Wandering

Chapter 2 Talks about the supernatural, and the bardo in dream contemplation
(Inscription: There is such a story. An old fairy came to a mountain village, and the villagers asked the fairy about the magic of turning stone into gold. The fairy did not refuse, and taught the villagers about turning stone into gold. After teaching the magic , He pointed to the small hillside outside the village entrance and said: "When you use the alchemy technique, you must remember that you must never think of the sheep on the hillside! Otherwise, it will not work." How? If I don’t tell you, everyone can guess that none of the villagers can do it. The sheep on the hillside is actually a pass in the cultivation of human nature.)
Some things, the more you tell yourself not to think about them, the more they try to drill into your head.Some people, you tell yourself not to look at her, but she firmly attracts your attention like a magnet.Feng Junzi told me that as long as I turn a blind eye to the girl in the classroom, nothing will happen, but unfortunately I can't do it!The more I don't want to look at her, but the more I can't help but look back at her.Because when I told myself "don't look at her", I was actually constantly reminding myself that there is such a person.This principle is very simple, but unfortunately I didn't understand it at the time, and Feng Junzi didn't tell me.I later suspected he might have done it on purpose.

The mysterious little girl always appears at dusk, and I have to meet her every night when I walk into the classroom during self-study.The existence of this little girl seems to have a relationship with me alone, and I even have an illusion that she exists because of me.Her face was pale, her eyes were blank, she didn't know what to think, just sat there, everything around her seemed to have nothing to do with her.Looking at her pitiful appearance, I sometimes think of my sister, who is the same age as her.My sympathy finally overflowed, and I wanted to help her. I wanted to know where she came from?What are you here for?But I don't know how to start.

I came very early for the evening self-study on this day, and there was no one else in the classroom.Of course I wasn't the first one because "she" was already sitting there.Out of an unknown impulse, I forgot Feng Junzi's warning, walked over to her, and said to her: "Little sister, why are you here?... Is there anything I can help you with?... Can you hear me?" Are you talking?..."

No matter how I tried to communicate with her, the little girl didn't respond, and I mustered up the courage to pat her on the shoulder.Before I stretched out my hand, a voice came from behind: "You are the body, she is the bardo, don't bother, it's useless! Didn't Mr. Feng tell you?" Turning around, Shang Yunfei didn't know what When I walked into the classroom, he saw my puzzled expression, and continued to say: "You have innate knowledge, are you not satisfied? Do you want to learn from those ignorant witches and gods, but also want to be supernatural? You don't understand the nature of mind, Pursuing supernatural powers is not a good thing.”

"Yunfei, what are you talking about? Why can't I understand a word?"

"Don't understand? Why didn't Mr. Feng tell you anything? Forget it, don't ask me, everything has karma, so you can do whatever you like." I wanted to ask something more, but Yun After Fei finished speaking, he sat down. At this time, other students had already entered the classroom one after another.

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After the self-study, I didn't go back to the dormitory directly, but chased out of the west gate and called Feng Junzi who was coming home.When Junzi Feng saw me calling him, he turned around and asked, "Shi Ye, why are you looking for me if you don't go back to sleep? Is it because of that ghost? I already told you to leave her alone."

I was a little tired from running all the way, so I panted and said, "No, no, I want to ask you a few terms. What do body, bardo, report, and ghost mean?"

Feng Junzi's expression changed: "Shang Yunfei told you, right? Damn! You're only a little kid, and he's a confidant all day long, what are you showing off!"

Feng Junzi said that Shang Yunfei was a kid, but he forgot that he was one year younger than Yunfei. I thought so in my heart but dared not say: "Yunfei told me, but he didn't explain it to me. I'm listening, I'm curious, can I ask you."

Feng Junzi: "Then tell me Yunfei's original words, how did he mention these?"

I repeated Yunfei's words, and Feng Junzi seemed a little unhappy after listening to it: "I thought I would be able to fully understand those ways, and claim that I don't seek supernatural powers, but in fact, I am more particular about supernatural powers than anyone else in my bones."

I still didn't understand Feng Junzi's words, so I asked carefully: "What's going on? What is supernatural power?"

Feng Junzi replied: "Buddhists say they don't promote supernatural powers, but they explain supernatural powers in more detail than anyone else in scriptures. Have you ever heard of five eyes and six powers?"

"never heard of that."

"That's what Buddhism says. The five eyes refer to the physical eye, the heavenly eye, the wisdom eye, the Dharma eye, and the Buddha eye. The six senses refer to the eye, ear, heart, life, spirit, and omission. The naked eye is The eyes of ordinary people, but they are different. It means that the eyes are clear and can see all the subtleties. The sky eye is different from the naked eye. It is three-dimensional. Do you understand three-dimensional?..."

I nodded, at least I have learned solid geometry.Feng Junzi went on to say: "The eye of the sky can not only see the world in front of you, but also see the very far and near. If you practice it to the extreme, you can see as long as there is in the world, no matter where it is. The eye of wisdom is different from the eye of the sky. It In the three-dimensional space, one more dimension of time is added, which can see the past and the future, but the wisdom eye can see the past and the future but cannot see through cause and effect, so it cannot change anything. The Dharma eye is a step higher. These are all eyes, so you should be able to understand the ears of the six senses. The heart is also called the heart, which refers to the ability to see people's hearts. As for the fate, it is superstitious It’s said, Buddhism has the theory of reincarnation and reincarnation. Mingtong can know fate. It is similar to Huiyan but there are differences. Wisdom Eye emphasizes knowing the past and future, Mingtong emphasizes the cycle of cause and effect..."

"What did you say? Superstition?" Hearing this, I couldn't help interrupting. Feng Junzi actually said that Mingtong is a superstition when he talked about supernatural powers. Does that mean that other supernatural powers are not superstitions?Why are other supernatural powers superstitious instead of superstitious?I am puzzled.

"Don't interrupt, listen to me! Among the six powers, there is also the power of the gods. This kind of supernatural power is very wonderful and contains a lot of content. For example, disappearing here and appearing there is actually an escape technique... In short, Chinese mythology Most of what the gods in the legend can do is in Shenjingtong. Shi Ye, am I missing something?"

I nodded: "Junzi Feng, you didn't talk about Buddha's eye and Oujintong just now."

Feng Junzi also nodded and said: "I really didn't talk about this one-eye-one-pass, because I always suspected that the Buddha's Eye and Leujintong were fabricated! They were fabricated to belittle Taoism. The Buddha's eye is above the Dharma eye, and the Leujin is in the god Above the realm, gods will never be able to compare with the supernatural powers of Buddha! Damn it, when I am happy someday, I will also write a scripture book, make him have all kinds of eyes, and add god eyes and fairy eyes on top of Buddha eyes ..."

Junzi Feng’s words were entangled, so I had to interrupt again: “Gentleman Feng, your scriptures are slowly being written, but you haven’t told me what is called the physical body, the bardo body, the Baotong, and the ghost.”

Feng Junzi: "The physical body refers to the human body. You will know it when you pat yourself on the back. Buddhists say it is a stinky skin and don't take it seriously, but the human body in the way of alchemy is the innate furnace and the foundation of practice. Zhong The yin body seems to be a Tantric saying, and I’m not too clear about it. He said the bardo body and I said the yin god. In your opinion, it’s a ghost! Just treat it as a ghost and understand. The supernatural powers mentioned just now refer to classification. Then there is also a version of the supernatural powers in Buddhism according to their origins, which are five kinds of Baotong, Xiutong, Yitong, Yaotong, and Guitong. Baotong refers to innate supernatural powers. For example, in your case, Buddha People talk about reincarnation and believe that being born with supernatural powers is the karma of the previous life, so it is called Baotong. Xiutong refers to the supernatural powers obtained through various techniques. Yitong refers to the supernatural powers obtained by relying on various means or props, emphasizing It’s hard to understand the use of foreign objects or rituals. Think about it, there are many fortune-tellers on the beach in the west of Fenghuang Bridge. It is the supernatural powers obtained through the help of demons and ghosts, many people are possessed by monsters or ghosts, or communicate with them... Shi Ye, do you understand!"

I was fascinated by listening, Feng Junzi suddenly called me, and I quickly replied: "I understand, but why is Mingtong a superstition?"

Feng Junzi sneered: "Have you heard of the Six Paths of Reincarnation? It is also a Buddhist saying."

"never heard of that."

Feng Junzi: "The six realms refer to the realm of humanity, the realm of Asura, the realm of hungry ghosts, the realm of hell, the realm of animals, and the realm of heaven and humanity. The realm of heaven and humanity in the six realms is actually about the gods in Chinese mythology. But the Buddha in Buddhism jumps out of the six realms. They don't enter reincarnation, but heaven and man have five decays, and they will perish sooner or later, no different from animals. Although they talk about the equality of all beings, they are not animals!"

Hearing this, I finally understood a little bit. There seems to be a little sectarianism or "academic dispute" between Feng Junzi and Shang Yunfei.I can't get in the way of any arguments between them, and I dare not go back and tell Yunfei what he said.I asked again: "Then are all the supernatural powers you just said true?"

Feng Junzi smiled: "Those are all sayings in Buddhism. In fact, the supernatural power is vast, so how can it be so dogmatic? As the saying goes, the law is boundless, and it is more than mere five eyes and six senses. Since you asked today, I will let you open your eyes. See that rock?"

Feng Junzi pointed to a blue stone on the side of the road and asked me, and I nodded.He suddenly grabbed my hand and said in a low voice: "Use my supernatural powers." This sentence again!I felt my whole body go limp again.The stone suddenly seemed to come alive. It jumped on the ground twice, and then flew towards the sky with a bounce. Junzi Feng stretched out his other hand to catch it.

"I don't have a Qingming mirror, so I can use this stone as a magic weapon." Feng Junzi said to himself, put the blue stone in his pocket, turned around and said to me: "See clearly, this is the Taoist 'imperial object' The spell, what kind of magical power do you think it is?"

"Wow! That's amazing, can you teach me?"

"Actually, you can do it too, but you just don't know how to do it. I'm teaching you this now, which is no different from teaching you slow suicide. Spells need to consume mana or the innate vitality of a person like you. In fact, if you think about it carefully, It’s not magical at all, it’s even superfluous, it’s optional.”

"why?"

Feng Junzi went to the side of the road again, and gently picked up another stone: "If you want to pick a stone, just walk over and pick it up. If you have to use the magical power of imperial objects, you will consume a thousand times the energy. Don't you think it's unnecessary? Besides There are only a few people out of [-] who can practice Taoism to this level, and the vast majority of people will not be able to reach this level in their entire lives. Even if some people reach this level, I am afraid it will take a hundred years of hard work. The stones in the world Wouldn't it be absurd to choose this way! Buddhism doesn't promote supernatural powers, but there are actually reasons for them, do you understand?"

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I didn't understand Shang Yunfei's words. I understood Feng Junzi's words at first, but then I became confused again.It takes a hundred years of hard work to pick a pebble from the ground, and there is no one in a million!So how old is Feng Junzi this year?He's only a teenager!Although Feng Junzi said that supernatural powers are not magical or even dispensable, I still hope that I can pick a stone like him, but unfortunately he is unwilling to teach me.When I went to sleep at night, I kept thinking wildly, and gradually fell asleep in the wild thinking.

I had a dream.I dreamed that I was standing on a high platform, waving my hands.As I waved my hands, colorful stones flew around the sky in front of my eyes.After a closer look, it turned out that these stones were not flying randomly, but controlled by my hands. My thoughts were everywhere, and these colored stones flew in various arcs in the air like butterflies piercing flowers.I was so happy that these stones suddenly lost control, and they all hit me head-on and face-to-face.I was startled and woke up suddenly.

It turned out that this was a dream.I feel that the air in the dormitory is very stuffy, and it is so depressing that people can't breathe.Everyone else was in a deep sleep, and no one noticed that I woke up from the dream. I put on my clothes and walked out in a daze.The corridor was quiet, and the moonlight came in through the window. I looked up and found that it was a full moon night.The full moon hung quietly in the sky, as if calling me mysteriously, I followed the moonlight step by step out of the dormitory building, and came to the quiet campus.

I walked aimlessly, and unknowingly came to the front of the teaching building.This ancient building built in 1955 is like a silent monster lying there, and the windows are like black eyes.It's late at night, is that little girl still there?Would she feel scared in this lonely night sky building alone?Strange to say, I thought about whether a "ghost" would be afraid, but I didn't think about whether I, a "person", should also be afraid?

I walked up the stairs step by step, and the darkness under my feet gave a hollow echo, and the end of this echo was like sighs from afar.I went to the classroom, opened the door, and looked inside.The wooden door made a dry and hoarse sound, which was very harsh in the silence.The little girl was still sitting in the classroom. Unexpectedly, the sound of the door opening startled her.When I looked into the door, she also raised her dark eyes to look at me, and asked in a timid voice: "Who are you—?"

This sound woke me up, and I sat up from the bed suddenly, almost hitting my head on the bed board of the upper bunk—it turned out that this was still a dream!After waking up, it was still a dream. This is an experience I have never had before. I even suspected that I was still in a dream. I pinched my arm with my hand. The painful feeling told me that I was really awake this time.In the dark, I broke out in a cold sweat.

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This dream is not the end, but another beginning.From this day on, I have the same dream almost every night. I always dream that I go to the empty classroom, push open the door, and meet the eyes of the little girl, and hear her ask: "Who are you?" ?” All dreams end here, without exception, I will wake up at this time, and I will be sweating after waking up.

The strange thing is that although I have the same dream every day, I don't realize it's a dream while I'm in it.Only when I woke up did I suddenly wake up to this dream again, so I repeated this immersive torture over and over again.I have this dream every day, and I see that silent girl every day during evening self-study.I may not feel anything for a day or two, but after a long time, I gradually become a little dazed.

I began to feel low in energy and felt chills all over my body. I often felt dizzy and dizzy when I sat there in class, and my face became more and more ugly.It was not Shang Yunfei or Feng Junzi who first noticed that I was abnormal, but our homeroom teacher Liu.One day during the self-study class, I propped my temples with my hands and felt drowsy. The words on the book in front of me turned into tadpoles swimming around.At this time, a gentle hand was placed on my forehead, and then I heard Teacher Liu's voice: "Shi Ye, what's the matter with you these days? You have been feeling very uncomfortable, follow me to the infirmary for a check-up Are you okay?" I raised my head to see Teacher Liu's concerned eyes.

"No, it's nothing. I didn't sleep well last night. I'm a little sleepy today." I stammered my answer.I don't know why, but among all the teachers, I get nervous when I see Teacher Liu, especially nervous!It's not because she is strict with the students, on the contrary she is the gentlest to the students, and it's not because she pays special attention to me, I'm just an ordinary student who doesn't stand out in the class.But the strange thing is that as soon as I stood in front of Teacher Liu, I felt nervous, at a loss, and couldn't speak well.Maybe it's because she is our class teacher. The class teachers I met since I was a child are all very powerful.

Teacher Liu is very young, the youngest of all the teachers in the first grade class, five years older than me, 23 this year, just graduated from the Chinese Department of Wucheng Normal University in the summer, teaching Chinese in the third and fourth classes of the first grade.Just after graduating from Normal University, I can teach in Wucheng Middle School. On the one hand, I must have been a particularly outstanding student in college, and on the other hand, I must have a certain relationship at home.Of course, I don't know these things. My first impression of Teacher Liu is that she is very beautiful.Growing up in a mountain village, I had no impression of beauties in the city. When I saw Teacher Liu for the first time, I thought that the legendary beauties were like this, right?But I can't tell where her beauty is.Although I am not young, the concept of the opposite sex is still very poor.

After hearing what I said, Teacher Liu still insisted, "You have been like this for several days. Could it be that you can't sleep well every day? Did something happen at home? If so, tell the teacher."

"No, I'm fine at home, really, really fine."

"Then you should go to the infirmary with me. It's not a bad thing to have a look. Come, come with me." Teacher Liu's voice was gentle and sweet, but there was also an irrefutable authority in the tone of the students.She pulled my arm, and I stood up involuntarily, and followed Teacher Liu to the school infirmary.The school doctor did not find out any problems, but told me to pay attention to rest and nutrition.Teacher Liu was still worried, and told me: "If you still feel unwell, go to the city hospital to see, and... If you have any difficulties at home, don't be shy and tell me."

When I came out of the infirmary, get out of class was over. After Teacher Liu left, I wanted to find Mr. Feng and talk to him about the things in my dream, but I ran into Shang Yunfei head-on.In my opinion, these two big greedy people are all masters, so I quickly greeted Shang Yunfei, told him about my strange dreams in the past few days, and asked him to help explain.

After listening to my words, Yunfei looked as usual, and he was not particularly surprised. After thinking for a while, he said to me: "You seem to have gone astray, but it doesn't matter, as long as your heart is pure, you will be fine. Don't think about it, and you will be fine." Don't deliberately think about it, it will be fine after a while. Since it is a dream, treat it as a dream."

His answer still didn't reassure me, so I asked again: "Is there any way to stop me from having this dream?"

Yunfei didn't answer but asked instead: "You want to do it yourself, what can I do! Tell me the truth, do you really think that you don't want to have this dream? Or is it something else?"

"Actually, what I want to know the most is—what did the little girl in the dream want to say to me? It's a pity that I wake up every time I go there." I lowered my head and finally told the truth.

Shang Yunfei: "That's right. This is where your mind is attached. If you let go of it, you'll be fine. Ordinary people just hold on to it, but you have a natural retribution, and you can see the bardo state in your dreams. But I don’t know that emptiness of self-nature is the way of liberation, so I get deeper and deeper. To untie the bell, you need someone to tie it. If you can’t do it yourself, I’ll help you find Mr. Feng, he’s the one who caused the trouble.”

(End of this chapter)