Pampering the sea

"What's wrong with you?" Xin Yue stepped forward, leaning against the railing of the boat, crossed his chest and looked at Yan Zhan, who was not in a good mood.

Yan Zhan glanced at her, with an obvious alienation in his expression.

"What's the matter? I have offended you with a pooping face?" Xin Yue pushed Yan Zhan's shoulder with his hands, smiling half-smile.

Yan Zhan glanced at Xin Yue, stretched out his hand, and patted the place Xin Yue touched, his handsome face was expressionless.

"Hey, what do you mean?" Xin Yue frowned.

Yan Zhan didn't speak, his clothes fluttered, he had strode into the room.

Being dumped for no reason made Xin Yue feel uncomfortable.

The two were at a stalemate, and had been fighting for almost half a month without a single word of conversation.

It wasn't until the night before he learned that he was about to step into China's Bohai Port that Xin Yue awkwardly knocked on the door of Yan Zhan's room.

When he opened the door and saw that it was Xin Yue, Yan Zhan's surprised expression flashed across his face, and then gradually disappeared.

"Tell me, what are you dissatisfied with me?" Xin Yue looked at him with indifferent eyes.

Yan Zhan didn't speak.

Xin Yue nodded: "Okay, very good."

Then her eyes became lighter, and she couldn't read any emotion in her words:

"Lend me a boat and some money, I will pay you back later."

Yan Zhan slowly raised his eyes and moved his lips: "What are you doing?"

"Borrow or not?"

Xin Yue repeated it, and Yan Zhan glanced at her, then looked away and didn't speak.

People under the eaves had to bow their heads.Xin Yue admitted.

"I'm going to the Yellow Sea." She said flatly.

Yan Zhan raised his eyes, which were dark.

"No loan."

"Hey, the surname is Yan!" Xin Yue stood up angrily.

Yan Zhan picked up the tea and took a sip with a calm expression.

"Give me a reason not to borrow." Xin Yue frowned and sat down slowly.

Yan Zhan finished his tea slowly, wiped his hands with a handkerchief, and said in a deep voice, "Then give me a reason to borrow it."

"I said go to the Yellow Sea."

"You know I didn't mean to hear this."

Xin Yue took a deep breath, lowered his head resignedly: "I don't want to go to the capital with you."

Yan Zhan's dark eyes quickly gathered a hint of profundity, and then dispersed in an instant, he remained silent, waiting for her to continue.

"Think about it, how can I go with you? We don't have any special relationship, what's more, the emperor in the capital knows me. If he wants to kill me, it will be difficult for you, won't you?"

Yan Zhan raised his eyes and sneered, "You seem to be doing it all for me."

Xin Yue met his eyes, and frowned slightly: "What's wrong with you? Why are you looking at me like this?"

Yan Zhan didn't speak, but picked up a cup of tea and drank it. Unlike before, this time his movements were not as elegant as before, but he had a gesture of borrowing tea to relieve his worries, as if he was very unhappy.

"Yan Zhan, I'm begging you to lend me a boat and some money." She tried her best to smile, trying to ease the stiff atmosphere.

After all, this might be their last night together.She doesn't want to have a dismal ending, if it can be peaceful, try to be as peaceful as possible.

After a long time, Yan Zhan let out a breath, looked at her, and nodded slowly:

"it is good."

There was undisguised joy in Xin Yue's eyes, she smiled and poured Yan Zhan a cup of tea, took out the cup and poured herself a cup, and said:

"Replace wine with tea, dry."

Yan Zhan looked at her, the blackness in his eyes was getting thicker and thicker, and his thin lips were getting tighter.

"Why don't you move?" Xin Yue looked at him who was a bit weird.

But Yan Zhan looked at her expressionlessly, and the teacup in his hand was shattered into pieces, with blood dripping down his slender fingertips little by little.

"Are you so happy knowing that you can get out of here?"

His voice was cold and deep.

"You don't want to go to the capital with me because you are afraid that if you stay with me for a long time, you will stand opposite to Chu Zhiling as a sailor, right?"

With a bang, the teacup in Xin Yue's hand fell to the ground and broke into pieces.

Xin Yue pressed his hands on the table, stood up quickly, and walked towards the door expressionlessly.

But one hand was grabbed violently and pulled back, Xin Yue's body was trapped between Yan Zhan and the wall, she looked at him, frowning.

"Admit it, you just can't forget him, and you can't do anything to hurt him. What you love is not the sea at all, but him. The only person you can't let go of is him..."

Being caught off guard by the sore spot, Xin Yue's lips trembled slightly, her delicate face turned pale, and she even lost the strength to push Yan Zhan away for a moment.

"No..." Xin Yue shook his head violently, "No, it's not like this..."

"Then why don't you try to accept others?" Yan Zhan almost roared. After saying this sentence, the room was suddenly dead silent.

Yan Zhan's eyes were black and bottomless, as if filled with thousands of emotions, he stared deeply at her.

"You're crazy!" Xin Yue's throat tightened, and he stretched out his hand to hit Yan Zhan.

Yan Zhan captured her slender arm easily, clasped her small chin with the other hand, and kissed her without hesitation.

"Pa", a loud slap sounded in the room, Xin Yue's eyes were reddish, he pushed Yan Zhan away with all his strength, and with a bang, he slammed the door and ran out.

The night wind continued, and the moonlight shuttled among the clouds. At this moment, an unstoppable chill spread in the air.

Yan Zhan stood at Xin Yue's door.

He covered his red and swollen right cheek with his hands, his eyes wandered, and his mind was in a state of uncertainty.

He reached out to the door several times, but still didn't knock.

"Let me say a few words." Yan Zhan said.

Candles were burning inside, but no one responded.

"I apologize to you." Yan Zhan cleared his throat uncomfortably.

There was still no response.

After a while, Yan Zhan spoke again: "I drank a little wine today, my speech was muddleheaded, and those actions that exceeded the rules, don't take it to heart, it's all my fault."

There was still silence inside.

"Today..." Yan Zhan rubbed his nose, "Today is the anniversary of the death of my sweetheart, so it's inevitable to be a little excited when I see a woman. Although you have a very manly personality, it can't change the fact that you are a woman. Man, it's always spring." It's a bit of a sign, and there is no special idea, so don't think too much..."

The constant silence inside made Yan Zhan a little unbearable, but after all, he was the one who made the mistake first, so he had to stand there obediently and confess.

"You see, we have lived and died together so many times, and we have such a deep friendship. You don't have to worry about such a trivial matter."

"Think about it, if I have any thoughts about you, I have changed your clothes before, and I have seen your back. If I want to do something to you, it will be the same, so please believe it , I was really drunk just now."

Yan Zhan finally couldn't stand the response inside, he knocked on the door, but found that the door was ajar and not closed tightly.

He frowned and walked in, but the room was empty.

Xin Yue was nowhere to be found, and his hands were tightly clenched.

Outside, the waves lap.