There are too many routines for paranoid male gods

Chapter 402 Don't Tell Me, You Did Nothing

He approached her and picked her up from the ground. She was very light, as light as a cloud, holding no weight in his hands, and he seemed to feel nothing in his arms.

He carried her all the way to the sofa, put her on the sofa, and covered her with his clothes.

She was not awakened, and slept peacefully all the time.

Sometimes, he really wants to ask, is it because she has no sense of danger, or subconsciously believes that he will not hurt her?
If it's the former, how can he rest assured of her; if it's the latter, how can he give up on her?

"I'm going back tomorrow, and I will return to the unclear relationship again. Maybe, I will never have the opportunity to spend a night with you like this again. But Xiaxia, am I sick? I thought, if I have such an opportunity, I must do everything possible to get you, so that you can't leave me. But I, I don't even have the courage to hug you..."

"I'm afraid to see your indifferent expression, I'm afraid to see the expression of gnashing your teeth and resenting me..."

"How afraid, I will lose it again, and then I can't find you no matter what."

"Some people say that people become vulnerable because they have something they want to protect. Probably I am the same. Because I have something I want to cherish, so I have something that scares me, so I become Become weak, become timid, become at a loss..."

"Promise me, think about it, okay? Think about what I told you in Shili Hongzhuang."

"Don't always rush to reject me, don't always rush to run away from me..."

"please……"

Mo Nianchen took a deep breath, leaned against the wall behind the sofa, and fell into deep thought...

He didn't realize that at this moment, Li Shengxia was holding onto the corner of her own clothes tightly, her body trembling slightly...

what did she hear?
He said he would be terrified of losing her.

In fact, she was no longer his, but he said that he was afraid of losing her.

She really wanted to cry, she really wanted to open her eyes, she really wanted to say a lot to him, but she didn't know what to say.She couldn't bring herself to open her eyes, couldn't bring herself to talk to him...

She remembered so clearly that at her engagement banquet, he looked at her mockingly, as if looking at a stupid clown, and told her that they were not even divorced.He was still holding the divorce agreement she submitted to the court...

At that time, she hated him so much, not because she hated him for not divorcing her and tying up her life.Instead, she hated him for always hurting her self-esteem with such a superior posture.

In fact, he is really learning.

Learning how to be gentle, learning how to love.

However, if he forgives him easily, then what is the pain I have experienced in the past five years?What was the hysteria, the dark days of five years ago, hovering on the brink of death?
I really want to forgive him...

But, I can't forgive him...

I can't forgive him for letting go of her hand easily after he got it, leaving her behind alone, walking away coldly and without looking back...

Too cruel.

He said he was afraid, so why isn't she afraid...

Why isn't she afraid to do it again, and the result will be the same.

He said he was afraid of losing her.

Why isn't she afraid that if she loves him again, she will lose him again...

Because she was too afraid of losing like that, she didn't even have the courage to get it again.

Even if he walked around, even if he let her accept him again.

But the heart that has been hurt can't say forget it without any grudges.

The long and distant pain awakened in her heart.

She had tried too many times, too many times, so this time, no matter what, she couldn't convince herself to take that step...

Such a feeling at the end of hell, she never had the courage to do it all over again...

'Mo Nianchen, do you really love me? '

"But even so, you will still let go of my hand, or you will leave me one day, and there is still no way to give me trust and companionship..."

'How can I repeat the same mistakes, how can I go back to you...'

'I really love you time and time again, every time I see you, I can't help falling in love with you once.Always easily forget the injuries I have suffered, the stupid things I have done, love you again and again, and bruises all over my body again and again.I've tried so many times...it ends the same every time...'

'It's the same every time...'

'Still, don't try again. '

"I've loved you for so many years, if I love you again, I'm afraid it won't end differently..."

But my heart is so chaotic, so chaotic... It seems that no matter how I tidy it up, I can't calm down my mood at this time...

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The next day, dawn...

Li Shengxia woke up from her sleep and found that she was still sleeping on the sofa without knowing it.Mo Nianchen leaned aside, and was suddenly awakened by a phone ringing...

"Hey?"

"Hey, Chen, did you feel good last night, 'ummm'?"

When Mo Nianchen heard Ouyang's voice, he immediately said coldly: "I have a sore back, a sore back, cramps in my legs, I don't know how good it is!!!"

"So intense!?" Ouyang said with a smile: "I will help you today, you must remember my kindness well, and one day, I will ask you to pay it back."

Mo Nianchen snorted coldly, "Don't worry, I will remember it clearly."

"..." Ouyang felt that his voice was a little weird, and couldn't help sweating, "Don't tell me, you didn't do anything, did you? Chen! I gave you all the opportunities, and you should take good care of them! I'm just like you Such a man, how can he catch up with a woman, no wonder Shengxia has not been caught up by you for so many years!"

"Go on and on."

"Of course I will say it again! You are so angry that you are mad at me. You are wasting the right time, place and people. You are going to kill me."

"You think everyone is as beastly as you!?"

"That's a hundred times better than this bastard who is not as good as a beast! At least the women I catch up with can fill up a sea."

"Yeah, and then drowned them all." Mo Nianchen ignored Ouyang's continuous complaints, and coldly cut off the phone.

Three seconds later, his phone rang again.

"Call me again and be careful, I will kill all the lines in your house."

"..." The other party paused weakly, and then said: "Hi, hello, is this the crown prince!?"

Not Ouyang! ?
"Who are you!?"

"Yes, it's like this... The patient you arranged in our hospital is in very good condition this morning, and he has begun to move on his own. Do you have time to meet him? He seems to miss his relatives..."

A trace of joy suddenly appeared on Mo Nianchen's face, "I'll go there now!"

Mo Nianchen cut off the phone, walked to Li Shengxia, patted her cheek, "Wake up."

"Uh...why did you slap me in the face so early in the morning!" Li Shengxia originally wanted to continue pretending to sleep to avoid the embarrassment of being alone with him, but who knew he would just wake her up like this.

(End of this chapter)