What do you want in life

Chapter 42 Can the Oath of the Past Become Forever (21)
"Yes, it's a contract." Liao Fenglan smiled sadly, "27 years ago, I worked as an accountant in a cooperative in my hometown, and accidentally caused a catastrophe. I needed a lot of money to fill the hole, otherwise, I would have to go to jail. .I asked people to borrow money everywhere, but in those days, no one was rich, and even fewer people were willing to lend me money. Seeing that the deadline for payment was coming, I was burning with anxiety."

"I don't know whether I should thank God, but at that time, someone connected me and introduced me to a man from other provinces who came to do business here... That man is your father, Shen Nanzhang."

This old story must have been buried in Liao Fenglan's heart for a long time. When she slowly narrated it, it was like a rusty bridle, and the water could not flow out smoothly. She always had to talk for a while and pause for a while.

However, no matter how uncomfortable the way she narrated, Shen Juncheng could only listen silently, because it was everything about his life experience.

"After we met, your father immediately expressed his willingness to lend me money, but...he has a condition...that I give him a child..."

Shen Juncheng's hand holding the cup tightened for no reason, and he leaned forward slightly, trying to suppress the inexplicable uneasiness.

"Besides agreeing to his conditions, I couldn't think of any solution to my predicament at that time, so... and then there was you..."

Shen Juncheng slowly raised his face, "You mean, my biological father, he, who is he?" He couldn't believe his inner judgment.

"He is your current father...Shen Nanzhang. He said his wife is in poor health and unable to have children, but...he wants to have a child of his own, so..."

Shen Juncheng felt the blood in his body rushing to his brain at an uncontrollable speed, and his face flushed instantly!

This messy relationship made him unable to face up to his own existence. What is he?Is someone else's adopted son?Is it the bargaining chip for the woman in front of me to alleviate the crisis?Or is it just a product of a contract?

In a trance, he saw himself stand up unsteadily from a yellow-yellow contract, that scene was too absurd!
Seeing Shen Juncheng's shocked and angry expression, Liao Fenglan's heart was overwhelmed by guilt, she lowered her head deeply, and gradually sobbed, "I'm sorry! I'm sorry... I thought it was just a deal... He and I, We each get what we need...I didn't expect that after sending you out, I would be so miserable...I miss you all the time...I ran to find your father, I begged him to give you back to me, I will try my best Do everything possible to return the money owed to him, as long as he is willing to return you to me..."

Shen Juncheng gasped for breath, unable to say anything.

Liao Fenglan held her breath, and swallowed back her more violent crying. In front of her son who was full of shame and anger, she never dared to vent her emotions wantonly.

"Of course he turned me down, he beat me to it with a very simple sentence, 'What are you going to feed him? Or do you want to take him to jail?' I just watched you being taken away, pretending to be someone else My child is taken away by the Shen family as an adopted son, my heart is bleeding, but I can't do anything..."

Shen Juncheng stood up suddenly, with such force that he overturned the chair behind him!

He really didn't want to listen to it anymore, this story not only made him worry, but also made him feel extremely dirty!
He really regretted why he had to lift that fig leaf and see the ugly truth that was crawling with lice inside!He would rather be an abandoned child not wanted by his parents than be the product of such a disgusting transaction!
"Juncheng——" Liao Fenglan yelled, and at the same time jumped out, her sudden behavior made her lose her balance, and she fell to the floor with her chair!

Hearing the thrilling sound behind him, Shen Juncheng had to stop running towards the door. When he turned around and looked down, he saw Liao Fenglan struggling to get up from the ground. Her left cheek was probably accidentally covered by the cumbersome decorations beside her. When it was wiped, a little blood came out.

Shen Juncheng hesitated for a moment, but he refused to bear it. His anger eased a little, and he walked back helplessly and leaned over to help her up.

Liao Fenglan raised her red eyes, and murmured to Shen Juncheng: "I'm sorry, Juncheng... I'm sorry..." Even though she also understood that a few words of "I'm sorry" can't make up for anything at all.

Shen Juncheng let out a heavy breath, the shock and distortion in his heart finally calmed down in front of Liao Fenglan's embarrassed appearance, he was silent for a moment, and sat down opposite her as before.

After regaining her composure, Liao Fenglan said again: "In the first three years after you left me, I often ran to find you secretly, but your father and your adoptive mother regarded you too strictly, and I couldn't get close at all. Later I went to Please father, please let me see you... I have kept my request to a minimum, but he still won't agree to me. Every time I go to him, he will give me a sum of money and persuade me to forget about you , find someone to live with...Your father, in fact, is not a bad person...Later, I got married and gave birth to a child, and finally...dead of wanting to bring you back. "

Liao Fenglan sighed: "Juncheng, I don't expect you to forgive me. Sometimes, when I wake up in the middle of the night, I can't even forgive myself... If time can turn back and let me choose again, I... I would rather Go to jail, and you won't sign that ridiculous agreement with your father. Because... because the feeling of being separated from your own flesh and blood is too painful..."

In her confession and tears, Shen Juncheng felt that his heart could no longer remain firm, and the anger just now was extinguished as if a basin of water had been poured on it.

Calm down and think about it, what's the use of being angry?Nothing can go back to where it never started.

He stretched out his hand, took out a few tissues from the tissue box by the table, and silently handed them to Liao Fenglan who was in tears.

"Thank you, thank you." Liao Fenglan murmured, took the tissue from Shen Juncheng, and wiped her face, but tears flooded her eyes again and again like a spring.

When Shen Nanzhang knocked on the door and came in, Liao Fenglan had already calmed down a lot, and there was no abnormality on Shen Juncheng's face, but his expression was indifferent to his father who walked in slowly.

Liao Fenglan was sincerely grateful to Shen Nanzhang, "Thank you for finally allowing me to fulfill my long-cherished wish for many years——letting me meet Juncheng."

Shen Nanzhang waved his hands and sat down beside them.

"Juncheng," Liao Fenglan called him, "your father was right... At that time, if you followed me, you could only live a life of ups and downs, and I couldn't give you anything... Seeing that you can achieve what you are today, I'm happy, really..."

Liao Fenglan's pale cheeks really showed a blush of relief and joy, it was by no means a relaxed and pure expression, it was a flower that can only bloom after going through many pains and sufferings, no matter how beautiful it is, it can't hide its desolation.

On the way back, the father and son were as silent as when they came.

When the car drove back to their city, there was a drizzle in the sky.

The drizzle wet the car windows, and the fog was thick, blurring his vision. Shen Juncheng could no longer pretend to appreciate the scenery outside the window to avoid the conversation with his father.

He flexed his wrist, and from the corner of his eye, he saw Shen Nanzhang with his eyes closed, as if he was deeply asleep, but he knew that his father was not asleep. Every time he was in trouble, he liked to let himself fall into a kind of vacuum The state can make him clear his mind.

For a long time, it was Wu Qiuyue who controlled Shen Juncheng the most, but Shen Nanzhang had a more profound influence on him. When he was a child, he was Shen Juncheng's safe haven from his mother's punishment; when he was studying, he was Shen Juncheng's best instructor; When he grew up, when he encountered difficult interpersonal relationships or business troubles, his father's tolerance, love, rationality, and prudence all gave him the greatest help, and this is what he admired most about his father.

He quietly turned his face away and carefully looked at his father's face. In terms of appearance, he hardly inherited much of his father's genes. He was thinner and more ordinary than himself.

Is he wrong?He just wanted to have a child of his own.

But should he do that?Is that ethical?

But even if he did something wrong, what qualifications and position do I have to judge him?From the father's point of view, he is qualified, he is worthy of Shen Juncheng!

Shen Juncheng's thoughts suddenly turned to his adoptive mother Wu Qiuyue.

Who is the real victim in this incident?
Liao Fenglan?Or Wu Qiuyue?These two women, who is more pitiful?
In repeated thoughts, Shen Juncheng found that his balance was tilting uncontrollably towards Wu Qiuyue.She is just a poor childless person, it shouldn't be her fault, perhaps, she doesn't even know what her husband has done behind her back!She sure doesn't know!

Shen Juncheng was suddenly full of pity for Wu Qiuyue at this moment.

And more importantly, her kindness to him in nurturing him for 26 years has already surpassed Liao Fenglan's kindness in giving birth to him.

Although Wu Qiuyue is strict with him, and sometimes even unreasonable, he still cannot deny that she is a good mother, she loves him and protects him with all she has, so that even in the age of material scarcity , and never worry about food, clothing and toys.

And—he is all her expectation and hope, even though this love and expectation are so heavy that he is a little out of breath.

He asked himself, should he love her more, or hate her more?He couldn't answer himself.

In the chaotic thoughts, Shen Nanzhang opened his eyes as if he had sensed it, and caught Shen Juncheng's eyes glued to his face.

"Is it raining?" Shen Nanzhang said, turning his head to look out the window.

"Mom knows...do I am your own son?" Shen Juncheng couldn't bear it any longer, and blurted out.

"No, she doesn't know." Shen Nanzhang didn't turn around, and there was not even a trace of turmoil in his voice.

"Why did you bring me to see Liao...she?"

Shen Nanzhang turned his eyes around, "Because this is her greatest wish."

He closed his eyes, with a look of tiredness in his expression, "For many years, Liao Fenglan and I have been playing a game of cat and mouse. She came to me several times to get you back. I can only move again and again, and from time to time I have to take You hid at a relative's house, and because of this, your mother was worried all day long, and part of the reason why she treated you so strictly was because you were frightened by Liao Fenglan when you were young."

"Then she...hasn't she ever thought of sending me back to others?"

Shen Nanzhang smiled awkwardly, "How could she be willing, you have already become her heart—because you look...too much like her."

Shen Juncheng was startled, and he suddenly understood something, "Dad, you chose Auntie... Liao because she looks like mother?"

Shen Nanzhang slowly opened his eyes, stared at his son for a long time, and then said softly, "Juncheng, your mother's biggest regret in her life is not being able to bear her own child. And this regret...is caused by me..."

Shen Juncheng gasped, "Why?"

"On the morning when she had an accident, she blamed me for a small incident. I should have let her go. It happened that there was a little trouble at work. I was in a bad mood, so I had a big fight with her. I ran back to my mother's house in anger. That night, I was supposed to pick her up, but I didn't go... I didn't expect that she would have an accident the next morning... Looking back now, I really shouldn't be there Get angry with her then."

After Shen Nanzhang finished feeling, he suddenly looked at Shen Juncheng and smiled bitterly, "But in that case, there won't be you."

Shen Juncheng didn't think this joke was funny at all.

"I met Liao Fenglan purely by chance. If I hadn't met her, maybe your mother and I would really adopt someone else's child, but after meeting her, everything changed... She looks so much like your mother But I...I always wanted a child of my own." Shen Nanzhang sighed, and turned his face to the window with complicated eyes.

Shen Juncheng didn't know what he was thinking, but fell silent with him until his voice sounded low again.

"Liao Fenglan signed an agreement with me, but repeatedly wanted to break the contract. At first, I was very annoyed, and even thought about teaching her a lesson, but in the end I didn't do anything... Actually, whether it is your mother or Liao Fenglan, it is Poor people, I am sorry for them. Now that we are old, we don’t want to be entangled with the past grievances. Now that you are an adult and know your own life experience, I let you meet your biological mother and fulfill her wish. "

"Juncheng, when a person is young and energetic, he often does some stupid things without knowing it. Only when he is old and calm, will he gradually realize what is the most important thing. For me and your mother For me, the most important thing is family affection.”

Shen Juncheng remained silent.

"I'm old. I'm in my sixties. I can't stand the trouble. I just want to have a stable and peaceful old age. I can see you by my side, and I can hand over my career to you with confidence. Also, if your mother can Live a good and healthy life. As long as I can satisfy these, I have nothing else to ask for."

"... How is Mom's body?" Shen Juncheng asked awkwardly.

After a long time, Shen Nanzhang's voice was heard slowly, "She recently went for a physical examination, and Lao Liu said that the situation is not very good."

Shen Juncheng's heart tightened, and he suddenly raised his head to stare at his father.

"Further examination is needed, but it is very likely...esophageal cancer...has reached the middle and late stages."

There was a sudden thunder above his head, and Shen Juncheng's seven souls and six souls were blown away, "How...how could this be?"

"If it is confirmed that an operation is needed immediately, and if the operation goes well and there are no other accidents, maybe I can live for another three to five years, otherwise..." Shen Nanzhang finally looked at his son with obvious sadness in his eyes, " Juncheng, if you want to be filial, there is still time."

Shen Juncheng was completely stunned.

The car rushed all the way to Shen's house.

Shen Juncheng stumbled upstairs and pushed open the door of Wu Qiuyue's room. He was shocked to see that her mother's black hair seemed to have turned gray overnight, her face was haggard, and her figure was thin.

Wu Qiuyue struggled tremblingly to get up on the bed, and when she saw Shen Juncheng coming, she was surprised and happy at once, but tears rolled wildly in her eyes.

Shen Juncheng walked to her bed step by step, his feet softened in regret and helplessness, and he knelt down in front of his mother with a plop.

Fresh and attractive plums are newly released in the supermarket.

Guo Jia stood in front of the fruit stall and hesitated for a long time. The price of plums is very expensive, and Han Xiaoyu is not used to sour food. Seeing herself eating heartily, while Xiaoyu frowned at her strange appearance, she regretted and wanted to laugh.

Counting her fingers, Xiaoyu has been living with her for more than a month. With this guy around, her life is getting better and better, and Xiaoyu is quite conscientious, even though Guo Jia doesn't want him to pay the rent. But every time the landlord comes to ask for the rent, water, electricity and gas, as long as he is there, he will definitely pay the money without saying a word, and usually brings delicious food home every three days.

The two of them live together as a group, and in the eyes of outsiders, although they are a bit awkward and awkward, they feel comfortable and comfortable with each other, as warm as buddies.

After much deliberation, Guo Jia finally gave up on the plums and went to pick the equally lovely mangoes in the nearby basket.

"Guo Jia?" Someone beside her called her uncertainly.

Guo Jia turned his head and saw that it was Li Zhen. His eyes widened immediately, and he shouted, "Hey, why is it you? You are a rare old man!"

Li Zhen touched his chin with a smile, "Am I very old? Why are you here and moved?"

"No way! The supermarkets in our area are too small to buy fresh goods. Today I got off work early, so I went to the big supermarkets in the urban area to go shopping-by the way, I heard that you have been promoted to manager, congratulations! I I've always been optimistic about you!"

"Thank you!" Li Zhen was a little embarrassed, "You changed the company, are you doing well?"

"Very good."

In front of his old colleagues, Guo Jia was unwilling to spit out the bitterness of the new company. He only chose to talk proudly. On Xiaoying.

"Han Xiaoying... um... is she okay?"

"not good."

Li Zhen was surprised when he heard this, "What happened to her?"

Seeing his pale expression, Guo Jia couldn't help feeling emotional. It would be great if Xiaoying could follow him wholeheartedly. Li Zhen is a down-to-earth person, and she is devoted to her, and there are not so many inexplicable family conflicts to hinder the two of them. emotion.

Guo Jia sighed, "She's gone, no one knows where she went."

"How could this be?" Li Zhen muttered to himself, "Isn't she very good in the new company?"

Guo Jia stared at him, "Did she call you?"

"No, cough, it's me... I will call her occasionally." Li Zhen, who told the truth, seemed a little embarrassed, but he could only get the information he wanted from Guo Jia, "I called her cell phone in the past few days. I haven't been able to get through, and I don't know what happened to her, so, cough, I just met you here, so I thought of asking you."

"You are so infatuated!" Guo Jia murmured in her heart. She wanted to tell him the truth, but on second thought, she decided to forget it. Anyway, it's impossible for these two people. It's better to save one thing than to do more. Besides, let Li Zhen listen carefully. The stories of Xiaoying and Shen Juncheng may not be enjoyment either.

"I don't know either!" Guo Jia sighed, "This time she left too badly, she didn't even say hello to me."

"She didn't even tell you before she left?" Li Zhen opened his eyes in disbelief.

"That's right!" Guo Jia lazily replied, "Maybe something goes wrong, and you don't want to tell others, so why don't you just go to another place to relax for a while."

She tossed a bright orange into the air, then reached out to catch it, and predicted optimistically, "I believe, she will come back soon."

"How long has she been gone?" Li Zhen put his hands in his trouser pockets, frowned, looking thoughtful.

"Why are you asking so carefully? Do you want to find her?" Guo Jia stared at Li Zhen curiously with widened eyes.

"I...just ask." Li Zhen was a little embarrassed, but obviously didn't want to give up. He fixed his gaze on Guo Jia's face, waiting for her to answer.

Guo Jia blinked her eyes and looked up to the sky for a while, before saying, "It's not long, it's only about a week. I guess, she should join a tour group and go out to visit the mountains and rivers."

Li Zhen bowed his head and remained silent, as if he was deep in thought.

"Hello!" Guo Jia nudged him, and now it was her turn to interrogate Li Zhen, "Have you returned, Mr. Shen?"

"...Huh?" Li Zhen came to his senses as if waking up from a dream, "You mean Mr. Shen? You're back. You just returned to the company yesterday."

(End of this chapter)