Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 167 "Are you pregnant?!"

What is the most painful feeling in this world?

It is a heart that is riddled with holes, and it is still being pricked by countless needles. Can't escape that kind of desolation?
However, I will not escape, I will not escape!
I don't want to go anywhere, Chu Feng, I just want to guard you, no matter how hard it is, no matter how painful it is, I never give up.

But why, you are the one who gave up on me?

Standing in front of the gate of Dongling, looking at the majestic Broken Dragon Stone, my Chufeng is on the other side of the stone gate, I know that there is endless darkness, no light, no warmth, and my man, just There, slowly waiting for the moment to die...

Or, he's gone.

Where I can't see, where I stretch out my hand, I can't grab him, he's gone...

The people behind me had already knelt down on the ground, and Yu Sui'er knelt and walked behind me, holding the corner of my clothes, her voice was also choked up, and she said mournfully, "Queen Mother, don't ruin your body like this again. You have not eaten or slept for three days, and if this continues, you will not be able to bear it!"

Queen Mother?By the way, Queen Mother...

Chu Feng left, but he left behind three imperial edicts. The first one is to canonize me as empress and respect Empress Dowager Yongjia.

Empress Dowager Yongjia...

I read these four words in my heart and smiled sadly.

At this time, there was a sound of footsteps coming from behind, and all the people behind them knelt down on the ground and said in a low voice, "Greetings, Your Majesty."

"Go down."

The familiar voice said softly, and everyone stood up and retreated silently. After a while, the entire front of Dongling seemed to have disappeared at once.

I was the only one left, and there was one person who walked slowly in front of me.

"Thinking."

When he called me, he seemed to hesitate, but after all, he still called my name.

In front of him, he was still the familiar young man, young and handsome, but the man who appeared in front of him at this moment was completely unfamiliar.Now that the national mourning of Huang Kao has not yet passed, he can only proclaim himself emperor according to the edict. The enthronement ceremony has not yet been held, so he is not wearing a dragon robe, but his long hair is tied high, revealing a clear forehead and a sharp chin. The pair of piercing tiger eyes are particularly sharp; his appearance is dignified and his expression is solemn, and he is completely different from the young general who rode on horseback and criss-crossed the battlefield.

The only thing that remains the same is the pure light in those tiger eyes, which is still the same as before.

"How long are you going to stand here?"

I raised my head numbly and looked at his face, with a trace of concerned anger faintly revealing.

"Why don't you understand why Huang Kao made those decrees, why did he send you away at the end, and why he refused to turn back? He just hopes that you can live well and live his share, he I don't want you to be heartbroken for him, not to eat or drink for him, to ruin yourself like this!"

"..."

"Why do you feel uncomfortable letting him go like you are now?!"

"..."

"Do you think that if you die on a hunger strike, you can be with him? Don't forget, what is the first imperial edict of the imperial examination, you will never have a chance!"

My thin body trembled slightly.

Yes, Chu Feng's imperial decree canonized me as a queen, respecting the Empress Dowager Yongjia, but there was a sentence at the end of this imperial decree, which made everything about me collapse, shatter, and crumble in an instant.

After Yongjia, life after life, they are not allowed to enter Dongling!

When I heard the last sentence, I laughed, crazily, tears streaming down my face, laughing so much that my whole body almost convulsed, laughing so much that Ling Shaoyu even had to hold me tightly, that young His face was full of fear.

What are you afraid of?Are you afraid that I will die?
I really want to die, the moment the broken dragon stone falls, I have no reason to live, but - can I die?
Life after life, you are not allowed to enter Dongling!This is his heart, this is his destiny, he doesn't want me to follow him underground, he cuts off the way for me to be buried, he doesn't even give me the chance to meet him on the road to Huangquan!
Chu Feng, you are too cruel!
You force me to survive, force me to persevere, force me to meet other people, but you know—how painful is it? !

I thought I couldn't cry anymore, but the tears filled my eyes again uncontrollably. I slowly closed my eyes, not letting the tears flow out, not letting my embarrassing and weak ugliness show, but I know, at this point, anyone already knows that I'm at my limit.

At this time, there was another rush of footsteps behind him.

"emperor!"

It was Yu Sui'er's voice.

Since Eunuch Yu entered Dongling with Chu Feng, the name of this loyal servant has also been engraved into the annals of history, becoming a role model for emperors and ministers through the ages. By the emperor's side.

"what's up?"

"Report to the emperor, Mr. Nangong and the others have already returned to Zhaoye and asked the emperor to ascend to the palace to face the court."

Ling Shaoyu frowned with thick black eyebrows, and said angrily: "The emperor's national funeral has not passed, and my enthronement ceremony has not yet been held, and they want me to ascend to the palace! It's too much!"

I looked up at him.

Sure enough, he was still a young man with an immature mind. Although throughout the dynasties, if the emperor passed away, the successor should naturally be a vegetarian. After that, he can be formally promoted to the court, but during this period, state affairs cannot be abolished, and his coming to the court is a matter of time.

It's just that Nangong Yu's impatience is more of a pressing step by step. If he is a little careless in his handling, he is afraid that Chu Feng's affairs behind him will be completely defeated.

But I didn't expect that this child would be angry because of such a thing...

Kneeling on the ground, Yu Sui'er was also covered in cold sweat, and said: "Master Nangong said that state affairs cannot be abolished. Besides, the situation is critical now, and military and state affairs are still waiting for the emperor to deal with them. You can't just blindly, blindly..."

Looking at Ling Shaoyu's angry face and my silent back, he didn't dare to speak anymore.

"Hmph, Nangong Yu!"

Ling Shaoyu recited the name fiercely, bursting out that kind of deep hatred from the gap between his teeth, but he couldn't say anything more, so he walked over there angrily, but just passing me, he just passed me by. I stopped and looked back at me who was still silent and motionless.

"Xingsi, I came to you today because of this important event."

……

"I have found the second imperial edict of Huang Kao, do you know what is written on it?"

My shoulders moved slightly, but I didn't look back.

Ling Shaoyu walked behind me, his voice sounded close to my ear, although not loud, but every word seemed so heavy——

"Huang Kao, left you the seal of Empress Yongjia."

"..." My body froze all of a sudden.

"From the day I came to court, all imperial decrees need to be stamped with your seal, so that they can pass through the six parts and convey the holy will. Without your seal, all decrees cannot be issued, and all orders will not be issued. obey."

"..." My fingertips were trembling desperately in the sleeves.

"Xingsi," his voice became more and more serious: "All the famous names of Huang Kao's first life are printed on your seal!"

At this moment, I couldn't believe my ears.

Chu Feng——he even made me a regent! ?
He actually left me the seal of the Empress Dowager Yongjia. From then on, half of the military power has decided to be under my seal and manipulated in my hands. He wants me to manage this country with Ling Shaoyu? !

Why, Chu Feng, why!
The sound of footsteps slowly going away sounded in my ears, Ling Shaoyu had already left, and I was standing alone in front of the Broken Dragon Stone, like a statue that lost its soul, I could only stare at the home of my soul obsessively, There is absolutely no way to move.

Chu Feng, what are you going to do? !

I have never been able to see through Chu Feng's thoughts, but he made these arrangements in the last days, and the three imperial decrees were slowly revealed, which makes people feel that his thoughts are meticulous and completely absent. within the imagination.

I thought that this doubt would be buried so deep that I would never be able to see it clearly.

Unexpectedly, two days later, not only I understood, but everyone understood.

The death of the first emperor had an earth-shattering impact on the court, and the promotion and relegation of the courtiers, and frequent summons also reached their peak during this period. Countless courtiers had found their own affiliation before the new emperor ascended the throne, and all At this time, the power of the country also experienced a major comeback.

A list of newly promoted officials was placed in front of Ling Shaoyu in the imperial study.

And this list is clearly full of Nangong Yu's ambition to occupy the government and expand his power.

After all, Ling Shaoyu is young. Growing up in the military camp, he has always fought with sharp swords and sharp guns, but he has never participated in such political disputes. In the past, Ling Shaoyang was so shrewd and restrained, so he could barely stand up to Nangong Yu. At this time, Nangong Yu has already been ranked as a minister, and with the support of huge forces in the court, the pressure Ling Shaoyu has to face can be seen.

But——all the pressure disappeared in front of me.

Without the seal of the Empress Dowager Yongjia, all the promotion and relegation would be impossible, and everyone knows that after the death of the emperor, the empress Yongjia did not run out of tea and rice, although she was forcibly taken away from Dongling , Back to Zhaoye, but Yanfu Hall has become my tomb of the living dead.

But I also know that Nangong Yu is not in a hurry.

When I returned to Zhaoye from Dongling, on the carriage, a gust of wind blew the curtains, and I also saw that among the civil and military officials standing at the gate of the city, he stood out from the crowd, outstanding.

I also clearly saw his eyes, with a hint of a strategizing smile in the coldness.

Until now, everything is still under his control.

I believe that after Chu Feng subdued Shang Zhuzi and woke up, he already knew that his deadline was not far away, but to pull down the towering tree of the Nangong Family was no longer something that could be accomplished in just a few months. I am afraid that if they are forced to turn against them, the government will be in chaos.

Therefore, Chu Feng decided on this series of measures.

First of all, he acquiesced in the rise of the peace faction headed by Prime Minister Wei Yusheng. The two factions restrained each other and fought against each other in major military and political affairs, which also reached a delicate balance to a certain extent.

On the other hand, he canonized me as empress and honored Empress Dowager Yongjia, which has already lowered Nangong Yu's status from one person to one person and above ten thousand people.

The appearance of the Yongjia Empress Seal has put this heavy seal on Nangong Yu's head even more. As long as I don't use the seal, all his efforts will be in vain.

Until now, Chu Feng is still fighting him.

But - there is an end after all.

Chu Feng may also have thought about how much his death has hit me, so he didn't let me enter Dongling, which also cut off my idea of ​​suicide, but if I can't bear it and really choose to leave, then the queen mother's seal Printing is just a piece of waste paper, which no longer has any effect.

Therefore, Chu Feng still handed over the initiative to me.

Do you give up everything and become a lonely soul who can't enter Dongling, and you will never be able to meet him; or persevere and fight Nangong Yu to the end!
I believe that Nangong Yu is also waiting.

However, my body has reached its limit.

I was lying on the soft couch, almost unable to lift my eyelids, I could only see many figures in a trance in front of me, all eyes were looking at me sadly, as if looking at a dead person.

Ling Shaoyu stood in front of me, her tiger eyes were flushed red, she seemed to be about to cry at any moment, but she couldn't cry anymore.

"Xingsi, don't do this, do you know how sad Father will be when he sees it?"

I looked at him and could only shake my head feebly, my pale lips trembling slightly, but I couldn't even utter a word.

I know that I shouldn't die, and I also know that Chu Feng is absolutely unwilling to see me like this - I tried, I tried stuffing things into my mouth, I tried swallowing desperately, but it didn't work , I can't eat, even a little bit of food will make me spit it out immediately, and I vomit in a daze.

I don't even know if my body can't accept it or my heart can't accept it.

"Is your father the only one in your heart?"

He said this suddenly, making my heart skip a beat and my eyelids droop.

Ling Shaoyu's eyes were red, and she looked down at me: "Don't you know who you owe the most to? It's not my father, you have paid too much for him, and the person you owe the most is my second brother!"

Stop talking, Shao Yu, please stop talking!

"You know that he has hated you all these years. He thought you had forgotten him, so he kept hurting you, but what do you know, when he knew that you actually lost your memory, when you agreed to marry him in Nanyang City, You know how happy he is, he said, he wants to start over with you, if it wasn't for luring Mo Yunyi into the game, how could he treat you like that?"

Tears filled my eyes, but my throat was so choked that I couldn't speak a word.

"Now for you, he died in battle in a foreign land, and his bones don't exist. Until now, there is no place for him in the imperial mausoleum, but what about you, you died like this, do you have the face to see him?!"

A tear rolled down from the corner of my eye.

sorry Sorry……

But I really don't know what to do, I've tried my best, Shaoyu, please stop talking...

At this moment, the guard's voice sounded outside the door: "Master Nangong, please see me."

My heart choked, Ling Shaoyu's face was covered with frost, and he turned around fiercely, but when he walked to the door, he didn't make a sound at all. After a long silence, he walked back slowly.

A familiar figure followed behind him and walked up to me.

"I only let you see her this time."

After Ling Shaoyu finished speaking, he stood aside, his face full of stubborn anger.

With tears in my eyes, I saw that familiar figure slowly walking in front of me. His face was as pale as mine, almost transparent, and his eyes were slightly red.

"Xingsi..."

His voice was very soft, as light as a feather brushed against his heart.

I looked up at him.

"Do you still remember that you once promised to fulfill one of my wishes, no matter what it is, as long as I ask, you will do it..."

……

"I want you to live!" He looked at me, his voice trembling: "I want you to persevere no matter what, Xing Si, you live!"

……

Ling Shaoyu also opened her eyes wide at this moment, looking at me, and all the court ladies and eunuchs around looked at us in astonishment.

I looked at him, and after a long time, I raised my hand with difficulty, and he immediately grabbed my hand.

His hands are very cold, almost as cold as ice like mine, and when these two hands are held together, there is no chance to warm each other up.

"sorry……"

I looked at him, wept bitterly, choked up so much that I could hardly speak, I could only speak intermittently.

I am sorry.

I can't keep my promise because I can't face the world without him, it's more painful than death...

Nangong, I am the one who is sorry for you. You have done so much for me, and even carried everything, but I can't even fulfill a single wish for you.

sorry……

If there is an afterlife, Nangong, I will pay you back...

"Xingsi..."

He held my hand tightly, looked at my wet eye sockets, and slowly turned red. When my tears fell drop by drop like broken beads, he finally closed his eyes and put I buried my face in my palm, and after a while, a burst of warm moisture came from my palm.

At the moment when we held each other's hand tightly, suddenly, I felt Nangong's hand tremble.

He raised his head all of a sudden, and looked at me with wide eyes in astonishment. The sudden emotion caught me off guard, and I looked at him in amazement.

what happened?
He seemed to be in disbelief, the hand holding my hand exerted a little force, almost breaking my phalanx, and then I felt his hand slip down and pinch my wrist, two fingers clasped together. On the pulse gate.

He is checking my pulse?
These days, I didn't let any imperial doctor approach me, because I was desperate and knew it was useless, but now, he suddenly did this, which caught me off guard.

At this time, Ling Shaoyu also saw it, and hurried over: "Nangong, what's the matter?"

Nangong quietly pinched my veins, after an unknown amount of time, his hand slowly loosened, and his whole body trembled slightly, looking up at me: "You—"

……

"you are pregnant?!"

(End of this chapter)