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Chapter 19 If love is hard to put in your hands, why not put these hands in your heart (5)
"Why? Why did you do this." Su Heng asked, "Why did Song Guoya deliberately misunderstand!"

"I'm just talking about a possibility. That's not okay?" Yang Shiyan smiled, with a meaningless look on her face, "I heard that Song Guoya suffered from depression and is now taking medicine every night. Tell me, she now thinks it's you If I make a small report, will it make my condition worse!"

"Yang Shiyan!" Su Heng couldn't hold back, and raised her voice, "How could you do this, Guoya is already so sad, you..."

"What about me? Am I sad? Why has no one cared?" Yang Shiyan said aggressively, "I just can't understand how many people are always around you. They are all your friends. They all look down on me and hate me." , look, now someone hates you, how does it feel?"

Su Heng took a deep breath: "Do you know? I am very disappointed, you have become what you are now." She turned and left, Yang Shiyan still called behind her: "Su Heng, what right do you have to be disappointed with me!"

Sometimes we don't understand why change can come so easily. When we are caught off guard, everything has been turned upside down. However, we have no other way but to accept and adapt.

The college entrance examination is getting closer and closer, from 100 days to 50 days, from 50 days to 20 days, it seems to happen in an instant.

And half a month before the college entrance examination, Song Guoya changed from living in school to regular school. Because of her poor condition, her recent test scores were not satisfactory, and her depression became more and more serious. Her parents planned to Let her go home every day to facilitate supervision.

Su Heng explained to Song Guoya several times, but Song Guoya never listened to it, and already recognized her betrayal.

Even Xu Zixin persuaded Su Heng: "Forget it, don't explain, she can't listen to it now, she will understand later, how could it be you who did it?"

At that time, they didn't understand that the word "later" is so easy to say, and it may become a future that will never arrive.

One of the things Su Heng regretted most in his life was that he failed to let Song Guoya know that, as her friend, he had never betrayed her or their friendship.

Because, for Song Guoya, there is no future.

The second day after Song Guoya was changed to a general school, she didn't come to the school. Everyone thought she was in poor health, but on the third, fourth, and fifth days, ten days before the college entrance examination, Song Guoya still didn't come to class. back to school.

Xu Zixin and the others were a little anxious, so they called Song Guoya, but no one answered. They asked the teacher, but the teacher kept silent. No one could tell them what happened to Song Guoya, where he went.

Su Heng was called by Lin Hua to get the materials, but he had already come out but found that something was missing. Just as Su Heng was about to go back to get the materials, he heard someone talking inside.

It was the voice of the politics teacher in their class.

"So that girl in your class just disappeared? She's very old?"

"Isn't it? Who would have thought that such an accident would happen. I heard that she ran out at night and didn't know where she was going. She was picked up by a truck in the end... It's really miserable."

"The students in your class don't know yet?"

"Of course I don't know. How dare I say it? The college entrance examination is coming soon. How can I take the exam if I say it at this time?"

"It's a pity, I remember that girl, she has a good political record..."

Su Heng was stunned, the materials she held in her hands had been scattered all over the place at some point, like pieces of white paper flowers, her hands were trembling, and her whole body was trembling.

Who are they talking about?

Who is that girl with good political grades?
It must not be Song Guoya, definitely not.

"What's the matter, this is..." The history teacher just came back, looking at the information on this place, he couldn't help shouting.

Su Heng hurriedly knelt down to pick it up, hugged it casually in her arms, and ran away in a hurry, not even daring to turn her head.

The history teacher was a little baffled, and walked into the office: "What's wrong with Su Heng? It's like seeing a ghost."

"Su Heng?"

"Yeah, I just saw her outside."

The politics teacher and Lin Hua looked at each other: "She shouldn't have heard it?"

Su Heng strode back to the classroom, panting when she was sitting on the seat, the pile of materials was crumpled up by her careless grasping.

Seeing her like this, Sun Wenting was startled: "What's wrong with Ah Heng? Did something happen?"

"Tingting, I, I..." Su Heng couldn't speak, but tears kept falling, "I..."

"What's the matter? Don't scare me!"

Zhou Shijia also turned around: "Su Heng, what's wrong?"

Su Heng just kept crying, and the hands on the table kept shaking, and he couldn't stop no matter what.

Zhou Shijia hesitated for a few seconds, stretched out his hand to cover her hand, and then squeezed it firmly: "Su Heng, don't be nervous, don't be afraid, just say what you need..."

"I..." Su Heng looked at Zhou Shijia with teary eyes, "What should I do, what should I do..."

"Su Heng?" Lin Hua suddenly strode into the classroom.Zhou Shijia was startled, and hastily withdrew his hand, keeping a distance from Su Heng.

Lin Hua knew it when he saw Su Heng's appearance: "Su Heng, come out with me."

Su Heng had no choice but to stagger and follow.

Lin Hua took a chair and asked Su Heng to sit down. She insisted on standing, but Lin Hua couldn't help it: "Did you hear that?" She asked hesitantly.

"What?" Su Heng didn't want to understand, "Mr. Lin, what did you say..."

"The students don't know about this matter for the time being. I originally planned to wait until the college entrance examination is over before I tell you." Lin Hua sighed. I hope they have something wrong during the college entrance examination? The college entrance examination is so important. As for Su Heng, the teacher knows that you are good friends, but don’t think too much. You have passed the college entrance examination these few days. After the college entrance examination, you will go to see her together , Song Guoya will definitely not blame you."

Su Heng's tears fell down, drop by drop like rain: "Teacher, you must be joking, how is it possible, how is it possible for Guoya to be gone, how is it possible...I don't believe it, I don't believe it..."

"Su Heng, you are a strong child, the teacher believes that you can survive."

Su Heng wiped her tears with the back of her hand: "Impossible, no, I don't believe it..." She turned and ran out.

The political teacher looked at Su Heng's back and sighed: "No problem, right? It's only been half a month..."

"Su Heng is fine. She is going abroad. I heard from her parents that the University of California she applied to has already responded. The college entrance examination is a situation for her. I heard that she insisted on taking the exam, otherwise it doesn't matter if she doesn't. "

Su Heng didn't go back to the classroom, she looked like this, how to explain when she came back to the classroom?As Teacher Lin said, the college entrance examination is half a month away, if they also know...

But it's so tiring and painful, why is the person who spent two years with me not here anymore.

Why is it not here?

Su Heng couldn't run anymore, squatted down and cried out loudly.

"Su Heng?" Amidst the crying, a familiar voice came from a high place.

That was the last voice she wanted to hear at this moment, it was so embarrassing and it made people want to escape.

She covered her face with her hands, and got up to run, but she squatted for too long, her legs felt weak when she got up, and she was about to fall to the ground, but her shoulders were tightly hugged.The voice approached: "Su Heng, what's wrong with you? Has something happened?"

That voice seemed to be the only sunshine in the darkness, she couldn't really resist it no matter how she resisted, she couldn't help but look up.

Lu Weian's face was full of anxiety, he was worried about her.

"Su Heng?" He saw the tears on her face, "What's the matter?"

She didn't say a word, but shed tears silently, his hand was too warm, she wanted to avoid it, but he still held her tightly and pulled her into his arms: "If you don't say it, don't say it!" , cry if you want to cry, it will be fine when you finish crying, it’s fine.”

Lu Weian's embrace was like a harbor, a harbor where she could shelter from the wind and rain. It was her fate that she wanted to escape but she couldn't escape. The hand that she wanted to break free tightly grasped his skirt, crying loudly.

Lu Wei'an slowly raised his hand and patted her on the back lightly.

He didn't know that there were so many tears in one person, so many that they seemed to gather into a sea.

Su Heng finally cried enough, and then felt embarrassed, hurriedly hid from his arms, turned his back, and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry, I, I..."

"Are you all right?"

Su Heng froze for a moment, nodded, then shook his head.

"If you want to cry, I can lend you my shoulder at any time." He smiled, "But the lunch break will be over soon, so go back."

Su Heng ran two steps in a hurry, then stopped suddenly, without turning her head, said in a low voice, "Thank you." After she finished speaking, she ran away again.

Lu Wei'an looked away, glanced at the small piece of the skirt that was wet by her, sighed softly, then turned and left.

Su Heng buried this matter in the deepest part of her heart, and the matter of her crying red eyes naturally caused them to ask repeatedly, and she only said that it was Teacher Lin who told her about her.

No one doubted it, except for Xu Zixin, who secretly pulled her away and asked, "Heng, tell me what happened, I still don't know you? If the witch told you, you would never cry like that." like."

"Xinxin, I will tell you after the college entrance examination is over." Su Heng looked at her with those bloodshot eyes.

Xu Zixin let out a breath: "If you don't want to say it, there must be a reason why you don't want to say it. I know, then I'll wait until the college entrance examination is over. Ah Heng, don't be too sad. The college entrance examination will be in a few days. After the college entrance examination, we will be free. It's free!"

Su Heng nodded vigorously: "Okay."

In the first two days, Su Heng really couldn't get in any review, her mind was full of Song Guoya's face, she was her when she opened her eyes, and she was her when she closed her eyes, but she couldn't tell anyone about her sadness , her helplessness, her self-blame and despair.

Su Heng even failed in the quiz in class, Lin Hua finally couldn't stand it anymore, and talked to her again.

Lin Hua said: "Song Guoya doesn't want to see you like this either. If she knows that you didn't even pass the college entrance examination because of her, will she be happy?"

Song Guoya's smiling face appeared in front of Su Heng, as if saying: "If you dare to fail the exam, I will not forgive you!"

Su Heng finally shed tears again, she finally understood that giving up on herself is not the only solution to heartbreak and self-blame.

The ten days passed so fast that people were caught off guard. Before I realized it, it was already the day before the college entrance examination.

In the past, they were the ones who gave up their classrooms, but now it's their turn to give up the classrooms for them. This afternoon, they were familiar with the exam room. Several people went to see the exam room together. In the exam room where Su Heng was, she was the only one from Class [-], Grade [-], but Coincidentally, Lu Wei'an was on the list of candidates for the next class.

Because the classrooms were all sealed off, the cafeteria became a review place for resident students, and regular school students could go home to review. The cafeteria, which was originally full of people, is now quiet, only the sound of flipping books keeps ringing out.

Su Heng and An Xin were sitting in the corner reviewing together, when someone tapped their back suddenly, she turned her head and saw Zhou Shijia's smiling face, she frowned slightly: "Why are you here?"

He pulled her wrist: "come out."

Su Heng hurriedly broke away: "The teachers are all here!"

"Then you come out!" He went out first.

Su Heng was afraid that he would do something else, so he could only put down his things and go out with him.

When he walked out of the cafeteria, he grabbed her wrist and ran forward quickly. She didn't know where he was going, and couldn't break free, so she had to go with him.

Zhou Shijia stopped at the promenade by the lake, because everyone was reviewing, and there was no one in the promenade, it was quiet.

Su Heng could finally shake off his hand: "Zhou Shijia, what are you doing?"

Unexpectedly, he sat down on the bench, opened his schoolbag, took out an exercise book, and opened it: "How to do this question?"

Su Heng didn't say what she wanted to say, so she sat beside him and took a pen to calculate it: "Do you understand?" She looked up, just in time to meet his staring eyes at her.

She was taken aback, and looked away: "It's okay, I will..."

He grabbed her arm: "wait a minute, wait a little longer."

She sat back down again, just looking down at the exercise book.

He sat on the side and let out a long breath: "A-Heng, can I call you A-Heng?"

"Su Heng!" She corrected.

"Okay, Su Heng. Which university do you want to go to?"

Su Heng finally looked at him.

He was a little annoyed by her look: "I know my grades are not as good as yours, maybe I can perform exceptionally well in the college entrance examination!"

"Zhou Shijia." She withdrew her gaze and said flatly, "I'm sorry."

He chuckled: "I'm sorry for what you say. It doesn't matter if you don't say it, you will always know when the time comes."

"I'm sorry, I know what you mean, but I..." It turned out that sometimes, rejection is so hard to say.

"Stop talking." Zhou Shijia shook his hand, "I understand, I will wait for you, until the day you change your mind."

"Zhou Shijia." Su Heng was so helpless, "Don't wait for me, I..."

(End of this chapter)