Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 45

12 month 4 day.

It's already very cold.She dresses a lot, like a bear only for the winter.While standing at the station waiting for the bus, I ran into an elementary school classmate who was in the next class.

The classmate said: "What car are you waiting for?"

She said, "Route 122."

The classmate was about to say something, but turned around and stared at her back.She took advantage of the situation and turned her head, and a classmate screamed softly in her ears: "God, Sheng Huainan."

In fact, she wanted to quickly turn her head and not look at it, because of the "first meeting" that she never forgot in her heart.However, that person was too conspicuous, and it was impossible for her not to see him as soon as she turned around.

A figure wearing a white sports jacket and carrying a black NIKE schoolbag, tall and refreshing, the sunset light smudges his left half of his body, and the right half of his body remains in the shadows. It looks like, like... She found her universal analogy The law has lost its effectiveness.

If there is regret medicine in life, she hopes that the day will be cloudy.Whether he was five or 16 years old, Sunshine helped him to confuse people.

Then he turned to look at the stop sign.

He grew up, and his delicate eyebrows and eyes became more stretched and refined when he was a child. He was so good-looking, which happened to be exactly the same as her fantasy-is there anything more terrifying than this?
"Why did he come to take the bus today? His driver usually picks him up. It's cold, and they seldom come out to play basketball, and they don't have a chance to see each other. Today is really profitable."

She smiled and listened to her classmate, while staring at him for a long time.

Three boys and two girls came over, and one of the boys patted him on the shoulder hard.They joked, and occasionally did things together.The two girls didn't talk to Sheng Huainan, they only bickered with the other boys, but their eyes were on him inadvertently.

Luo Zhi suddenly remembered his name on that form, standing far away from everyone, proud and lonely.

Actually he doesn't look like that.At least, the popular, good-natured, popular boy who gets thrown into the air after a basketball game and gets surrounded by a lot of people.However, the eternal loneliness and alienation in his eyes did not seem to be her illusion and imagination.

The old man who collected the rags passed by on a tricycle. He caught up with him in a few steps, put the fallen stack of newspapers back on the car, and then planned to return to the crowd to chat.As a result, within two steps, the newspaper fell down again.There was almost no one moving around, so he ran to catch up with the car and put the newspaper on it, but the body bumped a bit due to the bumpy road, the newspaper fell again, the thin plastic rope couldn't support it, and it was about to fall apart up.

The scene in front of her made Luo Zhi almost laugh out loud.Annoyed Sheng Huainan persevered, picked up a pile of crumbling waste newspapers like a primary school student, and threw them viciously into the car—the old man felt the shock, looked back, and after realizing what was going on, he became hoarse He said vaguely: Thank you, young man.

His white sports coat was stained with a lot of dust, he was a little embarrassed when he heard the old man's thanks, he scratched the back of his head, and smiled, his eyes were bent like crescent moons, the same as when he was a child, and the same as Luo Zhi, but instead It seems to be much more sincere and happy than when I was with those classmates just now.

Luo Zhi didn't know why she suddenly became flustered, with her ears burning, she took a step away and hid behind her classmates.No one noticed her strangeness.

Why isn't he an arrogant, selfish, annoying rich young man?Or, why isn't he ugly and scruffy?

Things would be so much easier that way.

He took another bus and left first, Luo Zhi continued to casually chat with his classmates, the empty chat covered up the deep loss in his heart.

His brilliance and beauty made her see her own insignificance and humbleness from the glass of the car door when she stopped on the 122 road.

11 years of tireless work, it turned out to be so ridiculous.She is unilaterally envious, unilaterally jealous, unilaterally challenging, and unilaterally remembering.How humble.

The door of the car opened to both sides, just in time to cut Luo Zhi's mirror image in half from the middle.

In the four major exams in the first year of high school, Sheng Huainan managed to beat the No. 2 of the school year by a long way.

And the best grade Luo Zhi got in her freshman year was No. 4 in the school year. Although she is very proud in a grade with more than 1000 masters like clouds, she just put away the report card and didn't care about it when she was studying. Take another breath.

Zheng Wenrui once asked her why she should give up and be willing.

Luo Zhi understood at that time that there was no reason, it was just that she had to.There is no other way to get through life than to accept it.If you want to live a good life, you must beautify this helpless "have to" into your own active and wise choice while accepting it, turn the forced and helpless compromise into the great wisdom of life, and first let yourself believe in it .

He will never know that she wiped out all hatred in the first year of high school and silently accepted this failure.

In the summer of that year, she filled out a volunteer form to study liberal arts.

It's like an escape.Singing with track and field athletes, and running with singers, she just chose a way to make herself less sad.

But looking back today, she is glad.Fortunately, he was so much stronger than herself, and fortunately he walked in front of her, leaving behind her to chase unwillingly, otherwise, she might lose the beacon after winning a rough victory, losing all expectations and fun.

More importantly, she found herself thinking about this man every day.Ever since she had an exact face, her emotions had quietly transformed without her noticing, to the point where she panicked.

She fell in love with him.

Seeing him gets nervous and giggles afterwards.He won the prize in the math league, and she was happy; her class was struggling in the basketball league, and he repeatedly broke through and blocked, and she was anxious.She is the most ordinary girl who fell in love with someone in the most ordinary way.

This liking made her pay attention to the honor, disgrace, joy and sorrow of a "other" for the first time in her life.

She became more silent.

High school winter vacation, Valentine's Day.She lit the desk lamp and wrote a long diary.She enjoys the pleasure of torturing herself in a forbearing way, and never indulges her curiosity and obsession, which makes her feel that she maintains a ridiculous arrogance unique to that age, as if her love can be better than the chatter at the back table It seems that the love of a girl who reads his name is more noble and pure.

Chat for comfort.

Sophomore year was a new beginning, she told herself.

At the school celebration ceremony, he spoke as a student representative.

Many people hold the manuscript in their hands and read nervously while holding the manuscript in their hands, but he is always so comfortable.It happened that Luo Zhi, who was standing guard under the rostrum as a student on duty, couldn't see anything, but when he heard the familiar opening remarks, his eyes suddenly turned red.

If there was ever a slight doubt that what I liked was just a figment of my imagination for so many years, then looking at the crowd boiling for him in the audience not far away, I have long been convinced that I like him.He deserves her affection.

Because of this sure liking, she freed herself from resentment and jealousy.

He is innocent, new, and wonderful.It is the gentle boy who will help the labor committee to put the littered mineral water bottles into the garbage bag when everyone else retreats to the teaching building after the basketball game is over; Smiling and not angry, but the moment the bell rang for the evening self-study class, the squad leader raised his index finger to silence everyone and went back to class.He has nothing to do with Luo Zhi's trivial and venomous past, and is detached from the intertwined grievances and grievances. Although he is a little more disguised than when he was a child, there is still no crack on that smiling face.

She used to think that he was an obstacle and a demon blocking her growth path, but she never knew that he was also a continuous sunshine in her life of more than ten years.

(End of this chapter)