I used to cry in the middle of the night, wanting to talk to you about life

Chapter 34 You Are My Drop of Sweat (3)
"Nonsense! Bah, bah, bah!" I hugged Xiaoyi tightly, "Don't think about it, there are many people who have undergone this operation, and they all live well. The doctor just scares you first, and writes himself off..."

Before I finished speaking, Xiaoyi suddenly burst into tears, "My lord, I'm so scared... I'm really scared..."

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The surgery was scheduled for the afternoon three days later, I thought, I must tell my second child about it.On the one hand, I was very worried that I would not be able to do it alone on the day of the operation. On the other hand, I still had the desire to show off subconsciously.Dude, look, Fang Peng, I am already from my father's generation.

I told my second child in the dormitory, and his first reaction was to scold: "You are too careless, he will marry in the future!"

"What do you mean?" I didn't expect the second child to say such a sentence, "She is my wife, she is now, and she will be in the future! We have all met our parents!"

"Okay, I wish you a happy life together, so what are you going to do?"

"We are having surgery this Friday afternoon, you come and help!"

"What about the rest?"

"Less less people know, just you and me."

"Are you kidding? Your wife had an abortion, so why are we the two of us doing it? If there is something to do, it will be convenient if there is no woman around!"

"Women... Who are you calling? I'm worried that they will speak out."

"It's also..." The second child pondered for a long time, "Why don't you call Zhang Qian, she and Ke Yiyi have such a good relationship, and they are in the same class. In the future, if you ask for leave for physical education, you will have to ask her for help!"

"Okay! The second master is still thoughtful." I threw a cigarette to the second child, "Hey, are you really a virgin, so experienced?"

"Get out!" The second child stood up, "Has any of your classmates ever had an abortion?"

"No……"

"I have it!" The second child lit the cigarette and took a deep breath, "I almost died there!"

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I didn't quite understand what the second child said. I didn't know how terrible abortion is until I experienced it myself.Now there are gynecological hospitals advertising painless abortion, saying that abortion is "like a beautiful dream", "Has it started? It's over", every time I see it, I want to smash the TV. The outrage over the ad is undiminished.That unwanted pregnancy almost killed Ko Yiyi.

"Koiyi! Where's Keiyi's family!"

The door of the operating room was suddenly opened, and a nurse came out pushing a stretcher bed, yelling loudly, and immediately, another stretcher bed waiting outside the door with an abortion woman lying on it was pushed in.

"Here!" I hurried over, only to see that Ke Yiyi was still unconscious, her hair was disheveled covering her face, her trousers were pulled down below her knees, and the quilt didn't completely cover her, and her buttocks and buttocks could be seen from the side. Legs, just exposed in front of so many men and women at the door of the operating room.All I could see was Xiaoyi's pale face, and I couldn't care less about the entanglement with the nurse, so I quickly took the stretcher and pulled the quilt to cover Xiaoyi's whole body. "Don't block the door, go to the ward!" The nurse said impatiently, "The family members call her name quickly, and wake her up within half an hour, otherwise there will be danger."

"Otherwise, there will be danger..." I just felt my brain explode with a buzzing sound. Is there danger?What danger?How come you never told me before?I stared at the nurse in a daze, and my second child slapped me hard, "Hurry up, go to the ward!" I regained my composure and pushed the stretcher bed to the postoperative observation ward with my second child. On the way, Zhang Qian tucked Xiaoyi's quilt tightly, for fear that she would disappear again.

The observation ward is very large, and there are several women who have had abortions and their family members staying there. They can see each other without covering up.Every time a new person came in, everyone in the room would stare, but no one spoke, with indifferent and complicated expressions.I picked Xiao Yi up from the stretcher and put him on the hospital bed. When I turned around, I saw a large piece of blood on the bed sheet of the stretcher, a very large piece, very dazzling.I just felt that my heart had been stabbed severely, and I was in pain and fear.I leaned closer to Xiaoyi's face, she was still in a deep coma, and some of the whites of her eyes were even rolled out.I stroked the hair in front of her to the side, and kissed her forehead deeply, "My wife...Xiaoyi...Xiaoyi..."

Xiaoyi didn't respond, her face was bloodless, and her breathing was light and shallow.The patrolling nurse came over to take a look, "How long has it been since you've been out?"

"More than ten minutes."

"no response?"

"Ok!"

"You can't shout like that, you have to call her name, and if you can't wake up, slap her in the face!"

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Coy!
Coy!
Coy!
Coy!
This is the only time in my life that I have called someone's name for 20 minutes in a row.

Every time I shouted, I stared at you, but your eyes were tightly closed, and there was no response, as if you were so disgusted with me that you didn't even want to answer.

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Xiaoyi herself didn't know all of this.

I didn't tell her, let alone my second child. Although Zhang Qian and her lived in the same dormitory, they never talked about it. Everyone who knew about it kept a tacit understanding, that is, Let this be over once and for all.

For a long time, Xiaoyi's health was very poor, especially she had to take physical education classes and final physical examinations.I tried my best to nourish Xiaoyi's body. For example, I would buy a black-bone chicken every three and five, throw it in the rice cooker, put dates and longan on it, and stew it all afternoon. When it was time for Xiaoyi to drink , only the thick chicken soup, almost no meat can be seen.Xiao Yi likes to drink this kind of chicken soup, because she thinks I invented it for her.In the one or two months after the operation, she became extremely attached to me. She only felt that I was considerate, gentle and responsible.And my purpose of doing all this is to make up for my guilt besides feeling for Xiaoyi.I started to have nightmares from time to time, thinking about things I didn't have.For example, I was even thinking, what would happen if Xiaoyi and I didn't get together in the end?
Xiao Yi didn't have time to think about this, she was preparing for the postgraduate exam while resting her body.This semester, we just passed by with our own minds.

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The last semester of senior year cannot be called a "semester" at all.

The school hardly arranges any classes, and even if there are classes, almost no one attends them. Those who are doing internships are doing internships, and those who are looking for jobs are looking for jobs.Because we really ran out of money, Xiao Yi and I didn't rent a house this semester, and we both lived in our dormitories separately. It was like a reincarnation. In the last semester of my senior year, I returned to the state of the first semester of my freshman year.It's just that I don't have any expectations for university life. Whether it's in school or in the dormitory area, the most common thing I do is to stare outside with a cigarette in my mouth, watching those freshmen, sophomores, and juniors. , see them carrying schoolbags, see them holding small hands, see them pushing and shoving, watching them laughing, watching them fight, watching them buy fruit, rent books, turn on the water, and line up to take a bath. One-third of a certain day, the passion was burning, and I seemed to be an outsider, completely withdrawing myself, out of tune with them, and spending the last half of my life wandering around alone.

I go to the TV station three days a week. In fact, since the end of last semester, I no longer have to read letters from readers. Every day Xu Ke will arrange for me to write some speeches for the host, and I will hand them over to him for reading. It's just background introductions of some popular songs, it's not difficult to write as long as you're being silly.Xu Ke is very satisfied with my manuscripts, and usually it can be recorded with simple corrections, so he began to assign me more and more important manuscripts to write, and gradually began to teach me some technical knowledge that I should know as a director, in his words Said, "Fang Peng can already be used as a director."The change brought about by this sentence is that sister Wang Ping is paying more and more attention to me. After I completed the first draft of a fan club script by myself, she even talked to me about working after graduation.

"Fang Peng, after you graduate, would you like to stay and work in Taiwan?"

In the eyes of laymen, this is impossible. After all, TV director is still a pretty decent job, let alone Hunan TV, which is in the limelight.A student majoring in foreign affairs has only been an intern in the program group for half a year, so how could he just stay there.But in fact, in the years of rapid expansion of Mango Station, this is nothing new.Originally, the threshold for doing variety shows is low. As long as the brain is active, technical secondary school students may not be worse than graduate students, and often even dozens of times better.What's more, the employment mechanism of TV stations is divided into many grades. The best is to have a staff, almost no staff but to sign a contract with the main station, called Taiwan hire, and even less to sign a contract with the channel, called channel hire, The third point is to sign a contract with the program group, which is called group employment, and the last one is a temporary worker, who has no contract at all.One grade and one heaven, the difference in income and treatment is huge.

But at the time, I didn't know anything about these inside stories. In my mind, this was what Hunan TV wanted me to do.OK!
Xiaoyi promised me to stay and work in Changsha, with mixed feelings.

What is worrying is that Xiao Yi is not planning to work in Changsha, she still wants to go back to Beijing, or she also thought about going to Nanjing with me, but this idea is just her own thinking, and she has not communicated with her mother. "Grandpa, what if my mother refuses to allow me to go to Nanjing?" Xiao Yi asked me this question more than once. "Then I will go to Beijing with you!" I always answer her like this.In fact, this idea is just my own thinking, I have not communicated with my parents.

Fortunately, although the results of the postgraduate written examination have not yet come down, Xiaoyi feels that she has done well in the examination, and the possibility of continuing to study in this school is almost ten, and now I have found a job in Changsha, at least In the foreseeable two years, our living conditions will not change much.What I am best at is to take one step at a time and see one step at a time. If I am still confused today, how can I think about the future?Although Xiaoyi thought more about it than I did, the blueprint for the two of them is futile if one thinks about it alone, so I can only live with my eyes closed like this.So in the second semester of our senior year, Ke Yiyi and I kept our usual distance and rhythm, and we didn’t need to be busy doing internships, looking for a job, or breaking up like others.By the way, Brother Bao and Xu Xu are busy breaking up. Brother Bao is still in love, and Xu Xu is entangled in gains and losses.In fact, the two of them knew this result very well, but they had a showdown too early. They often met in this small campus, and Xu Xu sent text messages to Brother Bao every few days, saying something like "what if we "Will it be so?", it tortured Brother Bao's heart to such an extent that he often called us out to drink with tears at two or three o'clock in the middle of the night.

The latest worry about the second son is his job. The father of the second son still has some energy. Not only did he find a job for him, but he found two jobs. One went to the Industrial and Commercial Bureau, and the other went to the power company. Matching, but they are all bubbling and rich, which makes the second child very entangled.Xu Ning, on the other hand, is smart and has good grades, but his family background is not enough to arrange him a job that will satisfy him, so he made dozens of resumes and went to various presentations and job fairs all day in a suit. , I haven't seen him much since the beginning of the year.

Like Xu Ning, there is Xiao Ma from an ordinary family background, but he managed to pass the re-examination for recruitment by a bank.Speaking of the content of the re-examination, it is really ridiculous. The HR of the bank set up two tables of banquets in the "Haodu" Food City in our back street, and then put a circle of small wine glasses. The students entering the re-examination, regardless of gender, have one. HR personally filled all the wine glasses with white wine, "Everyone is free to drink, drink as much as you can, don't be brave if you can't drink, come on, everyone cheers." HR drank it all down, Xiao Ma and a dozen other students raised their wine glasses, or Quickly or slowly drank the white wine in the glass.After drinking, the HR personally refilled all the wine glasses, "Drink if you can, don't force yourself if you can't..." In this way, round after round, some people put down their glasses and stopped drinking. After more than twenty rounds, there were still three people left, including a girl.Although Xiao Ma is the captain and the main defender of our college football team, he may not be able to drink all the energy. Xiao Ma only drinks beer in a bottle, and he doesn't even touch liquor, but he insisted on drinking for five days. Wheel, came back vomiting and pulling, sick for more than a week.Although the HR of that bank never said the words "If you can drink, you will be admitted", in the end, Xiao Ma was still rejected, and the drink was quite wronged. ...By the way, when it comes to ponies, I have to mention Han Peng, the basketball sports student in my class.He also applied for a bank. When the bank boss saw this tall man who was nearly two meters tall, he asked, "Do you play basketball?" Han Peng replied yes, and he had played CUBA.So the boss of the company didn't even read Han Peng's resume, and decided to sign him at that time.Han Peng, the sports student who loves to study the most, finally found a pretty good job because he can play basketball. … After hearing about this incident, Xiao Ma, the captain of the football team of the School of Finance on the hospital bed, let out a long sigh, and shouted the words he often shouted: "Chinese football, no! Play! La!"

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Because there must be an internship appraisal, I went back to Huai'an again. It just so happened that I had decided to work in Hunan TV, so I had to inform my family anyway.I chose an auspicious day when Director Fang seemed to be in a good mood, and formally showed my cards to my family: "I want to work in Hunan TV, and I have already promised him."

I put forward three reasons: 1. I really like doing TV; 2. Hunan TV has a promising future and can earn a lot of money from doing TV; 3. Ke Yiyi is also studying in Changsha.

My dad only said three words: 1. No; 2. Yes; 3. Can.

My dad's refusal to accept it was completely within my expectations. I have already thought of at least five ways to resist, from presenting the facts to reasoning, to crying, making trouble, and hanging myself.My most satisfying way to resist is "cooking raw rice into cooked rice". Anyway, the ID card and the tripartite agreement are in my own hands.So next, I had a small quarrel with my dad, then slammed the door and walked away. I went online all night, and my mother blew up my phone and I didn't answer it.I mainly want to convey a message that when the child grows up, some decisions should be made by the child himself.

But to say that Jiang is still old and hot, my dad is the real "unconventional path". The day after he said "impossible", he came to "take the bottom line".Director Fang found the office phone number of our program group through 114, and a call was made, and he was about to talk to the producer directly.Unfortunately, the person who answered the phone that day happened to be Sister Wang Ping herself. My father said to Sister Wang Ping righteously: "I am Fang Peng's father. Let me tell you, it is impossible for our family to let Fang Peng work in your TV station." To ensure the effectiveness of these words, my dad also severely scolded Wang Ping, saying that she lied to me and wanted to ruin my future.

God!My dad is a highly educated state cadre!How can you do that!
I was still in the Internet cafe, and I received a call from Xu Ke from Changsha, telling me about my dad calling Sister Wang Ping, and telling me the attitude of the program group—respect the parents’ opinions, we don’t want you anymore.The nightmare of four years ago reappeared again. My dad once again crushed my dreams and cut off the path I wanted to go. I thought I had grown up and become independent in the past four years. In fact, nothing had changed. I still Or the monkey grandson at the foot of Wuzhi Mountain.

(End of this chapter)