I'm waiting, the wind is waiting for you

Chapter 32 How do you remember me, with a smile or in silence (1)
On February 2011, 2, Li Jiaxin's son was born.

On July 2011, 7, 23 people died in Wenzhou high-speed train accident.

On April 2012, 4, little S gave birth to a daughter.

On July 2012, 7, 21 people were killed in a torrential rainstorm in Beijing.

In 2011 and 2012, some people came into this world, and some people left this world.

In 2012, Su Heng had a brand new life.

Just like we always meet, we always keep leaving, leaving a place, leaving a person, leaving, a relationship.

The playground that was bustling just now was silent at this moment, except for some cleaning workers who were picking up the trash, only Su Heng was left standing there in a daze.

Seeing the cleaning worker sweep away the bow that belonged to her, she suddenly rushed up: "Wait a minute!" She rummaged through the garbage for a while, and finally found the bow that was no longer visible, and then sat down with it in her arms. On the lawn, weeping uncontrollably.

Su Heng didn't want to go back to the dormitory, and sat outside for a long time, when Lu Wei'an called, he said sorry: "I said very bad things to her, if something happened to her, I can't forgive myself."

Su Heng didn't speak.

"Heng, you trust me." Lu Wei'an said.

Su Heng smiled: "I know."

"I'm going to Wenzhou."

"I will go with you."

"Heng..."

"I'll go with you. I'm also worried about her, and I want to know if she's safe now. If something happens to her, I can't forgive myself."

Su Heng was glad that it was night, so Lu Wei'an couldn't see her red and swollen eyes clearly, and the two took a taxi to Wenzhou.

There was a strange embarrassment in the car, Lu Wei'an wanted to hold her hand, but she didn't resist, but she didn't look deeply into his eyes again.

"Heng..."

She responded and closed her eyes: "I'm a little tired, I want to sleep for a while."

Lu Wei'an found out that Yang Shiyan's name was on the wounded list of a hospital, so he went straight to that hospital.

The hospital was full of chaos, crying and noisy, as well as family members and patients who kept coming and going. The strong smell of blood made Su Heng pause slightly, and his chest heaved.

Lu Wei'an didn't see her frowning, and rushed to the service desk to ask.

There were too many wounded, and it was not so easy to find someone. Su Heng followed Lu Wei'an, looking for one hospital bed after another, but he still did not see Yang Shiyan after searching all over.

Lu Wei'an was a little anxious, and when he was standing there at a loss, someone suddenly rushed up and rushed into his arms.

He froze for a moment, then let out a long breath: "Yang Shiyan..."

Yang Shiyan hugged his neck tightly, buried her face in his shoulder and cried loudly: "Lu Wei'an, I was scared to death, I thought I would never see you again..."

Su Heng staggered and took a step back, his eyes gradually moved away from them, he turned around silently, and walked out step by step.

She was sitting on the steps at the entrance of the hospital, and there were all kinds of voices in her ears, noisy and noisy, but she couldn't hear anything, she was so quiet that she could only hear her own heartbeat, beating again and again, upset and confused.

She covered her eyes, her eyes were dry, without a single tear, she smiled wryly, buried her face in her knees, and curled herself into a ball.

When Lu Wei'an found her, it was almost dawn, and Su Heng was sitting there huddled up like this. He felt a little distressed, and walked over to sit beside her: "Ah Heng..."

"Ah."

"Let's go back."

"Where's Yang Shiyan?"

"She's fine."

Only then did Su Heng raise his head: "Let's go back."

She seemed to be fine, but because of this, Lu Wei'an felt terrified, he held her hand: "Just now she did that because she was scared, don't mind, Ah Heng..."

"Okay, I know." Su Heng said lightly.

The more she behaved like this, the more disturbed Lu Wei'an became: "If you are unhappy, you can tell me."

"I'm not unhappy." She finally raised her eyes to look at him, her eyes were dark, and she insisted as always, "I was just thinking about the relationship, three people are too crowded, if one must quit, Lu Wei'an, I can still let go."

"Heng, what should I do?" Lu Wei'an couldn't believe it.

"Lu Wei'an, ask yourself, who do you like more? Is it me or Yang Shiyan? Do you really like me? It's not guilt? It's not a sense of responsibility?" Say it, "I don't need your charity. I have impurity feelings, not real feelings. You worry about her when she encounters a car accident today. If she commits suicide for you tomorrow, can you still remain indifferent?"

Lu Wei'an was in a daze, and didn't recover for a while.

Su Heng smiled shallowly: "My grandpa said that worry is born of love, and fear is born of love. In fact, it is quite right. Because you like it, you will want more, so you will worry about losing, and you will be afraid. Lost. Lu Wei’an, I’ve been thinking, maybe it’s better to never get it, so that we can still be friends, and when we meet in the future, we can recall the past that may not be very clear.”

She has never spoken much, and this is probably the most she has spoken in her life.

The way back was still quiet, Lu Wei'an sent her to the downstairs of the dormitory, she turned and went up, he stopped her: "Heng, I understand what you mean, although you doubt my feelings for you, but I know very well, that's not It's not guilt, it's not charity, it's not because of a sense of responsibility. I know your worries, and I will solve all your worries and fears, so please wait for me, wait for me to solve all this, and wait for me to come to you again."

The always dry eye sockets were slowly moistened at this moment, Su Heng bit her lip, unable to take a step.

Lu Wei'an approached and hugged her gently from behind: "Heng, I like you, so I don't want you to leave me, and I don't want you to just be my friend. Just wait for me, A-Heng, just wait a little longer wait for me……"

Su Heng felt a little heat on her shoulders, and she froze all over, knowing that it was Lu Wei'an's tears, tears shed for her.

The hot summer is over, it seems that the north wind is already blowing after only a few days of autumn, the first green shoots of the willow trees have sprouted unconsciously, and the weather is gradually getting hotter, and the junior is flying away like this .

In the summer vacation of her junior year, Su Heng went to Beijing alone.

Xu Zixin only received the news before she left, and complained that she didn't tell herself: "Ah Heng, why don't you go with me? Didn't you say that you would travel with me in the future."

"Because we have many more in the future." Su Heng was about to board the plane, and said with a smile, "I want to go and see for myself this time, you see, I seem to have been protected by people, by my parents , protected by you, by... So this time, I want to protect myself by myself."

"Be careful, we'll see you when you come back." Xu Zixin said.

Without anyone to accompany him, Su Heng walked alone through the Forbidden City, the alleys, the Great Wall, Houhai, and many places.

Her solo trip was coming to an end soon. On the last day, she lived in an ordinary B&B in the suburbs. Because a rainstorm warning was issued, she didn't plan to go out.

When she was sleepy in the morning, she received a call. She couldn't open her eyes, so she took the phone and put it to her ear, and the other side seemed to ask her where she was. She thought it was her father, and told her one by one.

After she finished speaking, she felt that something was wrong. She put the phone in front of her eyes and saw that this number...

"Lu Wei'an?" She called softly, but she couldn't calm down just by saying the name.

"It's me." He said, "Heng, I told you to wait for me, you wait for me for a while, until I come to you."

She frowned: "I'm in Beijing..."

"I know," he said, "I know everything."

Su Heng was stunned, unable to say anything.

"Always make you wait for me, Ah Heng, I'm sorry, I promise, let you wait one last time." There was a smile in his voice, "I never want to let go of your hand."

Su Heng lost all sleepiness, fidgeted, and kept spinning around the room, somewhat looking forward to and somewhat fearful, did Lu Wei'an really come to Beijing?
But it started to rain heavily at noon, and the owner of the homestay came over and told her not to go out: "It has never rained so hard in Beijing, little girl, take care of yourself and be careful."

She couldn't help being a little worried about Lu Weian and wanted to make a call, but the signal in the room was not good, so she could only wait.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and Su Heng could see that the road outside seemed to be turning into a river, and even the ground in the room began to accumulate water. She was frightened and kept calling Lu Wei'an's phone, and finally got through.

She was in a hurry: "Lu Wei'an, where are you?"

The background music of the conversation was the sound of rushing rain: "I'll be there soon, just wait a little longer."

After he just said this sentence, the signal was cut off, and no matter how many times he called again, he still couldn't get through. Su Heng was a little impatient, the water got deeper and deeper, and it reached her ankles.The door was knocked suddenly, and it was the owner of the homestay who shouted in the wind and rain: "Girl, I'm afraid it's not safe here, we need to move."

If she leaves, what will Lu Wei'an do?
"I'm going to wait for someone." She said, "I'll wait until he's there."

"It's too late when people come. Who would come here in this kind of day, girl, come and go with us."

Su Heng was persuaded by them to take important things, put on a raincoat and leave, wading in the deep water to the higher ground they said.

She turned her head frequently, the rain was so heavy, her eyes were blurred, she couldn't see anything, she could only walk forward step by step.

"Su Heng!"

Amidst the loud sound of rain and wind, a voice came through the air. Su Heng suddenly turned around to look, and saw a familiar figure in the distance. Regardless of the dissuasion of the owner of the hotel, she strode towards him.

Lu Wei'an held her tightly in his arms with open arms, kissed her drenched forehead, and kept saying: "I knew it was you, I knew it was you, how could I not recognize you... ..."

Su Heng looked up at him with tears all over his face: "Why are you here?"

"Because you are here, I am here too. Ah Heng, am I too late?" He stroked the water stains on her face and said.

Su Heng shook his head, unable to tell whether it was tears or rain on his face.

The two held hands tightly and moved to a safe place together.

Apart from them, there was also the family of the owner of the homestay. The owner of the homestay had a son, who was only four or five years old. He was hugged by the owner and kept licking a lollipop. He fell down and was washed away by the water. He cried and wanted to go down to find it, but the boss couldn't hold him, and he let go of his hand, and he fell down.

A child who is only four or five years old, how can he stand in the water that has reached his thigh? Rushing away, Su Heng grabbed his hand, but fell down accidentally.

The owner of the homestay took his son over while thanking him. Just as Lu Wei'an was about to help Su Heng up, a burst of water suddenly came, and Su Heng and Lu Wei'an were swept away by the current.

Su Heng didn't know how to swim, so he floated in the water and drank a lot of water. Lu Wei'an held her hand tightly and pulled her to his side, smiling: "I didn't let go of your hand this time."

Su Heng looked at him with red eyes, he held her hand so forcefully, as if it was about to break her hand bones, but she didn't feel any pain at all, only felt extremely relieved.

Lu Wei'an always wanted to grab something to stop them from falling, but the water flow was so fast that they had no chance at all. He panted and asked Su Heng: "Are you afraid?"

Su Heng shook his head: "I'm not afraid."

He smiled, his expression suddenly froze, and he hugged her head in his arms. She was startled, and then heard a muffled groan, as if something heavy was pressing on his back. She felt his The body was stiff, and there seemed to be no sound.

"Lu Wei'an?" she called, seeing a thick tree trunk drift away from the water beside her.

No one responded to her.

She wanted to know what was wrong with him, but his head was resting on her shoulder, and she couldn't see his face. She was so anxious that her face was full of tears, so she could only hold him tightly.

The water gradually covered her face, she wasn't afraid, she just regretted that she wasted so much time.

She liked him so much for so many years, why didn't she cherish the time with him?
But regret is the most useless emotion in this world...

(End of this chapter)