God is finally with me

Chapter 679 desperate [8 more]

But no matter what she was thinking, he still raised his hand, patted her on the back, and coaxed: "It's all over, and I was also at fault. At that time, we were too young and too narrow-minded, and we will each have our own way in the future." Start all over again."

Hearing Miyagi's consolation, Meng Xiyan cried more and more sadly. After all, her crying still made his heart ache. He hugged her waist with his left hand, and patted her head with his right hand, comforting: "Xiyan, Don't be like this, it's all over! Don't be like this, you have to learn from Xi Huan, you have to have hope in life, you can live a better life and start over."

Meng Xiyan, who was leaning in Miyagi's arms, listened to Miyagi's comfort, shook her head suddenly and said, "I'm not Xihuan, I can't do it, if I didn't want to marry into the Ling family, my mother wouldn't do it either." If something goes wrong, she won't go crazy, my dad won't go to jail, and Xi Huan won't have a miscarriage. The reason why the Meng family has come to this point is all my fault, and it's all my fault. My heart was wild, and my whole family was harmed."

Meng Xiyan didn't even say these words to Meng Xihuan, but she told Miyagi today, which is why she couldn't pull herself together.

When she was with Chen Chen, what she destroyed was not herself, but her family. She destroyed her family, and she destroyed the rest of her parents' life.

So she doesn't want to wake herself up, because once she wakes up, she has to face her own mistakes, and when she wakes up, she will remember that all this is her fault, she can't bear this responsibility, she can't afford this fact, so she has to use alcohol to anesthetize her Own.

Listening to Meng Xiyan's self-blame, Miyagi took a deep breath, continued to pat her on the back, and comforted her: "This has nothing to do with you, Auntie is an adult, she has her own thinking in doing things, she made mistakes It has nothing to do with you."

"That's not the case. She sees me suffering and planning for so many years. She is afraid that I will fail and do wrong things. It's all because of me."

The more Meng Xiyan talked, the more sad she became, and the more she cried, the more sad she became. In the past three years, she has not blamed herself for a day. Every day when she was drunk, she would think, if they hadn't come to S City, if she hadn't known Qingchen, didn't think about it. How good it would be to conquer the early hours.

But every time she opened her eyes, she still faced the dilapidated rental house and the surrounding environment, reminding her repeatedly that she couldn't go back, it was impossible for her to go back.

These days at Miyagi Company, for Meng Xiyan, the days felt like years. She was so depressed that she was about to suffocate, but she still had to pretend to be disapproving, and continued to work, smiling at her colleagues and at Xi. Huan, she is tired, really tired.

But she wants to take good care of Xi Huan, and wants her to have someone to rely on for the rest of her life, but now she can't even do this well, she blames herself, she blames herself, but there is nothing she can do.

Miyagi looked at Meng Xiyan who was crying so hard, he just hugged her tightly and didn't continue to comfort her.

Meng Xiyan majored in psychology. She knew many things herself. At this time, no matter how others tried to comfort her, it was useless. It was only good for her to figure it out.

Afterwards, the dance of the two stopped, the sound of music remained the same, Meng Xiyan's cry remained the same, and Miyagi remained silent.

In Ruoda's living room, the two embraced each other tightly, Miyagi hoped that her relief and her hug would make Meng Xiyan feel a little more at ease, so that she would not think so much.

Hearing Meng Xiyan's cry, he suddenly felt like a lullaby, making him sleepy, making him feel top-heavy, tired even holding his eyelids open.

Gradually, he felt that Meng Xiyan's crying became blurred, and his head was buzzing. He wanted to push Meng Xiyan away from his arms, and wanted to go to the side to rest, but found that his body could not move. I can't even speak clearly.

In Miyagi's arms, Meng Xiyan felt the weight of Miyagi gradually pressing on her body, cried and hugged him, saying: "Miyagi, I'm sorry."

As soon as Meng Xiyan's apology fell, Miyagi's head rested on her shoulder.

After that, Meng Xiyan spent a lot of effort to pull Miyagi back to the bed.

On the bed, she skillfully took off Miyagi's coat, covered him with a quilt, and let him sleep on the bed.

Afterwards, she left the bedroom again, along the carpet that she had just pulled Miyagi in, and straightened the upside-down blanket with her feet.

Finally, she made her way to the door of the suite and put a sign on the doorknob that said cleaning was due at nine o'clock in the morning.

After hanging the sign, she returned to the restaurant, picked up the red wine she hadn't finished, and drank it all in one gulp.

After drinking, she returned to the master bedroom of the suite as if nothing had happened.

On the big bed, Miyagi was already sound asleep. Meng Xiyan looked at the sleeping man on the bed, took a deep breath, sat beside her, took a tissue from the bedside cabinet, and wiped the tears on her face.

She looked at Miyagi who had already passed out, raised her right hand, stroked his face lightly, and said helplessly: "Why are you disobedient, why did you reject Xi Huan, Xi Huan is so good, why did you force me to marry you?" No way out, don't give me the last hope, Miyagi, you are too ruthless, too cruel."

After Meng Xiyan finished speaking, she lifted the quilt and lay down next to Miyagi as if nothing really happened.

When lying next to him, she couldn't help but think of the half a year they lived together.

During those six months, she had a very happy time. Miyagi would cook her breakfast almost every morning. They would go shopping together, drink together, watch movies together, and sleep together in the same bed doing the most intimate things. Never been this close.

Looking at the only man she ever had, she was lying on her side, staring at Miyagi without turning her eyes, touching his face and asking: "Miyagi, do you know? I love and hate you at the same time." .”

It was the first and last time for Meng Xiyan to watch Miyagi so quietly.

Looking at the motionless Miyagi, Meng Xiyan took a deep breath and said: "Don't blame me, I am also desperate, but I don't want to be miserable alone, I want to have a companion, I hope you will be my companion, because in my life Remembering you, you have given me the most company."

As Meng Xiyan spoke, she gently leaned her head on Miyagi's chest, feeling his warmth and his heartbeat.

Thinking of the beauty in the past, thinking of this heart that used to speed up for her, but now it has become so strange, Meng Xiyan's eye circles turned red again, and tears fell down Miyagi's chest along the eye sockets.

Only Miyagi's chest once made her feel stable and gave her a sense of security. When she leaned into his arms, she could say with full confidence that this man loved her and belonged to her.

She thought that no matter when and where, when she turned around, he would be there waiting for her.

(End of this chapter)