Long time no see, Mr. Qin

Chapter 36 Forget Me, Or Just Remember Me, Just Me (2)

"Qin Ziyang, what do you think would happen if I died at that time?"

"Don't talk nonsense."

"I just want to talk nonsense, you have to answer me." I have been lying on the hospital bed these days, and when I lie on the bed for a long time, I get really bored, and even I start to ask these boring questions.

"There is no such possibility." He said firmly, and then stopped me from entangled in this topic.

When I was discharged from the hospital, Qin Ziyang suddenly looked at me seriously, and said, "Su Nianjin, I promise you."

Logically speaking, I should not understand such nonsensical words, but on the contrary, I really understood.

"Really?" I couldn't believe it, and my voice was trembling.

I said: "Qin Ziyang, is what you said true? Are you sure, are you sure, are you sure and sure that what you said is true?"

I feel like I am a repeater, repeatedly confirming and repeating.

"Hmm," he said.

I said: "Qin Ziyang, my knife is really worth it. This hospital is not in vain. If you knew that I was only in the hospital once and you could figure it out, I would have put myself in the hospital a long time ago."

He walked over unhappily and hugged me, "Don't say such things, I don't like to hear them."

"Okay, don't talk, don't talk, if you don't like to hear it, let's not talk."

I giggled sullenly, I felt that the sky turned blue all of a sudden, why didn't I notice it before.

Later, Qin Ziyang said that he had to find Luo Zi first, and that cooperating with him was the best way.

I said, I support you 100%, Comrade Qin Ziyang, work hard, the superiors are optimistic about you.

Qin Ziyang went to find Xiao Luo, and when he came back, he told me that everything was fine, they would pay for the funds, and he was in charge of scientific research and development.

I bought red wine as a celebration, and I respected him during the meal, "Qin Ziyang, I knew you could do it. As long as you are willing to take this step, nothing can really trouble you, and I know it."

Later, Qin Ziyang really did it.

In fact, in the later period, Ruiyu Group invested a lot of money in the research and implementation of a development project, which was favored and envied by many people.But later, Qin Ziyang's parents were both imprisoned, and the big-witted Qin family collapsed in an instant, without even a chance to breathe.

I often go to see him where he works and bring him something to eat. Among all the people, I always see him at the first sight. He is so conspicuous and extraordinary.

When we went back for dinner in the evening, Qin Ziyang looked very happy. He asked me to close my eyes and said that he wanted to show me something.

I smiled and said, okay, then closed my eyes, held his hand, I felt a cool thing hanging around my neck, and then he brought me to the mirror.

"Open it."

It was a chain, and in the mirror I saw a delicate necklace lying quietly on my chest.

This necklace looks so familiar...

"Did you buy it on purpose?" I asked, with tears in my eyes, and I was moved.The tip of the nose suddenly became sour, and the whole person felt sour.

"Not really, just saw it."

"It's a lie, how could it be just to see it."

"Do you like it?" He asked, his voice was calm, and his whole body looked calm.This is the difference between Qin Ziyang and other men. When they ask their girlfriends if they like her, they will show obvious longing. However, Qin Ziyang doesn't have it. Judging from his expression alone, it is always deep.

But this time I can feel his intentions. This chain was a platinum necklace that I accidentally fell in love with when I was shopping with him. I just said it casually, but I didn't expect him to remember it until now.

If, if the man you love can remember your unintentional words, and work hard for it, to please you, will you be very moved?
What if this man is a man like Qin Ziyang?

I stepped forward, took a deep breath, stood on tiptoe, looked into his eyes, and said, "Honey, I like it very much."

Dear.

What a nasty name...

After calling out, I only felt that my face was hot and very hot.

He and I have always called each other by our first names. I am used to calling Qin Ziyang, and he also called me Su Nianjin directly, but how could this phrase, dear, be blurted out so naturally? Did it mean that when I dreamed back in the middle of the night, I murmured repeatedly? Countless times, in a situation where I don't even know?
In the days that followed, Qin Ziyang became thinner and thinner from exhaustion, and I knew he was fighting with his life.

One day when he came back, he didn't speak, his mouth was always tightly pressed.During these days, Qin Ziyang has rarely been like this with me.

"What's wrong?" I went to ask him.

"Someone from above is obstructing it, and this case may have to be suspended."

"Because of what?"

He didn't make a sound, and lit a cigarette. He hasn't smoked for a long time, since the last time I said I was allergic to the smell of smoke.

"because of you?"

……

"Xiao Luo can't settle it?"

"It's Xiao Qingdong."

"Could it be that he doesn't even let go of things that are good for his son, so he hates your family so much?"

"My dad had an enmity with him in the early years. Although I don't know the specific reason, but it was formed in the previous life. It may not be so easy to untie the beam."

"What should I do?"

"I don't know." He said, then hugged me, and buried his face deep into the hollow of my neck.

Could it be that everything is going to be for naught?
"Why don't we find someone else, since this case has such a big profit to make, we don't have to worry about finding a partner."

"I'm a little tired."

I didn't speak, I broke his hand, got out of his arms, turned and went into the house.

When he was sleeping at night, he leaned over and hugged me from behind. Neither of us spoke, but we could feel each other's heartbeat.

"If you spend your life like this, you buy cheap clothes, you also have to consider the price when traveling and shopping, and you have to look at other people's faces wherever you go. In the future, your own children will also have to worry about making a living. Qin Ziyang, if in the future we Just living such the most ordinary life, will you be happy? Will you be truly happy? Can you guarantee that you will forget the past, and really don’t care about it?"

The voice I asked was very soft, sticking to his ear, as if muttering to himself, and full of confusion as if he didn't understand.He hugged me tighter.

Actually the answer is obvious, isn't it?

Do you care?
Do you care?
Don't you care?

How could you not care...

How could it be so easy to forget after drinking Mengpo soup? Forget those days when you were superior, those days when you were sensual, those days when you were surrounded by stars, and those days when someone kept trying to execute them with a look or an order.

Impossible to forget.

So he wants to escape from T City, escape from that circle, go down to the bottom, to numb himself, to exile himself, to destroy himself in a sense.

However, no matter how hard he tried to suppress the inseparable pride in his bones and blood, it would still be revealed inadvertently.

In the photo studio, he said, show us the best wedding dress.

In the new mart, he frowned, isn't there any more exquisite workmanship?

On the bus, he held the handle and pressed his lips tightly.

When being scolded, the clenched fists at the side, and the suppressed anger.

In the park, unintentionally revealed irritability.

At work, that was enough to numb him to the workload.

When shopping, I was stunned for a moment when I looked at the things I bought in the shopping cart.

When facing high-rise buildings, there is a little pause and confusion.

All of this is what he is trying to suppress and restrain, but he can't hide it.He is Qin Ziyang, he is not someone else, how can he be ordinary, and how can he be content with being ordinary?

Qin Ziyang pulled up some of the quilt for me, blocking my exposed shoulders.

"I'll buy an air conditioner tomorrow. The climate here is no better than that in the north, and the humidity is heavy in winter."

"It's okay. I've always been in good health, but you are so thin that you feel pain in your bones when you get close."

He smiled and took me into his arms.Hugging tightly, "It really hurts, huh?"

The sentence "hmm" is particularly long and full of sadness.

"Yeah, it really hurts. I said you should eat more. I'll buy some delicious food for you tomorrow. Hurry up and make yourself fatter, or I won't let you hug me next time. Just hugging it made me feel sore and uncomfortable."

He didn't speak, his eyes flickered, and I realized that when I was talking to him, I inadvertently pressed my whole body against him.

"Then hug first and see if it really hurts."

The next day, I had a public holiday, and it was already noon when I woke up, and Qin Ziyang didn't call me.I rubbed my eyes and called him a few times, but no one was there.

I got up to wash up first, and then went to buy some vegetables.In the evening, when the meal was just ready, Qin Ziyang came back in a hurry, his eyes were a little excited, and it couldn't be said to be excited, no matter how excited he was, Qin Ziyang was capable of suppressing the slightest change in the lines of his face, but I could feel it arrive.

"What's the matter, what happened?"

I asked him and served him a bowl of rice by the way.

"It's nothing."

He is just like this, look, at this moment, even the excitement has been suppressed, and his face is sullen. If he hadn't been with him for a long time, he really wouldn't be able to see it.In fact, I really sympathize with his former subordinates. Except for the lazy, inscrutable smile and the alienated and arrogant smile at the corner of his mouth, he probably always has such an expression, which makes people who speculate about him unable to see through, so He became more and more frightened.

"Stop talking, who do you think I am, and tell me what you want, or you won't be allowed to eat."

He looked straight at me for a few seconds, then looked down again.He took the rice in my hand and took a few mouthfuls.

I won't urge you any more, just wait.

Sure enough, after he took a few mouthfuls of food, the movable chopsticks stopped, and he suddenly looked up at me and said, "Would you like to go abroad with me?"

This time it was my turn to be stunned for a few seconds.Abroad, another country, the customs and customs are completely different, and it may even be on the other side of the ocean.

"Where to go?"

"U.S."

"how long?"

"do not know."

They were silent for a while.I sat down, opened the stool, took a few mouthfuls of food, and after he had finished eating, put away the bowls and chopsticks, and suddenly felt homesick, so I called home.

"Mom, how are you doing?"

"It's still the same. You never come back. Your dad has been thinking about you these days. Come back and see when he's not so busy."

"Well, okay, I'll go back later when I'm free."

"You should pay more attention to yourself. Oh, otherwise, I think you can just come back. It's still close, so as not to be alone, your father and I are always worried."

"I'm fine, I'm an old man, and I've been outside for a long time, so there's nothing to worry about, but you two are old, and I'm not around, sometimes I really worry about it."

"We don't need you to worry, you just take care of yourself."

"Well, that's fine, I'll hang up first, you guys go to bed early."

After hanging up the phone, I went to the window again, opened the window, and a gust of cold air came in, but I didn't feel cold, but I felt that I was much more awake.

Looking at the stars all over the sky and the bright moon, some emotions flowed in my heart.

Feeling a hand behind me hug me, I turned around and hugged him.

"I'll go with you."

Qin Ziyang hugged me tightly, he was excited, and the obvious trembling of his hands hugging me was enough proof.

"I will succeed."

There is no other words, but only this one is the best answer for me.

After I packed my luggage, I resigned. Before leaving, I met Xu Moran standing at the door.

"Going?"

"Ah."

"With him?"

"Ah."

……

He didn't speak, and I didn't speak, there was silence between each other.

"If I invite you to dinner, I'll treat it as...seeing you off." After a long while, the words escaped from his throat, and then he turned around and walked straight down.

Looking at his back, I always find it hard to refuse.

That night, he drank several glasses of wine in a row.

With a lot of wine in his stomach, it is inevitable that his emotions will not be as guarded as usual.

"Is he really worth what you paid for him?"

"worth."

"Well, I just hope that he can treat you well, so that you can be happy. But in my heart, I always hope that he is not good enough for you, because you will be unhappy, and if you are unhappy, you may come to find him. Me, maybe there will be a little or even a few traces of the possibility that there is not a trace, probably people are so contradictory." After speaking, he drank himself a few more glasses.

"Well, people are quite contradictory." I picked up the wine bottle on the table and filled it up, "Come on, Mo Ran, let me toast you. It's not for anything else, just for us to get acquainted."

"Okay, it's a good acquaintance, ha ha." He smiled to himself, but didn't say another word.

The wine glasses made a crisp sound when they collided, and the pale yellow liquid was rippling as it drank down the throat, with a slight bitterness.

In the end, I didn't speak to him, and when I came out after drinking, Xu Moran suddenly turned around and clasped my wrist firmly.

I looked up at him, his eyes were like a deep ocean, and as soon as he pulled, I fell into his arms.

I just wanted to struggle, but I heard him say: "Don't move, just a moment, just a moment."

So I didn't move, but in the next second I broke free from his embrace and stared straight ahead - Qin Ziyang stood there at some point, looking at me motionless.

Xu Moran seemed to sense my abnormality, turned around, and followed my line of sight.

The two of them stared at each other for a long time.However, just when I was feeling uneasy, neither of them took the next step.

At this moment, Xu Moran walked over, he leaned close to Qin Ziyang's ear and said something, then straightened his back, walked towards the shadow, and never looked back.

I glanced at Xu Moran, then ran to Qin Ziyang's side, wanting to explain, but felt that it was unnecessary, but I still held Qin Ziyang's hand after being silent all the way.

"I have nothing to do with him. A parting hug, you know, happens in both reality and fiction."

He stopped and looked down at me, "I understand."

The next day, the flight was nonstop to New York.We arrived in New York, the legendary city that combines hell and heaven.

After arriving here, a young man with white skin received us, and the big sign said: John!

In fact, my English is not very good, and the language barrier is such a big obstacle.But, it's impossible for me to give up on Qin Ziyang, isn't it?
But in fact, I really want to know, if I said at the time that I would not go, would he insist on going?

I didn't ask, because I am Su Nianjin, and Su Nianjin will not stop Qin Ziyang's progress.

The people who came arranged a house for us.In a place like New York where the land is astonishingly expensive, it is quite good to have an apartment for us, especially the grade of the apartment here is much higher than that in China.Here, the highest treatment for the most senior tenured professor of a famous university is to give him a specific parking space, which will be marked with the name of such and such a professor, otherwise, according to the market price in New York, the hourly parking fee will be one sum Amazing numbers.

Qin Ziyang and I started our new life here.

Because of the language barrier and the different cultures, I would feel terrified when I went to sleep at night, and then I would cling to Qin Ziyang's body like a big creeper.

He just laughed at me and said that my body was getting stickier, but he would always open and flatten my arms and let me lie directly on them.After lying down, he would habitually bend the pressed forearm, comb my hair with his hands, and occasionally touch my earlobe mischievously, which is my sensitive area. Every now and then a shudder would rise all over his body, but he pretended not to know it and continued to "entertain himself" from time to time.

But my heart was warm, and this kind of warmth was more fierce and lasting than the feeling of fear.

Our love is not as intense and frequent as before, more often we like to cling to each other, hug each other, feel each other's breath, but don't talk too much, because he is very tired every day, With dark circles under my eyes, I always joked that I adopted a giant panda.

He would lean on his face and say, "Giant panda, that's a national treasure. You adopted a national treasure, so you have to have fun."

After finishing speaking, he continued to lower his head, busy with the work that would never be finished, even when going to the toilet, he had to keep an eye on it all the time.

(End of this chapter)