I stand on the bridge and watch the scenery

Chapter 30 Children
Long-distance love is the most painful and costly. Zhang Zhenglan's city is about [-] kilometers away from Xi'an, and it takes two hours to fly. The cost... Zhang Zhenglan doesn't care.What he cares about is two hours, and what he cares about is that the straight-line distance is also a thousand kilometers.

The flight was delayed, and Shui Guang sat in the airport waiting for a long time, a little sleepy, so he leaned on the chair and took a nap.Not long after, there was someone standing in front, Shui Guang noticed it, opened his eyes, and the tall man in front of him smiled and said, "Beauty, wait for someone?"

Shui Guang stood up and said, "Here we come."

The man stepped forward and hugged her lightly, Shui Guang's hands slowly wrapped around his waist.

A great couple always draws a second look.

The man is handsome, the woman is delicate, there is no words to hug each other, but it makes people feel a kind of meaning.

"Are you hungry?" Zhang Zhenglan asked, letting go of her and holding her hand instead.

Shuiguang was indeed hungry, so he said, "Very hungry."

Zhang Zhenglan smiled and tilted her head to kiss her hair, and said lightly, "If the flight is delayed next time, I'm going to complain, sir."

Because it was getting late and it was past meal time, Shui Guang called home and said that he would go back after eating outside.

After a good meal, it was already dark, but the city was still brightly lit even in the dark.

The two strolled around for a while, Zhang Zhenglan turned around and bent over, saying, "I'll carry you on my back."

"No more." Shui Guang hesitated.

He was very persistent, so Xiao Shuiguang stepped forward and lay on him.His back was firm and warm, and it didn't take long for Shuiguang to lean against it, and he became a little drowsy, "I want to sleep."

"Well. You go to sleep."

He walked steadily, slowly pacing on this less lively street.

They had had a child, he knew, the day she came to see him at that school, and she didn't know he knew.If she didn't say it, she wanted someone to keep this secret in her heart.He didn't even ask, and imitated her to slowly rot this secret in his heart...

He turned his head and kissed her gently on the cheek, she closed her eyes and said, "Are you tired?"

"Not tired. Can't sleep?"

She smiled, "It feels like being on a boat, rocking to and fro." After a while, she asked, "Zheng Lan, what are we going to get for Si Lan's birthday tomorrow?"

Zhang Zhenglan thought for a while, "Toy guns? Model cars? Or...computers?"

"He's only one year old."

The two chatted as they walked, there was no point, but they were comfortable.

Two days after Si Lan's birthday, Zhang Zhenglan took the morning flight back, because the company had some business over there, and he had to come forward to deal with it.

This farewell to the National Day, this year's National Day, including the Mid-Autumn Festival, a total of eight days of holidays.Zhang Zhenglan spent the Mid-Autumn Festival with his parents at home, and came to Xi'an on the first day. He used to stay in hotels, but this time he stayed at Shuiguang.

On the evening of the [-]st, the Luo family treated guests to dinner in the compound, and they were all the families who were close.After the meal, when the men were playing cards in the living room, Jing Qin, who was playing with the children in Yu's guest room, called Shui Guang and asked her, "Are you planning to marry him? Either you came or he came here. What a trouble." .”

Shui Guang smiled and shook his head, "It's still early."

Jing Qin pulled her to sit by the bed, "If you really decide to live with him, then you should settle it early. Don't make the same mistake as me. The thing I'm most dissatisfied with about my marriage is getting on the bus first and paying the fare later." .”

Shui Guang's expression froze, and after a few seconds of silence, he slowly said: "Xiaoqin, if... I said, I'm afraid, what should I do?"

"Afraid of what?" Yu Jingqin was puzzled, then thought of something and smiled, "Afraid of getting married? Now there are a large number of leftover girls who can't find a man. Or are you afraid of having children? Children can be delivered by caesarean section."

"No, I... I'm afraid of losing it after I get it, and I don't know if I'm qualified to take on a life. It's much heavier than I imagined... You don't know, I..."

Jing Qin frowned, "Oh, what are you worrying about so many things that you don't have?"

Shui Guang hadn't heard what Jing Qin was saying, only the words she hadn't said in her mind.

You don't know, I already carry a life on my body...

The Buddha said: "Let go, see through, and be at ease." She had let go of her longing for Jing Lan, and found out the grievances between her and Zhang Zhenglan, but she still couldn't feel at ease.

Because, she still owes...

After the operation at that time was completed, she fell into a coma due to anesthesia, and when she woke up, there was nothing left.

Only this time, it was all her fault and there was no excuse.

That night, Zhang Zhenglan hugged her behind her, "Shuiguang, let's get married..."

Shui Guang listened, her eyes slowly turned red, and after a long time, she turned around and leaned her forehead gently on his shoulder.

"I have had children."

"Ah."

"But I knocked out the baby."

"Ah."

"I regret."

"Ah."

"But the child won't come back..."

"Ah."

The wetness on her shoulders was getting heavier and heavier, Zhang Zhenglan listened to Shuiguang weeping suppressedly, caressed her shoulders, and slightly closed her eyelashes.

Zhang Zhenglan hugged her tightly, and whispered in her ear: "Do you still remember the movie we went to see together when we met last time? The name is "I do", you said you remember the line ' After some things are lost, they may never come back, but it will always be a dull pain in my heart. If I could go back in time, I would like to stop at that moment forever'. And what I remember most is the phrase 'If a woman is willing Marrying you, getting pregnant with you, and taking the baby shows how disappointed she must be with you'."

He slightly pushed Xiao Shuiguang away, and looked at her tenderly and sadly, "Shuiguang, I'm sorry... I let you down."

Tears blurred Xiao Shuiguang's vision, and she finally burst into tears.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." she said intermittently.

Zhang Zhenglan didn't speak. He knew that her "sorry" was not for him. Their grievances had long since ended and started again. She didn't owe him anything.

This belated apology is for the child they have never met...

He and her are actually like the sentence written by Zhang Ailing, he is just a selfish man, and she is just a selfish woman.They love each other, lose and gain.

In the end, the thin water flows long and the blue sea has no waves.

(End of this chapter)