old love revisited

Chapter 55 Reluctant (4)
Ji Lingtian paused for a while, but in the end he opened the door and left without answering.

Without the bondage of bodyguards, Qu Ranran finally regained her freedom.

Because she got enough sleep, she got up early in the morning!

The sun came out very early today, and she opened the curtains energetically, feeling the golden sunlight falling on her body, and suddenly felt that all the haze had disappeared.

However, she didn't have such a good feeling for too long, and the nausea in the morning tortured her again.

Walking out of the bathroom again like a collapse, the problems that reality might face once again invaded her mind...

Finally, she decided to go to the hospital.

Because it was still early, the doctor had just started work when she went to the hospital, so she waited in the waiting room for a while before the nurse called her name.

The person who checked her was a lady who was about the same age as Guan's mother, and also had a kind face and a warm smile.

"Miss Qu, congratulations, you are five weeks pregnant..."

"Remember to come for the obstetric examination in the future. You can come once a month in the early stage, and once a week in the later stage. Remember to ask your husband to accompany you..."

"Be careful not to eat caffeinated..."

The doctor's words were repeated in Qu Ranran's mind over and over again, and she didn't know if it was because of her mood, even the sun was not as bright as when it came.

She just kept walking on the street like this, the lonely figure was stretched long by the sun hanging in the mid-air.

Walking in the crowded crowd, her pale face and slender figure were like a candle in the wind, almost falling down.

Holding a piece of hot paper in her hand, her mind was blank, and there was a loud bang in her ears, she couldn't believe that the fact was really something she couldn't escape, she was pregnant...

How could she be pregnant?

Because of a small negligence, it turned out to be a small life growing in her body.

The image of Guan Hao, the disgusted expression on his handsome face, the cold tone, and the nights the two of them spent together came to mind...

What should I do?
What should she do?
Let this little life continue to live in this world, or resolutely let it go?

The warm wind was blowing slowly, but she felt cold, and the laughter and laughter of the people around entered her ears, which made her feel extremely ear-piercing.

What a sad and cruel thing that an unexpected and unexpected life appeared in this world.

It felt like the world in front of her had collapsed in front of her. The feeling of being overwhelmed and disturbed hit her heart more violently than the one four years ago.

Looking at the petite child, holding the mother's hand with a face of trust, seeing the mother and child walking past her happily, talking and laughing, that feeling made her heart feel a little hot.

Qu Ranran's expression was numb, and her empty eyes seemed to have lost her soul. She seemed to be passive, stretched out her hand, and gently covered the belly with a small life.

knock --

There was a knock on the door.

Qu Ranran, who was stunned by the window, came back to her senses, got up and opened the door.

"Ran Ran!"

Unsurprisingly, the visitor was Ji Lingtian.

Qu Ranran smiled slightly, "Come in!"

Ji Lingtian focused on Qu Ranran's bloodless face, "You look very bad, Ranran..."

Qu Ranran shrugged her shoulders as if nothing had happened, and said with a smile, "Look at me, do you think something is wrong?"

He knew that Guan Hao's matter would not be easily erased from her heart like this, but he also knew that her stubbornness and arrogance would never allow her to show cowardice in front of other people, so he did not expose it.

Ji Lingtian followed suit with a smile, "I won't go in and sit down, I'm here because I have something to tell you."

"Well, you said."

"I've been away for a month, and there are many things waiting for me to deal with in City Y, so I will leave City T by plane tonight."

Qu Ranran nodded, "Well, 'Ling Tian' can't do without you."

Ji Lingtian looked deeply at Qu Ranran, "I'll hurry back to T City as soon as I finish handling the company's affairs."

Qu Ranran was puzzled, "Do you still have something to come to T City?" It seems that the project that "Ling Tian" and "Hao Tian" cooperated together has come to an end at this moment.

Ji Lingtian said lightly, "You are here."

Qu Ranran shook her head and smiled, "I'm not a three-year-old child, I know how to take care of myself."

Ji Lingtian frowned, "But I'm not at ease."

Qu Ranran sighed, and spit out quietly, "Mr. Ji, I'm just a passer-by in your life."

Ji Lingtian escaped in a low voice, "It's up to you whether you're passing by or not."

"President Ji, I really don't want you to waste your time on me, you know, I tried before, but..." Qu Ranran escaped guiltily, "I don't deserve your kindness to me at all... "

"Stop talking, Ran Ran, I'm a businessman, and I know whether it's worth doing something."

"but I……"

Ji Lingtian held Qu Ranran by the shoulders to stop her from continuing, and said softly, "Don't feel guilty, let alone feel pressure... I just hope that we can chat and work together as before, with ease. .”

Qu Ranran opened her eyes wide in surprise, "If I go to 'Ling Tian', are you still willing to take me in?"

Ji Lingtian politely said, "If you want, the position of General Secretary Ji can be reserved for you forever."

Her heart is warm, but she knows that she can't repay him. The only thing she can say to him is "thank you".

"Okay, let's not say more, the vice president is eager to ask me to go back... I will be back soon."

"Mr. Ji, if you come back because of me, please don't, I will consider going to City Y, and I promise you, if I want to go there, I will definitely contact you in advance."

"Okay." Ji Lingtian hugged Qu Ranran into his arms reluctantly.He doesn't want to force her, as long as she says, he won't refuse.

Being embraced by Ji Lingtian without any warning, Qu Ranran resisted slightly at first, and finally chose to close her eyes and hug him gently.

Ji Lingtian always said that he likes the relaxation when being with her, so why not?

He is like the sunshine in winter, bringing the hottest warmth to her who is cold. Many times, she also wants to rely on him like she is now.

But she knew that he gave her such a feeling because she had always regarded him as her brother, and she could never give him what he wanted, so she couldn't accept more care from him so selfishly.

Kissing on Qu Ranran's scented hair, Ji Lingtian let go of Qu Ranran slowly, his affectionate eyes focused on her delicate face, as if there was a deep and indelible lovesickness, and said hoarsely, "I'll wait for you in City Y."

Qu Ranran smiled faintly, "I will seriously consider...President Ji, have a good journey."

It seems that a few days ago, she was still in the hustle and bustle of the world, but now she suddenly fell into tranquility. With Ji Lingtian's departure, Qu Ranran's life became more and more peaceful.

She didn't realize until today that she was left alone...

Her father passed away, her family was gone, and the servants were disbanded. The only thing left to her was Sister Chen, but Sister Chen was already old, and she could no longer rely on her like she did when she was a child. Therefore, she could only rely on herself in the future.

It is not easy to live alone, if there is one more, how can she guarantee his life...

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Qu Ranran stroked her lower abdomen with her hand.

There's a little life growing up here, but he didn't come at the right time, or in other words, his arrival was not expected...

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Qu Ranran felt sore in her heart.

Scenes of past memories flashed in my mind... Guan Hao's smile, Guan Hao's coldness, Guan Hao's madness, Guan Hao's domineering, Guan Hao's everything...

At the age of 20, she lost her heart.

She knows that it is not easy to forget someone, but this feeling will only stay in her memory from now on.

Being with him was once the thing she longed for most in this life. Although she had guessed the ending long ago, she still indulged her greed and made herself a beautiful dream, letting herself get lost in the trap of his tenderness among.

However, the dream finally woke up. In reality, they became enemies. They would never have another chance, and she would not allow herself to sink into such a bad relationship again.

So, for this child, she can only pretend that there is no such accident...

Qu Ranran looked away, quietly watching the sunset outside the floor-to-ceiling windows until the sun set.

Finally, Qu Ranran picked up the phone in the hotel and dialed the group number.

She swallowed the bitterness choked in her throat, her eyes turned red at this moment.

Firmly wiping away the tears on his cheeks, "Dr. Xiao, yes, I am the Qu Ranran who went to your hospital for an examination today...I want to make an appointment with you, the time for the operation."

……

She had a dream last night, dreaming that she was rocking a cradle in the room, and there was a cute little baby lying in the cradle, who looked like her, but there was a heroic spirit in his brow.

The baby in the dream was sleeping soundly, with chubby little fists placed on both sides of the head, in the posture of being in the mother's womb, very cute and peaceful... She knew it was her and Guan Hao's child.

Qu Ranran pressed her hands tightly to her stomach, and her eyes, which were already red, were foggy again at this moment.

"Miss Qu?" A nurse approached, "Please follow me to the operating room."

A doctor in a green robe and several nurses were already standing in the operating room, and they were studying her case at the moment.

This doctor is not the one she made an appointment for surgery. It seems that Dr. Xiao has something to do.

After a while, the nurse said to her, "Miss Qu, you may have to lie here for a while, because there is a new patient next door who urgently needs surgery now, Dr. Song may have to go to the next door for a while, but not for a few minutes." , please wait a moment."

"Ok."

Lying on the hospital bed, Qu Ranran nodded and replied humbly.

At this moment, she was so scared.

The unbearable pain four years ago had left an indelible shadow on her heart, and she was really scared.

But she has no choice...

Her reluctance will result in the child not being able to grow up in a sound family in the future, and following her, the child will suffer a lot in the future, not to mention, if he knows the existence of this child, no matter whether he cares or not, the future She and he will have endless entanglements...

She can no longer deal with him, she is tired, she just wants to spend this life in an ordinary way, so she can no longer be entangled with him...

Outside the ward, the doctor hurried back to his office.

The nurse followed the doctor into the office and asked strangely, "Dr. Song, Dr. Xiao asked you to do this operation for her because of a temporary emergency. Why did you ask us to tell you that you are going to perform operations on other patients after reading Ms. Qu's medical records?" What's your excuse? You don't have any other surgery to do!"

The doctor slumped on the chair weakly, wiping cold sweat and vomited, "At first I just thought it was the same name and surname, but looking at Ms. Qu's age and herself in the case, I absolutely cannot perform this operation!"

The nurse wondered, "Why?"

The doctor heaved a long sigh, "I used to be my master's assistant in XX private hospital. What impressed me most at that time was that my master once performed an operation on the wife of the president of the 'Haotian' Group. The child was five years old at that time. It’s been more than a month, and I couldn’t keep it due to various reasons. I remember that my master was trembling when he performed the operation, because Mr. Guan asked both adults and children to keep it, but the situation was really dangerous at that time, and my master tried his best. My best efforts still failed to keep the child. Fortunately, Mrs. Guan is fine, so Mr. Guan didn't get angry... You said Mr. Guan cared so much about the child. If he knew that I performed an abortion for his ex-wife Qu Ranran, I would definitely game over!"

The nurse pondered, "Doctor Song, do you mean that the beautiful woman in it is Mr. Guan's ex-wife? That's right, a few years ago it was said in the newspaper that Guan Hao married the daughter of our "Qu's" group in T City, but no. Did you hear they got divorced?"

The doctor replied, "We don't understand the world of the rich... News reports say Mr. Guan is in T city recently, and Ms. Qu happened to be here. Who knows if their old relationship is rekindled. In short, I dare not perform this operation, Ms. Qu." It's better to choose another hospital..."

The nurse nodded in agreement, "That's right, Mr. Guan's love life has always been quite mysterious. Some time ago, there was a gossip that Mr. Guan recruited women for dating. Who knows if it's true, but Mr. Guan is so rich, what kind of The woman didn't, and the news is probably false..."

"Go out and tell Miss Qu, by the way, don't gossip about Miss Qu's visit to our hospital, I don't want to cause trouble!"

"it is good."

When the nurse came to the operating room, she saw Qu Ranran lying with her eyes closed, and said softly, "Miss Qu, I'm sorry!"

Qu Ranran slowly opened her burning eyes and looked at the nurse in a daze, "Huh?"

"The patient that Dr. Song operated on had an accident. Now Dr. Song can't continue to operate on you. And the Dr. Xiao who you made an appointment with recently is also on leave. I'm afraid you will have to go to another hospital for this operation. "

Qu Ranran stood up straight and was helped out of bed by the nurse.

The nurse kept apologizing, "I'm really sorry, Miss Qu..."

I don't know why, but when she heard the nurse say this, she didn't feel angry at all, instead she breathed a sigh of relief, "It's okay..."

……

Even if I make an appointment with another hospital immediately, I am afraid that the operation will not be performed today.

Walking down the street in a daze, Qu Ranran's hand caressed her lower abdomen involuntarily.

She really didn't know what to do. She was so calm and rational when she was lying on the hospital bed a moment ago, but this second when her palm was touching her warm belly, she felt so strongly reluctant... …

Yes, this is a small life, how can she say no to it?

How many people desire to have their own child in this life, and she has also longed for it. Who would have thought that if she really had it, she would forcefully deprive this child of the right to survive in this world.

What should she do……

No matter how she thinks about it, she can't keep this child...

squeak--

A sharp screeching sound of braking suddenly came to Qu Ranran's ears.

Qu Ranran's footsteps stopped, and when she saw the car that was only tens of centimeters away from her that had stopped suddenly because she ran a red light, she was almost scared out of her wits.

Immediately, a person got off the car.

Qu Ranran hadn't noticed the license plate and model of the car at first, but when she saw Royer getting out of the car, her face suddenly turned pale, and the frightened hand on her belly also quietly withdrew.

Royer gave her a worried look.

Qu Ranran also looked over.

Just a casual glance, she saw him sitting in the back seat through the transparent glass, and beside him was Guan's mother. Looking at the route, he obviously wanted to go from here to his private airport in the suburbs.

Royer walked to the car window and nervously explained to Guan Hao, "President, I didn't mean to...Miss Qu was walking on the side of the road just now, I never thought she would run a red light, so I couldn't stop for a while, you and the old lady are fine Bar?"

Guan Hao withdrew his gaze from the weak figure in front of him, turned his face to look beside him, "Mom, are you alright?"

Mother Guan also noticed Qu Ranran, but she had already looked away and said flatly, "It's okay."

Guan Hao looked forward again, his brows tightened slightly, and he got out of the car suddenly.

Luo Ye hurriedly opened the car door for Guan Hao.

Guan Hao walked towards Qu Ranran like a dangerous jaguar, stared at her pale face, and said unhurriedly, "It seems that you once again took what I said as wind on your ears."

His familiar breath rushing into her nostrils, as well as the low voice that used to utter sweet words but has now become extremely indifferent, all made her feel very uncomfortable at the moment.

You want me to let you go, yes, you disappear in front of me forever!
His cold and decisive words still echoed in her ears, and her heart suddenly tugged.

Qu Ranran responded to him coldly, "You should know very well that I can't predict when you will appear here, and I don't have the leisure and elegance here waiting to meet you."

"Did you walk without eyes? Don't you know the red light?" Guan Hao cursed loudly.

His cold scolding and disgusting attitude made her feel aggrieved by the pregnancy even more, and the soreness rushed to her throat. She tried her best to resist, turned her head to the other side, and lowered her eyes.

"I allow you this time, and you'd better remember what I said in the future."

Guan Hao's words made Qu Ranran raise her eyes in confusion.

"Don't you understand?"

Qu Ranran shook her head, "I don't understand, I was just walking, but you made it sound like I wanted to look at you on purpose."

"Then you'd better find out my whereabouts in the future and walk around." Guan Hao's originally indifferent gaze became sharp in an instant, and he shot straight at Qu Ranran, "I don't care what your reasons are, you remember Disappear in front of my eyes, because I hate to see you, and you are not allowed to appear in front of my eyes again!"

Guan Hao's words pierced Qu Ranran's heart sharply, which caught her off guard.

Qu Ranran suddenly felt that she was going to be unable to hold on anymore, no matter how strong she was, she would be covered in bruises when she met him.

"You're done talking, can I go?" Qu Ranran said lightly, removing the gaze that had been on him a moment ago.

At this time, Guan's mother's voice also came from the car.

"Son, it's almost time, go to the airport early!"

Guan Hao didn't respond.

But Qu Ranran turned around at this moment, turned her back to him, and left calmly.

Immediately behind her came the sound of a car leaving...

Her originally upright body slowly softened, and she supported the guardrail by the roadside with her hands. No one knew or saw her. The moment she turned around, tears had already filled her eyes.

(End of this chapter)