I stand on the bridge and watch the scenery

Chapter 24

In Hangzhou at the end of May, the rain stopped and the sun rose, spreading a layer of heat.After staying in the hotel, Zhang Zhenglan went out to do errands alone.Before leaving, he told Shuiguang not to wander around and wait for him to come back.

The hotel is quite close to the West Lake and can be reached by walking.Shui Guang thought, although he said he would be back soon, he might not be able to finish the matter of business negotiation in a short while, and it was really boring to stay so stupid, so he left a note and walked towards the lake alone.

Originally, Shuiguang had expected the bustle of the West Lake. Sure enough, when he got there, he found that there was only one piece of lake and mountains, but there were countless people.She smiled helplessly, thought for a while and rushed towards Baidi with the flow of people.

When I arrived at the imperial stele pavilion, I stopped for a long time.In front is the Broken Bridge. This is the bridge that Shuiguang has heard of so many times, but it is the first time that Shuiguang has actually seen it.But in the dream, when she was young, she heard her grandma tell her about the experience of going to the West Lake with her grandfather when she was young. She once dreamed that she and Jing Lan were walking on the bridge with a paper umbrella painted with flowers.

Shui Guang looked around, and there seemed to be fewer pedestrians in the west, so he decided to go there first.The sycamore leaves along the road are shady, and the waterfowl on the lake are kind and gratifying.After walking for a while, I found a seat in a quiet place and sat down. I sat there for nearly an hour.When the phone rang, the person who picked it up asked, "Where are you? The note said I went to Broken Bridge, but I couldn't find you."

"Are you breaking the bridge?"

"Well, where the hell are you?"

Shui Guang couldn't tell where he was, so he said, "I'm nearby, don't leave, I'll come over."

After hanging up the phone, she got up and walked towards the Broken Bridge. At this time, the sun had sunk into the thick clouds and it was much cooler.But this rare and considerate God immediately changed his face.Although the summer in the south of the Yangtze River is a baby face, the sudden heavy rain without warning really makes people feel flustered.Shui Guang was about to reach the bridge, surrounded by people running around to hide from the rain, tall and short, fat and thin figures dangled around, and Zhang Zhenglan couldn't be found at all.

At this moment, the Imperial Stele Pavilion has been surrounded with three floors inside and three floors outside, and even the big phoenix tree in front of the stele is full of people.Shuiguang had nowhere to go, and when she didn't know what to do, she heard someone calling her name loudly.

She followed the sound and saw Zhang Zhenglan running towards her in the rain, and her clothes were already half wet in the slowly thinning crowd.He ran up and hugged her, and raised his other hand to block her head.Someone ran away under the sycamore tree behind him, and Shuiguang pulled him into the empty space to hide from the rain.There was a peddler nearby with a plastic bag selling umbrellas, and Zhang Zhenglan asked for one without saying a word.But Shui Guang frowned, pulled his arm, and Zhang Zhenglan asked, "What?"

"It's too ugly and expensive." Shui Guang responded softly, causing the peddler to goug her out.

"Hahaha." Zhang Zhenglan laughed out loud.He finally bought one, propped it open and held it above their heads.

It turned out that life is so absurd.In the dream, the romantic arms swam together, but now, it is a pair of drowned men and women, and a dull yellow and inferior umbrella.Shui Guang looked at the people around him, there was still rain dripping from his hair, he raised his hand to wipe it off, turned his head and saw her looking at him, just smiled.

Today's result should be the reason for coming, Shui Guang thought, she came here with him in the end, no matter how muddled it was when she came, she just hoped that he and she could walk down the road in a clear and safe way.

Because it was raining, the two of them didn't go shopping anymore, and when the rain subsided, they directly called a car back to the hotel.

When Zhang Zhenglan entered the room, he leaned against her and said, "Let's not go out." He kissed him as he said that, and Shui Guang was wet all over, so he pushed him away and said he wanted to take a bath.

"Okay, let's take a bath first." Zhang Zhenglan was a little anxious that day, wrapped in water in the bathroom, and after he succeeded, he put her ear in his mouth, and hugged her to the bed in the position of being inside her.The curtains in the room were drawn, and only a beam of light from the bathroom shone through, making it dim and ambiguous.

Shui Guang bit his lip and did not make a sound, his eyes were misty.After arriving on the bed, her legs slid down his waist, and his hands slid up from her calves, thighs, waist, and back, and finally lifted her up and sat on his lap.Shuiguang finally couldn't bear the cry, he greedily bit her lips and tongue, and kissed her deeply, Shuiguang had no strength at all, and was so soft that he let him control her.

It was just being drenched by the rain, but it seemed to be submerged in a bottomless pool. Some pictures randomly appeared in Shuiguang's mind. There was this rain, and there was also that distant dream, and the dream gradually faded away. Go, she smiled and called softly: "Jing Lan."

Shui Guang's lips were bitten painfully, she opened her eyes, stared at the person in front of her, then smiled vaguely, and timidly kissed him back.

The person in front of her hugged her tightly and heard what he was saying, but they couldn't tell the difference after all.

After waking up after a nap, the water light moved, and my waist and limbs felt a little sore.She turned on the lamp and looked at the people around her.Zhang Zhenglan was still sleeping, her brows were furrowed tightly, as if there was some unresolved knot in her heart.Shui Guang reached out and stroked between his brows, trying to smooth those lines.He seemed to feel her touch, turned his head uncomfortably, and avoided her.

When Zhang Zhenglan woke up, Shuiguang had finished washing up and was sitting in front of the window looking into the distance. It was almost dusk and the rain had stopped.

He looked at her for a while, then went to the bathroom to wash up and told her to go down to the second floor for dinner.Shuiguang is not hungry, so he said that he should go out for a walk before watching.He didn't have a good appetite, so he nodded in agreement.

When the two went out, the city became more fresh and quiet after the rain, and the mountains in the distance were shrouded in a hazy sunset, which was indescribably poetic and picturesque.

Crossed several roads and turned into an alley.Shuiguang likes to dig into old alleys.When she was a child, the phrase "Grass trees in the setting sun, ordinary alleys, where slaves of human nature once lived" most aroused her infinite reverie.She always felt that "treasures" would be hidden in these places with narrow roads and dilapidated old houses.Besides, the "lanes" in Hangzhou are even more famous, and it seems that each lane has a hidden story.

I don't know the name of this alley. There are a lot of small shops on both sides, one after another, selling all kinds of seemingly unclean food and shoddy things.The two ended up visiting a dim sum shop.On the wall of the store, there are floral papers with menus printed on them. There are many varieties of wontons, steamed dumplings, and noodles.There were not many seats inside, so the two chose an empty seat by the window and sat down, ordered a basket of steamed dumplings and two bowls of wontons.

Shui Guang is not a talkative person, especially in front of Zhang Zhenglan.In the past two days, Zhang Zhenglan was also a little different. He wasn't as active as usual talking about this and that, and he was even in a trance.Shui Guang didn't know the reason, but thought it might be a business trouble, so he didn't ask much, but helped him remove the paper sleeves from the chopsticks after the order came, and poured vinegar into the small plate in front of him.

After dinner, the two went to swim in the West Lake at night.When they got to the Broken Bridge, Shui Guang stood there for a while, and Zhang Zhenglan stood behind her without disturbing her.

At night, she fell asleep in his arms, and he was still awake looking at a point in the dark.

"Same bed, different dreams?"

Without him in her dream, he could only stand outside her dream forever, looking at her, but couldn't get in.

On the second day, according to the plan, their main itinerary was to go to Lingyin Temple.

Neither of them are Buddhists, but since Jing Lan's death, Shui Guang has become a little more inexplicably close to fate and the theory of past and present lives.It is said that it is better to go early in the morning to worship the Buddha, but Shuiguang doesn't care.Go early just to be less crowded.

The two of them went to Lingyin by car after breakfast.At the foot of Lingyin Mountain in the northwest of West Lake, the sky is a little dim among the mountains and forests. The screen wall of "So Far to the West" stood still, and tourists kept standing in front of it to take pictures. The two of them walked all the way and stopped here. Shui Guang looked at the words on the screen and suddenly felt a little sentimental. "So Far to the West, let her Thinking of Jing Lan for no reason.Isn't the distance between life and death just a stone's throw away?If you can't see through it, you can only think about it all the time, suffering every day.

Zhang Zhenglan said beside him, "Are you leaving?" Shui Guang turned around and said, "Oh, good."

When going to Lingyin Temple, they would pass Feilai Peak first, but the two of them did not climb Feilai Peak first, but went directly to the gate of the temple.From a distance, you can see the smoke in the temple, as well as the solemn and warm feeling tainted by the smoke.Because the ticket office is located on the side of the Temple of Heavenly Kings, after entering the temple to ask for incense, the only way to enter the Hall of Heavenly Kings is through the back door.In this way, the first thing the pilgrims saw was not the smiling Maitreya, but the dark-faced Wei Tuo.Shui Guang has always disliked Wei Tuo because of the short-lived story.Or Wei Tuo never loved Epiphyllum, everything is just wishful thinking of Epiphyllum.On the other hand, the thin and thin Yu Ming, just because of a chance stop and linger, let his eternal soul wander.

Shui Guang looked outside the hall, Zhang Zhenglan was already waiting for her outside the hall.Standing alone against a big tree.

After that, it was a visit to Xundian along the way.

I don't know what day it is, the lights in the Medicine Master's Hall are dimly lit, and a Dharma meeting has just ended.A chubby monk wearing glasses was surrounded by a group of good men and women, speaking peacefully.Zhang Zhenglan held the water and stood on the periphery of the crowd, listening to the voice of the great monk coming from time to time.

"...Pursuing the image is a thousand miles away. How do you know that no fate is not another kind of fate? The constant attachment to love will lead you to fall into the samsara forever. How to let go, prosperity and decline depend on him..."

Probably someone is trapped in the love network of evil sea and urgently needs a reed to sail.

Shui Guang thought a lot, Zhang Zhenglan was also moved, and he turned his head to look at the person beside him.At this moment, the great monk had Nan Wu in both hands, and said to the crowd: "If you can afford it, you have to let it go. Wouldn't it be better to save the fate to see you next time?" Everyone readily understood, returned to Nan Wu, and called "Amitabha Buddha" .

The crowd dispersed, and the great monk walked back into the hall.Zhang Zhenglan thought to himself: If he could let go so easily, how could there be so many people suffering from love in the world.

After eating a vegetarian meal in the temple, the two went out of the temple and returned to the Feilai Peak.Shui Guang looked at the words "One Line of Sky" on the sign and was quite interested, so Zhang Zhenglan took her to look for it.I searched for a while but didn't see it, and then I heard a group of tourists talking there, saying that there is a square brick footprint on the ground in front of it, you only need to take a small step to the right of the footprint, look up at the top, and find From a good angle, you can find a star-like light spot slightly exposed on the roof of the dark part of the cave. This is the "line of sky" hidden behind the stone roof.I tried to illuminate the water with light, but I still couldn't see anything.Zhang Zhenglan pointed to the four words on the stone wall beside her and told her: Contentment is always happiness.

Shui Guang smiled and was no longer attached.After a tour, the sun was slowly setting to the west, so Zhang Zhenglan proposed to look for the Sansheng Stone.

Shui Guang pondered, "I heard it's hard to find."

Zhang Zhenglan raised his hand and looked at his watch, "If you still can't find it after half an hour, then I won't look for it." Shui Guang nodded when he saw that he insisted.Walking to Tianzhuxiang City, there are obviously fewer people, and you can hear the murmur of the stream at the turn.All the way uphill, there are shops on both sides, some vegetarian snacks, wine and tea are also sold.The two walked slowly, Zhang Zhenglan carefully paying attention to various signs along the way.Passing by Fajing Temple, follow the roadside instructions and enter along the path. After walking a few steps, there is no way to lead.The two looked around, and saw tea bushes on the left and right.Compared with other places by the West Lake, this place is full of rocks and a bit barren.

Zhang Zhenglan was about to continue going up, but Shui Guang stopped him, "Don't go up, it's pitch black and there is no one there." Zhang Zhenglan glanced at his watch again, "There are still 5 minutes. "After finishing speaking, he took her hand, with a stubborn expression, Shui Guang didn't say anything, and followed him up the stairs.

The Sansheng Stone, which arouses people's infinite reverie, is just an inconspicuous boulder when it is actually seen, with three bowl-sized red seal characters written on it.On the smoother side of the stone, an inscription was engraved.With the passage of time, the inscription has become a bit blurred, but this story, originally there is no need to read it again.What he meant, she understood.

On the side of the boulder, some red cloth strips and small locks are scattered here and there, which are the oaths that the lovers agreed to for three lives.Zhang Zhenglan held Shuiguang's hand tightly, and said softly in her heart: "Xiao Shuiguang, we don't want the third life, but this one, do you think it's okay?"

At that moment, Shui Guang also said silently in his heart: "I don't want the afterlife, but I hope that this life will not be difficult, without complaints or regrets."

Both of them hoped for a long-term relationship at the same time, but neither of them pointed it out.

After returning from Hangzhou, each devoted himself to his own work.They hid their emotions from each other and lived in peace.But the more carefully guarded something is, the easier it is to break.

Soon into June, June is a hurdle for Shuiguang.

For Zhang Zhenglan, June [-]th is Shuiguang's birthday. For this birthday, he has been preparing since the beginning of the month. On his birthday, the two of them couldn't have a candlelight dinner together. This time, her birthday must be perfect. .After booking a seat in a moody restaurant, he also went to pick out the gifts himself. He made a plan. After eating and giving gifts that day, he would go to a violin concert. She should like it, and then he would drive directly to the suburban area. A mountain villa where they will spend the night.

The next day they can sleep until they wake up naturally, because the next day is Saturday.

He conceived so well that he would feel so lost and so tired when he ended up with nothing in the end.

On Shuiguang's birthday, Zhang Zhenglan couldn't get through to her when he called her, and then called her company, saying that she had asked for a day off today. Finally, he called Luo Zhi, who hesitated and said, "Boss Zhang , don't look for her today...Let her stay alone for a day, after this day, she will be fine. "

Zhang Zhenglan faintly sensed something, but he was still indifferent, at least on the surface, but he didn't call her again. He sent her a message, telling her that he would wait for her at his house after get off work and spend time with her. Birthday.

But that day he waited until the night was completely dark and did not receive a single message.

Finally, he opened the cake box on the dining table, took out the pile of colorful candles, inserted them one by one on the cake, lit them one by one, and watched them extinguish with tears one by one.

When going out, I put on the coat that I took off yesterday.

Zhang Zhenglan didn't know how she spent this day, as if her three souls and seven souls had already left her body, and she was only living in the world with a walking corpse.Unknowingly, he walked to the entrance of the concert hall and saw many people entering the arena one after another. He seemed to remember something.Reaching out of his coat pocket, he found two brand new tickets for violin concerts.Reluctantly, he took out his phone and checked it again, but there was still no reply from her. He smiled silently, and walked in with the flow of people.

The position of the VIP was particularly near the front, and Zhang Zhenglan felt that the steps under her feet seemed to be continuously extending without end.It wasn't until the moment he sat down that he suddenly relaxed and realized that he had been holding the ticket in his hand tightly.

Zhang Zhenglan didn't know when the concert would start, but he could only hear the chords lingering in his ears like the misty rain of the West Lake, delicate and long.This reminded him of the whitewashed walls and black tiles in the south of the Yangtze River, as well as the vicissitudes of the house leaks on the old walls.Thinking about the days of love and entanglement in the world, it is like the traces of leaks in this house, vivid and clear, but there is always an end.

In the joyful romance of "The Joy of Love", he left the scene early and got lost when he left the concert hall. This is an experience he has never had before. In a familiar city, he can't find his way.After wandering like a ghost for a long time, when he raised his eyes again, he found that he had circled back to the entrance of the concert hall.At this time, the lights at the entrance of the concert hall were all turned off, and the crowd dispersed.He looked at it and thought, it turns out that this is the end of the show.

Afterwards, he went to the bar, and as soon as he entered, he raised his hand and said, "I'm in a good mood, and I'll pay for all the drinks tonight." Cheers erupted from the colorful place, and they all expressed their thanks to this handsome man!
Zhang Zhenglan sat on the bar and ordered a glass of champagne. The bartender smiled and said, "Champagne is for celebration. What is Boss Zhang going to celebrate today? He also invited everyone in the room to accompany you." .”

He twitched the corner of his mouth, "My girlfriend's birthday."

The bartender was taken aback, then smiled and said, "Then why didn't you accompany her?"

There was no emotion on Zhang Zhenglan's face, he said, "She doesn't need me to accompany her."

The bartender and Zhang Zhenglan have known each other for a long time, but only at the gag stage. Such a topic has never been touched before, and the other party doesn't know how to pick it up. Zhang Zhenglan didn't want to hear what the other party said, so he drank directly .

In fact, he likes cigarettes, not alcohol. He usually drinks lightly and rarely gets drunk, but this time he was really drunk.

Shuiguang returned to Xi'an to visit Jing Lan's grave, a day she had never dared to come before.

She came this year because she had stepped out of the prison in her heart, and she came to say goodbye...

I staggered the time when I went to worship with Yu's family. In the cemetery in the evening, the purple morning glory was entwined with wild vines, as if they were in love through the ages.Shui Guang sat alone on the concrete slab in front of Jinglan's tomb, stretched out his index finger, touched the name on the tombstone, and slowly traced it over and over again.Gradually, there seemed to be warmth on the pad of the index finger, as if it was Jing Lan's response.

Shuiguang inexplicably thought of Su Dongpo's "Jiangchengzi": "Ten years of life and death are boundless, don't think about it, never forget it... Even if you don't know each other, your face is covered with dust, and your temples are like frost..." She murmured, "Jing Lan, I remember that year I was 19 and you were 22. Now I am 24 and you are still 22." The young man in the photo responded to her with a smile that would never change.

"I'm here to say goodbye to you." Shui Guang said softly, "I'm here to say goodbye to you...brother."

Put the box in your hand in front of the tomb, open it, stroke the things inside, the glass pendant, the bookmark that accompanied her to sleep every night, the diary written to him over the years...

The wind blows down the morning glory in front of the tomb, Shuiguang closes the box, picks up the purple flower next to it, she gets up and puts it on top of the tombstone.

"I'm leaving." Shui Guang looked at the photo and finally smiled slightly, "I'll bring him to see you when the flowers bloom again next year."

It wasn't until he got on the plane that Shui Guang suddenly remembered that he had never turned on his mobile phone since he turned off his mobile phone before boarding the plane in the morning.She came to Xi'an without notifying her parents or him, because on this day, she wanted to just leave it to Yu Jinglan.

She just remembered now, if Zhang Zhenglan couldn't find her, would she be in a hurry?Along the way, Shuiguang held the phone, tossing and turning it between his hands.

It was past ten o'clock when I got off the plane, and when I turned on the phone immediately, I received more than a dozen missed call reminders on my phone, almost all of them were from him, and occasionally two were from Luo Zhi.Shui Guang was a little regretful, and hurriedly dialed Zhang Zhenglan's number to go back, but the phone rang repeatedly, but no one answered.She pressed Luo Zhi's number again.

Luo Zhi said over there: "He looked for you once and asked where you were... very anxious."

"I see. I'll call him again."

Luo Zhi paused and asked, "Shuiguang, have you forgotten? Today is your birthday."

Today is her birthday, and she hasn't forgotten it, but it's been many years since her birthday, so she doesn't care much about it, or, on this day, she is used to escaping and pretending to be an ostrich, her relatives tolerated her willfulness, but she ignored it, so The day that person will value.

He called Zhang Zhenglan's number again, and this time he finally answered, but it wasn't him. The person said that he was in a bar and was drunk.

When she arrived at the bar, Zhang Zhenglan had already left.She asked a lot of people, but no one could tell where the man who invited everyone to drink went.In the end, someone said they saw him walking through the back door. Shui Guang said "thank you" and ran out anxiously, and finally found him in the alley behind the bar.The worst thing is not that he is drunk, but that he is fighting!When Shui Guang arrived, she saw sharply that the stranger was still holding a small steel knife in his hand, her heart skipped a beat, and she ran up in a hurry, the knife had already been swung down, trying to break the drunken chapter. Zheng Lan was clearly out of the question, Shui Guang only had time to reach out to block the blade, but the opponent's force was too great to completely stop his movement, the blade cut into her ring finger and little finger as soon as it deflected, and the blood instantly flowed from it. The back of the hand slides down.

Shui Guang didn't have time to take care of the piercing pain, so he pushed Zhang Zhenglan away with his other hand, and then kicked the gangster away with a sweep of his leg.The opponent glared at her fiercely, spat unwillingly and charged up fiercely again, Shui Guang shook his left hand, which was in excruciating pain, and made a series of movements to attack her head-on, lowering his waist, elbowing his elbows, kicking sideways, hitting the person on the ground, and the opponent After getting up this time, he didn't dare to rush up again, swearing obscenities, and stumbled away.

Shuiguang's left hand was covered with blood, and the wound was a bit deep, but it didn't hurt the bones. She ran back to Zhang Zhenglan, who was sitting leaning against the wall. Shuiguang patted his face gently with clean hands, " Zhang Zhenglan, wake up."

Zhang Zhenglan's eyes were a little confused, and he said, "Shuiguang..."

Shui Guang said "hmm", thinking he was awake, and asked, "Can you get up?"

But he seems to only be able to call Shuiguang, Shuiguang, nothing else.

Shuiguang couldn't help him by himself, so he finally went to the intersection and hailed a taxi, which was an extra [-], and asked the driver to help get him into the car.The driver saw her injured hand and asked before driving, "Go to the hospital?"

Shui Guang said the address of Zhang Zhenglan's residence, and she wanted to send him back first before going to the hospital.

It's just that what happened after that made her forget the pain in her hand.

When Zhang Zhenglan got out of the car, he was a little sober. Without the help of the driver, Shui Guang helped him into the house alone, and got the tall man to lie down on the sofa.Shuiguang was about to get up, but he pulled his clothes. He muttered something, with a sad expression on his face. Shuiguang didn't leave in the end. She used the medicine kit at home to treat the wound on her hand briefly, and then accompanied him. He took care of him all night.

It's just that Lin Jiajia called her before the full light of the next day, saying that Edward ran out early in the morning and was hit by a car and died on the spot.Jia Jia was already crying over there, Shui Guang listened blankly, and it took a long time to understand what she was talking about.

When she went out, Zhang Zhenglan was still sleeping. She went to Lin's house and watched Father Lin bury the big dog covered in blood. Compared to Jiajia's heartbroken, Shuiguang's heart was always calm.

It's not that she doesn't feel uncomfortable, it's just that it's too sudden, and it's too late to react... Really, too sudden.

It was almost noon when Shui Guang returned to Zhang Zhenglan's place again, she was exhausted, she was going to the hospital originally, her hands were really hurting, but she came here first, and wanted to see how he was doing first.

When Shuiguang entered the door, Zhang Zhenglan was sitting in the living room quietly watching TV. He raised his head when he heard the voice, and looked at her. Shuiguang changed his shoes, closed his eyes tiredly, and wanted to ask him how he was. What, but heard a sentence that made her feel cold all over.

He said, Shuiguang, let's forget it.

"I've been deceiving myself for a long time and I feel tired. I'm a little tired now."

"Shuiguang, when you fall asleep at night, your name will be Jing Lan, Jing Lan... Sometimes I think, should I change my name?" He smiled wryly, "But thinking about it later, will you fall in love with me because of it? You still love Jing Lan, not me."

"Have you noticed...every time you call my name, you always pause for a while when you reach the word Lan...I always think, who are you calling?"

"I said that it is enough for me to love you, I just want you to feel happy when you are by my side... I thought that was enough."

"I have always wanted to be with you, grow old with you, I want to go down with you step by step... We will have many children, and then watch them grow up together. I have thought about all these, but only Forget... you may not need all of what I imagined... Shuiguang, I never made you really happy, did I?"

(End of this chapter)