Long time no see, Mr. Qin

Chapter 64 Facing the sea, spring flowers bloom (1)

Qin Ziyang looked at me and stood under the stage, in the most remote corner, standing quietly with a glass of red wine in his hand.No, it's not holding it, rather than holding it, it's better to say it's pinching, fingers tightly pinching the wine glass, as if a little more force can crush it.

Xu Moran walked over from the other end and looked at me with a smile.I don't know if it's because of nervousness or something else, but that smile looks very reserved.

Many people came to the scene, all to congratulate.

I have been with Qin Ziyang for so many years, and I have lived all kinds of lives for so many years, but I have never had the opportunity to stand with him on such occasions.To him, it seems that I will always be the ray of light in the back, unable to survive under the sun.I looked at him, with the angle of looking up, with a posture that I could never achieve in my life, looking up at him silently.

He always said to me: "Su Nianjin, we are going to get better, and we will get better in a few days."

When we said this, we huddled in that small room in New York, using each other's warmth to soothe the lonely scar in our hearts that couldn't be crossed.In a different place, the huge sense of desolation in the crowd full of strangers can only be healed by penetrating each other's bodies fiercely when midnight comes.

He who had been lowering his head and pinching the wine glass suddenly raised his head and looked straight at me.That gaze was like a sharp sword, stabbing me fiercely, as if trying to pierce my body from top to bottom, from inside to outside, every corner, every cell, and every strand of hair. through.

I couldn't look directly at him. For the first time, I felt that I couldn't look directly at his eyes. I have seen his eyes countless times, even in my dreams.

Just as he was about to turn his face away, Qin Ziyang raised the wine glass in his hand, raised it very slowly, and saluted me.

Zhong Zilin stopped me aside, with a smile on his lips, his eyes slightly narrowed, and he seemed indifferent.He always seems to be like this, his eyes are always squinting, like a fox, he doesn't seem to be threatening at all, but if you really think he is not threatening, then you are wrong.

"Miss Su, long time no see."

"Yeah, it's been a long time. What's the matter with Mr. Zhong coming to see me? We don't seem to have any special intersection."

"Miss Su is still the same as before, with thorns all over her body"

"Did you talk about me like a puppet back then?" I sneered.

"I've never done that before." He shrugged.

"Yes, I never thought about it." I deliberately emphasized the word "never".

"Don't speak in such a tone. The bride should be beautiful, and pay attention to the curvature of the mouth." He compared himself with his hands and pulled out a smiling expression, but no matter how you look at it, there is a joking element.

"If I don't see you, I will smile brightly."

Maybe it's because I'm in a bad mood, I'm tired of even pretending, I want to get rid of all the people I don't want to see, all the irrelevant things.

Perhaps this is really not the mood a bride should have, but I can't put on the state I should have no matter what.

Zhong Zilin was slightly stunned, as if he was surprised that I said such words so directly, but soon he smiled indifferently and walked slowly to a corner in the last row.

After a while, Xu Moran came over under the attention of everyone.Today he was wearing a white suit, which was a typical groom's attire. His hair was pulled back by the hair stylist, and he looked much more mature.I suddenly thought of a manga I read a long time ago.At that time, I was only in junior high school, and I was young and full of yearning for love, marriage, etc. But now, all of this seems like a cold ceremony.

Xu Moran looked at me, his eyes were a little disturbed.I know what he is worried about. He is worried that I will go back on my word, that I will regret my marriage, and that I will just walk away.But I really want to regret it. I feel that my palms are sweating, sticky, and covered every line.I lowered my head, not daring to look directly at his face, but his pleasant voice was still unavoidably transmitted to my eardrums and directly into my soul.

"What, are you nervous?"

His voice was very steady, and when I raised my head again, I couldn't see the anxious expression just now. Xu Moran standing in front of me was like a man who stood upright, a man I could give everything to.

That's it, Su Nianjin, that's it, it's good.

I comforted myself repeatedly, but I couldn’t let go of the tightly clenched fist for some reason, as if once it was loosened, beads of sweat would really drip down from it, and my thoughts fell in front of everyone without any cover .

The officiant stood in front, with a smile on his face, and kept saying congratulations.There are more people in the audience, all men are dressed in suits and leather shoes, full of style, and all women have exquisite faces and fashionable clothes.But all of this is like a play, with only bright and beautiful scenery, but nothing that can move people.Because I can't get into the play, I'm just that person outside the play, going around and going around, destined to be barren.

Xu Moran came over and took my hand, my cold, sweaty hand.

He held it tightly.It hurt a little, but I didn't say anything.

The music sounded, and the surrounding gradually became quiet.

It was very quiet, so quiet that you could even hear your heartbeat.

Xu Moran led me forward, almost all the way he was leading me, without his help, I think I would probably become a stone statue, fixed there.

The officiant began to perform the procedures, which we have already mastered through film and television dramas.There are also other plots in the play, such as this moment, someone shouted "I don't agree", and then rushed forward, took the bride and eloped, leaving the groom standing there alone.

But not this time, when the officiant finished speaking the last word, there was still no such voice.

It turns out that a script is just a script after all.But what if he said so?Will he interrupt me if he says so?I think it must be the opposite. If Qin Ziyang objects at this time, it will only strengthen my determination to marry Xu Moran.Look, I'm really not a nice woman.To Xu Moran, this is so unfair.

I subconsciously looked into the crowd.It's strange to say that it's such a small point, so far away, but I can see it so clearly, even his slightly whitish fingers holding the cup tightly, and his That face was so hideous that maybe even he himself couldn't recognize it.

Heh, Qin Ziyang, he actually cared a lot.

My heart suddenly became happy, but the next second, the next second, when I saw roses everywhere, which symbolized love and passion, and... the ring in Xu Moran's hand, my heart thumped. With a swipe.

pain.

It really hurts.

Xu Moran seemed to have noticed it, and hurriedly supported me.

"Nian Jin, are you okay?"

"I'm fine." I smiled at him, but this smile must be ugly, I can't even pull the corners of my mouth apart.

The palms are sweating more and more, not only there, but also the body, the back, the whole body is sweating, and the whole body hurts like twisting, but I don't know where it is, I only know that it hurts...

What he saw before he passed out was Xu Moran's frowning.

When I opened my eyes, it was pitch black, and I couldn't see anything, but I felt someone's eyes were watching me.That gaze was so scorching, even in such a dark night, it still made my skin ache.

"How did you come?"

Even if he doesn't speak, even if he's lying still like this, even if he can't see anything, I still know it's him.Only he can give me such a sense of oppression, only him.

This is what I hate the most.

"Why?" he asked, his voice hoarse.

"I can not understand what you say."

"Why?" he asked again, insistently.

"It's just that I don't feel well." I said.But I know in my heart that, as he said, I will not fall in love with other men except him, even if I try.

Then I was discharged from the hospital and went home.Denied all visits.Then he packed his luggage overnight and left T City.

This time I didn't tell anyone about my whereabouts.

I went to a very remote mountainous area. The houses here are simple and the transportation is not convenient, but the air is good, there are mountains and water, and there are those simple villagers.

I rented a farmhouse here, and lived here quietly, watching the sun rise and set, occasionally planting flowers and reading books.Such a day would be pleasant.

Of course, if it was placed a few years ago, I would have found it boring and unbearable.But after going through all this, the simple and peaceful life turned out to be a kind of happiness.

Although the people here are very poor, they are simple and sincere.

There is a very dilapidated tile-roofed house not far away. I often wander there and listen to the old man in that house tell the love story between her and her wife when they were young.

She said that everyone was very poor at that time and often had no food. A steamed bun was a very precious thing. His wife often said that he had already eaten it and left that to her, but in fact, where did he eat it? I'm afraid she won't make it through.Speaking of this, she began to choke up, "You said, I didn't expect that he was the one who didn't make it in the end. This fool."

The old lady's teeth have fallen out, but "this fool" still speaks so emotionally, like a shy girl acting like a baby to her lover.

"Oh, my old lady is sad again. Girl, are you bored?"

"No, if he is still alive, you must be an admirable couple. It doesn't matter what hardships you will suffer if you stay together like this for a lifetime." I said with emotion.

"It's not forever. When you get old, it's good to have a companion. Now our girl is left. I really hope she can have a good home in the future."

"Grandma, it's time to eat." The girl had a pretty face and her eyes were particularly bright.

She jogged out and smiled slightly when she saw me, revealing two sweet little dimples, "Ah, Sister Su is here too, come on, let's come in and eat together, I'll add another dish."

"Don't bother—" Before I finished speaking, the girl's figure had disappeared in front of me.As light and beautiful as the Tathagata.

"Let's go, this child lives with an old lady like me on weekdays. It's rare that you've moved in and become more lively. She's happy."

I smiled, didn't refuse any more, and followed into the house.

Not long after, the girl came out with another dish in her hand.

"Sister Su, why do people from the city like you live here? The conditions and facilities here are not good. Although I have never been to the mountains, I heard that the outside is very prosperous. They said that this building is so tall... "The girl stuffed steamed buns into her mouth and gestured with her hands.

"Although those buildings are tall, they are uncomfortable to live in. It's better here, simple and plain."

"But, everyone here wants to go out. Me too. When I grow up, I want to go out and have a look." After she finished speaking, she added crisply: "Take grandma with you."

"Okay, when the time comes, go live at Sister Su's house. I'll show you around." I took a bite of vegetables and said with a smile, seeming to be infected by her enthusiasm.

"Someone came here before, but they just left for a look. They even wanted to leave right away, because they thought it was a bad place. But Sister Su, you have lived here for more than half a year, why haven't you left yet?" The girl rolled her eyes Flashing puzzled and curious.

“Love the tranquility here.”

"That's great, let's live forever. My grandma and I like you very much. Just stay here with us all the time. Oh, no, when I grow up, I will go out. At that time, sister Su Come out with us."

"Okay." I smiled and patted her head.

In this way, I have lived here for a long time, and I have lived here for three years.I made several phone calls with my family on the way to let them not worry about it.And others, I never contacted again.

However, this day, I habitually went to talk to my grandma, and I heard scolding from a long distance away.I hurried over and saw that someone was going to take away the cow from my grandmother's house - the only cow.

"Speak up if you have something to say, what are you doing holding other people's cattle in a good manner!" I stepped forward to stop them.

"What are you doing? This old lady owes us money. When the time limit expires, if you don't have any money, you can pay it back with a cow."

I glanced at the grandmother next to me. At this time, she looked at the cow at home, her eyes were a little red.

"This cow has been with me for so many years, alas... let's take it away, as long as my girl can be admitted to college in the future, it will be better than anything else."

The girl on the side cried and tugged on Grandma's arm, "I don't want to study anymore. Ah Huang has been with us for so many years, and we can't do without him. In the early years, we depended on it for food. Grandma, I really I don't want to miss it."

I watched this scene, suddenly very sad.

"How much does she owe you?"

"2000."

"I have a necklace here, it's definitely more than this number, you take it, and this cow stays."

The two looked at each other, and one of the older ones looked at the necklace for a long time, then weighed it in his hand, nodded to the accomplice next to him, and then looked at us, "That's all right, that's it this time Forget it, if this necklace is worthless, it won’t be a cow that we will take away next time.” He looked at Niuzi wretchedly and smiled.

This thing is over.However, what I didn't expect was that it was this necklace that completely overturned my peaceful life here.

That day, it was raining, and I went out to collect the clothes. I had just received half of them when I was startled by the car parked in front of the door.I am very familiar with this car, it is Qin Ziyang's favorite car.

I subconsciously shook my hands, and my clothes fell to the ground.

The car door opened, and Qin Ziyang slowly walked out of the car.

He didn't open an umbrella, just stood there in the rain, looking at me.

I haven't seen him for three years, but he is still so handsome, but there are many vicissitudes in his expression.

He stared at me for a few moments, then walked towards me.

Just when he was one person away from me, he stopped.

His whole body was already wet by the rain, just like this, looking at me motionlessly at a place far away from me, and then said: "Long time no see, Su Nianjin."

My mouth trembled, I didn't know how to respond, I subconsciously turned and ran into the house, but he grabbed my wrist in front of the door.His eyes were slightly red, but he didn't say anything, but it seemed like he had said a thousand words.

"Su Nianjin, I've been looking for you for three years."

He seemed to have trekked over mountains and ridges, covered with exhaustion and dust, and then said such a sentence in the heavy rain.

"Aren't you going to invite me in?" He asked, his eyes seemed to be astringent.

I glanced at him who was drenched all over, wiped my hands, turned around and opened the door, and stepped in first.He then followed into the house.But because the door was relatively short, he had to bend over when he entered.

He looked around the environment, then looked at me dressed as a peasant woman, opened and closed his mouth, and finally came over and put his arms around me quietly.It was completely different from his previous ruthlessness, but trembling, as if I would disappear if I tried harder.

"Su Nianjin, you can really hide." His voice was hoarse and trembling, as if he was crying.But how could Qin Ziyang cry? How could I not know what kind of person he is?I hurriedly wanted to step back and look at his face, but he held me down.At this moment, as if he couldn't restrain the throbbing in his heart, he increased his strength and hugged me fiercely, as if he wanted to rub me into his body before he would give up.

"Qin Ziyang, you hurt me." I pushed him.

"You cruel woman, how do you know it hurts?" He didn't loosen but tightened, and buried his whole face in my neck, where there was dampness.

Now, I was a little panicked, so I didn't force myself to push.It took an unknown amount of time before he raised his face, but he still refused to let go.

Qin Ziyang looked at me motionlessly, and said: "Su Nianjin, from now on, I will not lose you again. I will go wherever you go. Even if you die, you must be placed in the same grave."

"Life here is not for you." I woke him up.After all, he is not me, he shoulders the fate of the entire Qin Corporation.

"Unless you leave here, I won't take a step here."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and went out, braving the rain, but he didn't make it difficult for me any more.

I looked at the open door, and he ran all the way to the opposite farmhouse. Not long after, the family happily took their luggage and was pulled away by Jiang Ge in Qin Ziyang's car.

(End of this chapter)