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Chapter 80 Silent Farewell
Gao Zhan didn't tell Cheng Jia what he was hiding until the end, Cheng Jia became more and more uneasy, but what could happen?When people are extremely uneasy, they will find many reasons for themselves: Gao Zhan is in his fifties, and it is normal to have some physical problems; he is tired!
Cheng Jia never left Gao Zhan, and they went to Shi Nizhao again.

In the lecture hall, Gao Zhan and Cheng Jia meditated with their eyes closed.

Cheng Jia's tears kept falling like broken beads: the world is impermanent, people know that the final destination is nothing more than a handful of loess, but they will still be nostalgic, nostalgic for the suffering of this world, nostalgic for the coldness of this world.She doesn't know whether everything around her is real or fake, if it's fake, she doesn't want to wake up, she would rather be intoxicated.If the Buddha can give her an ability, she wants to stop time and stay at any moment when Gao Zhan is by her side.That way, she wouldn't be so afraid of losing.She was so disturbed, Gao Zhan said everything was normal, but she clearly felt that Gao Zhan was saying goodbye and making arrangements.Whenever he looked at her, whenever he touched her, whenever he kissed her, she felt that Gao Zhan's eyes were torn so long that she couldn't bear to leave.

When Gao Zhan was meditating, he rarely had ups and downs in his heart, but this time, he also burst into tears: it is said that the hero is short of breath, and his son and daughter love each other. Even if he is reluctant to part with Cheng Jia, he will not escape the arrangement of fate after all.He has wandered around all his life and met countless people. Whether it is a dragon's pool or a tiger's lair or a remote mountain valley, he has never been afraid. He often boasted that "life is as joyful as death is, but at this moment, all ambitions have turned into soft fingers. All that is entangled is concern for his wife and children.If he can choose, he doesn't want to be born in the same year and the same month as Cheng Jia, but only wants to stay together until the white head.He didn't know what would happen to Cheng Jia after he left?And his pair of sons and daughters: the son who turned a blind eye to him when he was born, and the daughter who was like an angel.

There should be no worries in life. Originally, he was alone, but with Cheng Jia, there was such a heart-piercing pull.

Gao Zhan silently wiped away his tears, opened his eyes, and saw Cheng Jia looking at him with a smile like a flower.

"Husband! Do you want to go boating?"

"it is good!"

Cheng Jia told Gao Zhan that she had no chance to row a boat last time, but this time she will.

She asked Gao Zhan to sit beside her.

"Husband! This boat is effortless to pedal. This lake is too small. I can pedal farther!"

Gao Zhan smiled: "Well, if I have a chance, I will buy you a big boat. We can go wherever you want! I have been busy all these years, and I forgot that I can buy a yacht! To put it bluntly, I still can't change my poverty The nature of the peasant is a miser, and he will not enjoy it!"

"Okay, you promised me! I'll wait for your big boat, I'm going to drive the boat to the legendary Penglai Fairy Island, we'll find the elixir, and then we'll never come back!"

Gao Zhan chuckled: "Don't want a child anymore?"

"Bring them on!"

Cheng Jia took out her mobile phone, put her arms around Gao Zhan's neck, and smiled brightly.

"Husband, look at how good-looking I have taken pictures of myself!"

She continued to pat: "Hubby, kiss me... Hubby, smile more happily..."

They didn't get off the boat until Cheng Jia was exhausted.

"The last time I came here, the tree was not so tall! Time flies too fast!"

Gao Zhan also felt refreshed when he saw Cheng Jia bouncing around like a child.

They went to play sandboarding again, Cheng Jia said that the wind would turn her face black, so Gao Zhan insisted on sitting and pushing her.

Gao Zhan's tall body was a little uncoordinated sitting on the small sand board, Cheng Jia pushed it around and ran around, shouting: "Uncle Gao, go!"

People around were infected by them and laughed too.

Cheng Jia ran out of strength after pushing.

As soon as the legs were weak, the sandboard flipped over accidentally, and the two of them rolled into the sand.

Cheng Jia's head was full of sand, and he yelled loudly:

"Gao Zhan, you idiot, why do you keep shaking while sitting?"

Gao Zhan shook his head, shaking off the sand.

"Cheng Jia, I didn't shake it, don't make false accusations!"

"No, you have to be responsible, it's your fault!"

"How to be responsible?"

"Responsible……"

Cheng Jia thought for a long time, then blurted out: "From now on, you will listen to everything I say, and you will take me with you wherever you go. I can beat you and scold you, but you can't fight back! You are not allowed to lie to me, and you are not allowed to treat me. There is a little bit of concealment!"

Gao Zhan said loudly: "Okay, I promise you, I am responsible, I am responsible for everything!"

Cheng Jia was very happy: "Gao Zhan, if you break your promise, I won't let you go, I will follow you forever!"

Gao Zhan looked at Cheng Jia, and a tear flowed from the corner of his eye: "Okay, if I break my promise, don't let me go, and come to me forever and ever!"

Cheng Jia wiped away the tears on her face: "Gao Zhan, the wind and sand are so strong that it blows into my eyes. Do you think the wind and sand are bigger here or in Outer Mongolia?"

Gao Zhan said: "It's big here, I don't remember what Outer Mongolia was like, I only remember the place where you are, and I only care about traveling there!"

"Then... next time you go, you must take me with you, I'll go see where the wind is strong!"

"it is good!"

……

Gao Zhan was a little tired, so Cheng Jia went with him to the yurt where they lived.

Cheng Jia jumped in.

"Gao Zhan, if I didn't drink too much that day, would you have done that?"

Gao Zhan smiled, remembering Cheng Jia's charming appearance that day.

"I don't know! In my heart, you are so beautiful, I'm afraid you will despise me, I'm afraid you hate me! Maybe I won't dare to..."

"Aren't you afraid of nothing? Why are you afraid of me?"

"Who said I'm not afraid of anything? I'm afraid of you crying, afraid of getting sick, and afraid of you leaving me."

Cheng Jia smiled: "Gao Zhan, what do you love about me?"

Gao Zhan looked at her, his eyes were piercing, and his eyeballs rolled back and forth between Cheng Jia's eyes, wishing to suck Cheng Jia in.

"I love everywhere! Your every frown and smile will touch my heart, every tear of yours will tear my flesh, thinking of you, my heart is soft, you are my rib, my softest place, I want to put you in my pocket, hold you everywhere, take it out to kiss you at any time, but I can’t bear to monopolize you, I want you to smile and have all the beautiful things. I am willing to do everything for you , I want to look at you every day when I open my eyes, touch you every day when I reach out, and smell your smell every day when I breathe in. My happiest moment is seeing you pregnant with my child, you have a sweet face , and my flesh and blood are in your body, every time I see our child, I think, this is my child and Cheng Jia's, our child who is fused together..."

Cheng Jia burst into tears: "Gao Zhan, what should I give you in return for your love? I really hate myself. I should have fallen in love with you when I first met you. Then we will have more company in our best years. I really want time to come here, I don't want to continue.

Gao Zhan, let's die together!In that way, none of us have to say goodbye to anyone, and we don’t have to miss anyone! "

Gao Zhan's heart trembled: "What nonsense are you talking about? Cheng Jia, we must live well, we still have children! Our children are so young, you are talking about death, you are too irresponsible to them! Think about your son, think about it Fish, they are waiting for us to come home!"

Cheng Jia looked at Gao Zhan, "Gao Zhan, I said, if one day you die, I will not care about your children, I will go wherever you go! Wherever you are, home is home!"

Gao Zhan was horrified, "Cheng Jia, don't think like this. Birth, old age, sickness and death are inevitable in life. We have to go through these things in life. You are responsible. Your responsibility is to love me, love our children, love Children love me too!"

Cheng Jia's face was full of tears: "Impossible! I love you, and then the child! If you want your child to be good, you should live well."

She looked at Gao Zhan coldly: "Are you going to die?"

Gao Zhan hugged Cheng Jia, "Cheng Jia, I will not die, I will be with you every day! You are so nice, how can I be willing to die?"

Cheng Jia smiled happily.

"Gao Zhan, I knew you would not die. As I said, I will go wherever you go, and I will not be separated from you! It was you who hugged me from the window sill, and you who coaxed me to sleep every night Yes, you said that I am the flesh of your body, if you die, I will not eat or drink, jump off the window sill, and rot with you!"

Cheng Jia smiled wickedly, with one corner of her mouth curved upwards.

Gao Zhan hugged Cheng Jia in his arms and hugged him hard: "Cheng Jia! What should I do with you?"

At night, the yurt was still brightly lit, and Gao Zhan wrapped Cheng Jia in his arms as before.

"Husband, you dance with me! I still remember the way you danced in the square, did I tell you, you look good when you smile, I like it very much!"

"Cheng Jia, you know I don't smile much! This is the first time I've heard that I smile beautifully!"

"Of course, you only like me, so you only smile at me."

Cheng Jia kissed Gao Zhan on the face, and pulled him to the campfire with a smile. The two of them also waved their arms with the crowd. Gao Zhan couldn't keep up with the pace and looked very clumsy.

Cheng Jia took his big hand, smiled happily, and said "Oh~ah!"

Gao Zhan looked up at Cheng Jia, her eyes were shining brightly, and there was a kind of fortitude in it, her smile was full of decisive beauty, so wanton...

His heart sank.

On the way back to the parking lot, Gao Zhan looked at the stars in the sky and said to Cheng Jia:

"Honey, actually I know it's not the first time I kissed you here that day."

Cheng Jia looked at Gao Zhan, his eyes were very bright against the night sky, shining like stars.

"you remember?"

"I remember! I kissed you drunk, I remember the taste of your lips, I remember everything! I thought you wouldn't come back, but I didn't expect you to come back to take care of me!"

Cheng Jia grinned: "People! They can deceive themselves and others. Let me tell you a secret. At that time, I was not angry. I just thought why men drink like that! My heart was still beating. So I said I was stupid. At that time I should have known that I was tempted by you, otherwise why would I be so worried!"

Gao Zhan squatted down, "Cheng Jia, come up! I haven't carried you on my back for a long time!"

Cheng Jia refused: "You can't use your strength. Besides, you are an uncle in your fifties. Do you think you are a teenager?"

Gao Zhan insisted, "You come up, I like to carry you, when I carry you, I feel that my back is soft! If you don't come up, I will feel uncomfortable. No matter how old I am, I am also your man, even carrying myself Women don’t have the strength either, that’s too incompetent!”

Cheng Jia gently lay on his back, smelling the body odor of his neck, and cried silently.

"Gao Zhan, you are just a dog and can't change your shit! I just realized that you like to carry me on your back to take advantage of me!"

Gao Zhan panted, and said as he walked, "Occupy it! Anyway, you are my wife!"

Cheng Jia jumped down and stood beside him, looking up at the starry sky.

Gao Zhan said: "Look, how small we are, I feel like we don't exist anymore. Compared with the vast universe, we are just a speck of dust, coming quietly, drifting past quietly, leaving quietly, I thought it existed, but in fact there is no trace at all!"

"Yes! I just ate you!"

Cheng Jia ran away, she looked back at Gao Zhan: "Come on, we have to go home, the child must be talking about Dad!"

(End of this chapter)