Hunter and Hussar

Chapter 79

"Teacher Zhou must scold you if he knows you are not feeling well and come out. Then I will be implicated by you too. If she can't cure you, she can't cure me?" I wanted to make a joke with Mu Zheng, but suddenly felt that "I can't cure you." "This sentence should not be said.I subconsciously covered my mouth and carefully looked at him sitting by the other car window.

"Okay, doesn't she know yet? What happened, I'll bear it alone." He smiled at me.

"Are you sure you're okay now?"

"It's all right. After eating and resting, I feel better."

The taxi crossed the bridge in silence.We were driving to the north of the river. It was past seven o'clock, and the lights on the bridge were brightly lit, but the fog on the river surface made it impossible to see both sides of the river clearly, leaving only blurred lights.It might rain later, and we're heading for where the clouds are most dense.

"Young man, is your position correct?" The driver asked again.

"That's right, master. Thank you," he replied politely.

"Is there anyone there? I heard that it has been vacated in the past few years. It used to be really lively and the business was easy to do. Not now."

"There are always a few. After all, the factory area and buildings are there. I asked clearly this time, and I told my friend that I will definitely be there tonight."

The master didn't say anything more.I wanted to know more, so I asked him who he was looking for.So, amidst the shadows inside the car and the lights outside the car floating like patterns, he told me a story.

During the days in the hospital, Mu Zheng met a 28-year-old sister who was a teacher in the next bed.He remembered the name on her bed, Li Wan, even though he didn't know how to pronounce the second word at the time.The same disease, only she is more serious.When she is in good spirits, she will patiently teach him how to play his little guitar well.How necessary tuning is, it’s not enough to say that it’s not too bad.If you can't grasp the beat well, no matter how clearly you remember the score, you won't be able to play the desired effect.Rigorous yet light, she was the musical innovator who took them from making noise to making sounds that people can still hear.Xuexue loves music so much. Apart from Mr. Huang's intentional or unintentional influence on him, the sister he met in the ward played a key role.She introduced to them the configuration that a band should have, and then countless famous figures in the music world.When the friends were still babbling in music class, Xuexue and Mu Zheng were repeatedly listening to and feeling those works that had become art.Time has proved the taste of this sister.After several years of sleeping underground, a piece of music that she hummed for her two children resounded in Mu Zheng's small room.At that time, the singer who composed this piece of music won the Nobel Prize in Literature.Knowing the news, the two of them leaned together silently, recalling the past and seeing the leaves falling in the October rain.The person who had accompanied them in those dark days, her life was blown to the wind.Learning to pluck the strings of the guitar, Mu Zheng seemed to hear a distant sob.

Li Wan has a younger brother who is about the same age as us and almost 20 years younger than her. He often visits his sister with his father.Her father was a short, middle-aged man with a dark complexion, always wearing a dark blue coat, and he was recognizable as a worker at a glance.He held the hand of his younger son, not like a father, but like an uncle—not old enough to be like a grandfather.Her mother didn't come here many times, and what left a deep impression on her were her big hands.In winter, there are often several chilblains on the back of the hand.When it is more serious, it will make people think of a baby's small mouth.

Her brother is very good.He never made any noise, and would nod and say hello to those who looked at him every time he entered the ward.Clothes aren't new or fancy, but they're always well-dressed.He is a well-behaved and energetic child who can wear old clothes. The turned-up collar will never be wrinkled or yellowed. Never unraveled or fell to the ground - which is almost impossible for a boy of that age.

When he came here for the first time, he walked to his sister's bed, and his sister asked him to sit down, but he shook his head and refused, but his father was not polite and sat down at the end of the bed.The elder sister pointed to the bed on the side, and said that the little brother is Mu Zheng, and the younger brother is Huang Minxue. They are both the same age as you, and they both know how to play football.So he walked upright to Mu Zheng's bedside, and called out somewhat cautiously, "Hello, brother Mu Zheng, hello, brother Minxue, my name is Li Bin, Li from Liming, gentle and gentle Bin."Mu Zheng remembered the name, and also remembered his thin body and fluffy hair.Learn from him, what position do you play?He said that after playing as a striker, he can also play on the side or in the middle.Mu Zheng smiled, it's awesome that one person can do what the two of us can do.My sister looked at Mu Zheng and said, when you recover from illness, the three of you can play football together, and I will watch quietly.If you play well and win the championship, I will teach you to sing We are the champions, the song of the Queen band, which means "We are the champions", and the champion is the champion, remember?

Mu Zheng thought, if one day, the three of us become teammates, and Sister Li Wan sings for us, then she and I must have recovered.Overcoming an illness is much harder than winning a football game—by then I will be the champion of champions.

Sister, how is Brother Mu Zheng?Li Bin's unintentional question made the ward fall into silence.The white walls make this small space look like a transparent boat swaying in the sea. The patients who are sailors don't know how long the calm will last. will arrive.Although healthy people are in the same boat as sick people, their feet are always standing on the coastline called "life".Even if the sick relatives and friends are around, the flame of life belonging to them is swaying on the unpredictable sea, and they never know whether it will be extinguished on the other side tomorrow, or come back to this shore to ignite.

He's going to be better soon, he's in great shape.You will return to the green field and run together facing the sun, just like three young trees chasing the sun.There will always be a day when, no matter where I am at that time, as long as I go to the balcony and open the window, I can see your figures and hear the sound of your little feet kicking the ball.That's what she said, I can't remember.The children were very happy to hear that, and Mu Zheng almost had the illusion that he would recover tomorrow.

But recalling these few words now always feels a little uncomfortable.

Mu Zheng is a little jealous of Li Bin, not just because he has a healthy body - for patients, every healthy person makes them aware of the abnormality of their body and situation.The world is absurd. Two children of the same age both like football and music. One is healthy and can go to school, while the other is lying in a hospital bed. Still heaven.Why am I the kid lying around waiting to die?What am I doing wrong?Whenever such a strange question popped up, Mu Zheng wanted to cry.But who can he fall for?He couldn't cry when his mother was around.He can't cry when she's not there. There are many people in the ward who are worse than him, especially the sister next door.In the year when he was still in the top class of kindergarten, his father took him and Xuexue to get vaccinated.It was a very ordinary morning, the clouds were light and the wind was breezy, and the sun was mild. Mu Zheng would never have thought that 20 days later his father would become a hero and disappear by his side.The injection room of the hospital was full of children, crying endlessly, coupled with evasive footsteps and parents chasing after them, it was as noisy as going to a market.Dad was wearing civilian clothes and took off his police badge cap, just like all dads.He said to Mu Zheng very gently, you go first later, Xuexue is younger than you.If you are afraid, you can cry, but don’t shout out, because if you shout out, you will be more afraid, and Xuexue will also be afraid, understand?Mu Zheng nodded sensiblely, keeping his father's words in mind.He found that Xuexue was also listening very carefully, and nodded with him, which was bigger than him.The two of them were the few children in the injection room who didn't cry or fuss that day, and they were praised by the nurse and their father.

After his father was gone, Mu Zheng did not forget this way of dealing with people.At most, I should bury it in the quilt and weep, so that no one can see it, especially my sister who is beside me.Occasionally, he feels that he is not only living for himself, not just for his mother, Xuexue, and his father who is no longer there. He is also living for the people in the next bed.Live one more day and get better physically. Everyone can feel hope, especially the sister next to me.

But it was still discovered.Wrapped in a trembling quilt in broad daylight, how could you hide it from others?She reluctantly got out of bed, patted the quilt, and asked him what was wrong.He said he was changing his pants.It's been 10 minutes since you changed, she said.After opening it, she saw that his face was crying like a little tabby cat.miss mom?Still miss your little friend?she asked.He just shook his head.She said, wipe away your tears, you are a little man, don't cry.She lay back on the bed and hummed a song that only he could hear, like a whisper in the dark night, and the shadow floating on the ceiling slowly dripped after being diluted.Mu Zheng asked, what is the name of this song.My sister said, guess a riddle for you, and the answer is the name of the song.This riddle comes from a movie called "Life is Beautiful", just one sentence: When you call her name, she disappears.What's this?
I have no idea.If I call someone, she will disappear once I call, then I will never call, never call for the rest of my life.Mu Zheng cried and said.Don't disappear, don't disappear, okay?No one should disappear.I am really scared.

Don't cry, you are such a silly child.Through the gap left by the bedside stool, she smiled at him with a pale and gentle face.It's a riddle.Its answer is silence, silence.As soon as you speak, the silence disappears.If you are unhappy, just speak out, let the silence disappear, and the unhappy things will also disappear.

Perhaps inspired by these words, Mu Zheng ran to the school and used chalk on the blackboard to break the long-standing silence between himself and his classmates.After being dragged back to the ward, Teacher Zhou severely scolded Mu Zheng who was paralyzed on the bed.She left the ward with red eyes to wash his clothes.Mu Zheng blamed himself while dangling water, his sister opened her mouth, saying that you have a good mother, don't make her angry again.Mu Zheng agreed.My sister asked again, why can't I see your father all the time?He is dead, Mu Zheng said.So, sorry, little man, I didn't mean to.It's okay, sister, I know.So she went on to ask, so, do you have brothers and sisters?No, there is only my father in my grandfather's house, and I don't have any uncles or aunts.On my mother's side, my grandfather passed away very early, and my mother and grandma lived together since childhood.I don't have a brother or sister.Xuexue is my best friend.Oh, in this way, then you have to treat your mother better, and live a good life, after all, you are responsible, and the incense of your family must be passed on.My sister laughed.By the way, have you ever thought about having a younger brother or sister?Think about it, I really want to have one, if only I had healthy siblings, I will definitely be a good brother.Mu Zheng said.Even if I'm sick, I want to spoil them, but it's impossible, my father is gone.Not necessarily, in case your mother meets a good person and wants to reorganize the family, my sister said, just like in "Family with Children", have you seen it?Can you accept that someone you don't know suddenly becomes your younger brother or sister?Mu Zheng turned his head and thought for a while, and said that if my mother wants to get married again, the other party must be a very, very good uncle who will treat me very well.Even if I suddenly have a younger brother and sister who are not related by blood, I can get along well with him.What if it's an ignorant child who needs you to take care of everything?The sister continued to ask.No way?To be honest, who can I take care of now?Mu Zheng shook his head.As long as I'm better, I can take care of all the bears.There can be no more difficult thing in the world than the difficulties I am encountering now.Of course, he didn't say the last word.

The casual chat that day seemed to make Mu Zheng vaguely understand why he was jealous of Li Bin.In addition to his healthy body, he also has an older sister.A gentle and considerate sister who sings well, went to a good university, and played both guitar and bass.If only she was healthy, and if we were all healthy.

This kind of jealousy completely disappeared on the approaching day of the summer of the third grade.Mu Zheng discovered that Li Wan's father hadn't visited her in the hospital for a long time, but her mother appeared frequently.But my sister's health was deteriorating, and she ate less and less food. She lay in bed all day, motionless except for her eyes, and had to be nursed to help pull up the curtain when she went to the bathroom.In contrast to this, Mu Zheng seemed to be gradually recovering, at least his spirit was much better than before.Judging from the tone of mother talking to doctors and nurses, it seems that the long-awaited miracle is happening quietly.Mu Zheng was not very happy, it reminded him of the experience of handing out the report card, he looked at his own first, and then at Xuexue's, so he was embarrassed to show a happy expression.However, I have missed so many lessons now, even if I go back, I have to make up for it slowly, and I guess I will fall to the bottom of the class.You won't repeat a grade, will you?

Mu Zheng was thinking wildly, when he suddenly found that Xue Xuezhen had walked in front of him, as if his fantasy had become reality.There happened to be no one else in the ward that day, only two patients and healthy Xuexue were left.Mu Zheng asked him about his unit test results, they were still the same, except for English, they were all average.Why did you ask me about the exam as soon as I came up? Xuexue is quite unhappy, don’t you only think about the exam?Then you take the exam for me?I would like to go back to take the exam, or go to school.Mu Zheng laughed, and heard Li Wan who was lying on her back laughing softly.

Then Li Bin and his mother came.She aged so fast and so badly, just like the idiom described, her hair turned gray overnight.She walked towards her sister tremblingly, and her sister seemed to be waiting for this moment, preparing for it for a long time.Mu Zheng, she turned her head to look at the next bed with difficulty, you said it was better yesterday, is that so?I heard from the doctor that you can get out of bed and walk around properly.Mu Zheng nodded.Xiaobin, Xuexue, you two can accompany him downstairs to play, don't go too far, you can't go outside the hospital, can you?It's not so much a proposal as a request from my sister.They both agreed without any questions.He helped Mu Zheng up from the bed, even though the weather was a bit hot, he hurriedly put on a coat for him.They supported Mu Zheng from left to right, and went out with ease.Li Wan's mother closed it immediately.

They didn't come downstairs.Li Bin said he wanted to hear about it. Dad hasn't been home for half a month, and his mother didn't mention him, so she just said that he went out to work. Maybe she would talk about him with her sister.Mu Zheng agreed.He wanted to know what was going on with his sister's body.

Did the old man run away?

No.What are you thinking about, kid?Are your parents like this?
nothing.I just know that some people are not worthy of being parents at all, especially people who ruin their children's lives.

What do you mean?
Don't you just want a handle?I was reading a book, and when I got home during the Chinese New Year, I suddenly found that there was an extra person.Um?

What do you mean with a handle?Learn to ask in a low voice.Li Bin shook his head incomprehensibly.They looked at Mu Zheng, and he blushed.

Don't you like Binbin?You took him very well, he is lovely and sensible...

Yes, I like him.For him I am willing to give up that job in Shanghai, for him I can break up with my boyfriend, for him I work day and night, I have done it all, no complaints at all, right?But you, mother, touch your conscience and talk about it, did you discuss it with me before giving birth to him?Have you asked your daughter for her opinion?I'm not from the family at all.Xiaobin was given to me by you.He is not wrong, and I can only love him.He's a good boy, and that's the only comfort I've had in years.But what about you?The old man said he had a health problem and was laid off after patting his ass.As for you, you still have a bit of a conscience, and you still take care of your haircut, but how many people are still alive in that factory area?Doesn't my younger brother have to be raised by me?

Wanwan, calm down, there is something wrong with my parents, but there must be a boy at home...

Yes, so I am redundant. It would be great if you gave birth to your younger brother early in the morning.He's about to grow up too, and I'm useless, it's time to leave.Bear with it, it won't be long.Or let the old man take you with you.Let Xiaobin stay with me for a while, he was brought up by me.When I'm dead, I'll tell him to enjoy the happiness with you, okay?
Don't say that, you'll be fine.Binbin is still young...

No matter how small I am, I can't keep it anymore.The doctor said that at this stage, there is no use except to wait for a miracle.Save some money for my younger brother to marry a wife, and wait to have grandchildren, I mean it.I want to give up.

Do you hate us very much?

Don't you hate it?Why not hate?I was only 20 years old and I hadn't learned how to deal with people. You guys wanted me to be a mother. Is there anything more absurd than this in the world?There are exams to be a teacher, exams to be a doctor, exams to be a civil servant, why don't you have to take exams when you are a parent?Are you eligible?Am I eligible?

Isn't that how they all came here...

So it should be taken for granted?If other families want a boy, our family must, and we don’t care if we squeeze our daughter dry, right?Are you happy with this result?Brother happy?If he knew, he would be sad to death.Damn, I just want to piss you off, but I feel sad when I mention Xiaobin.He was not wrong at all, why should he bear all this?When you secretly gave birth to him, did you ever think about this day?Tell me, have you thought about it?

Wanwan, don't say that, mom can't bear it.

Now that I know I'm sad, what did I do earlier?It's too late, everything is too late.I don't have days left.I am human too, I have feelings and I have a life of my own.If I want, I can have a younger brother, and it is no problem to take care of him to grow up like a mother.I did, but it wasn't my will, it wasn't my choice.You gave birth to him in a daze and said you couldn't raise him yourself, so you pushed it to me.My whole life has been ruined by you.Forget it, what's the use of saying this?If you are angry, your life will be shortened. You should live a good life, don't let Xiao Bin become a child without a sister and a mother.

Both Mu Zheng and Xuexue noticed that Li Bin was shaking, as if he was standing in the snow wearing only a single shirt in winter.They kept patting and stroking him, like two puppies caring for a companion who had fallen to the ground from hunger.Li Bin was restraining himself from making any sound, although he couldn't control his tears anymore.

not talking anymore?Where did the old man go?ran away?
don't say that.Mom has money, but she has to continue to treat her illness.

Where did you get the money from?Cut Bill Gates' head?
Parents are old and useless.There is still a little savings at home, and it is enough to cobble together with relatives.I went to ask the doctor, can arrange surgery for you.Otherwise, just take a look at it?

Pull it down, I don't know how much money is left in our family?Stop talking nonsense.How could those relatives be willing to borrow money?It's too late for people to hide from you.Just tell me, where did the money come from?

Mom can't tell.

Dare to do it or not?
Mom can't tell.

What can't you say?I'm all about to die.It wouldn't be the old man who stole and cheated, right?Forgive him for not being able to do this, so he can only bully and bully his daughter.

Don't say that about your father.

Parents like you, do such a thing, and don't let the dying people complain?
Your father left first.

What do you mean?
It's not that his waist has always been bad, or he won't be able to work anymore.In order to save money for your medical treatment, he went to work.

Is it a gift for my younger brother?

There was an accident at the construction site half a month ago.The other workers are all young, and if your father can't run, he can't get away.You see, this is the list of compensation, 30.

Didn't my mother tell me that my father went to work in other places?Li Bin's voice was as soft as thin paper, and his small face was twitching in pain. Mu Zheng and Xuexue realized that their almost mechanical slapping would not be able to comfort them at all.The two of them were in a panic, when Li Bin suddenly stood up and rushed towards the stairs.Xuexue, you go and chase him, I can't run, you catch him, don't let him get into trouble.While crying, Mu Zheng tried his best to lower his voice.Xuexue ran out without saying a word.A heavy sense of powerlessness hit Mu Zheng by the door, he squatted down slumped, leaning his head on the gray wall, and continued to listen to the voices in the room.The hospital lights are on at all times, making it difficult to tell the time outside.The dizzy light and the sound of chasing footsteps distort the long and empty corridor, crying and laughing are going on in every corner at the same time across the wall, the world is shrinking and falling rapidly in the eyes.

You are not afraid that the operation will fail, and the people will be gone, and the money will be gone.

As long as Wan Wan is still alive, Mom doesn't want anything else.

I can't guarantee it.Oh, really, what did you guys do so early?You are so pathetic.Don't think that I don't hate you anymore by doing this, I hate you to death, and now I just pity you.Well, you don't know anything but work.My dad is just a little man with soft ears, and he will do whatever his relatives say.Is it worth it to put your life on the line just to have someone with you? 30, one life, huh, so fucking funny.Heal me?This is my brother's gift money, your pension money.This is Dad's order.Don't hit the water.

Mom only wants you to live.

You threw your money into the water yourself.

Mu Zheng stood up with difficulty, and insisted on walking towards the stairs step by step.He couldn't take it anymore.The relationship between patients is special, and each may regard the other as a mirror.Not only refer to each other's illness and treatment effects, but also the experience of others may become your own someday in the future.It was hard for Mu Zheng to imagine that he was not the only one around who lost his father.And besides hearing the unexpected news, he also faintly felt a possibility, although at that time he couldn't figure out what this feeling was.But after a few years, he understood that maybe this kind of fate that is doomed to lose both man and money will also come to him.No, not on him.He is a person who will die at a certain moment for no reason. This reason has nothing to do with the disease on his body, it has to do with age.He was at an age that no one should think of death. The death of a child was the most incredible thing in the world, but the black vines of another world had entangled him.There is only one person who accepts this fate of having nothing: his mother.As a patient, as a child, or as a son, Mu Zheng didn't have the strength to keep himself out of the ward.

Xuexue caught Li Bin, hugged him tightly, and sat on the dark tiled steps in the stairwell.I killed my sister and my father too.He said.Without me, my sister wouldn't get sick and my father wouldn't die.I should never have been born.It's fine without me.Mu Zheng stepped down the steps and squatted in front of the two of them, his steps were heavy but soft.

Binbin, don't cry.We are men, we must not cry.

Liar, you are crying yourself, how dare you talk about me.

I am sick, I can cry.You are not sick, you don’t cry when you watch Xuexue.

As they spoke, the two turned their heads to look to the side, and then lowered their heads.

For a child of this age, facing this kind of thing, there is really no other way but to cry in despair and huddle together.This is different from the experience in the injection room, where the crying conveyed panic, and when Mu Zheng recalled the narrow stairwell, besides the fear of the unknown and death, there was also the relationship between the three of them. close connection.At that moment, they really saw each other's inner world, even though it was just a little boy trembling helplessly.They confirmed each other's existence through this trembling, which is an existence of "I will always be with you and never be apart".No one said anything more, only the sound of sniffling and wiping tears remained in the air, but they all seemed to be telling each other that you still have a friend, no, more than one.

I can't remember how I got back to the ward. The sky was spinning, the ceiling and tiles turned into blurred clock dials moving, and the tear stains on my face and the redness of my eyes couldn't be washed away.It was quickly exposed.Li Wan's mother took Li Bin away, believing that she would tell him what happened soon.As soon as they left, Li Wan asked Mu Zheng who was lying on the bed with a bleak smile, how does it feel to spy on other people's secrets?
not good at all.Xuexue answered for him.

Did Xiaobin know all about it?

They don't know what to say other than to apologize.As a sister, it's okay to know.Sooner or later, you have to know, it is impossible to hide it all the time, it is better to know earlier.By the way, you two little devils, listen to me.

The eyes of the two of them were as serious as first-year students on the first day of school.

If I'm not here someday, you guys spend more time with Xiaobin.His life is no better than mine.The house assigned to my family by the factory was sold, and there were only two people left in the family. Most of them had to go back to the barber shop in the future.There are fewer and fewer people in that dilapidated place, and it is very deserted. If you want me to say, it was demolished early.There are not many children there.I'm not afraid of anything else, but I'm afraid that he will get bored all by himself and miss me in the end.At that time, it is useless to think about me, there is no one like me.

No, sister, you will be fine, aren't you going to have an operation?Mu Zheng said, his voice was intermittent.I feel like I'm fine, and you will be fine too.Binbin can't live without you as a sister.I can't live without you either.Didn't you agree to see the three of us win the championship?
I have nothing to hope for. The surgery is just a fulfillment of my parents' wish. I pity them.I did, so they can feel at ease.Well, you got the championship, I will definitely see it, no matter where I am then.A gust of wind blows, just as I heard it.Forget it, I won’t coax you anymore, it’s boring.Let’s just say that, Mu Zheng, I envy you very much.You have a wonderful mother and the best friend in the world, I can see it all.Unlike me, there is nothing to worry about.More importantly, you get better and one day, you can go back to school, back to the football field, and grow up healthy like other children.It may sound like nothing special, but such an ordinary life is a luxury.You are all fresh, I am old.So, you two should cherish yourselves, don't make the same mistake as me, and give your whole life to others.When you grow up and have your own life, you have to think about it carefully.Entering other people's lives and creating new lives cannot be sloppy.Hey, why am I telling you this, I'm dumbfounded, but it's also quite cute.You can choose the life you want, and I think Xiaobin can too.very nice.Take advantage of this opportunity, don't waste it.

The two of them agreed, although they half understood.She turned her head to the other side on the pillow, and the ash on the wall was slowly peeling off like time.This was the last time that Mu Zheng heard sister Li Wan say such a long time.They stayed together for a few more days until my sister went in for her surgery.A creaky cot was pushed into the ward, and she was carried up on it, and she bid farewell to the little boy beside her with rolling eyes.Before that, she said, her 29th birthday was just a few days away.The younger brother will use the little change he saved to buy her a small cake and eat it together.Mu Zheng nodded fiercely.

In the few days without my sister, time passed very slowly.Lying blankly on the bed, Mu Zheng felt that he was like the roots of a small tree, every piece, every inch was secretly growing.Summer is approaching, especially when you hear the dense sound of insects and the lingering flapping of wings.A small flying insect landed on his disheveled hair as the evening approached, shaking his head, it landed on the white hospital bed sheet, with his feet up in the air, struggling desperately.Mu Zheng watched it until it turned over with difficulty, flew away slowly, and disappeared into the suspended air.

Mu Zheng woke up very late on her sister's birthday.As soon as he opened his eyes, he saw Xuexue sitting on the empty adjacent bed, staring at him raptly, kicking his two short legs.Mu Zheng said, come down, today is my sister's birthday, she will be back soon.Xuexue snorted and said what happened to Zuozuo, and what did it have to do with birthdays.Of course it has something to do with it, Mu Zheng said, Binbin bought the cake.But I'm young, if you sit on the bed crumpled and people are unhappy, then you won't have your share.

It seemed that I was a little bit unhappy on the day of learning.They are the most common awkwardness among boys.

And the sister didn't come back.Li Bin came alone, with tears on his face.

"You can tell at a glance that there is no cake to eat." After Mu Zheng finished speaking, he let out a long sigh, the kind of sigh that could blow out the candle.

"So, do you often go to see Li Bin later?" I asked.

"Yes. I was discharged from the hospital before the summer vacation of that year. Although Xuexue and I would often go to see Li Bin. He and his mother live where we are going today, in Jiangbei In a steel factory area. His father used to be a worker there, and his mother opened a barber shop there. However, the efficiency of the steel plant has long since failed, and the number of people in the factory area has decreased, so the business of the barber shop is not very good. Read by Li Bin The primary school in my hometown was originally a worker's primary school in the factory area. There were not many classes left in the fourth grade, and few teachers were willing to stay there. Later, I heard that it was merged, and all the teachers and students were transferred to other schools. The whole campus is empty. It’s actually quite good. We go there to find Li Bin to play football. We can directly enter the school gate, and no one cares about it. On weekends, this school comes alive, and many people can’t find a place People who play football come here, young and old. The only downside is that there is no net in the goal, and it is very troublesome to pick up the ball. By the way, the field is real grass. Later, the grass grew wildly, no one trimmed it, and the ball couldn’t roll. If we move, we will not play. It is estimated that in another ten years, the goal will be covered by weeds."

"Is he doing well now?"

"I don't know." Mu Zheng shook his head in the darkness of the car, "That's why I went to find him. While I can still walk."

"Why don't you know? Aren't the three of you good friends?"

"I don't know. After my sister passed away, everyone was very sad, but they made an appointment with each other to be strong. Li Bin also came to the hospital to see me a few times. Later, I was discharged from the hospital and returned to the court. I can feel Binbin is also very happy for me. I dare not say that Xuexue and I can heal his pain of losing a loved one, but at least the three of us are really happy when we are together, the kind of happiness that can temporarily forget how difficult life is But... Three years ago, when we went to visit Li Bin, we saw that the door of his barber shop was locked. We thought he had moved and wanted to ask a neighbor, but as you can imagine, there is no No one. I called and sent messages, but I didn’t reply. I went again after a few days and saw a note posted on the door, which was handwritten by him, leaving it for me and Xuexue, saying that we should not meet again. I don’t understand .”

"Did you make him angry?"

"Maybe. But before we lost contact, we had a good time. The three of us would occasionally have a little quarrel, but we never had an overnight feud, just a few quarrels were fine. And if anything happened, Xuexue and I would apologize immediately. We both thought about it for a long time, but we didn't think of anything to offend him."

"The problem may not be with you."

Mu Zheng has always been a very sincere person, and he will not be the kind of child who can make people angry for a long time.

"We went to see him a few times later. Once, Xuexue and I found him at home, the lights were on, and he didn't answer when he knocked on the door, so we had to leave. Some time ago, you know, I saw the mayor cup each other. On the school’s big list, I found that he was on the list of No. 54, No. 20. I was very puzzled, because I searched every school’s list last year, and Li Bin’s name was not found.”

"Maybe he didn't enter the school team last year, or he gave up playing football for some reason, but he came back this year. After my brother passed away, I didn't play a game until I was in junior high school."

"What you said is so scary." Mu Zheng trembled, "Mom is the only one in his family."

I couldn't help but kept shaking my head like I had some kind of crazy disease, saying that I was talking nonsense just now, not everyone is like me.Mu Zheng said that was not what he meant, and, if it were him, he would definitely not have the intention to play football again when he encountered such a thing.

Our knees touched in the darkness and panic.

"Speaking of which, I have to thank Brother Chuan. He helped me get Li Bin's mobile phone number." We both smiled in agreement. Brother Chuan really knows people all over the world. "He is finally willing to meet me."

"Okay. After seeing him, you have to go back to the hospital for me obediently."

Just as he was talking, the car stopped in silence, and a crooked iron door opened in the night.The driver asked for the third time whether our positioning was correct, and Mu Zheng answered no problem for the third time.The master said, I can wait for you here, if you need to use the car later.We were both too embarrassed to keep him waiting and he said it was ok.Mu Zheng said again, master, why don't you leave a cell phone number.Let's go outside first to see if we can take orders. We may have to stay in the factory area for a while. If it happens, we will take your car back.The master said yes and reported his number.Mu Zheng thanked him and said he was sorry for dragging him so far away.He smiled and waved at us, saying go ahead and be safe.So, the two of us stepped into the dark factory area, with towering silhouettes and shadows of buildings on both sides.Dark clouds hung above them, shrouding the cold air of late autumn on this quiet land.

　Hmm...what is this chapter trying to talk about...maybe family of origin?Or women's issues?Maybe both, maybe neither.But it's important that we discuss this issue rationally, without provoking parent-child antagonism or gender antagonism, and at the same time be aware that such stories are still happening today.Whether it is getting married or having a child, they are all things that need to be carefully considered. Everyone must have considerable material conditions and psychological preparations to truly enter a person's life and create a new life.In other words, you must be prepared to take responsibility and have the ability to take responsibility. Maybe this is what my sister wants to tell Mu Danhe Xuexue.If you have this ability and desire, you may be able to choose your own way of life.

　　May you all live the life you want~
　　And the next chapter will be updated tomorrow night, and the next chapter will be updated the next morning. In fact, I suggest you wait until Chapter 14 comes out and read it together, because the last two chapters are probably the lowest part of the whole novel...Of course, there will be nothing after that. Especially depressing plot, everything will be fine.

　　Hope you all don't give up!
　　
　
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