I used to cry in the middle of the night, wanting to talk to you about life

Chapter 33 You Are My Drop of Sweat (2)
"Oh, I've seen it, you've been helping us organize the audience." Sister Wang Ping said kindly, "What did you learn?"

"I study finance." Although I don't like my major very much, I am still very proud when I talk about it.

"Study finance, the major is very good, why do you want to do TV?"

"I like this job." I seriously told Wang Ping the story of how I wanted to be admitted to Nortel and how I was hacked by my dad. , I am still a member of the Music Association, I have also written songs, I am also on the BBS, and I serialized novels on the Cold Wave forum, and the number of hits has already been several thousand."

"Well, not bad, you little wit."

"Where where."

"Ok?"

"Where is it?" I was in those days, and I would be embarrassed if I was given a little sunshine.

8
Sister Wang Ping assigned me to a choreographer named Xu Ke.Xu Ke, from Shanghai, has been in Changsha for many years, and he speaks fluent Shanghai dialect and Changsha dialect. I can’t understand the two dialects too quickly. When I organize audiences for this program, I often watch him call. I could hear what he was saying, so among all the directors, he was the one who gave me the greatest sense of distance.But one thing I know is that he is a very good director, capable and thoughtful, and has done many influential big shows. It is my blessing that the leader assigns me to him.

But for Xu Ke, assigning him an inexperienced intern has nothing to do with luck.Xu Ke has a bit of a cleanliness habit. He always cleans up the desk by himself, unlike other directors who can send interns to take out the trash and wipe the table.Xu Ke scratched his head and scratched his head for a long time, and finally figured out a job for me to pass the time-read letters from the audience. In 2003, it was not too early. Computers and the Internet were relatively popular, but at that time, many TV viewers in China were still willing to write letters to the TV station's column team.Xu Ke gave me a cardboard box full of hundreds of letters from the audience, which is only half a month's worth.

The letters from the audience were hardly read. On the one hand, it was because the program team was short of manpower, and on the other hand, most of these letters were not worth reading.After reading more than 1000 audience letters, I basically divided these letters into three categories:
The first category reflects social problems, who is corrupt, and who is corrupt. If you send this kind of report letter to the entertainment program team, you will either go to the doctor in a hurry, or you will not understand the situation at all.This kind of letter, you can just throw it away after reading the beginning, no one will care about it anyway.

The second category is to express love or dislike for the program group.This kind of letter can be thrown away at the beginning, because whether it is like or hate, it is either a "brain fan" or a "brain black", and never makes any substantive opinions.

The third type of letter is to be forwarded to Xu Ke and circulated in the program group. This type of letter is called "wonderful work". One or two out of 100 are rare and interesting articles.For example, an uncle from Xiangxi once wrote a 20-page love letter to our hostess. In the letter, he affectionately referred to the hostess as "Second Aunt", while another actress from our station, It is his "principal house".This Xiangxi uncle described the details of the jealousy between the two wives with his godlike imagination, and assured the "second concubine" that although he gave the title of principal house to others, his favorite But it's still her. I hope our hostess can relax a bit and focus on the overall situation... This letter was circulated in the program group, and the 20 bad-quality letter papers were almost torn to pieces.

This is my daily job, digging out some ridiculous things from the pile of letters for the amusement of the old people in the office.This job was meaningless, but I didn't take it seriously at the time, and I was even quite proud. It was a sense of status and intellectual superiority, and a sense of vanity brought about by this profession.For this worthless thing, I got up early every day, took the bus for more than an hour, rushed from the university town to the radio and television center, and sat on that creaky wooden chair for eight hours.Every day when I go back to the rental house, I am full of dust and exhaustion, Xiaoyi will help me squeeze my shoulders very intimately, and then listen to me about the excellent audience letters I read today.I feel like we are like a young couple in society, living from nine to five.

9
Tell me about Xiaoyi's pregnancy.

That was when the autumn tiger was about to pass and the sky was almost cold.One night, I was surfing the Internet alone in the "Xueyou" Internet cafe, playing a boring game called BNB, and manipulating the little mushroom man named "Xi Diu Diu" to run around the world.Suddenly the phone rang, and on the other end of the phone was classmate Ke Yiyi's crying coquettish voice: "Grandpa... I... I have..."

At that time, I was having a good time with a cigarette in my mouth. The round was not over, and my mind was not on the phone, "What's the matter?"

"I have it... I have it... My husband..."

"what happened?"

"I am pregnant……"

"Ah?" I opened my mouth, half of the cigarette in my mouth fell on my lap, I quickly brushed off the ash, put down the mouse and held the phone, "What?"

"My lord, I'm pregnant..."

"Where are you?"

"I'm at home."

"You wait, I'll be back right away." I hung up the phone, forcibly quit the game, paid the bill and went out, happily rushing back, three big words emerged in my heart - "Happy! Be! Dad!"

Now, any college student with a normal mind would probably not be able to welcome his girlfriend's unexpected pregnancy with joy.But let me tell you, my mind was dry and dry, because at that time, I had no idea what an unwanted pregnancy meant.

Let me start from the beginning... For those of us who were born in the early 20s, we were not taught growing up that things like going in circles between men and women.When we first opened our minds, we asked our parents "Where did I come from", and most of the answers were "I picked it up". This answer has nothing to do with the cultural level of the parents. For example, my second uncle is a A former cultural youth who wrote novels of 80 to 40 words, so when he answered my cousin Fang Xiaoke's question, he described it in great detail. In order to increase the credibility, he also made up a fictional character in a rough old padded jacket to pick up waste, saying that she might be Fang Xiaoke's biological mother.As a result, Fang Xiaoke was convinced of his own origin. When he was in the top class of kindergarten, he slipped out of school and ran away from home to find his biological parents.Our family searched all night before we picked up my younger brother who was suffering from hunger and cold by the side of the road.For this incident, my kind second aunt slapped my second uncle in front of my grandparents.

Parents don't teach, and teachers don't teach.At an age when our bodies were almost mature, the Ministry of Education felt that we should have a proper understanding of some issues related to childbearing, so a chapter of related courses was arranged and included in the "Biology" textbook.In my concept, biology class is a class that teaches us to dissect frogs, mussels, snakes, and rabbits. Why should we learn about our lower body in this class?But even so, we still have great expectations for this chapter, and we have been waiting and looking forward to it since the beginning of the semester.Finally, the day came when the teacher divided us into two according to gender, and all the girls were taken to another classroom. Then, only thirty or so disappointed boys were left in the classroom, facing a huge penis and testicles. Anatomical diagrams stare.I basically didn't learn anything in that class, because the teacher only taught boys to understand boys and girls to understand girls. I needed the teacher to tell me that the one between the boys' legs is not called "cock", but called "cock". "Penis"?What does this mean to me?So much so that when I watched porn for the first time in college, I didn't even understand it!My biology teacher, don't you think you have a problem with my education?
All my sexual experience is self-taught by "animal instinct" and "AV viewing". I believe that there are not a few people with the same educational background as me. Otherwise, why does Sora Aoi have millions of fans in China?But even though Teacher Cang is good in everything, she still has a shortcoming. She never taught us how to prevent pregnancy.I have always felt that if one day I get rich, I must invest in the filming of "Sora Aoi Teacher Teaches Contraception". This is definitely an immeasurable merit.Because at that time, our understanding of contraception was not much better than that of primitive people. It was basically some methods similar to old Chinese medicine passed down by word of mouth, such as peeing, taking a bath and soaping after sex, or squatting after sex. 15 minutes, of course, more people who don't like condoms choose in vitro or rhythm contraception.At the age of 30, I can tell readers with certainty that these two items are unreliable. How can you not get your shoes wet when you often walk by the river, and you have scratched too much lottery tickets.

When it comes to condoms, I especially want to say a few words. Now there are condom vending machines on the streets and even on university campuses.I don’t know how many of you have bought it. Anyway, my second child and I lost a bet. In broad daylight, under the watchful eyes of everyone, we bought a condom by tossing coins in a vending machine.When I got closer, I realized that the vending machines are divided into grades, with a difference of three yuan, two yuan and one yuan.I lost a bet anyway, and I didn't want to use it for myself, so I bought the cheapest one.As a result, by coincidence, the condom at home happened to be used up that night, so I turned the condom out.Guess what?Not to mention that it is so thick that it can catch up with the plastic cover of the textbook, let alone its length, it can't even wrap my thumb!This is called a condom?Ah, it's not as good as plastic wrap!

The brand of condoms sold in the pharmacy in front of the school is called "Daguanren". Although this brand does not seem to be for serious people, it is indeed of high quality and low price, and is suitable for students.Although Jissbon and Durex are better in quality and have different colors and tastes, they are too expensive. Even a family pack costs a few yuan each. As I said before, we are in a fast food restaurant outside the school, three yuan If you have enough money, you can eat well for four yuan, and if you spend five yuan, you can improve the food.Consider the financial and physical resources of college students, and with those designer condoms, many would soon be unable to afford food.Only when you are full and warm can you think about lust, because certain physiological needs affect your own food and clothing, which is definitely not a wise move.

In fact, Xiaoyi and I have always taken security measures, but as a sensual Pisces man, there will be sudden romantic impulses from time to time, and we will lose our belongings and go into battle with our bare hands.In such a situation, Xiaoyi would say that this is not good, but that is all it is, boys with congested cavernous bodies are like mad dogs, who cares if they don't wear a chew when they jump out.

10
The following night may serve as absurd specimens of couples who had unwanted pregnancies in that era.

I unscrewed the lock and entered the door. There were tears on Xiao Yi's face, but she couldn't tell whether she was crying or laughing. When she saw me, she jumped into my arms and took out the "two bars" pregnancy test paper for her. I looked, "Grandpa, what should I do?"

I hugged Xiaoyi tightly in my arms, and said with a smile, "Oh, you said I was going to be a father, right, Mama Ke?"

"Hmph, I hate it! . . . It's not the time yet."

"Then I'll take you to the hospital tomorrow."

"Ah."

Although neither of us said it, "going to the hospital" for me and Ke Yiyi meant "abortion" by default.Neither she nor I had the intention of giving birth to this child, not even the slightest thought of it. For us, "unintended pregnancy" can be abbreviated as "accident" instead of "pregnancy". I had a child when I was four.So when this "accident" happened, we subconsciously made a decision to get rid of this child... Of course, we didn't think it was a child in our hearts, it was just a mistake we needed to correct, a need to stop Bad things that might affect our future.

In the evening, we climbed into bed early, and Xiaoyi was sitting against the head of the bed. I reached out and removed the towel covering her stomach, imitating the appearance on TV, and put my head sideways on her belly, seriously Really listen to what's going on inside.

"Is there any movement?"

"Have."

"what sound?"

"Gulu Guru Guru Guru... Mom, are you hungry?"

"I hate it!" Xiao Yi patted my head, "Grandpa, you must stop wearing a condom from now on."

"Understood, we won't wear it until we get married!"

"Yeah!" Xiao Yi smiled happily and soon fell asleep. I just fell asleep on Xiao Yi's stomach as a pillow.When I woke up in the morning, I felt blood in my mouth. It turned out that when I was dreaming yesterday, a back molar was cracked and a piece fell out.

Thinking about it now, this scene is extremely terrifying.Xiaoyi and I have already decided to abort this child, but the night before going to the hospital, we were like a sweet couple expecting a baby, trying hard to experience this little life.

11
Early the next morning, Xiao Yi and I changed into clean clothes and dressed up before going out.We first ate a bowl of beef noodles at "Weijun" fast food, then held hands, took a taxi, and happily went to the Armed Police Hospital for an examination.The reason why we took Xiaoyi to the Armed Police Hospital had nothing to do with not being able to trust the medical skills of the school hospital. All our scruples about unwanted pregnancy were that we should not let others know about it. We must keep this matter absolutely secret!

When I arrived at the hospital, I registered, waited in line, and took blood tests.The test results proved that the test strips bought by Xiao Yi were not counterfeit products, and she was really pregnant.After getting the confirmed result, we split into two groups. Xiao Yi was led by a nurse in pink uniform into the outpatient room of the obstetrics and gynecology department.I couldn't get in anyway, so I went to the door and called home to ask for money.Although I am doing an internship in a TV station now, there is no labor fee. Most of the savings I left from organizing audiences and the living expenses that Xiaoyi and I got are used to pay the rent for this semester. All the money on us plus It's less than 500 yuan together.Xiaoyi's surgery fee can only be counted on my parents who are far away in Huai'an.Although my parents have already recognized Ke Yiyi as their daughter-in-law, but after all, she was "conceived before marriage" and she was in college. I don't know whether they can accept it.But the matter has come to this point, even if you are scolded, you have to reach out.I tremblingly dialed the home phone.Unfortunately, the person who answered the phone turned out to be my dad. If it was my mom, I could still act like a baby, but my dad doesn't like this at all. Whether I can pass the test can only be left to fate, "Hey, Dad, I have something to tell you ..."

"what's up?"

"Koyi...is sick."

I'm really talented. What's commendable is that my dad understood me when I said "unintended pregnancy" so euphemistically. It didn't sound like he was angry, and his attitude was very gentle. "Then what are you going to do?"

"We're in the hospital right now, preparing...for surgery."

"You need money, don't you?"

"Um……"

"I'll ask your mother to pay 2000 yuan this afternoon. You take good care of Xiao Yi!"

"Okay, thank you Dad!" After hanging up the phone, my hands were still trembling involuntarily. This was the biggest provocation to my dad in my life. I really couldn't understand how he reacted so happily.

Back in the waiting area, not long after, Xiao Yi came out of the outpatient room, and I hurried up to greet her, "How is it?"

Xiao Yi bit her lip, her face was ugly, "My lord, why do I feel so scared..."

"What are you afraid of? What's wrong with you?" I put my hands on Xiao Yi's back, bent down to look at her face, "Why are you suddenly scared?"

Xiao Yi raised her head and stared at me with tears in her eyes, "My lord, just now the doctor said a lot about the dangers of surgery, I was so scared! My lord, do you think I will die?"

(End of this chapter)