Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 18 I finally have you (3)
Mi Yao's life seems listless, maybe it's a disease of wealth, many rich people are like this.I don't have the time or energy to be in a daze like her. It's not because I have a positive attitude towards life, but because I have to keep moving forward. I have to keep learning, working and earning money. Qian, I didn't take a breath until I met An He.Come to think of it, An He is half my savior.Why not say that he is a savior, because he is not free, he does not belong to me.This is a very sad thing, but what can I do? Who told me to fall in love with him in a daze, and force him to love me to the death? At most, An He would only look at me from a distance, and would not hug me, and she would not suffer so much later.I think I might have been a bad woman in my previous life, otherwise there wouldn't be so much suffering in this world.I don't know when the bitterness will come to an end, it is estimated that there is no hope.Fortunately, Anhe is here, I don't feel how bitter it is, love is sweet.

Anhe gave me two graduation gifts, a mobile phone and a necklace. The necklace is very beautiful. The moon-shaped pendant is inlaid with a large gemstone. It is crystal clear and emits a watery blue light. Soul.

Ann said the necklace is called "Moon Goddess", Sarah?Brightman has the title of "Goddess of Moonlight".For some reason, at that moment, I thought of her Gloomy Sunday, a song so melancholy that many people committed suicide.I want to tell Ann and Sarah?Brightman is also called "Moon Goddess", and the story about that song, in that tavern, two men love a woman, but their love ended in tragedy...

I swallowed the words, I don't believe that my love will be so miserable.

I smiled at Ann and said its name is really nice, like Sarah?Brightman's voice of nature.

An He put the necklace around my neck, held me in his arms, and said that I was his "Moon Goddess".

"Lady", the gloomy Gloomy Sunday.

I don't know why I just thought of Gloomy Sunday, Sarah?Brightman still has a lot of good songs, why did I only think of Gloomy Sunday at that moment.Later I realized that it was a hidden hint.

I told An He that I would wear it until I died. In fact, I did wear it all the time, whether I was with An He or not, whether he was alive or dead.

Despite thinking of Sarah?Brightman, I thought of Gloomy Sunday, but I still love "Luna" because it is indeed beautiful, dazzlingly beautiful, and it is the most precious gift I have ever received, not only because of the beautiful The gem, also because it contains An He's love for me, love is like moonlight, spotless.

I really want to embrace the moonlight and the love of peace.

Mi Yao saw "Goddess of Moonlight" and said it was really beautiful.I think she must know who sent it, I didn't tell her and she didn't ask.She is so touching, seems to know everything, but pretends to know nothing and just smiles at you.

Maybe she has already noticed the relationship between me and An He, but she just didn't point it out.Of course, I don't know how she perceives all this, but I understand that I can't continue to pretend in front of her.I feel a little sorry for her, she made me feel guilty about my relationship with Ann.Sometimes I wanted to tell her, but every time I opened my mouth, she changed the topic, she didn't seem to want to listen, or wanted to avoid it, she never asked me as bluntly as that time at school.The more she behaves like this, the more disturbed I feel, the more guilty I feel.

An He told me that there is no sin in loving each other sincerely.

Maybe it is so, I deceive myself to believe it, otherwise, what can I do?

It's funny to think about the two of us, he retreats when I advance, and I hesitate when he enters.

Advance and retreat together is the highest state.

It seems that we still have to practice. After 1000 years and 1 years of practice, we will share the same bed and be husband and wife in the next life and the next life.

Pang Xie and Qiqi invited me and An He to the suburbs for the weekend.

The resort is far away from the urban area, the air is fresh and clean, surrounded by mountains on three sides, and a lake on one side, with verdant trees, it is very quiet, and you can hear the calls of birds in the woods.We asked for a villa, the lawn around the villa is beautifully manicured, the villa is well-equipped, warm and comfortable.

There are many leisure items in the resort. An He likes to play tennis, but I have never played it before. An He then taught me how to hold the racket, how to serve, how to catch the ball... I was discouraged after playing for a while, because I played really well. It stinks, and I'm impatient, but An He ordered me not to give up, like a coach, I must learn, so I often fight with him in the future, so I had to learn from him with an aggrieved face.He kept muttering, but An He pretended not to hear, just laughed.

Pang Xie and Qiqi had a great time, Qiqi's laughter reached my ears from time to time, I couldn't help but think of "The Spatula", I felt a little unhappy in my heart, what a shrewd person An He is, he knows my thoughts like the palm of his hand, Say I am narrow-minded.

"Yes, I'm just narrow-minded. If I don't love you, I'm too lazy to be narrow-minded with you."

An He just laughed.

In the evening, An He and I went for a walk outside, the breeze blew gently, and the leaves made a rustling sound, like a lover's whispering.There is a bright moon in the sky, the moonlight is like water and sky, it is a beautiful night.

I followed him, stepping on his shadow.

An He suddenly turned around and looked at me, "What are you doing?"

"Step on your shadow."

"Why are you stepping on my shadow?"

"There is a TV saying that if you step on a person's shadow, you can remember that person forever."

An He then ran behind me and stepped on my shadow, and I ran behind him, and we stepped on each other's shadow.If you really step on a person's shadow, you can always remember him and keep him. I am willing to walk on An He's shadow forever, until the end of time.

Then we got to the lake and sat down on the stone steps.The moonlight sprinkled on the lake, sparkling, the wind blowing from the lake, mixed with a trace of water vapor, although a bit cold, but very refreshing.

Leaning on An He's shoulder, I looked at the lake full of moonlight and said, "Do you know, the first time I played the piano at your house, I was thinking, living in a house by the lake with my beloved, when there is a moon It must be a good feeling to play "Moondust" for him tonight."

"Then do you like my house?"

"do not like."

"Didn't my family give you that feeling? Why don't you like it?"

"Do you want to hear the truth or the lie?"

"Of course it's true."

"Although your house is big and beautiful, it doesn't feel like home, it's too depressing."

"That's right, it's the truth."

"Do you feel that way too?"

"Yes. In fact, I put a lot of thought into that house. I hope it will give me the feeling of home. I thought that there is a man, a woman, and a child in a house, which is a home, but it is not. It's just a house made of steel and concrete, not a home. I miss home like that song, when I'm tired, I think of it, but when I'm tired, I don't think of my house. Before I met you I often find places where there are few people to drink, and I will think of you after meeting you."

"Then you mean that I am your home?"

"What do you think?" An He smiled.

I laughed and didn't speak.

An He asked again: "Have you ever wondered where your home is?"

"No, it doesn't seem to have appeared yet."

"When you were tired, didn't you think of me?"

"I thought about it, but I didn't expect you to be my home."

"Do you know how the piggy died?"

"I hate it!" I thumped him, and dared to call me a pig.

"I didn't say you were a little pig, it was you who checked your seat."

I ignore him.

"I'll take you to a place in a few days, okay?"

"where?"

"It can't be said now, it's a secret."

"tell me."

"No."

"Tell me now!"

"no!"

I deliberately ignored him, he hugged me, pressing his warm and moist lips over, I was dizzy for a while.

The moonlight sprinkled on us quietly. At that moment, I really wanted to embrace the moonlight.

After a few days, An He really took me to a place - a residential area surrounded by mountains and rivers.

(End of this chapter)