Long time no see, Mr. Qin

Chapter 35 Forget Me, Or Just Remember Me, Just Me (1)

Today I am in a particularly good mood, because I have paid bonuses and wages, and it feels good to hold my hard-earned money in my hands.

When I got home, I found no one was home.Usually, Qin Ziyang would be at home at this time.I searched inside and out, but still couldn't find it, and my heart became more and more strange.I took out my mobile phone and called him, but no one answered, and some bad thoughts started to flow out.

"Impossible. I'm an old man, and I'm not a child. What's the matter? I've been really nervous recently." I comforted myself like this while starting to make dinner, but when the dinner was all set on the table, Qin Ziyang was still didn't come back.

I called Rao Qiyun.He said: "Don't worry, I'll come right over, everything will be fine."

Rao Houyun rushed over in about 10 minutes.

I got in his car and drove in and out of the city, which was basically looking for a needle in a haystack.

"I'll make a call." Rao Qiyun took out his mobile phone and explained, probably for someone to check.

About an hour later, Rao Qiyun returned the call, and Rao Qiyun immediately relaxed after hearing it.

"what happened?"

"Luo Zi is here." He said, and said comfortingly: "Don't worry, Zi Yang is with him."

"Why don't you turn on your phone!"

"It's probably out of power."

We got there quickly, and sure enough, we saw Qin Ziyang and Xiao Luo sitting together.

Both of them seemed to have calm expressions, but this calmness was more terrifying than a flash flood. It seemed that there were huge waves hidden under the calmness. Once it really erupted, it was likely to submerge the whole world.

"When did you come to Shanghai?" Rao Qiyun patted Xiao Luo's shoulder.

"Just arrived this afternoon." Xiao Luo finally closed his eyes that had been staring at Qin Ziyang, smiled leisurely, and leaned back in the chair, still looking as lazy as before.

"Young Master Xiao, long time no see."

"Hello, Su Nianjin." He nodded at me and said my name for the first time. Is this a kind of recognition?
Qin Ziyang and Xiao Luo used to be such a good pair of friends. In my opinion, the tacit understanding between them is even stronger than Qin Ziyang and Rao Qiyun.

"Ziyang, you accept this, I don't have anything else to explain, I believe it's the same for you."

Qin Ziyang looked at the check on the table and frowned, "Take it back."

Xiao Luo smiled and stood up, "If you don't want it, just throw it away." After speaking, he motioned to Rao Qiyun and me, and left without looking back.

Qin Ziyang held the check and pinched it tightly in the palm of his hand.

"Go first, I want to be alone here."

"Well, I'll go out first. Don't think too much, Luo Zi is also for your own good." Rao Qiyun stood up first, and patted him on the shoulder comfortingly.

I sat there all the time, watching him quietly.

"Qin Ziyang, you don't plan to take this money, do you?"

……

"Are you planning to tear up this check after I go out?"

……

"Why did you tear it up? People don't want to be against money. This money is nothing to him, Xiao Luo, but it is extraordinary to you now." I looked at the astonishing amount on the check and said.

……

No matter what I said, he refused to speak, and finally took out a cigarette irritably, took a few puffs, and kept rubbing the check in his hand repeatedly with his fingers.

I was a little anxious, and I stretched out my hand to grab it.He pushed me away with astonishing force.My body fell to the ground, and my head just hit the stool. The skin was broken, and the blood flowed down. It was very scary to watch.I opened my mouth, and just about to speak, blood flowed in, mixed with a salty smell.

Qin Ziyang didn't seem to have expected his strength to be so great, and he didn't expect that this push would push me to the ground, and even bumped his head. He came over in a panic, knelt down to hold my hand, and propped me up.

"Sorry, I just..."

I touched my forehead and my hands were covered in blood.Looking at the blood, I stared at Qin Ziyang coldly, "If you want backbone, then you should. You, Qin Ziyang, are so lofty, I'm just an ordinary person, I've dirty the holiness in your bones, you push I'm right, I deserve it, I'm a bitch, I don't know what to do."

After I finished speaking, I walked out, but was hugged by him from behind.He grabbed my wrist and turned me around.

"I didn't mean it just now, it was just..."

"Yes, of course it wasn't intentional, and it's even more chilling because it wasn't intentional."

He was speechless for a moment, his eyes sparkling.

"Let go—" I said.

He was still holding onto it, his eyes just looking at me like that.

"Qin Ziyang, let go—"

He seems to be deaf, he can't hear anything at the moment, and his eyes, as I said, I'm most afraid of Qin Ziyang's eyes, when he looked at me with a focused expression, now even a little more begging makes me feel uncomfortable Bear.I simply turned my head away from looking.

Silent, wandering among each other.

Later, he stepped forward, turned my face, and wanted to touch it with his hand, but put it down again.

"Does it hurt? Let's go to the hospital?"

"You don't need to worry about it. Just live with your pride and self-esteem. My life and death have nothing to do with you."

"Come on," he said, his voice low.

I just shook off his hand and strode out.

And what about Qin Ziyang?
He didn't even chase it out.

I don't know if my heart is hurting or cold, maybe I just lost consciousness at all.

I wandered aimlessly on the street, watching the pedestrians passing by and the vehicles passing by, and then I looked up at the sky, and then I saw pedestrians passing by with their eyes always on my face , Only then did I remember that my head was bleeding.

But why didn't I feel it?

It should hurt...

I stretched out my hand and touched my forehead, the blood on it had begun to coagulate, little by little, and finally only those scary bloodstains remained.

Just at this time, I received a call from home, and my mother said: "How are you doing recently?"

"pretty good."

"The weather has changed recently, don't let yourself catch a cold."

"I know, and so do you and Dad."

"We're fine, we just stay at home all day, your dad is obsessed with growing flowers now, and now he's watering them every day or something."

"Well, it's good to grow flowers, it's good to raise your mood."

"Yeah, that's what I said too. All right, let's not say more, I'm going to buy some eggs, and the eggs at home are gone. You must pay more attention to yourself."

"Well, good. Go ahead, Mom."

After I hung up the phone, I still remember my mother's old but caring voice, she always told me to take care of my body.

Yes, I have to pay attention to my body. There are still people who care about me in this world. I want to live a good life, better than anyone else.

I went to the hospital, asked a doctor to disinfect me, and then took medicine.

When I went back in the evening, I bought some blood-enriching red dates and bought a lot of vegetables.

The room was pitch black when I entered the door, I pressed the switch, and Qin Ziyang's figure appeared on the sofa.

He opened his eyes, as if he was not used to the sudden light, his eyes narrowed slightly, his wrist subconsciously blocked his face, and then slowly put it down, "I'm back."

There was an unconcealable ecstasy in his eyes.Then he stood up, walked towards me, and looked at my face carefully.

"Has the wound been treated?"

"Let go of me." I said coldly.

Now, at this moment, I really don't want to see him, especially his face and eyes.

Qin Ziyang's face darkened a bit, he let me go slowly, took the things in my hands, walked to the kitchen, and started cooking spontaneously.

I washed my hands, went into the house, and closed the door, not wanting to see, not to hear, not to think.

Afraid that when I think about it, I will be afraid, I am afraid that I will be chilled when I hear it, and I am afraid that when I look at it, there will be an abyss in front of me, there are swamps everywhere in front of me, and there are patches of dark clouds.

In that way, will the expectations of life be minimized?
So, don't think, don't look, don't listen.

That's fine.

But how could Qin Ziyang let me go like this.

He came in, wearing the apron I always wear, it was Crayon Shin-chan style, it looked so out of place on his tall and straight body.

"Why, is it ugly?" Qin Ziyang pursed his lips, and asked in a low voice, maybe it was because my eyes stayed on him for too long.

"Take it off." I growled.

There was a hint of obscurity in his eyes, maybe I was wrong.

"You eat first."

"Whether I eat or not has nothing to do with you, just like my wound. Everything about me, Su-Nian-Jin has nothing to do with you." I said harshly.

"What happened in the afternoon was my fault."

He lowered his body, looked up at me, held my hand with both hands, and whispered in a low hoarse voice like magic.

"Don't tell me this." I turned my head away.

He reached into his trouser pocket and took out something for me, it was the check Xiao Luo gave him today.

"I'll accept this check and hand it over to you for future use."

I shook my head and handed him the check.

"You still don't understand."

His eyes dimmed a little, his fingers opened and then tightened.

"How much more time do you need? One month? One year? Ten years? Or a lifetime?" I knelt down and looked at him at the same level. "Tell me, how long will it take you to let go of yourself and find the real one?" Only you can live a good life? Can you tell me?"

"Let's eat first, give me some time."

"But..." Forget it, some things can't be forced, not to mention that accepting this check is already the limit for Qin Ziyang.

I walked out first, opened the stool and sat down, looked at the dishes, and took a bite nearby.

"Don't you like heavy flavors? Why is this dish so bland?"

"Occasionally, a simple meal is fine, too much taste is not good for your health." He explained with some embarrassment.

"What about this soup? It tastes...very weird." I swallowed it forcefully.

He took a sip from the spoon, frowned, and remained silent.

I continued to eat the next one, each one was either bland or salty, or had a special taste, which was really hard to swallow.

I sighed, stood up, and dumped it all in the trash.There was something flickering in Qin Ziyang's eyes, disappointment?Frustrated?or sigh?
"Do you know why I dumped all these dishes?"

"It's unpalatable." He said quietly, his voice was rough.

"Yeah, it's unpalatable. Why do you want to eat unpalatable? Why do you have to give in to your wishes instead of you bringing up your cooking skills for me? The former is for everyone to eat together, but the latter is for eating together comfortably. .”

He put down his chopsticks and entered the room, and I followed in, grabbing his hand and touching my head.

"This scar is because of you. You instinctively pushed me down because of your pride and temper in your bones, you care too much about that, and those things are the most useless, at least for you now .”

"Stop talking about this." He turned around and walked out. Not long after, I heard a loud bang from the door.

He didn't come back the next day.It was one night three days later when I came back again. I was standing in front of the window, terrified day and night. After he came in, I ran over in three steps at a time and gave him a slap when I went up.

"Qin Ziyang, you still know how to come back." I said viciously, and even used up all my strength in this slap, and my whole hand was shaking after the slap.

He froze there from my beating, his eyes were as black as ink. At this moment, I seemed to realize what I had just done, but I didn't regret it.Worry, fear, trepidation these days... all kinds of emotions are intertwined, and it really feels like years.It turns out that waiting for someone is such a pain.

"Where have you been?" I asked.

"I didn't go anywhere." He lowered his head, bent over to change his shoes, and went straight into the house.

"What do you mean not going anywhere, Qin Ziyang, please explain clearly to me."

After that day, we started a cold war, because no matter how I asked, he refused to tell where he went for those three days.

I buy vegetables after get off work every day, but I only cook for one person when I cook, and I never go to his side when I sleep, except of course when I am fast asleep.

I saw him as if I saw air, yes, I just wanted to see him as air.

Qin Ziyang was fine at first, but at night he would inadvertently stretch out his arms or push his legs over, but I mercilessly blocked them back.

Later, when I was eating, he would sit over, watch me eat, and stare straight at me.

I don't talk to him at all.Isn't he Qin Ziyang capable?You can do whatever you want, and you can do whatever you want, without any explanation at all, and you don't take me seriously at all.

How long have these days lasted?

Seems longer than a century.

Yes, hard days always seem to be unnaturally slow.

This cold and embarrassing situation was broken early in the morning.That day I had a severe stomachache and I was rolling on the bed with big drops of sweat dripping from my forehead. My chest was tight and tight, uncomfortable, deathly uncomfortable, but I still stood upright, biting my upper and lower teeth fiercely. put.Qin Ziyang was sleeping next to me. I wanted to ask him to take me to the hospital, but we were in a cold war. It should be him who came to beg me, not me who took the initiative to find him.

I don't know what kind of awkwardness came up, but the tone in my heart actually refused to speak out despite the pain.

In the end, his lip was also bitten, and he scratched the bed sheet under his body with a deep mark.

Qin Ziyang seemed to realize something, and turned his head to look at me.

Because he just woke up, he squinted his eyes slightly, his eyes looked confused, and then gradually became clear.He sat up abruptly.

"What's wrong with you, Nian Jin?"

I still gritted my teeth and refused to speak or look at him.

In the end, he was really anxious, and quickly got off the ground and put on his clothes, "Go, go to the hospital."

He took all my clothes and pants, put them on me compulsively, and carried me downstairs.

Because it was in the morning, in Shanghai, it was the peak time to take a taxi at this time, and I had to stop the car several times before I got the car.Qin Ziyang's brows were tightly frowned. For someone who has always been used to driving his own car, there is always some indescribable feeling in his heart when he comes to snatch a taxi.

After getting into the car, he put me flat in his arms, and then said to the driver in front: "Master, go to the hospital, please drive faster, she is in severe pain."

The old master glanced at me and nodded, "Okay, I'll do it as soon as possible."

"How do you feel now?"

"It hurts, Qin Ziyang, I hurt."

"It will be there sooner. Master, hurry up!"

"This is already the fastest speed. There are a lot of cars at this time, so you have to pray, otherwise the road ahead may be jammed."

Qin Ziyang's entire face turned green after hearing this, and his hands hugged me tightly.

"It's okay, we'll be there in a while."

Sure enough, the car was stuck in a traffic jam when driving to the road ahead, and many cars were stuck in this place, and they couldn't get through for a while.

"No, boy, the car is stuck here."

"Try again and see if you can go through it. She hurts badly."

"Okay, I'll try again." The car started again, walked a few steps, but still stopped.

"I can't get through at all. There are so many cars in front of me, so I can only wait."

"How long will this take?"

"This is not necessarily the case. If the time is short, more than ten minutes, if the time is long, it may be one or two hours."

Qin Ziyang opened the door with a snap, hugged me and walked down.

"Hey, boy, you haven't paid yet."

Qin Ziyang took out the money from his pocket, gave him a fifty-fifty piece without even looking at it, and didn't want the change back, and ran forward with me in his arms.

At that time, I only felt that I was in a chest that was as warm as my mother's embrace when I was a child, and then there was the beating heartbeat, which was very obvious.Later, when I thought about it, I was surprised that Qin Ziyang ran really fast at that time. The speed was like a cheetah running wildly on the prairie. I even made fun of him and said, Qin Ziyang, you are really blind for not becoming an athlete.

When I arrived at the hospital that day, Qin Ziyang's legs were already numb, and I felt that he was struggling even to climb the steps.

When I arrived at the hospital, I was called to the emergency clinic, and the diagnosis was said to be acute appendicitis.

Qin Ziyang seemed to be more anxious than me that whole day, until now I still clearly remember all the worries, anxieties and anger that Qin Ziyang had that day.

(End of this chapter)