Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 99
"I never put my fat on the rungs of a stool, nor did I say anything like that to my mistress.

"I haven't practiced eating with three chopsticks either. It's just because I like you and heard about you that I tried it.

"In the heavy rain that year, I was in the dormitory, but you asked me if I was trapped by the rain, so I ran out.

"What other lies did I tell you, I can't remember now. I think I should apologize to you.

"But I lied, just because I like you, and I hope you like me."

Luo Zhi hugged him tightly, her cheek pressed against his chest.With her eyes closed, all the stories accumulated in her heart for many years surfaced one by one at this moment, like lights, not inferior to the night in Beijing.

"Before I met you in high school, I always thought, I must be better than you, so that my mother will not be angry again. I imagined you as the son of a particularly ferocious villain. My grades are better than yours. I have to learn Many talents that can be displayed must be more famous and outstanding than you in the future, so that my mother will feel that God has eyes. But the more I think about it, the more I can remember when you came to play with me and said to me, "Fengtian Chengyun, I want Marry her'. What a wonderful person you are.

"But your name still appears in the newspapers and rumors. Excellent young pioneers, outstanding class collective speech representatives, and gold medals in competitions. I still remember that one day I saw in the newspaper that you participated in the Hope English Contest. A short interview, so frightened that he threw the whole bundle of newspapers downstairs, almost hitting someone.

"Thank God, I did very well in the senior high school entrance examination, and your name is not in the top ten in the whole city. It makes me happier that you failed the exam than I did well.

"It wasn't until later that I met you.

"I know everything, but I still like you."

Sheng Huainan listened quietly, hugged her tightly, rubbed her chin against the top of her head, and said softly after listening for a while: "Luo Zhi, I really hope that I can become the Sheng Huainan you liked before. "

Luo Zhi was stunned.

She kept talking about how excellent Sheng Huainan was, and how she stubbornly approached that excellent Sheng Huainan, but she couldn't convince him now that she would still stick to this love.

"Thank you for loving me like this."

"Not ever." She corrected aloud.

"It's the same now. But it may not be in the future. I can't guarantee that I will still be the person you like. If you like this person so much now, it may not be the case in the future. I don't want you to regret it."

She knew that what Sheng Huainan said was right.If his family hadn't collapsed, he would definitely have to study abroad after graduation, and what she would face would be the barriers of family and distance.At that time, she was not afraid, but now, the moat was clearly in Sheng Huainan's eyes.

She wanted to promise him, but she couldn't say it.No matter how thick the past was, it could not comfort him now.

Is it enough to just say "I will always love you no matter what"?There are too many people who break their promises.

Luo Zhi remembered what Zhu Yan said, you young people have faith because of your innocence.

How she wished that they were all innocent young people.

They stood right in the center of Beijing, and the tall buildings in the southeast and northwest rose up from the ground, engulfing everything with radiance.

The Gulou Street behind it is like a Y-shaped blood vessel, and the car lights are interspersed, dazzling.

I don't know how many nights, how many frustrated people stood on this mountain where the emperor returned to his soul, looking at Beijing.

They still didn't say anything after all.

Three days later, Sheng Huainan flew out of Beijing.

Luo Zhi didn't go to see him off.She was sitting in the office, anxiously adjusting the PPT needed for the afternoon meeting. When she looked up, it was 15:[-], and the person she loved had already flown away for [-] minutes.

She didn't know how high she could fly in 15 minutes, and whether she had passed through the clouds.

"Sheng Huainan, goodbye."

Luo Zhi muttered, telling the printer.

Luo Zhi found that she wasn't too sad.She has spent a whole year without Sheng Huainan.He appeared in a blink of an eye, and then disappeared, like a dream one night. After waking up, he stood in the subway the next day, smelling the smell of leek and egg pie in the car, and his sadness was as fake as a play.

Her love began as a secret, and when the secret was revealed, the love ended.

However, on the afternoon when he left, when Luo Zhi, who had finished her work, stepped on her high heels and wearily walked through the garden behind the library, she suddenly felt an indescribable dull pain lying on her back, following her steps , wobbly.

That garden was once full of various masters, but now it is gradually empty due to the passing of old people.Stepping into the world separated by low walls from the bustling campus, the impetuous summer outside suddenly dissipated, and the lush trees shaded the scorching sun. Old houses stood in the quiet past, missing their owners.

She used to hold hands with Sheng Huainan and walked through this garden all the way, while looking at the house numbers to identify which scholars and masters used to live here, telling old news, and passing by leisurely.

Luo Zhi saw a stray cat, jumped up the fence nimbly, and looked behind her.

So she turned around too.

Through the low wall behind, Luo Zhi saw a green screen door being pushed open by a silver-haired grandmother, revealing an overcrowded corridor due to the high pile of books.In the yard, an old man was sitting on a stone bench. When he saw his wife coming out, he stood up, walked slowly to the door with a cane, and tremblingly handed over a blooming lilac.

Under the reflection of the setting sun, the lilac is as white as snow.

The grandma smiled slightly and took it.

Luo Zhi watched, her eyes blurred with tears.

It was a professor of her law school double degree. During the "Cultural Revolution" period, he was the stinky old nine of intellectuals, and he implicated his wife.There were so many divorced people at that time. In that era of twisted human nature, insignificant individuals could do anything to avoid disaster, and divorce was nothing.

However, Madam never agreed.

"She told me at the time that we only thought about being apart to be good for each other, and never thought about how good it would be for two people if we were together."

When Luo Zhi heard this sentence, she took out her diary and wrote it down earnestly, while Sheng Huainan sighed, it's a pity that too many people are not the ones who can share weal and woe.

Luo Zhi and Sheng Huainan are just "too many people".

She traveled through more than ten years, left behind the entanglements of the previous generation, broke through the barrier between hearts, and finally became "too many people".

He believes that her love comes from looking up and admiring, so when he feels unworthy, her love will lose its color.She only knew that she couldn't use uncertain empty promises to keep him. She only knew that it was good for him to beg Zhu Yan to take him away, so that he could be liked by the whole world again, even if she could never meet again.

They never imagined what would happen if they really carried it through together.

When she finally dared to promise, he was already thousands of miles away, and he would never have the chance to stand up in his yard at an early age, and tremblingly handed her a flower.

She just stared at someone's door, like a child who can't eat candy.

"Luo Zhi."

She turned her head, and saw that the boy she had missed was standing under the mottled shadow of the tree, with fragments of sunshine on his shirt, his schoolbag thrown under his feet, looking at her and smiling.

Smiling like she never left, like she was dreaming.

why are you here

Luo Zhi didn't ask, she was afraid that the answer would be that the flight was cancelled, and she would leave tomorrow.

"I'm not leaving."

He said.

Luo Zhi threw herself into his arms, weeping uncontrollably.He patted her on the back lightly, as if laughing at her loss of composure.She turned her face and saw the two old men in the yard looking at them, smiling kindly and encouragingly, but she couldn't control it and cried louder.

"When you asked me what I was doing this year, I didn't dare to answer you. In fact, after my mother recovered from illness, I went to Zhongguancun to work while preparing for the SAT. A brother I knew always wanted to be with friends. I opened a company specializing in student computers, but my friend went to study for an MBA. I have been helping him for half a year, contacting computer associations of various schools as an intermediary, and recently I plan to help him build a website and try digital products. of online sales…”

He paused: "However, this kind of thing is too risky, and in my mother's opinion, it is not the right way. Of course, what she thinks is not the main thing. The main thing is that I found that in my heart, I used to think that I was The prestigious schools, scholarships, and everything associated with it, which don't mind, are now shining brightly.

"Actually, your diary is in my hand. I got it from that female classmate Ding or something. When I was most sad, I just looked at it, read it one by one, and saw the old self between the lines. Myself, and you. After the application has taken shape, I am very happy, and feel that the person written in that diary has returned."

He took out the dilapidated notebook that Luo Zhi was very familiar with from his bag.

"I want to regroup in a few years, be a good person again, walk on the 'right path', and give my mother some confidence. More importantly, I can have the confidence to stand by your side again, and you will find that everything is not Change, your boyfriend is still a person who makes a splash wherever he goes."

He joked narcissistically, but his eyes were full of sincerity.

"But before I got on the plane, I realized that I would never be the one who lives with my cleverness and sense of superiority. More importantly, I hope to be with you. Although I don't want to drag you down, you don't necessarily hate me Is it a drag on you?"

Luo Zhi desperately shook her head.

"I remember the night before I went to see you, I carried a 24-inch display screen and a main box and walked to Zhongguancun by myself. I was so tired that I was about to collapse, so I stood on the overpass to rest. At that time, I saw that the intersection was dark and waiting. The crowd crossing the road, the surrounding buildings that have nothing to do with me, I suddenly miss you very much. At that time, I thought, no matter what kind of virtue I have now, I must ask you if I am willing to..."

He stopped and smiled embarrassedly: "I saw you, but changed my mind again, and felt that I was not qualified to accept your expectations for so many years."

"What am I expecting?" Luo Zhi suddenly shouted angrily.

From the moment this feeling was born deep in the dark heart, all she expected was to be with him.He was Sheng Huainan, the Sheng Huainan who had poured her affection for many years.It was Sheng Huainan who dropped out of school, and it was still Sheng Huainan who became a poor boy.

No matter how weak you are, you are still you, and no matter how strong others are, they are still others.

She tugged at his collar, tears rolled down worthlessly.

It took Sheng Huainan a long time to say in a difficult voice: "Let me remind you, I have nothing."

Luo Zhi smiled.

"Fortunately, everything I like is still there."

Though she still doesn't know what that "everything" really is.

He hugged her gently, and told her about his future plans, saying that Zhu Yan supported his decision, and also agreed to lend him money to let him buy shares, about his thoughts on student computer network sales and campus agency, about his mother I heard that he passed out again after he stopped going to Singapore, saying that his biceps were very strong when he moved the computer...

There is no end to the world.

Luo Zhi listened contentedly, watching the setting sun disappear at the end of the wall, the sky fell silent, and the cat jumped up and down on the wall.

It seems to be able to hear forever.

However, the end of time is not easy. Bravery and naivety are always twin brothers. She doesn't know whether the opportunity he gave up will prove whether they are brave or naive in the end, but she is willing to believe that when two people are together, they will eventually turn the wrist of fate.

After raising all the real sorrows and facing all the objective despair, they are still determined to go on together.

No matter how far the two pairs of legs can go, the eyes of love are looking forward to eternity from the very beginning.

Sheng Huainan noticed Luo Zhi's silence, and asked her worriedly, "What are you thinking?"

"I'm thinking of us." Luo Zhi said with a smile, hugging the diary in her arms that announced her secret to the world and returned after traveling around the world, as if hugging all the returning teenage years.

"I was thinking, if possible, I must run back and tell that lonely girl in high school, don't be sad, grow up quickly, when you grow up, you will be able to meet me."

I am here, and the boy you like is also here.

I became a good person, and then pulled him along to become an even better person.

Come and find us.

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