree before getting married that you would accompany me to Vienna? Can you come over? We will go to Vienna together after the wedding."

I suppressed my extreme anxiety and waited for a long time, then I heard him say slowly: "I'm sorry, I'm afraid I can't go with you."

Tears rolled in my eyes, "After all, you still refuse to forgive me."

He didn't speak, and he didn't even give me a single word.

"If I'm dying in Melbourne, will you come?"

He sighed slightly on the other end: "Fool, why do you curse yourself every time you are angry with me? Tourmaline, don't do this in the future, you will live a long life, even... I am not by your side."

An ominous premonition surged in my heart, and I regretted what I said was not dead.

"I'll take the plane back as soon as the wedding is over. Let's make it clear in person. If you want to divorce me, please say so in person." Before he could respond, I hung up and sat in front of the TV until late at night, with countless memories of the past The pictures came one after another, and the turbulent tide drowned me.After an unknown amount of time, I suddenly heard my mother-in-law calling me from upstairs, and I hurriedly answered loudly, stood up in panic and was about to go up, but suddenly my eyes went dark, I sat on the ground, and soon lost consciousness.

My mother-in-law called an ambulance to take me to the hospital. I woke up on the way, and my heart was terribly scared. I have never fainted for no reason when I grew up. I remember when I was in college, there was a boy in the next class who was as strong as The cow, fainted after a physical education class, was rushed to the hospital, and was diagnosed with brain cancer!
While trembling, I thought, don't let my crow's mouth catch me—Zhou Nuoyan, if I'm really dying, I don't care if you come or not!But you said I would live a long life...

My mother-in-law saw the panic in my heart and kept comforting me: "It's okay, it's okay, I'm going to the hospital soon..."

After a night of trembling in the ward, a serious female doctor came to announce the results——

Pregnant!
It was actually pregnant, and I was dumbfounded when I heard it.

When I got home, the first thing my mother-in-law wanted to do was to call Zhou Nuoyan. I stopped her lightly and asked her to keep the secret for me. I booked a ticket for the day after tomorrow and went back after watching the ceremony.

The mother-in-law smiled knowingly and said, "Understood, you want to surprise him."

I just smiled and said nothing, this is indeed a great surprise to me, I hope it is not a shock to him.

The long-distance flight made my body almost overwhelmed. The fetus is almost two months old. Because of a series of recent accidents, and my menstruation has never been allowed. The uterus is cold, and it will be difficult to conceive in the future, so even if the morning sickness is obvious, I don't think about it at all.

After getting off the plane, I took a taxi home and fell asleep all morning. When I woke up, Zhou Nuoyan hadn't come back, so I had to call his cell phone, but he didn't answer it.In a flash of inspiration, I ran to look through the calendar on his desk, and saw that he wrote the small words "Guiding the operation" next to today's date.So I went to their hospital just in time for the lunch break. Everyone in the department was gone, and Zhou Nuoyan was not there. There was an unopened bento on his desk, and a beautifully packaged cream cake with A card, I picked it up and looked at it, and my hands and feet were cold.

It is Zhou Nuoyan's handwriting, which reads: "Enai, thank you for your constant company and waiting during these days, when I was most flustered and helpless. Without you, I don't know what to do."

I couldn't help but silently read it a few times, and my eyes gradually blurred.

"what are you doing?"

Zhou Nuoyan appeared in front of me at some point, a trace of surprise flashed across his face, and...panic, especially when he saw the greeting card in my hand.

"You don't want to go to Melbourne, you can tell me frankly, I won't force you if you don't want to go with me, you know how guilty I am towards you, you haven't come here, I thought you really had some difficulties, but it turns out that you He deliberately pushed me away so that I could stay with Jiang En'ai!" I looked at this man, whom I loved deeply and was so obsessed with, he finally betrayed me.

The pupils of his eyes that looked at me were a little dim, dark, and I couldn't see clearly.

"I'm sorry." He simply said this without intending to explain anything.

I was trembling with anger, as if I had fallen into an ice cave, "You..."

"It's just as you imagined," he paused, looking away from me, "Some things can't be helped."

"What do you mean can't help it?" I was stimulated by this word, lost my mind in an instant, grabbed the folder on the table, and threw it at him, "Are you taking revenge on me? Because I helped Shen Su, you use Jiang Enai came to take revenge on me?"

He didn't dodge or dodge, and the loud noise caused people in the corridor outside to ask questions.Zhou Nuoyan went to close the door and said a few perfunctory words as if nothing had happened.

"It's not revenge, I just think that we are not suitable to be a couple, and our personalities are not suitable." He picked up the folder and put it on the desktop to organize it quickly.

I burst into tears: "You only found out today that we are not suitable? You should have known what kind of person I am seven years ago! Why did you propose to me in the first place? You couldn't help it?"

After tidying up, he put his hands in the pockets of his white coat, and suddenly smiled, "Well, to be honest, I married you because I was tired of the way we used to get along, endless quarrels would make people tired, I thought Marriage will change, but the result makes me very disappointed. Have you ever cared about this marriage? Before Christmas Eve, I told you not to meet Shen Su again. Did you listen? You never put Don't worry about my words, I fought with him on impulse, but I never thought that there would be such an end waiting for me, He Bixi, don't think that you are the victim, and I am too, I give up on this relationship, I don't want to continue, I want to leave as soon as possible, Enai is a good candidate."

"Shen Su's incident was my fault. I'm sorry for you, but how long have you been together? Before the press conference, I saw her lipstick marks on your clothes. No wonder you let her live in... "

"Lipstick marks?" He was slightly taken aback, but soon calmed down again, "Yes, I was shaken before that. If you hadn't framed me for drinking and fighting, I might not have made up my mind so quickly."

I bit my lower lip desperately, afraid that I would cry out.He didn't look at me, and stared at a certain corner of the room after he finished speaking, his face was gloomy, his expression was unpredictable, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

"That's enough, Tourmaline." After a long silence, he sat down on his seat and said lightly, "Even if I was wrong, and I moved on, I will find a lawyer to transfer the big house to your name." Next, I will give you a sum of money as compensation."

"I don't want it." I was disheartened, wiped away the tears on my cheeks, saw the ring I was wearing on my ring finger, took it off, and threw it into a glass of water next to it.

I decided to move out as soon as possible.

I don't want his money, I don't want his big house, I can't wait to give him back all the things he gave me in the past seven years, and leave him completely naked!

I went home to pack my things and planned to stay at Fang Wenlin's place for a few days.

It was past six o'clock in the evening, and I sat numbly on the ground, putting my clothes and important documents into the suitcase, when the phone rang, I checked the number and didn't want to answer it, I pressed it and continued to tidy up, opened the drawer of the bedside table, The only thing that belongs to me is the pocket watch, and I don't need anything else, but this must be taken away.

However, I rummaged through the entire drawer and couldn't find it.

I thought I was just throwing it away, but after thinking about it, I didn't touch it after being held in Jiang Enai's hand and looking at it that day.Reminiscent of her behavior that day, the more I think about it, the more suspicious she becomes, but I can't figure out what's the use of her asking for a broken pocket watch.Could it be because she knew what that pocket watch meant to me, so she deliberately took it away, trying to hit me with it?But why did she want to hit me?She took away the man I love the most, and then took away the things I cherished to show me?

This mystery has me on my toes.

I decided to ask her for clarification, hurried downstairs, and suddenly realized that I didn't know where to find someone, and she didn't answer her cell phone, so I had to call Guo Yi.

Guo Yi said: "Enai, she is observing a difficult operation in the hospital. By the way, Nuo Yan supervised it on the spot. He performed this kind of operation before. Now he is proud, and our dean personally invited him back. ... Hey, didn't you go to Melbourne? When did you come back?"

"Today." I hung up the line in a hurry, and immediately took a taxi to the hospital.

The operation was not over yet. I was sitting at the door of the operating room waiting for her.I kept silent, for fear that I would explode if I opened my mouth.

"Who is she?"

"I don't know, are you Koizumi's friend?"

"I haven't seen it before..."

I heard them whispering, Koizumi must be the person lying in it, his relatives all had tears in their eyes, and I was as cool as a ghost who came to kill me, disgusting.Time was slowly passing by, and there were endless sighs and cries around me. The old woman sitting next to me went from silently wiping her tears to bursting into tears.

I couldn't move my face, and my stiff expression loosened a bit. I turned my head to comfort her: "Don't worry too much, the operation is still in progress, and he will be fine."

"My grandson's life is not good. He was born with many disasters. It was hard to raise him. He just passed his 14th birthday yesterday. If he can't survive this time, I...I don't want to live anymore..." She was heartbroken .

Her family members gathered around to persuade her, probably her son, nephew and the like, tried to talk, but none of them could persuade her.

I consciously shrunk to the corner to stay, and my angry mood seemed to get better after being interrupted like this.Any disputes in the world are insignificant in front of life. I worry about mine, and they worry about theirs.

The operating light finally went out, the door was opened, and a group of nurses and doctors rushed out. Zhou Nuoyan walked at the back, lowering his head and explaining something to the people beside him.

I didn't go there, I hid in the corner and watched from a distance.

Jiang En'ai passed by me. She was talking to the people next to her and didn't notice my presence.

I reached out and grabbed her arm, and she was startled when she saw me chuckle.

"What are you doing?" she asked, and then sent her colleague to leave first.

"I have something to ask you."

She glanced back and said reluctantly, "Now? I have nothing to say to you."

I took a deep breath and said as calmly as possible: "I don't want to argue with you in the hospital, Jiang En'ai, let me ask you, why did you take my pocket watch away?"

"I do not know what you're talking about."

If her expression had matched it better, I would have thought I had misunderstood her, but she was clearly lying.

(End of this chapter)