What do you want in life

Chapter 41 Can the Oath of the Past Become Forever (20)
At night, a thick curtain is drawn, and a good show is about to be staged in this city that never sleeps. The people passing by are curiously looking at the two men sitting side by side on the steps smoking a cigarette. There must be all kinds of speculations, and Shen Juncheng didn't care about this strange look at all. The only thing he cares about now is one thing, and that's why he came to find Xiaoyu—where did Xiaoying go?
Hearing that Xiaoying had left, Xiaoyu couldn't figure it out for a while, and stammered a bit and asked, "What do you mean my sister is gone? Where can she go?"

Shen Juncheng shook his head exhaustedly, "I don't know, I can't find her."

"Is she joking with you? Playing a game of peek-a-boo?" Xiaoyu guessed wildly, but soon even she felt that such an idea was absurd. Xiaoying has always been a girl who knows how to measure.

"Where can she go?" Xiaoyu looked puzzled.

"She didn't call you?" Shen Juncheng turned his face to look at him, but he had already got the answer from Xiaoyu's inexplicable expression.

"No!" Xiaoyu answered him decisively after tossing his head a few times, "If she calls me, I will of course advise her not to leave! Oh, really, I just solved my troubles, and I can do it with great difficulty." She came out to hang out again, and something happened to her again! But this, this is too inexplicable, you guys, did you quarrel?"

Shen Juncheng's eyes froze, and he turned his gaze elsewhere. He shook his head, "No, but...my father has looked for her..."

Xiaoyu stared at his eyes without moving, but there was a clear expression inside.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoyu," Shen Juncheng lowered his head, "I...have wronged your sister again."

"You... Alas!" Xiaoyu unexpectedly did not turn his face, and probably understood Shen Juncheng's powerlessness from his decadent face.After a while, he shrugged and said: "But I really don't know where she will go. How about this, I'll call Guo Jia and ask..."

"No need." Shen Juncheng interrupted him, "I've already called, and Guo Jia doesn't know anything. I even asked her colleagues one by one, and no one knows where she went...Xiaoying left At that time, no one was notified."

He had known for a long time that if Xiaoying really wanted to leave him, she would definitely not reveal her whereabouts to anyone he could find, but Xiaoyu was her younger brother, so he had to try his luck no matter what.However, he could only be disappointed in the end.

Han Xiaoying, why is your heart so cruel?He could only chew this sentence repeatedly in his heart bitterly and plaintively.

This time Xiaoyu finally realized the seriousness of the situation, "Brother Shen, then, do you think we should call the police?"

Shen Juncheng smiled wryly, "If you feel the need to report it, then report it, but I don't think it's useful, she... is trying to avoid me on purpose."

"Then what should we do?" Xiaoyu scratched his scalp, looking very headache.

"Forget it, I'll figure it out myself." Shen Juncheng threw away half of the cigarette butt in his hand, and stood up.

"Brother Shen, haven't you had dinner yet?" Xiaoyu also got up quickly, and asked with concern, "Let me take you to dinner first, and we will discuss while eating, what do you think?"

Shen Juncheng turned his back to him and shook his head, "I'm leaving, I will go to City H to look for it in two days, maybe she went there..."

He smiled helplessly. Although the hope was slim, he still didn't want to let go of any possibility, "If she calls you, please remember to notify me!"

"...Hey, okay, brother Shen, you have to be careful!"

Xiaoyu looked at his back as he went away, as if in a dream, he took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and dialed Xiaoying's number in disbelief, but it was also turned off.

"What are you doing!"

He grunted, and was about to turn back to go in. After thinking about it, he was still unwilling, so he dialed another number, and this time he got through.

"Sister, he came to look for me." Xiaoyu's tone showed distress, "Is this really necessary? I think Brother Shen is very pitiful."

"..." The phone was silent for a long while before Xiaoying's voice came slowly, "Xiaoyu, don't tell anyone that you can find me... including Guo Jia."

Xiaoyu rolled his eyes towards the sky, and collected himself, "You and Brother Shen really have no possibility at all?"

"..."

"Perhaps, when Brother Shen's family is over, why don't you and him..."

Xiaoying interrupted him sadly: "Xiaoyu, I will not joke with my own happiness."

Xiaoyu fell silent.

"Okay." He sighed softly, "As long as you don't regret it in the future."

Two days later, Shen Juncheng came back from City H with nothing, but his heart was filled with deeper despair.

After calming down, he felt that his behavior was very stupid. Even if Xiaoying really went to City H, where should he go to find her?

In a big city, there is a vast sea of ​​people, and there is no target or assistance. Finding someone who is hiding is like looking for a needle in a haystack.

He quit his house and job in City H, and the foreign executives tried their best to keep them, but for Shen Juncheng, it was meaningless to stay alone in that lonely city.

After returning, Shen Juncheng huddled in Xiaoying's rented room all day long. The landlord once came to ask for the key, and Shen Juncheng gave her a sum of money to postpone it for a month. The landlord has not yet found a new tenant, so naturally he agreed without saying a word. up.

The rent for short-term rentals is much higher than that for long-term rentals. Shen Juncheng has no objection to this, but the landlord asked him, "Mr. Now sign for a few more months, and I can lower the rent for you."

"No, thank you." Shen Juncheng rejected her bluntly. At this moment, he was unable to make any proper considerations about the future. Whenever he thought about it, his heart ached, because the future he expected was not here.

His life was so down and out that he completely lost the rules, no home, no job, no expectations, looking at his lifeless bearded face in the mirror, he felt that he was no different from a walking dead.

It was a new day, but to him it was someone else's newness, and his time had stagnated in the past.

Shen Juncheng slept until the sun was high before slowly getting up from the bed. Without washing up, he went directly to the balcony, sat down on the small stool, took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, clicked it, and smoked hungrily. There was already a pile of cigarette butts piled up under his feet. In the past two days, he was almost eating cigarettes.

He was full of anger, and with this anger, he wanted to mess up the sky and the earth!However, when he finished messing around, he found that nothing had changed. Xiaoying hadn't come back, and his parents were still living on the original track. He was the only one left with nothing.

He has lived for nearly 27 years, and he has been hesitant and depressed, but he has never been so desperate like this time. In the vast world, he doesn't know where he should go.

He coughed painfully in the smoke he created, thinking to himself that if he continued to smoke like this unrestrainedly, it might not be long before his lungs would be scrapped.

If it's abolished, let it be abolished, he has long been ashamed and disheartened.

Many years ago, Xiaoying once asked him, how does smoking taste?He replied, not very good, very choking.Many years later, he re-evaluated cigarettes, and the same sentence--not very good.

However, in addition to this not so good, it has another benefit, which can help him relax the nerves that are constantly tense, and give him the comfort he needs most at this time but is the most lacking.

The doorbell rang several times before he realized its existence dully. He thought it was the landlord again. The old lady was too enthusiastic and would come to chat with him from time to time. In fact, he didn't need such care.

He stood up, shook off the ash from his body, scratched his matted hair again, and walked over to open the door.

Standing outside the door was not the landlord, but Shen Nanzhang and Cao Wenyu.

Shen Juncheng froze by the door, his good upbringing for a long time forced him not to let the slightly rude "What are you doing here?" rushed out, after a short pause, he called out "Dad".

Seeing his scruffy appearance suddenly, Shen Nanzhang frowned heavily, even Cao Wenyu who was behind him coughed twice dryly, and turned his gaze to other places.

"Is it convenient to go in?" Shen Nanzhang restrained his emotions and asked gently.

Shen Juncheng thought for a few seconds, then moved to the side, making way for the two to enter.

The guests sat down, but Shen Juncheng had no tea to serve, let alone something to say.

Shen Nanzhang's fingers bounced rhythmically on the armrest of the sofa, and his face has recovered from his disappointment with his son, "How are you doing recently?"

Shen Juncheng glanced at him, but didn't make a sound.

Shen Nanzhang looked at Cao Wenyu, who immediately understood, got up and said, "Mr. Shen, I'll wait for you in the car."

"it is good."

Soon there were only father and son left in the house.

"Have you thought about your future plans?" Shen Nanzhang asked again.

Shen Juncheng remained silent.

The long silence made the air condense into frost.

Shen Nanzhang's hand suddenly clenched into a fist, and he thumped forcefully on the armrest, as if he had made a decision, he stood up, "Go, I'll take you to meet someone."

Shen Juncheng was shocked when he heard the words, and raised his face brazenly, "Who?"

Shen Nanzhang avoided the eagerness and tension that suddenly gathered in his eyes, and answered him lightly, "Your biological mother."

When Cao Wenyu was driving, Shen Juncheng and his father were leaning side by side on the back seat, but they were relatively silent. There were so many words that I didn't know where to start.

The car drove south for nearly four hours, during which time they stopped at a restaurant along the way and had lunch. At dusk, they arrived at a small county town on the southern coast.

It was the first time for Shen Juncheng to come to this small city. He was used to seeing the bustling cities. It was a bit overwhelming to suddenly see so many old streets, old houses, and bumpy roads that still retained the style of more than 20 years ago. be surprised.This place seems to be out of touch with the times, it is completely sealed in the old time, waiting leisurely for someone to wake her up.

The car turned around twice to inspect the city, and gradually there was a little urban atmosphere in front of my eyes. The newly built buildings and wide and flat roads comforted the eyes with familiarity.

Probably feeling Shen Juncheng's confusion, Shen Nanzhang leisurely commented beside him, "This is the economic development zone of County C."

Shen Juncheng's mood suddenly became uneasy, he didn't know what kind of person the biological mother he was about to meet was?

For a long time, he has taken Wu Qiuyue as his mother for granted. He has never doubted it for more than 20 years. Now he suddenly wants to meet another "mother" who has the closest blood relationship with him in this world. No matter what, he couldn't deal with it calmly.

Being close to the hometown, is this the place where he should exist?His body shrank involuntarily into his clothes.

Following Shen Nanzhang's instructions, Cao Wenyu parked the car in a temporary parking lot on a commercial street.The commercial street had apparently only recently opened, and there were hardly any cars in the parking lot.Many facades are still being renovated, and the boring and piercing sound of cutting machines comes to the ears from time to time, which makes people feel uneasy.

Cao Wenyu locked the car, and said to Shen Nanzhang, "I'll walk around, and you can call me later." Then, he walked in the opposite direction from where the father and son were walking.

Before going out, Shen Juncheng cleaned up and changed into decent clothes again. He followed his father and looked at the two shadows on the ground that sometimes separated and sometimes overlapped. It was the first time he realized that his father was so skinny.His gaze gradually shifted to Shen Nanzhang's slightly hunched back, and a sense of soreness arose spontaneously.

Shen Nanzhang led him into a well-decorated teahouse that was already in operation.The welcoming lady wearing a cheongsam at the door warmly led them to the door of the box.

"Mr. Shen, Boss Liao is already waiting for you inside." Miss Yingbin finished her instructions with a sweet smile, then turned her head gracefully and left.

Shen Juncheng clenched his fists subconsciously, his palms were sticky, and he was already slightly sweaty. He didn't even realize it, but the eyes he stared at Shen Nanzhang unconsciously showed a light of asking for help.

Sensing his nervousness, Shen Nanzhang didn't knock on the door immediately, and smiled at him kindly: "Her name is Liao Fenglan, and she is the owner of this teahouse. You don't have to be rigid when you go in later, just meet and chat casually." That's all."

Shen Juncheng could only nod his head.When the door was pushed open, he felt that he lost his breath in an instant!
In front of the generous table in the box, there is only one woman sitting upright, turning her head to enjoy the scenery outside the window—this box is probably the room with the best view in the whole teahouse, looking out from the window is a natural lake, the lake There are many trees on the side, looking far away, the distant mountains are like Daisy, just like a picture scroll of ink and wash mountains and rivers.

Shen Juncheng had no intention of appreciating this rather exquisite scenery, his eyes only hurriedly passed by the window, and then rested nervously on Liao Fenglan's face.

Although she is sitting upright, it is not difficult to judge that she has a slender and well-proportioned figure.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Liao Fenglan slowly turned her face——

This is definitely a beautiful face, although the years have mercilessly engraved imprints on her face, and her eyebrows and eyes seem to contain countless sorrows that have nothing to do with the years, when you see this face , the first thing I noticed was not her beauty, but the various speculations hidden behind this beauty.Her haggardness made it impossible to accurately judge her age at this time.

What surprised Shen Juncheng the most was that she had a lot of similarities with his adoptive mother, Wu Qiuyue. No matter her face shape or facial features, she was almost a copy of Wu Qiuyue. The Liao Fenglan in front of her seemed to want to lower herself into the dust.

Surprised, Shen Juncheng's gaze stayed on Liao Fenglan's face for a short time before turning to Shen Nanzhang's face. He seemed to realize something from it, but the shock in his heart was hard to describe for a while.

"You guys... are here." Liao Fenglan got up hastily, with a smile on her lips, but she couldn't wait to catch up with Shen Juncheng, her eyes were filled with mist, but she tried her best to hold them back, and greeted them with the most beautiful smile, maybe She was holding back too hard, and her arm supporting the table was trembling slightly.

Shen Juncheng's gaze met her for a few seconds before suddenly moving away. He felt extremely awkward and a little panicked, but he didn't feel the joy of meeting his biological mother at all.

"Hey, yes!" Shen Nanzhang didn't address her, and introduced him directly: "This is Juncheng, my son." He looked at Shen Juncheng again and said, "This is, Liao Fenglan, Aunt Liao."

His father's rescue brought Shen Juncheng back from the uncomfortable state. He was grateful to Shen Nanzhang, and he also recovered a state of ease. He nodded gracefully to Liao Fenglan, "Hello, Auntie Liao..."

The tears in Liao Fenglan's eyes did not get out of control to the point of falling, "Come on, sit down, you guys... come by train or..."

After some pleasantries on the scene, the hidden embarrassment was immediately resolved. First, Liao Fenglan said a few words about the cumbersomeness of opening a teahouse, and then she repeatedly brought the topic to Shen Juncheng, and Shen Nanzhang briefly introduced Shen Juncheng to her over the years. Situation, what kind of places he has been to, what degrees he has obtained, etc., he said lightly, but Shen Juncheng couldn't help noticing the emotional changes in Liao Fenglan's complex eyes, there were joy, expectations, and of course, there was also an unconcealable loss .

This is a seemingly ordinary gathering of friends, although the relationship between them is far from this, no one pierced the thin layer of window paper, Shen Juncheng can only slowly digest what he saw in his heart heard.

It turns out that Liao Fenglan and her husband have not had a bad life in the past few years. They also have a daughter who is five years younger than Shen Juncheng and is now a junior in a college in this province.

Confusion spread in Shen Juncheng's heart like a cloud again. Since the conditions in the family of his biological parents are not bad, why should he be sent away?

Also, why didn't his biological father come to see him?
Are they going to keep chatting indifferently like they are now?If this is the case, what's the point of Shen Nanzhang bringing him to see his biological mother?Judging by his expression, it was obvious that he didn't want to return Shen Juncheng to his biological parents.

After drinking three cups of tea, Shen Nanzhang finally got to the point, and said to Liao Fenglan: "You are sincere to him, I just learned about my life experience recently, cough, so I brought him to meet you."

As soon as this remark came out, the atmosphere suddenly became solemn. Shen Juncheng was drinking tea. Hearing this, the hand holding the cup trembled slightly. He lowered his eyes and stared intently at the tea leaves gently sinking and floating in the water.

He believed that Shen Nanzhang's words were nothing more than giving each other a step to pierce the window paper. Before that, he must have made it clear to Liao Fenglan that he wanted to come here.

Liao Fenglan looked at Shen Juncheng, then at Shen Nanzhang, "Can you... let us stay alone for a while?"

Shen Juncheng felt as if something was rolling around in her throat when she spoke, and her voice was extremely unstable.

"...Okay." Shen Nanzhang stood up, pressed his hand hard on Shen Juncheng's shoulder, and then it bounced back, he pushed the door and walked out.

In the suffocating silence, Shen Juncheng turned his face sideways and cast his eyes on the woman who gave him life.

Liao Fenglan was also staring at him, and as soon as her eyes met his, she immediately smiled at him, even though the smile seemed a little weak.

She quietly watched Shen Juncheng's handsome face, how much of her facial features resembled her own!

For so many years, she has never stopped thinking about him, but when he is right in front of her eyes, she dare not reach out and touch him.

After learning that he had other biological parents, Shen Juncheng had also dreamed about their appearance, but now, with his biological mother sitting in front of him, he felt unreal as if in a dream.

He didn't want to just sit like this, since he came, he wanted to clear all the doubts in his mind, "Why did you... why did you give it away?"

Liao Fenglan's old but still beautiful eyes blinked a few times quickly, she lowered her head to get the teacup, but she couldn't hold it firmly, and the teacup was almost knocked over by her, thanks to Shen Juncheng's sharp eyesight and quick hands, he reached out to help her hold it.

"Thank you!" Liao Fenglan sniffled.

Only then did Shen Juncheng notice that her eye circles were a little red.

"It seems that your father never told you the truth." She smiled bitterly, paused for a moment, and then said slowly: "I don't raise you because...the contract between me and your father stipulates that you It belongs to your father."

"Contract?" Shen Juncheng frowned, chewing these two words carefully.

(End of this chapter)