There are too many routines for paranoid male gods

Chapter 401 I came all the way just to see you again.

"What are you doing?" Mo Nianchen looked at her with raised eyebrows.

"Drink." Li Shengxia said.

"You don't know how to drink."

"I can learn."

"Li Shengxia, you can just say that you want to escape. To escape the nights spent alone with me."

Li Shengxia didn't expect what he said to be so direct, and was immediately at a loss for words: "I..."

He said with a cold face: "Am I that scary? Can I eat people? Didn't we spend the night together?"

"..." She stood there in a daze, not knowing how to answer.

"I'm sleepy, I'm going to sleep first, you have to drink alone." After Mo Nianchen finished speaking, he turned his back to her and lay down on the sofa.

Li Shengxia stared blankly at his back, and couldn't help but think of what he said to her in 'Ten Miles of Red Makeup'...

It's not that he's scary, it's that she's afraid... afraid that if she's not careful, she'll do something wrong, something irreversible.Then, I kept regretting all the time...

Mo Nianchen didn't speak any more, nor turned around, as if he was asleep.

Li Shengxia couldn't help thinking of many past events, and slowly fell asleep leaning against the coffee table...

In the middle of the night, Mo Nianchen turned around to look at her, found her sleeping posture, and walked over slowly.Crouching down, looking at her.

'Stupid, is being with me so difficult for you? '

'I admit that I did it on purpose just now... I touched your lips on purpose... I almost got out of control, but I still held back.Because you said you want me to respect you, because you said you want an equal relationship. '

'Because you said it, so I try to restrain myself. '

'You don't know how big a challenge it is for me every time you appear.How hard it is for me to pretend nothing happened to you. '

'I keep learning to play various roles, to please you, or to cool you down.But the result is still unable not to pay attention to you, unable not to care, unable to pretend nothing happened. '

"Seeing you in physical contact with other men, even if you just want to slap Ouyang, I find it unbearable..."

'I must be crazy...'

'Crazy to do this...'

"Even if you want to hit someone, I would rather, you only hit me..."

'What kind of illness is it that makes me look like I am now.I can't remember it anymore. '

'I just remember, too many past events.Too many... I can't let go of your memory. '

'From my eight, to my 19, to my 20, to my 25, to my 30...'

'Never fantasized about other women, never imagined losing you...'

'Always pretend that you are alive, yes, you have always been alive, even if others think you are dead, I still feel that you must be alive. '

'I can't let you die, because if you die, I don't know what's the point of my life...'

'I'm so attached to you...'

'I am so sorry for myself that I can only love you. '

'Do you think I haven't tried hard?Didn't try to leave you? '

'But……'

'How can I do it? '

'22 years. '

'Do you know how long 22 years is? '

'It's 260 for four months. '

'It's a thousand 140 for four weeks. '

'It's eight thousand and thirty **** nights. '

'...'

"It's so long that I can't calculate the hour hand, the minute hand, the second hand..."

'It's like flowing water flowing through my years. '

'It's like the wheels run over my years. '

'Like a drifting heavy rain, wetting my past. '

'I've come all the way just to see you again.When I saw you, I wanted to love you again.I love you and want to have you again...'

'I don't know if everyone who loves someone is so greedy, anyway, I just want you...'

'Because it's up to you, so I try to get close to you. '

'What kind of posture should I use to be able to possess you... You should tell me. '

'I can't please, I can't chase you, I can't pester you, I can't pretend I don't care, I can't treat you coldly, I can't make you angry.No matter how you do it, there will always be a beam of light called 'no no no' emanating from you, keeping me away thousands of miles away. '

'Xia Xia, you are my red makeup, do you know that?You are my first love, my first time, my only wife, the only woman I love deeply, you are all my memories, you are my ten-mile red makeup...'

'However, I can create ten miles of red makeup, and I can leave those memories, but I can't keep you. '

'You always hesitate, always avoid, always say sorry to me. '

'Why are you saying sorry to me?You should know that no man would like his beloved woman to say these three words to him.It means alienation, rejection, I am not in your heart, and the impossibility between me and you...'

Mo Nianchen closed his eyes slightly, he didn't know why he suddenly became so fragile today...

In Shili Hongzhuang just now, he almost lost his composure and confessed that he missed her.

He lowered his posture, but he didn't dare to put himself into the dust.Because she said she wants equal love.

But what exactly is equality, he already, doesn't know.

If he loves her, she will also love him called equality.Or, if he loves her, she can also not love him, which is called equality?

Before, he swore that he could learn what kind of love she wanted and what she called love.

But halfway through learning, I found it difficult.

Imagine being like her, giving up halfway every time you encounter difficulties.

But he knew that he had no chance to back down...

Can't do it halfway...

For her, there was never a pause, no hesitation, no turning, and no thought of turning back halfway.

But ah...

At any rate, give him a little response, even if it's just a little bit, let him know that she wants him to persevere.

If you don't give him a little hope, he is really, really afraid that he won't be able to hold on.How afraid that he would suddenly want to follow her decision, abandon her, and forget her.

In that case, 22 years of life will become a complete blank, meaningless past with no ending.Nobody cares, nobody cares, nobody cares about existence.

Then, it becomes completely non-existent.

Mo Nianchen reached out and gently stroked her red lips...

Her lips were so beautiful that every time he saw them, he couldn't help but want to kiss her.

He didn't know why he became so timid and cowardly, probably because he had lost her twice hysterically, and he would never dare to experience such pain for the third time.

If it was him in the past, he would definitely hug her even if he didn't want to, and kiss her regardless...

Doesn't the older you get, the weaker you become?
(End of this chapter)