Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 96 Remembering Marianne

Luo Zhi heard that Sheng Huainan had dropped out of school, and she never saw him again.

As soon as the final exam was over, she went to that law firm for an internship and didn't go home for the whole summer vacation.

Because the location of the internship is far from the school and the transportation is inconvenient, she has to get up at six o'clock every morning, put on a little makeup, put on formal clothes on a hot day, step on the high heels that she is not used to, and rush in like a soldier. In the crowded subway, they were transported to Xidan like canned sardines. With the turbulent crowd, they stepped onto the ground and saw the sun again.

It was a completely different life.She has been a student for more than ten years, and she is familiar with all the skills and difficulties.However, from now on, she needs to become another person in a very short time, with a different way of thinking, a different way of getting along, and everything else.

The strange thing is that I usually study at school all day, and I can still read interesting books at night.However, in the office, by the side of the direct supervisor, even if the work is not difficult, the nerves are always tense, every minute is filled with trivial things, and the brain is filled with a whole to do list (to-do list) , which is automatically filtered every few minutes.By the time I trekked all the way back to the dormitory, my head was already swollen, and I didn't want to do any other activities that activated my brain cells except mentally handicapped TV series and variety shows.

Tired as a broken robot.

This is naturally a great thing for her.

She actually relied on the dullness and fatigue brought about by this job to resist the surging memories and wild thoughts.

Zhu Yan reassured her, so she was really relieved.If there was a big rock hanging in my heart, then when it hit the tip of my heart fiercely, I rolled over in pain, but I was at ease, and I no longer needed to raise my head in panic.

The work of the internship did not end until the third year of university. She still went to the law firm three days a week, and she definitely had to work on Saturday and Sunday afternoons.While Luo Zhi was taking a double-degree course in law, she was seriously considering whether she should start reviewing for the CPA and judicial exams.These two exams are recognized as difficult, and it is better for her to prepare early.

Just working overtime like this, I was too busy to be distracted, and I seemed to go back to a year ago in a trance.

It's early autumn again, and the persimmon trees overhead are ready for another bumper harvest.Life is reincarnated in such a peaceful way, and the persimmon tree will never be saddened by the joys and sorrows that have been staged under the shade of green leaves.

Luo Zhi also met Zheng Wenrui when she was in the law double degree course.

Luo Zhi didn't understand at first that Sheng Huainan had dropped out of school, why Zheng Wenrui would still appear in this class; thinking about it later, she was relieved, Sheng Huainan might not be the focus of Zheng Wenrui's entire life, although her attention and understanding of him had already It has reached the level of perversion, but no one can use the three words "Sheng Huainan" to explain everything about Zheng Wenrui.

Maybe she really came to this double degree out of her original intention, she thought.

As the mid-term exam approached, Luo Zhi walked to the edge of the podium after class to listen to the professors in the crowd answering questions.A girl squeezed out from inside and bumped into her shoulder hard. She was looking up and copying the case written by the professor on the blackboard. She had no time to look at the girl and said hastily, "I'm sorry."

"fraud."

Luo Zhi lowered her head and copied two more words before realizing that she had been scolded. When she turned her head to look, Zheng Wenrui's figure had disappeared at the door.

She called her a liar.

At this time, Luo Zhi finally understood the reason why Zheng Wenrui sent her an old email from February on an unremarkable night in July.

She said: "He treats you sincerely, as long as you know it in your heart."

At that time, Zheng Wenrui must have known about Sheng Huainan's degree cancellation.She wanted Luo Zhi to be touched and feel guilty, and never leave her.

However, the disappearance of Sheng Huainan finally verified Zheng Wenrui's inner thoughts.Luo Zhi is a liar, so is Ye Zhanyan, and so is Xu Riqing, everyone is a liar, everyone only likes Sheng Huainan's glamorous side, only Zheng Wenrui loves his gloomy hypocrisy and everything he can't bear.

Zheng Wenrui may not get Sheng Huainan, but Zheng Wenrui's love for Sheng Huainan must be 1% No.[-].

While writing quickly in the notebook, Luo Zhi silently paid her dumbfounding respect for her paranoia in her heart.

On Singles' Day, Zhang Mingrui invited her out to celebrate the festival together.

"Have a meal, and then go sing all night together. There are about sixteen or seven people. It's lively, how about it?"

"It's fine to sing all night. I have already promised my roommate to go to KTV to sing together, but there is no problem with eating."

In October, Luo Zhi received an email from Zhang Mingrui.The attachment is a large video file, and it took three hours to download it on the fragile campus network.Luo Zhi clicked on the DV work, and in the first second she heard a group of boys behind the camera screaming and booing.

Then she saw Zhang Mingrui, riding a bicycle, spreading his hands, eating leisurely with a bowl of instant noodles, every time he struck up a conversation with a girl, the buddies hiding behind the DV cheered.

Then Luo Zhi saw herself in the video, carrying a black schoolbag, looking at Zhang Mingrui on the sidewalk, smiling while watching.

When Zhang Mingrui also looked at her, he suddenly tilted his body and spilled instant noodles all over his body.Almost all the boys behind the video rushed towards him, and the screen became shaky as they ran.The cameraman ran to Zhang Mingrui's side and snapped photos of him and the bicycle on the ground. Everyone was screaming and laughing. For a moment, the camera focused on the sky, and the sudden passing sun made Luo Zhi's eyes shine.

Then the picture went black.

There is only one sentence in the email: "I only found out when I was sorting out my things. I have seen you a long time ago. I just found out."

Luo Zhi felt disappointed, watched that video many times, and suddenly had a lot of things she wanted to say to herself a year ago.

But she didn't respond to emails.

During the meal, Luo Zhi suddenly felt that no matter how long they were apart or what twists and turns they had gone through, she would always be able to have a happy conversation with Zhang Mingrui, without embarrassment or suspicion, chatting about everything as if nothing had happened.

"By the way, I have never understood why boys are so cold about Singles' Day? Are you so afraid of the festival?"

"No," Zhang Mingrui shook his head, "I'm not afraid to celebrate this festival."

Luo Zhi nodded, and put half a plate of lettuce into the bone broth pot.

"I'm afraid that someone is out of season."

She froze for a moment, then raised her head. Zhang Mingrui, who was opposite her, spoke casually but looked at her seriously.

Luo Zhi laughed, and beckoned to the waiter, "Can you help me get some soup?"

Zhang Mingrui changed the subject and went to talk about the popular "Lust, Caution" recently. Originally, he was laughing ghostly, but when he heard Luo Zhi's serious statement that he cried while watching it, he couldn't help but retreat, shouting that girls are really perverted.

After dinner, Luo Zhi planned to say goodbye to him, but Zhang Mingrui brought her to the door of Haagen-Dazs.

"The first time I invited you to eat, we went to DQ, right?"

"That's right, to be precise, DQ is the place I chose, you see how considerate I am."

"Then let's make up Haagen-Dazs today. Although everyone says it's from a foreign supermarket, it's really a bit expensive."

"What to eat it for, I don't think it tastes better than DQ."

"But the brand is so deeply rooted in the hearts of the people," Zhang Mingrui said pretending to be deep, "If you love her, take her to eat Haagen-Dazs."

"What?" Luo Zhi smiled, "It's just a slogan."

"It may also be a confession."

Luo Zhi turned to look at him, Zhang Mingrui's smile faded from the joke at some point.She let out a breath of white air slowly, and at some point, the bleak wind had lost the sense of autumn.

Winter is coming.

Luo Zhi didn't know what to say for a long time, Zhang Mingrui lowered his head, then raised it quickly, patted her on the shoulder with a laugh and said, "Look, I scared you, I'm teasing you."

I am kidding you.

When Luo Zhi pushed open the door of the KTV, Jiang Baili pointed to the crowd of customers in the lobby and said, "If sister hadn't planned ahead, you would be one of them now."

It's just booking a private room, Luo Zhi scolded, she never thought that Singles' Day would be so popular.

Luo Zhi heard that Chen Mohan broke up with Gobi after all.

It's not even heard of.Last month, Jiang Baili sat on Luo Zhi's bed and used her laptop to surf the Internet. When she ran out to use the bathroom, the computer screen was still on, MSN was full screen, and Luo Zhi had a hard time ignoring Gobi's words.

Thanks to Luo Zhi, on the day Gu Zhiye disappeared, Jiang Baili, who was drunk and drenched in the rain, fell seriously ill, but this time Gobi did not send her porridge or side dishes.After recovering from her illness, Belle went to Guizhou to support education during the summer vacation, joined a social organization that cares for AIDS patients in the new semester, and went to a suburban home for the elderly to do volunteer work every Saturday.

Luo Zhi once teased her by asking Jiang Baili if she was afraid of failing in another desperate investment, so she dispersed and sealed the boxes, spreading her love to the whole society.Jiang Baili replied very, very solemnly: "This kind of thing makes me feel at ease."

"A granny I take care of is already 90 years old. Whenever I have a chance, she will show me photos of her wife and tell them about them. I will rehearse the chorus for them, and I will be thanked for every little thing I do for them. I can also see it. It's got real results. You know, I've never had this kind of down-to-earth happiness."

Luo Zhi was not usually moved.

Although two weeks later, when she was taken to participate in the AIDS publicity event held in Dongdan Park, following Jiang Baili's happy eyes, she saw a tall and big male volunteer, which led to Jiang Baili's tall image in her heart. Immediately hit a [-]% discount.

Before filling the world with love, Jiang Baili must first be full of nympho.

However, when she learned that Jiang Baili had taken a leave of absence from school and decided to spend half a year with the boy to teach in Qinghai, Luo Zhi still agreed.Because she knows that this is not the same as when Belle learned to smoke and study constellations because of love boredom.The boy has not responded to Jiang Baili so far, but the happiness that Belle gets from helping others is by no means fake.The love in Jiang Baili's heart will never be exhausted. No matter how much she is hurt, she will always believe in love.

Therefore, facing Gobi's massive dissuasion on Belle's suspension of school on MSN, Jiang Baili only replied with four words: "I wish you happiness".

I wish you happiness.

"However, you might as well apply when you are in your senior year. At that time, you can participate in the school's teaching project for one to two years, and you can change to another graduate student. It is very cost-effective." Luo Zhi laughed and teased.

"Superficial!" Jiang Baili gave her a sideways glance, and got up from the jukebox as the accompaniment music suddenly sounded.

Luo Zhi looked at the girl who was occupying the microphone and yelling "Linkin Park" at the top of her voice, and said her name silently in her heart.

Belle.

"Although the writing of the name is very ordinary and a bit vulgar, but when you read it, the final mouth shape of the word '丽' is very beautiful, like a smile."

Luo Zhi remembered that Jiang Baili had explained each other's names in such an embarrassing manner not long after the first year of freshman year.Although Luo Zhi kept nodding, she still felt a little far-fetched.

"What about you?"

"Me? There is an orange orchard in my mother's hometown. It was originally called Luoju, which is said to be very pleasing. But the fortune teller changed it, saying that a humble name is easy to support, so that you can survive the disaster."

Jiang Baili asked in a daze: "It's a great feeling, so what's the result?"

Luo Zhi had no choice but to say, "How old am I, you just ask me for the result."

Fortunately, it is not the end.

But what about the ending?At four o'clock in the morning, Luo Zhi and Jiang Baili shivered and supported each other across the road to go back to school. Looking at the quiet road and the three red lights piercing through the fog, Luo Zhi's numb heart started beating again.

Is this the end?

Graduation, work, earn money, find a similar person, get married and have children.

Is this the end?

Luo Zhi raised her head to look at the moon in the sky, only to notice that today's moon is also hidden behind a thin cloud, with a faint brilliance like a rainbow emitting from all around.

Such a familiar moon.

However, what she remembered more clearly was not Sheng Huainan, nor the promise, nor the kiss, nor any words said that night, nor the wind blowing on the wall.

It's the moon that disappeared suddenly, the moon with nowhere to go, and the cloud whose whereabouts are unknown.

Luo Zhi supported Jiang Baili, who was drinking heavily, and while walking forward with difficulty, she suddenly and softly recited a poem.

Like the fear of waking up from a dream that has already woken up.

It was a blue September day,
I am in the slender shadow of a plum tree,
hug her quietly,
My lover is like this,
pale and silent,
Like an undying dream.

Over our heads, in the bright summer sky,

There is a cloud.

My eyes gaze upon it long,
It is white, tall, and far away from us,

Then I looked up and it was gone.

Since that day, many moons,

Moved quietly across the sky and fell down.

Those plum trees were probably cut down for firewood,
And if you ask, what happened to that love?
I have to admit: I can't really remember,
Yet I know what you're trying to say,
I don't know what her face looks like,

All I know is: I kissed her that day.

As for that kiss, I have long since forgotten,
But the cloud that floats in the sky,
I still remember, never forget,

It is white and moves very high in the air.

Those plum trees may still be in bloom,
The woman may have given birth to a seventh child,
But that cloud only appeared for a few minutes,
When I looked up, it was gone.

——German poet Brecht, "Reminiscing Marianne"

(End of this chapter)