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Chapter 162

"That's right!"

The third uncle nodded, "I couldn't figure this out before, I couldn't ask the dead ghost, and then I thought about it, maybe there were a lot of people brought by Xiaolian at that time, and they were all full of yang. Ying Ming has arrived, although this reason is untenable, but I can only think so, but today I can be sure that it is the reason of Lian Jun, as long as he is here! It will have the effect of warding off evil spirits!"

To ward off evil spirits——

It seems to be Pi!

Thinking of getting into the elevator with him in the shopping mall that day, the dangling pair of feet disappeared!
At that time, I joked that he had the potential to ward off evil spirits...

"Third Uncle, then you say..."

Things quickly surged in my mind, "If, when our husband is doing the practice, Lian Jun arrives today, the door will be broken immediately!"

I have always kept this matter in my heart, even the time Grandpa Jean Lian opened his eyes, it was the first time I messed with it, and it broke too fast!

Many evil-eliminating formations use poison to fight poison, and evil to control evil. Take the earth fairy on the horse as an example. All animals have attained the Tao. Before things are done, they can make trouble. Immortal names, and these, in the eyes of Tianyi Xing, all conflict with the innate nobility of Xingxiu, and they will definitely overcome each other!

"Yes."

I thought to myself, sure enough!

"However, there is also a reason for this, sir..."

The third uncle continued, "Mr. is weak and can't hold back the battle. Naturally, he will be broken by the nobility of the heavenly doctor star. If the sir is extremely capable and has a keen sense, it can also be a good defense, but that kind of There are very few sirs. Your third uncle and I can’t do that. The safest thing is to avoid... Eh? , then it is Lian Jun who came back?"

"……Um."

I nodded stiffly, I understood!
Looking at the black sheepskin glove in his hand, "That time, as soon as he and his aunt came in, the door of my back room was broken... The red thread broke immediately, and soon, I didn't even have to react..."

But yes, I'm not capable.

The grandma said that underage, weak bones, tired even when starting a battle, how to hold back the battle!

"So, it's clear."

The third uncle sighed, "Girl, Aunt Hei and I will not stop your affairs. I can see that you don't like Lian Jun in general. Uncle also thinks that he is a character. It's a little too much for your father and aunt, but if I saw it at the time... I couldn't control it! This shows that he puts you in his heart and got angry. He himself said that it was indeed..."

"Uncle Three!"

I interrupted him anxiously, "What's the accident you said, let's forget about me first, will I be able to overcome Lian Jun?"

Don't let him be unlucky because of me!
"meeting!"

The third uncle nodded, "Pojun and Tianyi are both evil and expensive. Naturally, water and fire are incompatible. When two two meet, there must be damage. Tianyi will be the first to cause accidents, but because the main star is a doctor, most of them will turn the crisis into safety."

Save yourself!
"What about after that?"

I followed up and asked, "What will happen in the future? Will this kind of accident happen again? He had a serious car accident last time!"

Just send me back, riding that unlucky motorcycle, and disappeared for more than a month when I looked back!
"I don't know..."

The third uncle looked at me with a complicated expression, "Girl, in short, it is certain that you will stumble... Now I can be sure that this Lian Jun is someone who is very important to you."

"..."

I was a little distracted, "Third uncle, don't scold me...I like him...I like him very much...It's what you said, he is the kind of person who makes me want to be a better person. Instead of studying hard, on the contrary, I want to work harder and be better, I know, you will all say that I don't know what liking is, but..."

"What did I say!"

The third uncle frowned and looked at me, "Look at you! Why! You can't live anymore! You are 17 years old, not seven! Isn't it normal to like someone! Your third uncle and I only fell in love when I first fell in love. Thirteen!!"

"Forehead……"

I was taken aback, "Third Uncle, have you ever had a first love?"

"Ahem! Aren't I from Moon Mimiao and Bird Mimiao? It's all in the past!"

The third uncle cleared his throat in embarrassment, "It's not me, it's you!"

"I……"

I lowered my eyes, confused, "Since you said that Lian Jun and I are incompatible, that our planets are not compatible...then you must let me leave him! I won't follow..."

"Fart! Which ear of yours listened to me and let you go away!"

The third uncle seemed to want to eat me, "Your own fate is still incompatible! You have to live well!"

I stared blankly, "..."

"Look at you like that!"

The third uncle waved his arm, "I can tell at a glance that you like him! Then you will look better when you are with him! Which rule says that there is an age limit for liking someone?! I have a crush on that kid Yes! You two seem to have conflicting horoscopes now! But fate is in your hands and you can break it at will! When you grit your teeth and insist on breaking through to the end, it will become a climate! You two will get along in various ways! If he treats you, he will prosper your wife, and you will prosper your husband! It’s just right! Both of you are prospering! Prosperity, wealth, fortune, fortune, prosperity!”

"..."

Prosperous in pairs? !
Can it be used like this? !
I was stupefied by the attitude of the third uncle, and when the third uncle said he was tired, he even crossed his waist, "Besides, I asked Xiaolian's birth date, so I have to take a closer look later!"

"What if it doesn't fit?"

I pursed my lips, "Third Uncle, I really like him, don't..."

"Hey! You play another one for me!"

The third uncle was speechless, "I don't even know how to blush when I say this, I leave all my abilities as a teacher to you, so I didn't even hear you say that you like me!"

"Third uncle, I admire you, admire, respect, respect, love, dear, love..."

"Go away!"

The third uncle said, "One day, Jing played for me in this area, solitaire...Girl, Uncle tells you, no matter how much you two disagree, you won't be at a disadvantage..."

"?"

I don't get it, "Why? Because I'm hard-fated?"

"Look, let's make an analogy..."

The third uncle said, "If a prince and a beggar are friends, and the two of them are in heaven and earth, then in the end, do you think it is the prince who suffers, or the beggar who suffers?"

I tasted his words, "Third Uncle...I'm not a beggar!"

"Tsk! Let's use an analogy!"

The third uncle was in a hurry, "This means that the astrology of the two of you is completely different. It's rare to meet Sha. Even if Sha is suppressed and can't get ahead, it seems that both ends are broken, but in my opinion, Gui has suffered a lot. Do you think so?" Ah, Na Sha is originally at the bottom of the valley, so what can I do if I step on it again, I will continue to nest in the bottom of the valley when I die, and I am expensive in the clouds.

I listened anxiously, "Third Uncle, do you mean that if I'm with Lian Jun, Lian Jun will be implicated by me, and my fate that is about to be broken will also be suppressed by him?"

"more or less."

The third uncle took a breath, "It's hard, girl, but Aunt Hei and I both uphold one thing. Since this person appears, it will be helpful to you. Sometimes, don't deliberately think about who will give you what." The answer, how do you say it, even if you shout to Konggu, don’t you still have to wait a while before you hear the long echo?”

I twitched the corners of my mouth, but said nothing.

The third uncle raised his eyebrows, "What's the matter, girl, are you depressed?"

I lowered my eyes, "Third uncle, I am not afraid of what will happen to me, but I am afraid that Lian Jun will be implicated by me. You also said that he is on the cloud, and even grandma has always placed high hopes on him. What I am afraid of is..."

"Looking like a wimp!"

The third uncle spat, "As the saying goes, mountains have their peaks, and seas have their shores. The aftertaste is bitter and bitter, and there will be sweetness in the end! If you think these are superfluous, then ask Na Lian Jun if he is afraid! If he is not, Then why are you poor and hypocritical, Zhu Jingwei, I realized that I haven't seen you for a few months, so you are dead!"

I bit my lower lip lightly, thinking of Lian Jun, "He won't be afraid, isn't it just robbery, what's the so-called, if it's all smooth sailing, it won't be exciting!

"That's not it!"

The third uncle raised his voice, "Aunt Hei has already said that it doesn't matter about you. Uncle and your eldest grandma are very open-minded about this. Yes, it seems that it would be better for you to leave Lian Jun, but without him, you How do I go again..."

Yin'er stopped suddenly, and I looked at my third uncle, "What are you going to do?"

"Go...experience!"

The third uncle took a deep breath, "Road! It's all up to you to walk by yourself, don't worry about it, scare yourself first, why, my apprentice is so slappy! How did uncle teach you! Looking at the big waves, No joy and no fear, next sentence!"

"What should be done is what must be done, and there is no need to worry about being alone."

"momentum!"

"What should be done is what needs to be done, there is no need to worry about being alone!!!"

My voice must be cracked, "Ah!!!"

"Perfect."

The third uncle nodded, and put his little hand behind his back, "Go back."

"no……"

I followed him dizzily, "Master, tell me, do I have to carry Dian Lianjun on my back when I take over evil spirits from now on? He wards off evil spirits. This is the business of exorcising evil spirits..."

"Oh, looking at it right now, you only think that work and life are separated, and Xiao Lian won't be idle to watch things with you!"

Well, this is true, Lian Jun also has to go to school and take care of the family, and there is such a big pharmacy, so he is much busier than me!

The third uncle said with a big heart, "Girl, the important thing is that money can't buy you like it. Is it possible that I told you to leave him, so that both of you can be safe and sound, and you will leave obediently?"

"cannot……"

My head was about to shake, "Besides, even Juan wouldn't agree..."

In this regard, the sisters are less confident.

At the end, I hugged my third uncle's arm happily, "Third uncle, thank you, and thank you, grandma..."

The corner of the third uncle's mouth curled up with bitterness, "Jingwei, life is not easy, and there are too many things to grasp. What we are trying to achieve is actually a fun. Although your third uncle is not well-known in the industry, there are some things that need to be considered. It is very transparent, unnecessary, and limited to some rules. You must know that even if you follow some rules against your will, the result may not be good. Uncle, who came here, is to let you always know your choice, don’t regret it. .”

"I do not regret!"

I helped Third Uncle shake off the crystal snowflakes on his shoulders, with a smile on his face, knowing in my heart that Third Uncle just pointed out some problems between me and Lian Jun, but he didn't put any pressure on me at all.

If it were someone else, they would probably feel that the brokenness that my fate requires is completely incompatible with the healing and attributes that Lian Jun carries with him.

But at the moment, I don't want to think about those things, and I am grateful to my third uncle and grandma for letting me make my own choices.

Of course, I will not regret it.

forever.

……

After returning home, Zhu Hao was still in the yard, pointed his chin towards the room, and said silently, "Brother Luobei is here."

Rollo North?
The third uncle frowned, and asked me in a low voice, "Does that kid keep in touch with you very often?"

"Fortunately."

I whispered back, "He went to college here and helped me a lot. He is a friend."

The third uncle didn't ask any more questions. After entering the room, there was a strong smell of cigarettes. Accompanied by the sound of mother's sobbing and crying in a low voice, she sat in a corner, her eyes were swollen and there were only slits left. Seeing me coming in , and no words.

There was depression everywhere in the room. Dad was smoking a cigarette on the sofa, with an unshaven beard and bloodshot eyes. When he saw me, he said three words in a hoarse voice, "You're back?"

"Ah."

"Are you recovering from your illness?"

"Ah."

I nodded my head, there was no disagreement, how could it be possible?

Luo Luobei was sitting next to his father, seeming to be comforting him in a low voice. When he saw the third uncle, he got up and said hello. They all knew each other. The third uncle nodded his head as a response. Turning his eyes, Luo Luobei looked at me, " Jingwei, I heard that you are hospitalized, are you alright?"

"fine."

I replied, "When did you arrive, why didn't you see your car at the entrance of the alley?"

"Uncle called me today and told me to pick him up at the funeral parlor. I didn't know there was an accident at your house. The color of my car was not very dignified, so I changed it with a classmate who owns a car..."

Just as Luo Luobei was talking, his father stubbed out the cigarette butt, "Look, Luobei is so careful, little boy! You have to keep your eyes open when you make friends in the future. I'm a little bit smarter when I'm with a kid like Luobei." Don't worry, Lian Juan's kind of black and white, you should stay away from now on..."

"His family also makes medicinal materials!"

I don't like it, I'm going to get excited after entering the door, "Besides, you know what happened that day, Lian Juan didn't do it on purpose!"

"Yes, hit me to make me understand."

Dad snorted, feeling sorry for himself, "I'm not worthy of being a father. I heard that the wind is rain, and I didn't stop me when I saw that magic stick pressing down on my daughter to kowtow...Third brother, if you are still angry, hit me again." A slap in the face, anyway, no one in this family wants face..."

"Dashan, are you done yet?!"

The third uncle was speechless, "This shit itself has nothing to do with Jingwei. The child was dragged into the water in a daze. After staying in the hospital for several days, you came back. You can't say something nice. You don't know that she is not in good health!"

"She must be angry, how can I say nice things?"

Dad's eyes were red, "I fucking hate myself, my daughter was protected by an outsider in the end, okay, what did I tell you! You go to school as soon as you go to school! All you know are messy people !"

I looked straight at my father, "If Lian Jun is a mess, then what about the gentleman my sister found? Who is he?!"

"You're being stubborn with me, aren't you?"

Dad is still in a good mood, "Don't you know what happened that night! I see you feel comfortable kowtowing! If you knew that villain is... forget it! If you hate me, you will hate me! If you are not happy, you will return your Momo!" river!!"

"you said?"

I stiffened my neck, "You nod now and I'll leave right away."

"Go and try!!!"

Dad started to slap the table again with a 'crack'~, "Is there anyone in this family that makes people worry! My own daughter can beat her father just looking at the blackness!!"

"Uncle, don't worry..."

When Luo Luobei saw this, he put his arms around his father's shoulders, "Lian Jun's family background is very good. His family is a well-known company in the country, and he is a serious businessman. Let's go with what happened that day. You told me just now. Think about it. Jingwei was very guilty, so why did I push her out? In fact, if I arrived that night and saw Jingwei being implicated, I might have the same reaction as Lian Juan. How could it be so cold? Can't let Jingwei..."

"Luobei, will you hit me then?"

Dad asked directly, "Will someone give me two punches directly? Threatening me after the incident, asking me if it hurts? Who is he with? Do you understand the order of the elders and the younger!!?"

"You are called relying on the old to sell the old."

I replied bluntly, "Dad, if Lian Jun didn't come, would you watch me get a concussion? Can you let that guy surnamed Du knock my head into a flower?"

"shut up!"

Dad stared at me, "Are you trying to piss me off! I'm your real dad!!"

"Yes, dear father, you just rely on being my dear father..."

I held back my tears, the smell of gunpowder was full, "If I were adopted by you, I would really be relieved."

"Congratulations!!! Tell me one more sentence!!"

Dad wanted to shave me when he got up, his movements were too big, and the coffee table that collided with him made a sharp human voice, "I'm so good at you, this house can't accommodate you..."

"uncle!!"

Luo Luo Beisheng stopped him, "Calm down!! Don't argue with Jingwei in anger! You know, the situation that night was very special, we can't generalize it! Calm down!"

"The kid surnamed Lian just has a problem with his attitude!"

Dad raised the voice, "Yes! His family is rich! I can see it! If you don't have money, you can book the most expensive sacrificial hall for us with one phone call, send someone to pick up the third brother, and get a few irrelevant people Waiting around like a grandson? Isn’t his car worth millions! But I just can’t accept his favor! What are you proud of!”

Then, my father looked at the third uncle, "Third brother! Return the money to him! We can't owe him! In the future, I want him to go as far as I want. I wish my family's temple is small, and it can't accommodate such a big one." God and Buddha!!"

"You can calm down!"

The third uncle didn't bother to pay attention to his appearance, "What's the matter with you now, Dashan, you have been infected by your sister, can you be reasonable! I don't even know where you and Jingwei's temper came from, it's not enough to hurt the child's heart! You have to make Jingwei completely disappointed in you to be satisfied! You forgot what happened at the beginning! How did Jingwei survive, huh?!"

"she……"

Dad just fell silent and stared blankly at Third Uncle, with tears in his red eyes, "Third Brother, I..."

"What are you!"

The third uncle snorted, "Why, you think it's understandable that I hit you because I'm older than you, and Xiao Lian's anger gave you two punches, so you wouldn't be willing to do this? You don't owe anyone... you The sacrificial hall is not discounted, it is half off! I have never heard of so many confessions in Harbin, and the stove, the urn, the location of the worship room, which one didn't open the back door for you... It takes a lot of money ...Is it the end of the matter if you pay back the money, living such an old age in vain?"

"That's what he dared to do."

Dad lacked confidence, "Anyway, I speak clearly! I don't appreciate it, and my daughter is not allowed to associate with him!"

"..."

I don't say anything, I don't feel the need to justify anything, and I have to talk if it continues!

As for Lian Jun's matter, since the third uncle and grandma both support it, why should I worry about others!

interesting.

"Okay, stop talking!"

The third uncle couldn't stand it anymore, "You know how much face you have in one day, what will the child think later? Your mother will cry when she sees it down there!"

Xu Shi heard grandma, and then dad sat back on the sofa. He was devastated, as if he had been worn out by the past few days, and his bones had already been pulled out and cramped.

Mom was crying all the time, and she didn't talk to anyone from the beginning to the end. Ren Dad was arguing here, and she pretended not to hear him.

In his hand, he held a photo of his second aunt before, and he rubbed it over and over again, making a trembling sound from time to time, "Ling'er, my Ling'er..."

As for my sister-in-law, my third uncle said earlier that she seems to be still in the hospital, and the nurse hired by my father is waiting for her to be discharged from the hospital when she is in a stable mood. Otherwise, I am afraid that Zhu Xiaoying will make trouble with her mother.

After staying for a while, the third uncle saw that nothing serious was going to leave.

Once back in Harbin, there is still an appointment with the owner, and he has to go back to his residence to clean up!

"Third Uncle, let me see you off."

Luo Luobei said, "I happened to be driving here, and I'll go back to school after seeing you off..."

"it is good!"

The third uncle didn't refuse, and after Luo Luobei said goodbye to my parents, he looked at me, "Jingwei, you send Xiao Luo off first, and wait for me at the alley, I'm explaining a few words to your parents..."

I nodded and went out with Luo Luobei. In the room, the smell of smoke and the atmosphere were choking!
Flash!

……

"Yeah, it's snowing."

Out of the yard, Luo Luobei stretched out his hand when he saw the dots of snowflakes, "Jingwei, do you remember that in our Mohe, the snow falls early, and when it is thick, you can cover your calves, snowball fights, especially Fun."

I put on my hat and walked beside him without saying a word.

"Jingwei, Mo He is better... right?"

Luo Luo looked at me from the north side and smiled, "People are simple, not so complicated."

"There are good people and bad people everywhere..."

I replied sullenly, "Sometimes, to judge whether a person is good or bad, it mainly depends on the matter, not the person."

When something happens, you can tell the difference and see it clearly.

"You think quite clearly..."

Walking to the car he was driving, Luo Luobei stopped and looked at me, "Jingwei, then tell me, am I a good person or a bad person?"

"Good man."

I said, "Lend me money if you say you want to lend me money. You are very particular, what else do you want? Besides, my dad is looking for you today, not just asking you to drive and pick him up..."

Dad is a taxi driver. Aren't all of my friends in the same company? Chen Yingming doesn't need to be buried for something like that, so he needs to ask Luo Luobei to drive him to the funeral home to pick him up?
No need!
"Luo Luobei, did my dad borrow money from you?"

Luo Luobei didn't respond, I looked at him and continued to ask, "He returned Lian Jun's money...he borrowed it from you, right?"

So what if there is a discount, who doesn't know that the cost of the funeral home is high, my father said it when my grandma left, and this time I will pay for it, the price will definitely not be lower!
No one asks about troubles because of poverty, but in my family, you can’t find a rich person who has better conditions. I left the relationship when my grandma was sick, it’s in vain!
"Jingwei, don't worry about it."

Luo Luobei let out a white breath, "Uncle is not easy to open his mouth. He said he would pay me back in a few months, and he doesn't want you to know. Think about it, he does have difficulties. Your sister-in-law is also sick. , as the pillar of your family, he is indeed struggling."

I looked at Luo Luobei's eyebrows and eyes, and didn't ask how much it was. It's unnecessary. Since Dad borrowed the money, he will repay it by himself.

It's impossible for me to pay off the debt, and I can't pay it off, "Thank you."

"Jingwei, let's not always be so polite!"

Luo Luobei smiled helplessly, "Can you always say thank you to Lian Jun?"

"talk."

I nodded, "It's not just being polite, it's also really grateful, Luo Luobei, thank you very much."

"……Um."

Luo Luobei smiled ugly, "Have you been with Lian Jun these days?"

"Correct."

"Yes, it should be reassuring to have him take care of you..."

Luo Luobei lowered his eyes, "That night, didn't you think about calling me? The first person you thought of was Lian Jun?"

"what?"

I was stunned for a moment and realized what he was referring to, "I didn't make the call that night. Wasn't I all tied up at the time? How did you make the call? It's a shame you didn't see the appearance. There are two stones tied to the feet, just like the one who wanted to sink into the pond. Fortunately, Zhu Hao ran far away at that time, and that kid was holding my mobile phone, so he found Lian Jun..."

Luo Luobei listened silently, and his eyes were slightly red, "Jingwei, I can imagine how desperate you were at that time, I'm sorry, I didn't..."

"What are you apologizing for?"

I laughed, "It has nothing to do with you at all! I'm sorry, I can't talk nonsense, I have shadows... Luo Luobei, in fact, there is one thing I haven't clarified. You see even Juan already knew that he was your biggest client from the first meeting, so why did you still fight with him?"

At that time, Luo Luobei made it clear that Lian Jun was fierce, and the meaning of provocation was obvious.

If it's two unrelated people, that's fine, but his family has business dealings with Lian Jun, so isn't he afraid?

He offended Lian Jun, didn't he think about the consequences? !

"He likes the woman I like, isn't it normal to fight?"

Luo Luobei smiled lightly, "I understand what you mean, there is a relationship of interest, right, but in fact, I have never been afraid. For one thing, Lian Jintang has always been very strict in the inspection of medicines. There has never been a problem online, but if I had a little concern at the time, I would not reveal my identity to Lian Jun. I just wanted to tell him who I am. It is because it is easy for Lian Jun to bankrupt my family. As a touchstone, I also want to see if Lian Jun will turn his personal grievances into conflicts of interests..."

As he said that, Luo Luobei's eyes became more serious, "What I want to know is whether he is open-minded and whether he is calm when things happen. After all, if you like him so much, I also need to know whether he can take care of him all the time." Hello."

"Then... the result?"

"Personal grievances, that's all."

Luo Luo Bei replied, "I will not be friends with Lian Jun, but I have to admit that he has a clear distinction between public and private, and he is very courageous in his actions. Perhaps, if I really went the night you were wronged, even if I was angry, I would not be friends." Dare to question my uncle, after all, I can't avoid it, but Lian Jun did it, even if he was a little disobedient, it was reasonable, I don't think there is anything wrong with it, it is true that he is a little impulsive, but this just shows that if you are emotional, you can There is no need to be rational, what I want to see is that he puts you in his heart, so that I can rest assured."

"..."

I didn't talk, I just looked at Luo Luobei, gently holding the corner of my lips.

"Jingwei, why are you looking at me like that?"

Luo Luobei looked a little apprehensive, "I'm nervous when you look at me like that."

His image is so tall in my heart!
"No, I think that what you said just now to persuade my dad was very objective. I thought that in order to comfort my dad, you would go along with it and say that Lian Jun is not..."

"how is this possible!"

Luo Luobei shook his head with a smile, "Then don't bother me to death. Seek truth from facts. That's what I ask professionally. It's still the same sentence. No matter what, I hope you can be happy. Jingwei, you remember, in my heart , I will always hold an umbrella for you, even if you will never like me, it doesn't matter, as long as you are good, I can find my own happiness with peace of mind, right?"

"Thank you."

I nodded my head and said softly, although I can't say clearly about the relationship between men and women, Luo Luobei is really a gentleman in the mouth of tall and strong.

……

When the third uncle came out, he also told me, "Girl, the matter is over. I went back after a few days of work. When it gets cold, Aunt Hei's health will not work. You have grown up, and you should weigh everything yourself. You know, your grandma's greatest wish in this life is for your family to be well, understand?"

I hummed, "Third Uncle, don't tell Grandma about my affairs, I will try my best to understand my parents..."

Words can be said in a hurry, but there are some things that cannot be done.

I can't let third uncle and grandma worry about it!
The third uncle sighed, and patted my arm, "Okay, call me if you have anything to do, and call back first!"

I stood there and nodded, wanting to say thank you, but I swallowed it!
Watching the third uncle get into the car driven by Luo Luobei, he waved his hand and watched the two of them leave.

To put it bluntly, the third uncle is just an old neighbor of my family. Before he became my master, he was not related to my family, but he always helped my family when something happened, especially the grandma. With his care, in Mohe, he not only has to help the grandma look after the store, but also goes around Mohe to help those who admire the grandma's name to play tricks.

I walked very slowly all the way back, and I understand a lot of things that Uncle San didn't say...

It is still difficult for an upright official to decide on housework, whether it is cold or warm, only oneself can experience it.

(End of this chapter)