If you can love like this

Chapter 91

I stared at her for a moment, dragged her to the floor-to-ceiling window involuntarily, pointed outside and said, "Look, it's very cold today, and there's a lot of snow falling. If you look at the entrance of the hotel below, the press conference is very busy." Those people still refused to leave when it was over. They were all loyal followers of Geng Mochi. They came from all directions in the cold weather just to see Geng Mochi. They were unwilling and even more sad, so they refused to leave. Milan, Geng Mochi never It doesn’t belong to me alone, he belongs to all the music fans and fans who love him, I thought he belonged to me alone, but now I know that’s impossible, a person like him is destined to stand in the center of the stage, no People can monopolize him. Every one of us who loves him only wishes him well. Fans love him and support him. Wherever he has performances, he will follow him to join him. If I love him, I will stay by his side and take care of him silently. Jin Yi also loves him, so he gave all his father's works to him, and kept secrets for him for so many years; his friends love him, so they do their best to do things for him, help him, and support him. What about you, You keep saying you love him, what have you done for him? Ask yourself, are you loving him? You are not in love, you think he has lived too long, and you are trying to kill him in every possible way. Take his last breath, do you think this is the love you want to express? Is the greatest love in the world just like you?"

Speaking of this, the sudden burst of pain in my chest made me almost unable to breathe. I covered my face and began to cry. I didn't want to cry in front of her. No matter how deeply I was hurt by her in the past, I never cried in front of her. But at this moment, I couldn't bear this grief any longer, as if a sharp awl was piercing my heart fiercely, I bent my body and supported the wall, the pain was so painful that my whole body was about to curl up together.

I just walked into the elevator crying, staggering, never wanting to say a word to her, never wanting to look at her.The snow outside was getting bigger and bigger, and the wind was biting. When I walked out of the hotel, my phone rang. I didn't have the energy to answer the phone, and finally squatted on the side of the street and cried.I really can't do anything, even if he is dead now, he is frozen in front of me, I am holding a corpse, I am powerless, just like Yingzhu's death, I can only cry like this, like this Heartbroken, burying part or even all of myself like this, even if I smash myself into pieces and bleed profusely, it's all in vain, I still can't save him, I can't save myself.

I don't know how long I cried on the side of the street, snowflakes covered my head and body, the fans gathered at the entrance of the hotel gradually dispersed, I was still squatting in the snow crying, when Wei Minglun couldn't contact me and drove to the hotel to look for me, I I was not very conscious anymore, I don't know if I was tired from crying or frozen, Wei Minglun helped me into the car and I passed out.

That night I developed a high fever and had trouble breathing. The old lung disease that I had choked on when I was drowning relapsed. Geng Mochi sent me to the hospital the next day. I thought it was just a cold. I didn’t want my condition to deteriorate rapidly. Pneumonia caused pulmonary edema By the next evening, he had to be put on a ventilator due to respiratory failure.I had a fever all the time, and sometimes I was awake and sometimes unconscious. I didn't really know what was going on around me. I just remembered that there were people coming and going around me, including doctors, nurses, and family members.

In my impression, Qi Shuli stayed by my side the longest, always talking to me, sometimes with my eyes open, because the consciousness of the effect of the medicine is still not very clear, every time he said a word and every time he mentioned a person, I would I struggled to think about who this person was, what relationship he (she) had with me, and then fell asleep again.Vaguely, I seem to have heard Qi Shuli say that Anne's marriage partner is actually Chen Jinsen, Qi Shuli was furious because of this, and threatened to kill him, they made a big fuss, I even heard the brother and sister arguing in my ward.

Annie cried and begged Qi Shuli: "Brother, I love him. I know he has done things that you hate and hurt you, but I still love him! I promised to hold a wedding with my elder brother, but I was actually angry with Keven. He suddenly ignored me, and when I couldn't stand it, I got angry. Later, I found out that he ignored me because my brother transferred the property to Kaoer's name. I knew what he wanted, but I couldn't give it to him. Both of us are Selfish people are so selfish that they don’t care about others, or even hurt those around them, but after experiencing so many things, we all understand how precious possession is. We once had it, but we didn’t cherish it. Now I don’t have anything I can't see, as long as I have him, he will be my everything for the rest of my life! Brother, let us do it, I really want to be with him..."

"If you marry him, you will no longer be my sister, do you understand, you will no longer be my sister!"

"Brother, this is my choice, please help us."

"I don't agree!" Qi Shuli's furious voice was next to his ear.Then the nurse came over to dissuade: "Everyone, please don't quarrel in the ward, it will affect the patient's rest."

"sorry."

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Next, I fell into a deeper coma, and I could no longer hear anyone talking in my ears. I seemed to have slept for a long time and had a long, long dream.The dream was messy and exhausting, I kept jumping from scene to scene, many faces were spinning in my mind, I dreamed that I went back to my childhood, crying because my beloved toy was lost, and I grew up in a blink of an eye. I didn’t pass the exam and didn’t dare to go home. I wrote a love letter to the boy I had a crush on. I was drunk for the first time. I fought with a sister on the street and my skirt was torn. Let me see, I was crying and running in the rain, I secretly bought a pair of red high-heeled shoes for myself with the lucky money, but my father threw them away, I laughed excitedly when I saw my name on the list of the college entrance examination, I used lipstick Gong Haoming drew a red heart in his lesson planner, Gong Haoming and I kissed secretly in the school woods, and I took the train to Beipiao...

A lot of images are constantly overlapping in my mind, I seem to have experienced another life, whether happy or sad, the years are aging in an instant in my chaotic memory, when I wake up and see the sunlight coming in from the window, I feel as if Another life.Surprisingly, the first person I saw was Milan!She sat quietly on the chair by the bed, without makeup, still beautiful.I looked at her weakly, and my mind started to recover, and I remember arguing with her in the hotel, and it was snowing, and I was crying in the snow.

"Why...why are you here?" I asked weakly.

She laughed, "Why can't I be here?"

I was really weak, and it was difficult to speak, so I asked again: "Where is the ink pool?"

Milan sighed and shook his head, "You still only think about him. Don't worry, he's not dead yet, and he's undergoing an examination." Milan clicked his tongue again and again, "It's really not worth it for Frank, he's been through so many days for you, you Do you know that he has been in a coma for more than ten days? He stays here every day, most of his hair is gray, he vomited blood and passed out several times, but he just refused to leave, and you still didn’t ask him when you woke up..."

I closed my eyes and tears rolled down my face.

I'm wide awake.

Milan said again: "He passed out again last night, there is no other way, so I have to watch over you." I turned my head away, still unwilling to cry in front of her, "You...why are you so kind?"

"In your eyes, I've probably never had a good heart, have I?" She laughed at herself, reached out to help me tuck the quilt, and continued, with difficulty and intermittently, "You are really a failure, Bai Kao'er, two men love you so much, but neither of them can keep you, but... I am more of a failure than you, fighting and fighting, but getting nothing, so boring, no one wins the other, no one wins. If you don't get anyone, everyone is a poor guy..."

"Don't you like money very much?"

"Yes, I like money very much, but I am more eager for love. A man like Geng Mochi is lethal to any woman. It is natural for me to fall in love with him, so he put a ring on me at the wedding At that time, I couldn't find Bei, and I knew he was using me to get revenge on you, so I didn't have any scruples. Alas, I used Nakata to get revenge on him later, but he didn't care at all. His indifference hit me very hard , so I took out the manuscript of the LOVE series to threaten him, but he acted before I acted. It can be seen that he cherishes Ye Sha very much, including He Jinyi, but he is cold and ruthless to me. Like you said, from the beginning to the end, I was singing alone, which is boring, really boring, and his property was never what I really wanted, so I gave up..."

"Abandon property?"

"Yes, I have already agreed to a divorce with Geng Mochi, just the day before yesterday." Milan said calmly.

I widened my eyes in disbelief, thinking she was joking, but her expression didn't look like she was lying at all, her plain face was lifeless, sad and sad, but there was a sense of pain in her eyes.

(End of this chapter)