I'm waiting, the wind is waiting for you

Chapter 33 How do you remember me, with a smile or in silence (2)
Su Heng gradually lost consciousness, and in the end, there was only one thought in her mind.

How good would it be if she never knew Lu Wei'an?
If she had never known him, she would not have had all these years of worry.

If she never knew him, she would have no worries or fears.

If they never knew him, they would all be living well in a certain corner of this world.

She may go abroad, she may become cheerful, she may have a boyfriend, she may marry him, she may give birth to a lovely son, and then simply live her life like this.

Maybe he will meet another lovely girl, maybe he will get married after some twists and turns, maybe he will give birth to a beautiful daughter, and then live his life simply like this.

If she went back to the beginning, Su Heng thought, she would definitely not like Lu Wei'an anymore.

But in this world, where is there any if...

Hua Ye looked at Su Heng with tears streaming down his face, and his heart seemed to be tugged. He wanted to reach out and pat her on the shoulder to comfort him, but found that no comfort at this time would help.

Su Heng covered his face, and a voice came from between his fingers: "He's dead, Lu Wei'an is dead..." Such sadness makes one can't help but want to hold her in his arms.

If it was before, Hua Ye would not hesitate to do this, but now, after hearing Su Heng tell the story that she had forgotten for so long, he suddenly realized that he seemed not qualified to do so.

With great difficulty, he stretched out his hand and gently stroked her hair: "Don't cry, Lu Wei'an doesn't want you to cry either."

As a result, Su Heng cried even harder.

She managed to stop crying, it was getting late, Hua Ye took her to go out, Su Heng lowered his head and walked unhappily, when suddenly someone called her: "Su Heng? Are you Su Heng?"

She froze for a while, and turned around to look.

"Ms. Yang..." she called softly.

Teacher Xiao Yang walked over with a smile: "I said it looks familiar. I was most impressed by your class, so I said I wouldn't mistake someone. This is..."

"Hua Ye, my friend." Su Heng smiled awkwardly.

Teacher Xiao Yang nodded, and suddenly asked: "Isn't he your boyfriend? Isn't your boyfriend Lu Wei'an? Why didn't he come?"

The tears that Su Heng had finally stopped almost fell out again, and held back with difficulty: "Well, he didn't come."

Xiao Yang didn't notice anything, just said: "By the way, I found your diary when you were in high school, did Lu Wei'an give it to you?"

"Diary?" Su Heng was puzzled.

"Didn't Lu Weian give it to you? There was a winter vacation and you didn't come. He and Xu Zixin came to see me. I just remembered and asked him to bring it to you." Teacher Xiao Yang snorted, "His memory-breaking nature .”

Su Heng naturally remembered that diary, the diary filled with all her youthful memories, unexpectedly it was in Lu Wei'an's place.

She was still a little confused when she left school, Hua Ye didn't know how to comfort her: "Su Heng, are you okay?"

Su Heng held back and smiled: "Yes. Hua Ye, I want to go home."

Today is a working day, and neither parents are at home. When Su Heng returned home, the house was empty.

When Hua Ye entered, he paid special attention to the door, as if he saw a young man wearing a white short-sleeved shirt, standing beside the bicycle with his head slightly raised, waiting for his beloved.

Hua Ye thought, Lu Wei'an must have fallen in love with Su Heng a long time ago, but he didn't know it all the time.

Some feelings are not strong, but they will slowly take root in the heart, and when they are discovered, they can no longer be cut off.

Lu Wei'an's only mistake was that he discovered it too late. As long as he discovered it earlier, maybe all the tragedies would not have happened.

Hua Ye saw Su Heng's piano room, which was exactly the same as what she described. The windows were large, and the light must be very good in the afternoon. The surrounding walls were covered with portraits of musicians, and there was a display cabinet for her trophies. , and there is a bookshelf full of music scores, and Su Heng's cello is placed by the window.

He seemed to be able to see Su Heng playing the piano here, and the boy in the short-sleeved white shirt asked her if she would like to have a try with him...

He sat by the window of the piano room, watched Su Heng come over with a tin box, and smiled at him: "It's still there."

Hua Ye watched as Su Heng opened the tin box and took out one thing after another.

Su Heng's mood improved a lot, and he said to him: "Look, this is the pen I lent to Lu Wei'an, this is Lu Wei'an's notebook, this is the postcard, and the ticket stub for watching a movie with him. The leaves that were taken from his head, ah, this knife, the knife that I carved LWA... Unfortunately, that hourglass was broken by you. Look, this is the photo I was talking about."

Hua Ye poked his head to look, it was exactly the same as what Su Heng had described, Xu Zixin was making a cute face, Su Heng was smiling with crooked eyebrows, and Lu Wei'an only had her in his eyes.

He finally saw Lu Wei'an's true face, and suddenly felt that Su Heng's description was actually very accurate. Lu Wei'an was so good-looking, with good grades, and a cheerful personality. He must be very popular in school. No wonder Su Heng liked him.

"This is my diary." Su Heng smiled, "My diary when I was in college."

Hua Ye took it, and couldn't help but open it for a look, just in time to see her writing about adding Lu Weian to her new QQ account, smiled and closed the diary, as well as her secret feelings.

He glanced at her, and suddenly found that her smile froze, and he was a little puzzled: "What's wrong?"

Su Heng took out a black leather notebook with trembling hands: "This..."

"what is this?"

"This is my diary from high school."

Hua Ye also frowned slightly. The teacher he met at school just now clearly said that he gave this diary to Lu Wei'an. How could it be in Su Heng's tin box?

Su Heng hurriedly flipped through the pages, page by page, and finally reached the last entry in her diary. She took a deep breath, and turned back another page, her eyes instantly moistened.

Words were densely written on it.

Su Heng.

These two words have been written countless times, filling up all the blank pages, scribbled, neat, big and small, filling every page.

Her tears fell, making the handwriting dizzy.

The last page appears relatively clean.

There are a few lines on it, he wrote: "Su Heng, thank you for liking me so much. I like you too, the same as you like me, I like you."

She cried bitterly holding the diary.

The sound of a car turning off came from downstairs, Su Heng raised his face suddenly, and rushed downstairs with his diary in his arms.Hua Ye was a little worried, so he hurriedly followed to see.

Su's father and Su's mother were a little surprised to see her at home: "Heng, why are you back? What's wrong with you?"

Su Heng's face was full of tears, and he shouted with a crying voice: "Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you tell me that I forgot about Lu Wei'an? Why did you send me abroad! Why!"

Su's father and Su's mother's expressions froze instantly, and Su's mother took a few steps forward: "Heng, listen to us..."

"I just want to know why, why are you hiding it from me? I have the right to know, this is my life!"

"Enough!" Father Su's majestic voice sounded, "Because we thought it would be better if you didn't know, so we didn't tell you, it's as simple as that."

"Why..." She couldn't believe it, "Dad, why..."

Mother Su sighed: "You are not happy at all after getting along with Lu Wei'an. If it weren't for him, how could you have encountered such a thing? Since you have forgotten him, we all think it is better for you to continue to forget. Anyway, we I originally planned to let you go abroad, look, haven't you been living well these years? Ah Heng, you have to know that Mom and Dad are all for your own good."

"For my own good?" She lost her voice, and took two steps back in a daze, "All this has nothing to do with him, it's all my fault, it's because of me that he...you say he's not good, no, that's not the case , It’s me who’s bad, it’s me.”

She rushed out with the diary in her arms. Hua Ye was in a hurry. Before catching up, he hurriedly said to Su's father and Su's mother, "Hello, uncles and aunts. I am Su Heng's friend in the United States. I came back with her this time. You don't have to worry about her, I will take good care of her, and she will be fine when she calms down."

Seeing this strange young man flash past her eyes, Mother Su let out a long sigh: "Tell me, did we really do something wrong?"

Father Su didn't speak, but let out a long sigh.

Hua Ye chased after Su Heng at the corner, and grabbed her arm: "Su Heng, where are you going?"

Su Heng looked so helpless: "Where to? I don't know, where else can I go? Where else can I go?"

Hua Ye had no choice but to lead her back to the hotel and let her wash her face to calm down.

Su Heng sat on the sofa blankly, still holding the diary in his arms.

"Su Heng? Can you say something?" Hua Ye sat beside her and talked to her.

Su Heng didn't seem to be able to hear it, his eyes were lowered, and then he suddenly raised his eyes, took out the phone, and murmured: "I want to call Xinxin!"

The call was connected quickly, and Xu Zixin's voice was still so lively and cheerful: "Heng, why do you call me when you have time? When are you going back to China? I miss you so much!"

"Xinxin." Her voice was a little pale.

"Heng, what's the matter with you?" Xu Zixin asked with a slight smile.

"why did not you tell me?"

Xu Zixin bit her lips: "You, remember?"

"Yes, I remembered, why didn't you tell me all these years?" Su Heng asked in a crying voice, "Xinxin, aren't we best friends?"

"Yes, we are best friends. But Ah Heng, your mother came to beg me, saying that she wanted you to go abroad to study without any worries, that you had finally forgotten those unpleasant things, and told me not to let you When you think of those sad things, I..." Xu Zi paused, "Heng, I'm sorry, I wanted to tell you many times, I'm sorry, Ah Heng..."

Su Heng didn't speak, but tears kept falling.

"A-Heng, are you okay? A-Heng, don't be sad, in fact, Lu Wei'an..."

Before Xu Zixin finished speaking, Su Heng took the lead and said: "I have something to do, but Xinxin, I will be fine, because we are best friends, right?" She was a little choked up.

Xu Zixin didn't know what to say, so he could only say sorry again and again: "Heng, forgive me."

Hua Ye didn't know what Su Heng's mood was like now. The memories she had forgotten were so beautiful and so sad, and they all flooded into his mind at once. He wasn't sure what it would be like if it was him.

"Su Heng." He called her, "everything is in the past, no matter how sad you are, you can't change anything."

Seeing that Su Heng was emotionally unstable, Hua Ye brought her the computer and found her a comedy movie: "Look at it and smile, Su Heng, there's nothing you can't get through." He went back to his room and gave her a little space.

Su Heng finally had some reaction, she turned off the movie and returned to the computer desktop.

There is a QQ icon in the corner of the desktop. Since that year, she has never been on QQ, no matter which number it is, but now, as if being guided by someone, she holds the mouse and clicks it, and then enters the The QQ number and password she had forgotten.

Log in.

The beeping sound continued.

Su Heng looked at the flickering icon, his hand holding the mouse was trembling, but he didn't click on it several times.

She took a few deep breaths, finally aligned, and pressed the left button.

The QQ belonging to Lu Weian was opened by her.

The dialog box is full of only two words.

Ah Heng.

He sent it countless times, each with only two words.

She fixed her eyes on his sending time, and her back straightened suddenly. The latest one was sent at nine o'clock this morning.

Nine o'clock this morning.

Su Heng covered his lips and looked over one by one. Yesterday, the day before yesterday, there was one every day. In the past few years, he sent her a message every day, as if he was calling her himself.

Ah Heng...

Su Heng's fingers were a little stiff, and an impossible thought arose in her mind. She typed tremblingly, exhausting all her strength every time she typed a word.

"Lu Wei'an."

One second, two seconds, three seconds...

Su Heng couldn't hear any sound, as if she had entered a vacuum space, she gasped for breath, suddenly got a little scared, and closed her eyes tightly.

Drop drop drop.

There was another voice.

Su Heng opened his eyes carefully, from blurry to clear, Su Heng saw the two words he sent in the dialog box.

"Heng."

The tears that had been so difficult to stop were rushing down at this moment, she seemed to hear his voice through the computer screen, clear and steady, calling her softly: Ah Heng.

Drop drop drop.

She blurted her eyes to see, and he sent another message.

"I knew that one day, I would wait for you."

(End of this chapter)