Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 173: Escaping from the World and Asking Love 2
He looked at me without blinking, as if he was stubbornly waiting for an answer.

Under such a clear gaze, I felt powerless with nowhere to escape, but what do I really have to answer him?I do not know anything……

"...You, are you hungry?"

After being dull for a long time, I slowly said this sentence. I felt his gaze dimmed all of a sudden, and his arms around me were slowly loosened. I took advantage of the situation and retreated from his arms.

"I haven't eaten for more than a day, and you are still injured. This is not good. Let me find you something to eat."

After I finished speaking, I got up, and under his silent gaze, I arranged my clothes indiscriminately, turned around and walked out.

Walking in the river valley filled with morning mist, the slightly moist clothes stuck to the skin, which was still cold. I walked to the river with my arms folded, and looked at the strange and deserted scene in front of me, feeling helpless like never before.

Emotionally, the same is true.

I promised him, lived for him once, gambled once for him, but what about my heart?
After all, I am still alive, without that bowl of Mengpo soup to make me forget the unforgettable love in the past, and I can't forget the painful experiences in the past.

I can be with him, but how can I love him?

This heart full of holes, or this body with broken flowers and willows?

Taking a deep breath, I let go of these thoughts, and started to look around to see if there was anything to eat. After all, I fell from such a high place and hadn’t eaten for more than a day. is the most important.

Only at this time did I have the opportunity to take a closer look at this place. It is a deep valley covered with dense forests and a large area of ​​shade. Except for the noon sun, it is almost impossible to shine here, but the scenery is very good. , the moist air carries the fragrance of green grass, and the trees are full of fiery red wild fruits, which look lovely. In the distant mountains and forests, the mist is transpiring, the vegetation is delicious, and there is a feeling of paradise.

Avoiding the world, for some reason, these two words just popped into my mind.

I can't catch live animals with my current physical strength, so I knocked down a few wild fruits with stones, and when I have enough strength to satisfy my hunger, I will find a way to get some cooked food to eat.

But when I returned to the cave with those red and green fruits in my hands, I felt a warm feeling inside. I walked in and saw that there was a fire in front of Nangong, and he was throwing firewood into it.

"Nangong!"

I was taken aback, and hurried over: "How could you do this, you were injured!"

He looked up at me and said with a relaxed smile, "It's okay. I know my own injuries."

After finishing speaking, he looked down at the fruit I was carrying in my skirt, and laughed: "It's good that you got some fruit, so I won't get bored after eating barbecue later."

BBQ?

I froze for a moment, only to find that beside him was a roe deer, which looked like it had just been beaten. He skillfully peeled off the skin and cleaned the internal organs. Half of it was torn up and placed in the hard shell of a large hollowed-out fruit, filled with water to boil.

While making it, he told me that those leaves have a salty taste and can be twisted into juice for roasting meat. Some fruits are poisonous and cannot be used, and some pulp can be used to cook soup...

I sat by and couldn't help at all.

After a while, the roe deer meat was roasted, and the oil dripped down along the roe’s legs, creaking, and the aroma was overflowing; the water in the husk was also boiling, and the milky white soup was floating with shredded meat and pulp, which looked very delicious. tempting.

He tore off a deer leg and handed it to me: "Try it."

I tentatively took a bite, only to find that the skin was crispy and the meat was tender, and after one bite, my mouth was full of burnt aroma, which lifted my spirits and was really delicious.

"Well, it's delicious."

I looked back at him in surprise, only to find that his face was pale, and he slowly leaned back to the corner and lay down, looking even worse.

"Nangong!"

I was terrified, and hurriedly grabbed his arm: "What's wrong with you?"

He smiled with pale lips: "It's okay. You eat quickly." This sentence was already exhausted.

I immediately understood that he was worried that I would not be able to find food, so he endured the injury and prepared all this for me, and now he may not even have the strength to move.

He is the one who needs food the most.

I looked at him and didn't speak. I picked up the shell of hot soup and walked up to him, took a sip and put it in my mouth. Then I lowered my head and touched my moist lips to his.

He remained motionless at first, raised his eyes to look at me, his eyes flickered, and then opened his lips slightly.

The hot soup was fed into his mouth, and he swallowed it with a thud.

This time I didn't blush, so I took another sip and fed it to him. The two of them remained silent like this. The soup flowed from my mouth to his, and the fragrance overflowed between his lips and teeth. He didn't have much expression, but That fiery gaze was like a fire in the cold, burning hotter and hotter.

After the last mouthful of feeding, his face also became rosy, I moved away slightly, put my forehead against his forehead, and looked into his eyes.

"...you did it on purpose, didn't you?"

The corners of his lips twitched slightly, revealing a smile, with a bit of familiar laziness and complacency.

"It's good to be hurt."

"Don't talk nonsense."

I gently covered his mouth, my voice trembling: "Have you ever thought about what would happen if we fell and one of us died and the other lived?"

He smiled: "It's not easy? If you die, I should leave here and go back, but I can't live too long; if I die..." He glanced at me: "You will also try your best to leave Here, go back and be your Yongjia Empress Dowager until the day you are eligible to enter Dongling."

My body trembled slightly.

Is that true?Am I really such a woman?

"Xing Si, I'm not blaming you, I like such a woman, what do you want me to do?"

He said, smiling, with a bit of helplessness, but also a bit of appreciation.

This seems to be the first time he has said the word "like" so frankly, but I don't feel any joy in my heart.

"Nangong, tell me, is this woman Xuanyuan Xingsi in Guigu back then, or the woman in front of you now, who do you like?"

He looked up at me and smiled: "You always feel that you stole her things? You think that everyone treats you because of her first, don't you? "

"..."

I didn't speak, but the stubbornness in my eyes had already acquiesced.

Nangong smiled wryly.

"Xing Si, these years, Ling Shaoyang has Mo Yunyi by his side, and Shui Xunyou by my side, don't you understand? I think he, like me, intends to forget everything from the beginning, and we are already about to let go. "

I froze for a moment and looked at him, only to see a little helpless light in his eyes.

"But you showed up again."

"It's just that you are not the same you as before. The Xuanyuan Xingsi back then was domineering, arrogant, and above everyone else. She was like the sun in the sky, dazzling and so hot that anyone who got close would be hurt, but It still keeps attracting people to come closer.”

"But you are different. You are tolerant, slender, and sensitive. You never trust people easily and get hurt so easily, but your heart is stronger than anyone else. You are like the moon in the water. You look so close, always There's no way to really get close, to really own."

"You and Xuanyuan Xingsi back then are two completely different people. If he really fell in love with you because of her, then this man must be blind."

I froze there.

It turns out that that is the real Xuanyuan Xingsi...

But that being the case, why did he—

"I like you because you are you."

I lowered my head, looked into his sober and firm eyes, and said to me seriously:

"Xing Si, I did like you nine years ago, but nine years later, I fell in love with another woman, and that person is you."

He said, and sighed softly again: "I think Ling Shaoyang is the same as me, but he is not reconciled."

My mind was blank, and a sentence suddenly flashed at this moment——

"In Nanyang City, I have already recognized it and admitted defeat."

This is what Ling Shaoyang said to me when he set fire to Shangyang City in Xuanwu Kingdom and rescued me from there. At that time, I didn't understand it at all, but now, I seem to be able to vaguely understand the contradiction and pain in this sentence.

Ling Shaoyu once told me that he has hated me all these years, so he will always be hurt endlessly when facing me, but in Nanyang City, he knows that I have amnesia, and that he is facing a completely strange woman, and that At that time, I promised to marry him, that might be a brand new beginning for me and him, but he said that was the most painful place for him, because I carried the memory of his past, and if he wanted to marry me, it meant that he had to marry me. Swallow all the hatred and let your stubborn self-esteem bow.

However, he bowed his head.

I will always remember the short walk out of the state capital with him, the sentence "be careful in the urn", and the surprise when I first saw me in Shenhepo. Thinking about it carefully, it was the only peace between me and him and considerate.

He and I, after all, have nothing to do with each other. Fate brought us back together only to make us hurt each other more deeply and more painfully.

There was a burst of soreness in my heart, and tears almost flowed out. At this moment, there was warmth in front of my eyes, and it was his big hand that stretched out and gently wrapped my eyebrows.

"Don't be sad, all this is over."

Yes, everything has passed, no matter whether it is regret or pain, it has become a thing of the past. This is also the reason why I still don't ask them what happened in Guigu back then.

But there is one thing I must ask—

"Nangong, why do you have to bear that poisonous oath? Don't you have a marriage contract with Shui Xunyou? Why can't you be emotional with women?"

His face darkened slightly.

I don't know how long it took before I saw him raise his eyes to look at me, and said, "You know Mrs. Murong, right?"

Mrs. Murong, their ancestor?

My heart moved, could the poisonous oath have something to do with this strange woman?

(End of this chapter)