I'm sorry, you are responsible for me

Chapter 38 The truth is so cruel (2)
Fu Zhi stretched out his hand to hold her, but Ye Jia suddenly moved back, and his hand stopped.

"I'm here...to get my badge back." She raised her eyes, her red eyes fixed on him, "Here you are, right?"

A silver lightning flashed across the sky, and the thunder overshadowed her words. Fu Zhiyan could see her face clearly, pale and indifferent.Like a fish jumping out of the water, dying in the torrential rain, without any vitality.

Smart people only need a look.

I get it.

Fu Zhiyan took her home, took out a warm coat and put it on her body, trying to warm her up, but Ye Jia still backed away with a blank expression on his face.

He didn't force it any more, he endured the pain in his heart, walked up the stairs, turned around, and beckoned to her: "Come."

Ye Jia followed Fu Zhiyan to the room at the end of the corridor.

The cabinet was opened, and inside was her badge that had been precious for nearly ten years, as well as a blood-stained uniform.

When Ye Jia saw the uniform, she kept suppressing her emotions, as if she had suddenly found a breach in a dike, she staggered and rushed over, grabbed the clothes, the clothes had been washed white, but the blood was still there. It still couldn't be washed off, and large pieces remained on the skirt, blooming a pale flower of death.

She hugged the uniform, opened her mouth, panting heavily, her tears were like a flood that burst a bank, but her crying was already hoarse because of the extreme grief...

Fu Zhiyan stood by the door, his heart throbbed by her crying.

He walked over and squatted down, just as his hand fell on her back, she moved forward to avoid his comfort.

Fu Zhiyan's heart was suddenly empty, and he suddenly panicked.

"Ye Jia." He called her name, trying to grab something

But she turned a deaf ear...

"His name is Fu Zhijin, my elder brother, when he passed away, he was 24 years old."

"Fu Zhijin...So your name is...Fu Zhijin..." She repeated his words over and over again, "...24 years old!"

He looked at her with heartache: "I didn't say it before, because I was afraid..."

The words "I'm afraid you will leave me" were stuck in his throat and he couldn't say them out. He understood that at this moment, she was immersed in her own sadness and didn't care at all. uncomfortable.

She just... doesn't care.

"Big brother..." She hugged his clothes and cried hoarsely.

He got up slowly and finally left the room.

After a long time, she tried her best to calm down, gasped, and came out of the room. The living room did not turn on the light, and he stood in front of the window, looking at the endless rainy night, smoking a cigarette, and his back was illuminated by lightning, like a lonely mountain.

Ye Jia hugged the uniform tightly, looked up at him with teary eyes: "Can you give me this dress?"

Can he not give it?
Fu Zhiyan held back his heartache and overwhelming jealousy, and nodded.

"Thank you, Mr. Fu." Ye Jia hugged the dress, turned around, and walked towards the door in a daze.

Mr Fu...

Heh, even the name has changed...

"Ye Jia." The moment she walked out of the gate, Fu Zhiyan suddenly stopped her and turned around with a hint of anger in his heart.

"So, what do we do?"

"Mr. Fu, I'm sorry, I've got the wrong person." She didn't even turn her head, just...don't want to see him?
Fu Zhiyan threw away the cigarette butt, walked over in two or three steps, grabbed her wrist and pulled her over, leaning heavily against the wall.

Another flash of lightning, mixed with thunder, pierced the night sky and illuminated his face. Ye Jia had never seen it before. His ruthless eyes were like a waking beast.

"Admitting the wrong person?" He said every word, gnashing his teeth, "Is this what you explained to me?"

Ye Jia tightly hugged the uniform in his hand, lowered his head, his lower lip turned white from being bitten.

Only then did I realize that he was not always elegant, he also had a temper and blood, but he treated her with extra gentleness.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..." Ye Jia trembled like a terrified little rabbit.

He wants her sorry?What is the use?

Fu Zhiyan sneered, clamped her chin with his hand, squeezed her gently, forced her to open her mouth, leaned her against the wall, and leaned over, violent kisses swept over the sky, she couldn't breathe, couldn't move , his kisses were hot and manic.

However, she was so cold, so icy, without any reaction, without any emotion...

She turned her head and faced each other sideways, and he kissed her salty tears.

Such bitterness.

Fu Zhiyan suddenly let go and let her go.

"Ye Jia, I don't like anyone easily." His voice was low, "If you leave here today, you will... have no chance in the future."

He won't be given a second chance.

Ye Jia hugged the uniform tightly, tears streaming down her face: "I'm sorry, Mr. Fu..."

Apart from these words, she had no other words to him.

She turned around and left. His heart was quite empty, and he sat down slowly with his back against the wall.

She used to dare not tell the truth, fearing that she would leave, holding a sliver of hope, thinking that as long as she treated her well, even if he wasn't Fu Zhijin, she would... be reluctant to bear him.

But the truth is often presented bloody in front of us in such an unexpected gesture.

She... still left.

"Based on the modus operandi, the shape of the wound, and some clues and traces left at the scene, the two unprovoked cases should be committed by the same person." Duan Xiaojun pointed to the scene photos on the projection screen and said solemnly, "I think the case can be merged." His gaze swept to Fu Zhiyan, who was sitting alone on the armchair in the back row, looking out the window, his eyes were dull, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Recently, the captain of their criminal investigation team is very out of shape!
"Captain Fu, what do you think?"

He was still looking out the window, dazed in a daze.

"Captain Fu?"

"Huh?" Fu Zhiyan came back to his senses in a daze, with a dazed expression on his face.

"Captain Fu, I think these two uncontested cases can be merged. What do you think?" Duan Xiaojun repeated patiently.

Fu Zhiyan's eyes finally fell on the screen. Suddenly, after some reasonable and convincing analysis, he rejected Duan Xiaojun's proposal to join the case, as if the poor state just now was only temporary. He, the always calm and stable Fu Zhiyan.

The clouds are calm and the wind is light, and there is no emotion at all.

Later, Fu Zhiyan's state became more and more strange. At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, Mu Chen was awakened by several consecutive gunshots, and almost fell off his chair. Running out of the duty room, the subconscious reaction was to touch the gun and then raise the alarm, and ran to the hall, only to understand that the gunshot came from the training ground.

What are you doing!They are still practicing target this late at night, so it's not such a disturbing thing!
Recently, a few interns who just graduated came to the bureau, and they didn't know the rules. Mu Chen decided to take this opportunity to teach them a lesson.

Angrily walking to the shooting range, Mu Chen kicked open the door and yelled angrily, "What are you doing! Now is the time to shoot..."

Before he finished speaking, there was another deafening gunshot, which hit a bullseye in front of him, and the black muzzle was still smoking.Mu Chen hurriedly covered his ears, feeling dizzy from the shock.

You can see clearly, the person who shot was Fu Zhiyan.

Mu Chen suddenly lost his temper, and looked at him in astonishment: "Captain Fu, you are..."

Fu Zhiyan skillfully changed the magazine, looked at Mu Chen: "It's just in time, let's train with me."

"That's not going to work... Captain Fu, don't fight anymore. If this is reported, saying that you are disturbing the people, we will all be punished."

Fu Zhiyan was stunned, and asked, "What time is it?"

"It's almost time."

Fu Zhiyan looked at the gun in his hand, obviously a little surprised, lowered his head, as if talking to himself: "It's so late."

"Yeah, stop practicing soon, go back early." After Mu Chen finished speaking, he walked out of the range and returned to the duty room.

Two hours later, he passed by Fu Zhiyan's office after get off work, and the lights were still on.

No way!Haven't gone yet!

Mu Chen pushed the door open and went in, only to see Fu Zhiyan sitting at the desk alone, holding a black gun in his hand, all the parts were disassembled, and then assembled, the movements were smooth and smooth, and he was reassembled in minutes, then continued to disassemble, and then assembled again ...

Mu Chen seriously suspected that he had been destroying the gun since he came out of the shooting range.

Well done, why bother with guns?
Mu Chen took a cup of hot tea, walked to the sofa and sat down: "Captain Fu, what's the matter, are you in a bad mood?"

He replied with a deadpan expression, "Yeah."

Mu Chen blew on the tea noodles and asked casually, "Is the little girl having a temper with you?"

There are no more little girls.

Fu Zhiyan felt a stabbing pain in his heart, remained silent, and continued to load and unload the gun in his hand expressionlessly. Mu Chen walked up to him and patted his shoulder: "Girls, you are small-minded, you have to coax the pain, you Loving her, all kinds of tenderness are yours, if you are like us men, yelling and quarreling for nothing, you will definitely ignore you for several months...I see that girl Ye Jia, she is so tight on you , It’s extremely rare, you are a man, if you give in to others, you will be reconciled, as for the big night, are you here to be sad?"

What she cares about is not him, nor is her tenderness towards him... Everything in the past, likes and loves, are not his.

Fu Zhiyan took the cup in Mu Chen's hand and drank it down.

"Hot! Hot! Drink it slowly!" Mu Chen hurriedly shouted, "What's the matter?"

I don’t feel hot, but it’s bitter. What lingers on the tip of my tongue is the bitter taste of tea. This kind of bitterness can’t be expressed, and I can’t pour it out. whole body……

His comrade-in-arms once told him before his death that you are the guardian of the people, and what you represent is justice. If your heart is not as hard as steel, you will not be able to bear the suffering and waste of every phenomenon in this world, and you will not be able to fight with those dark people. Jackals and tigers in the fight.

So in Fu Zhiyan's long past, he lived a very hard life, and rarely had redundant emotions, which were inappropriate and would affect his state, let alone talk, or open his heart to anyone, he closed himself up, He became Fu Zhiyan later.But now, the strong fortress he cast seems to be gradually disintegrating. She is like poison, like a corrosive agent, invading him bit by bit, melting him, and swallowing him.

Fu Zhiyan sometimes even thinks, being swallowed up by such a little girl, that kind of feeling should be very good, he belongs to her wholeheartedly, indulges in her tenderness and tenderness, doesn't care about the world or the future, in this way very good.

How can I say otherwise, Ruanrou Township is a tomb of heroes.

"Did you hear what I said?" Seeing that he lost his mind again, Mu Chen shook his head helplessly, "Go and apologize to someone, and you'll be fine."

Fu Zhiyan threw away the gun in his hand, and the unassembled parts were scattered all over the place.

"Stop talking." His voice was cold and his face became more serious.

"What's wrong?" Mu Chen noticed that something was really wrong with him.

"broke up."

"You dumped him?!"

"She dumped me."

Mu Chen was stunned for a moment, and then smiled, obviously not taking it seriously: "Women, that's it. They talk about breaking up all day long. To put it bluntly, I just want you to spend more time with her. You , don’t be too uncomfortable, listen to me, go to her, say a few pleasant words, and it will definitely be as good as before.”

Fu Zhiyan shook his head, his voice was a little hoarse: "That's not it, it's her...the person she loves, not me." When he said these words, a bloody hole seemed to be torn open somewhere in his heart , This kind of laceration of flesh and blood has been suffered in the past, the pain is the same, but the pain method is different, this pain has always been there, faintly for several days, and now it is even more induced...

After suffering for a few days, Fu Zhiyan's emotions began to turn to anger. Why, you are the one who says he likes you, you are the one who wants to break up, you are the one who vowed to each other, and you are the one who says to break up. He is like a fool. Being played around!However, she also put on a sad look of infatuation, making it seem like something was wrong with him.

What's wrong with him, he has reminded her long ago, when we were together, he gave her time, let her think about it, get to know him well, is it the way she likes, or is it a fantasy in his heart People... She was so determined at that time.

Now that I think about it, I'm afraid I'm really young and don't understand his meaning, let alone his thoughts.

She was just a little girl after all, what could he blame her for?

In the past few days, Fu Zhiyan's heart has been full of twists and turns, full of worries, he has thought through everything, but he can't figure it out, so he can only grieve to himself, alone in the lonely night with insomnia.

As soon as he lost sleep, he began to load and unload the gun, listening to the cold and crisp sound of the pistol parts, he was able to fill the emptiness in his heart a little bit. The gun is his brother, his closest partner, and he will never betray him or leave him. ...

At the busiest time at the end of the semester, Ye Jia still asked Cheng Yu to get a day off. In school, she took every step carefully.

After that night, I haven't seen Fu Zhiyan for nearly half a month.

At first, she was immersed in the sorrow of her elder brother's death. After so many years, it seemed that she was about to shed tears for him. Later, she gradually accepted this reality, and suddenly realized that she and Fu Zhiyan had broken up.

The man she used to love so much.

But the person she likes...is it really him?
Time can't give her an answer, she only firmly believes, can only be certain that the person she has loved for many years must be the one who saved her with his life.

The dark cloud in my heart has been lingering, and it weighs heavily on my heart, making it difficult to breathe. It seems that all the happiness in my life has been washed away by that heavy rain.

Once she stops working and what she is doing, her mind can't help showing his face, his gentle smile, his angry questioning, and the kindness he has treated her...

Countless nights I dreamed of him, dreamed of the Forbidden City he took me to visit in winter, as if covered in silver, dreamed of him saying softly in her ear, miss the snow in Luzhou, miss the summer wind, she still dreamed On many, many nights of heavy rain, the rain dripped and dripped, flowing from my heart... I dreamed of him and her kissing in the sunset by the river, as if it had been a lifetime, his lips, his hug, his vows and He has a soft spot for...

All the sweetness in the past is now like a thorn in my heart.

Maybe it will be fine in a few days, maybe it will not be better for a lifetime.

Ye Jia walked... her footsteps stopped, and not far away, Fu Zhiyan broke into her field of vision unexpectedly.

The sky is blue, the surroundings are very quiet, and there is no wind.

This world is very quiet and clean, as if because of his existence, even the sunlight has softened a bit, falling on his body, outlining his slender and stylish lines, creating a thin halo.

The sultry air was sucked into the lungs, and the pain began to spread. He was wearing a white shirt, his figure was still tall and straight, and he was always dazzling. Many girls upstairs were lying on the corridor guardrail, looking down.

Occasionally, Fu Zhiyan seemed to have sensed something, and looked back at her. Ye Jia quickly hid behind the thick trunk of the sycamore tree, revealing half of his face, and looked over furtively. Under the sun, the place where he was just now was empty. no one.

Ye Jia took a deep breath, making up for the empty space in her heart.

He is still him, close at hand, out of reach.

It was she who gave up on him on her own initiative, so no matter how uncomfortable it was, she had to bear it...

In the small garden outside the teaching building, Ye Jia finally met Su Mi. She was wearing a short-sleeved T-shirt, denim shorts, and big-frame glasses. Her shoulder-length hair was hanging down to her chest. Ye Jia quickly got up from the bench, He waved at her from afar.

Su Mi's rapid pace gradually slowed down.

The two sisters hadn't spoken a word for several months, and sometimes they ran into each other by chance on the street, and Su Mi would just bow her head and leave in a hurry, ignoring Ye Jia.

Seeing Ye Jia walking towards him, Su Mi moved his eyes away unnaturally.

Seeing the transparent pencil case in her hand, Ye Jia asked generously, "Are you going to take the exam?"

"Yeah." Su Mi nodded shyly.

"Then... I'll wait for you to finish the exam." Ye Jia looked at the time, "Two hours?"

Sumi continued to nod.

(End of this chapter)