Hunter and Hussar

Chapter 50 The Unspoken Promise

The teaching buildings and dormitories after the end of the semester are really worthy of the phrase "the buildings are empty".Although it was said that there would be a parent-teacher meeting tomorrow, but because the students were not required to attend, everyone almost unanimously picked up their schoolbags and ran home after school.We will almost certainly have to wait until next year to see them again.That's fine, as long as we know we can still see each other, parting won't be so sad.At least I wasn't sad at all when Ye Ruiyang said goodbye to me. If I want to see him, I just take out my phone and make an appointment to play a game at night.Times have progressed.

"Ke Ke, Mi Le, I'm going home too. See you next semester." Tao Tao put away his things, leaving the bare bed board and walked to the door, "Thank you very much. I have made a lot of progress."

He squinted and smiled.The two of us got up and went to him, wishing their family a good time at Xiashui Lake.When you feel that you have really helped someone, that sense of joy will envelop you from the inside out, making you feel that all your efforts are worthwhile, and you have an eternal urge to make the world a better place.

"Goodbye, see you next year." Mi Le also showed a happy smile.This surprised me a little, probably because he was still not very satisfied with the final exam this time, and he didn't smile much after the results were released.This time he ranked 101st in the school, dropped out of the 70th place, [-] places "regressed" from the mid-term-in fact, it is not "regressed", there are many good students in No. [-] Middle School, the difference is one point, the ranking will fluctuate greatly.Seeing that the rankings are quite different, in fact the difference is not too big.But after all, Mi Le did so well in the mid-term exam, and for a while he couldn't help but want to be in the top ten. The result this time must have given him a little blow.Although his face was not gloomy, it was also a little helpless and depressed.I saw it all, but I didn't know how to comfort him.I have never been very good at comforting people. It is very difficult. Once I fail to speak well, it will only expose the scars of others again.So, just don't say anything, just stay with him.

Today is no exception.If I want to go home, I can go back tonight, but it’s not too late, just stay with him, it doesn’t matter whether it’s doing homework, playing games or watching movies, I will listen to him.Anyway, we won't see each other for nearly a month, so let's spend more time together when we can.

Tao Tao left.Only Mi Le and I were left in the dormitory again, but this time the other three beds were empty, and this place was completely our "two people's world".I have a deep impression of this word. Before watching "Family with Children", Xia Yu once took advantage of the family to go out, and called a little girl to play at home, and said, "This is our two-person world."The little girl said, if my dad heard what you said, he would definitely tell your dad to spank you.Seeing this passage, Xianxian laughed so hard that she kicked her legs on the sofa, but I didn't respond.In the evening, when my mother came into the room to mop the floor, Xianxian imitated the words on TV and said to her, Mom, don't disturb the two-person world between me and my brother.My mother was amused by him, but she still reluctantly became serious, saying that children should not use the word "two-person world" indiscriminately.I was actually snickering then.

"Why are you smirking?" Mi Le tilted his head to look at me, pouted, "It's weird."

"It's winter vacation." I immediately made an excuse.

"What's so good about winter vacation?" He lay down on my bed very naturally, as if he was paralyzed on his own bed, "I'm going back to my hometown to meet those relatives again, it's not interesting at all."

I suppressed my smile, sat on the edge of the bed, tapped his knee calmly, and watched his legs swing twice out of thin air.

"Hmph, it's all my dad's fault. After the midterm exam last time, he sent my report card to some family group. Now it's all right. This time, people will ask me how I did in the exam and see how he stepped down." Mi Le's eyes looked like He doesn't care. In fact, I think he is quite worried about his father.I patted his skinny thigh again, but he didn't look at me, and fiddled with his fingers, still trying to hide his anxiety.

"Those people don't know anything else. Once Chinese New Year comes, they will ask two things, how are their grades, and whether they have found a partner. It seems that there is no more important thing in the world. By the way, there is another one, which is the civil service exam. "He chuckled and told me that even if you graduated from Harvard and Yale, when you go home, someone will always tell you that you should take the civil service exam.

"Then tell them you've found someone." I joked.

"Where are you going? When you are looking for a partner, you always ask your brothers and sisters who are in college." He frowned, his mouth twisted, and suddenly he couldn't help laughing, "Besides, how can I have a partner? If you can’t make up one, you can’t say that my partner is you.”

I pretended to push him angrily, and then told him with a playful smile, when you take out two chess pieces from your pocket, they will be your "objects".We both had fun.

"I don't want it. If they really ask me if I have a date in the future, I will say it is you. If they know that my date is a boy, they must think that I have a brain problem, and they will never ask me such nonsense again. "He said with a smile, and made a face at me, "Okay, just kidding, don't take it seriously. By the way, you did well on the final exam this time, the best ever, right? What a treat!"

I did well in the exam this time, 191st.It's amazing to say that my best test was much worse than Mi Le's worst, yet he still wants me to treat him?It makes sense though, since everyone is completely different.This ranking is quite unexpected to me. Although the old class has always told me that I am in the top 101 in the school, I have never thought so myself.As far as Taotao is concerned, he looks at my grades like I look at my sister's grades.My sister is in the top 71 again this time, she is always so stable, and it is not easy for Mi Le to get close to her in the exam once.People are so different, so it would be unfair to always use one standard to measure.Moreover, people may only focus on the standard itself, and many things behind it will be forgotten.Just like Mi Le did not do so well in the exam this time, but he has always been very serious. The difference between No. 10 and No. 10 is only 31 points. However, for those troubled people in Mi Le’s family, they couldn’t see Mi Le’s hard work, nor the short 71-point gap. What they saw was Mi Le’s No longer 101, not [-], or [-], not in the top [-] of the school.

Come on, those who judge without knowing anything will go as far as they can go.

It was a little late, we didn't go to Qinhan Square, we ate a bunch of junk food at the school gate.Unhealthy is unhealthy, happiness is real happiness.It's such a blessing to be able to stuff things into your stomach irresponsibly.After wiping the oil in our mouths—maybe it was waste oil, we went back to the dormitory heartily.There is no late self-study tonight.We both sit at the desk and do our homework.Maybe my grades have improved because I study at the same table with Mi Le every weekend?In the past, I wasn’t that interested in studying, but I wasn’t that conflicted either. My homework would not be delayed for too long, but I wouldn’t finish it right away. If the teacher assigned extra homework after class, I would do it, but if I didn’t, I wouldn’t Reorganize the wrong questions or practice by yourself.After all, No. [-] Middle School is a very competitive school, and if you sail against the current, you will fall back. According to my previous study method, it may not be long before I get worse and worse in the exam.But now I'm still making a little progress.Parents must be very happy.Although I can't say how excited I am, I feel pretty good.Who doesn't want to have a good grade?

"Ke Ke, the more you write, the better." I was doing my Chinese homework, he said to me suddenly.I was startled, and subconsciously looked at what I had written, and I had written several pages inadvertently, densely packed with small black characters.Am I so patient when I do my homework?

"You know, your handwriting was very strange before, especially your composition." He said while turning the pen deftly, "You always write very big words at the beginning, almost filling the frame. Later, The writing became smaller and smaller, like a deflated ball, slowly shrinking. Do you know, I also doubted whether you were schizophrenic. Ke Ke who wrote the beginning and Ke Ke who wrote the end were not the same person. But you Now the characters are very uniform, not big and small, anticlimactic. It seems that the problem has been cured."

I stuck out my tongue.I don't know why my handwriting suddenly became less "divided", probably because of Mi Le.Every word he writes is neat and square.Maybe he slowly influenced me.A friend who writes well is always embarrassed to write his homework crookedly.

One person has such a great influence on another person, so small that things will change.However, it is not surprising.Haven't I made a huge difference in other people's lives myself?Miller has also changed me, but I am getting better and better, very happy, and very eager for this change.Maybe I can really get better?But... what's the use of me getting better?Many things can't be changed.

"Ke Ke, do you think I will become a bad person?"

After lying on the bed together, he asked softly in my ear.

"How is that possible?" was my first reaction.

"However, sometimes I feel that I have bad intentions." His voice was very calm, and the warm air that accompanied his words fell on my face, making me a little nervous.

"What do you mean?"

"Have you heard the weird rumor..."

He spoke slowly, and as soon as he said it, at least half of the hairs on my body stood up.During the military training, Ye Ruiyang used to tell ghost stories in the dormitory competition with Brother Chuan, which frightened me so much that I dared not go out to go to the bathroom at night.I have never liked to hear "campus legends".I don't know what Mi Le is going to say, I only know that there are not many "living people" on this floor of the dormitory. If there are ghosts, isn't the empty dormitory building the place where they will haunt?

Mi Le finished speaking halfway, looking at me in the dark, probably waiting for my answer.But I was terrified to death. I wanted to say that I had heard of it but I didn't dare.I'm really afraid of ghosts, and what's more, I'm not alone.Although it was not before, although Xian Xian is also younger than me, he is stronger and more courageous than me after all, as long as it is not a small thing that can fly, he can handle it for me, and I don't have to be afraid of anything.I think that Mi Le's courage should be similar to mine, and his body is much thinner than mine.What should I do if something really scary comes to my door?In the past, of course I could run away with peace of mind, or accept Xianxian's protection (he also protected other people), but now I can't.I would want to run away, I would want to run as fast as I could.But Mi Le was by my side, so I couldn't escape by myself.but what can i doNothing has happened yet, I'm so scared...

"It's just a senior in the high school department. He studies very well, but all his test scores are fake." Seeing that I didn't respond for a long time, he continued.

relieved.I kind of want to punch Miller.

"I've never heard of it. Why is it weird?"

"It is said that he has a gunslinger, and he can help him with exams and competitions. He is in the top ten in every subject in the school. He has won a lot of awards in various science competitions, including mathematics, physics and chemistry. Now he is in his third year of high school. It is said that as long as he passes the exam You can go to Tsinghua University with just one line. However, I heard that he almost failed the chemistry test in the "mini-college entrance examination" last year. Do you think it's weird? A person who can win a prize in a national competition almost fails in a simple test. pass."

"But I have also seen students who won prizes in composition competitions do not do well in Chinese. Sometimes exams and competitions are different. Simple ones are more difficult than profound ones."

"But it's still very unreasonable. He doesn't even understand the basics. How can he figure out more difficult things?"

"Isn't it good for us to talk about others behind their backs like this? Besides, we don't study chemistry until the third year of junior high."

"I understand. But if he really cheated, wouldn't it be unfair to everyone? Don't let people say a few words?"

"That's right, but if you think there is something wrong with him, go find evidence. Besides, what does this have to do with whether you will become a bad person?" I thought for a while, "Do you think it's bad to report others?"

"A little bit. If someone reports him, I feel that his life will be over." Mi Le's voice was a little timid.

"No way, he will be punished for doing bad things, and it would be wrong to let him get away with it. Didn't you just say that cheating is unfair to everyone? Why are you softening now?" His retreat was a bit irritating You want me to occupy a high point of "absolute justice", "You think, the number of prize-winning places in the competition is limited, and the number of places to go to Peking University and Tsinghua University is also limited. If he gets a place by cheating, then There will be another person who will be squeezed out by him, and that person's fate will be changed, just like what was reported in the previous news reports about impersonating someone else to go to college. Isn't this kind of person hateful?"

"I understand, you don't need to tell me." In the dark, his words were a little dull, and I seemed a little too excited.Silence fell over the empty room and the small bed in the lower bunk.

"I feel that everyone has only one chance." The low voice sounded again after a while, "One chance to be trusted. If everyone knows that he is cheating and a liar, they will definitely ignore him again." Sociality Death', that's probably what it means. So, it's hard to expose even a bad guy. You'll change the person's life completely. He might become worse, because everyone will see him as a bad guy, and he's very It's hard to believe. I don't think I can take responsibility for this outcome..."

"You don't need to be responsible for this kind of result. It's his own choice, he wants to be a bad person. Since we have decided not to be a bad person, we can't condone him. Otherwise, what is the difference between us and a bad person?"

I almost blurted it out.To this day, I am increasingly doubtful of my determination at the time—in fact, I was doubting not long after that night.Maybe things are not what Mi Le thought. If, I mean, if that person really cheated, and we expose him, maybe he will not be alienated by everyone, but will get a lot of sympathy.It might be us who are alienated, after all, we all don't like snitches, even though we've all been taught that cheating is wrong.

"You're right, you're right. So, let me ask you something."

I nodded, he put his head close to my ear, and I leaned towards him too.

"If I cheat, you know, will you report me?"

"No. But I don't want you to cheat."

"If I don't listen to you and continue to cheat, will you sue the teacher?"

"will not."

"If one day someone tells the teacher and tells the teacher that you have always known about it, just don't tell it. The teacher catches you and tells you, Copeway, I know everything, and now I will give If you have a chance, if you tell me everything about Mi Le, I will let you go, will you say it?"

"will not."

"If you don't say it, you are his accomplice and will be punished together with him."

"Punish it."

"I don't care which of you cheated, the punishment is exactly the same, very heavy."

"Punish it."

"not afraid?"

"not afraid."

"Then why are you crying?"

"I'm not crying. I'm just sleepy and yawning."

"You have a double standard."

"I don't have double standards. If I did something wrong, I should be punished. I didn't say a word."

"Then listen carefully." He turned my head around, and I saw him blinking those bright eyes, looking at me in the dark.I wiped the corners of my eyes, opened my mouth, and let out a yawn that didn't quite look like it.

"I have never cheated before, and I will never cheat in the future. Because I hate this kind of person, and because I know that if people do bad things, countless people will be implicated. Not only the victims, but also the most important people. I I don’t want to let them down, and I don’t want them to become bad people for me. So, I decided to be a good person. I have already decided, and no one can change me.”

Looking at his serious face like a primary school student who has just put on a red scarf, I am sincerely happy.

"Then what if I do something wrong?"

"Come on, what bad things can you do with your guts? Just bully and bully me."

"really?"

"Okay, I know I'm bullying you. You have such a good temper."

As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and pinched my face.I let him fiddle with it.We were not thinking of the same thing just now.Mi Le thought I was talking about who bullied whom, but that's not what I thought.I'm really timid, but it doesn't mean I can't do bad things.I've done it, and no one can change it.

"Ke Ke? Why aren't you talking? Are you sleepy?"

"Well, I'm sleepy." I yawned again, but it still didn't look like it.

"Then let's sleep. Although I still want to talk to you."

"Tell me. You don't have to get up early tomorrow anyway."

"It's my bad intentions. In fact, I hate that person not just because he might cheat. After all, no one has any evidence. Maybe I envy him or envy him a little, so I subconsciously feel that there is something wrong with him."

"It's normal to be jealous of someone. You didn't hurt him."

"But I have such thoughts, isn't it bad?"

In fact, I also have such thoughts.I have also envied or envied a person, very, very jealous.But he is my most important person, I have hurt him many times, sometimes with malice.But it never occurred to me to kill him, to make him disappear forever.It was scary to think like that, and it actually crossed my mind.My bad thoughts are much worse than Mi Le's.

"No. Miller has always been good. I like Miller."

"Huh?" He seemed a little surprised and turned his head.After a while, he told me that he also liked Copeway very much.After speaking, he turned his face away.

"However, I also seem to have discovered my little thoughts... Well, when I was talking to you just now, I was hesitant to report it. You said, if he didn't cheat, and I just went out of jealousy to pick on him, Pulling his pigtails, and still looking upright and jealous, will it really destroy him?"

"I don't know. It's kind of scary."

"Right, so you must be able to live up to your own conscience. If everyone deliberately reports others under the guise for their own self-interest, there will be no trust at all. I'm afraid I can only hide in the quilt and tell you in the end Whisper it—just like today, you can’t say anything to others at other times.”

Everyone reported on each other, rushed to make small reports, and thought they were righteous. It was a bit scary, and it was almost the end of the world to me at the time.Perhaps, I also hide my secrets and bad thoughts, and I don't want to be seen by others.But I was quite happy after hearing Mi Le's words, probably because he has absolutely trusted me, and he would trust me even in such an environment.I will trust him too.However, neither of us have experienced that kind of environment.I don't know, if the imagined situation really existed, we would still trust each other or betray each other.At least on the last night before the winter vacation, when the two of us were wrapped in the quilt and talking softly, I believe that the two of us will never betray each other.I didn't say it, but I think we've made a pact to be nice together—if I can be.

(End of this chapter)