hurry time, love slowly

Chapter 105 Can't Participate in the Past, Can Understand Each Other's Past
Zheng Xin's 35-year-old life has not been smooth sailing. Zheng Xin is an orphan in a remote area. She was hungry and had stomach problems when she was 6 years old.

Zheng Yaozu and his wife, who have never been born, accidentally met 6-year-old Zheng Xin and adopted her during a charity donation activity in a poor area. They treated Zheng Xin as their own and tried their best to cultivate her.Although the two searched for famous doctors for Zheng Xin, they could only maintain the status quo and could not cure her.

Stomach problems need to be taken care of, but Zheng Xin doesn't care about it. Besides, after being adopted by Zheng Yaozu and his wife, she wanted to repay her in addition to being grateful. After coming to a big city, she not only had to adapt to the new environment, but also had to study hard to catch up with others. With a gap of five or six years, she even went to the point of forgetting to eat and sleep.

Zheng Xin was very upbeat. She was a Fudan University undergraduate with a full scholarship, and later entered a world-renowned university with a work-study program. She didn't want the support of Zheng Yaozu and his wife.

From elementary school to going abroad for further study, as long as it is a holiday, I will return to Zheng Yaozu and his wife. They will take care of everything, and they will be more filial and considerate than their own children.

For Zheng Xin, Zheng Yaozu and his wife are their biological parents, and they will also play tantrums with them;

For Zheng Yaozu and his wife, Zheng Xin is their own daughter, and if they do something wrong, they must be scolded.

After learning about Zheng Xin's life experience, Gu Yan admired her even more. Her tenacity, kindness, independence, optimism and cheerfulness all attracted Gu Yan.

Within a year or two of their marriage, they were also like glue, you were thick and thick, Zheng Xin's appearance made Gu Yan no longer so thin about emotions, he became rich and romantic, and he no longer felt lonely.

When Gu Yanyu's career was on the rise, Zheng Xin switched jobs to another company. Both of them worked overtime frequently, and they didn't see each other often. Even their plan to raise the next generation was not put on the agenda for a long time. .

Zheng Xin even said that she can give up the career she loves to participate in the growth of a life.And Gu Yan always thinks that the two of them are still young, the years are long, and the future will be long, so it's okay to wait for their careers to reach a higher level.

But the sky failed to fulfill people's wishes, and the future that I thought would be long did not come, and only the long regret of the long years remained.

After Zheng Xin's death, Gu Yan was filled with regret. Regardless of the company's repeated attempts to persuade him to stay, he resolutely gave up his high-level job in a foreign company and retired early to take care of his elderly uncle and his wife's parents.

After two years like this, Liu Xin, a former college classmate, started to start a business, visited the thatched cottage three times and asked Gu Yan to come out of the mountain to start a town company.

On the one hand, he was moved by his sincerity, and on the other hand, it was too difficult to pass the leisure time. Coupled with repeated persuasion from his family, he decided to join his company as the vice president of the company.

Gu Yan told Mo Xiaobei about all the past between him and Zheng Xin, expressing his guilt towards Zheng Xin's parents, and how he failed his lover in this relationship.

Zheng Xin didn't see Gu Yan for the last time, just one step away, just one step. The moment Gu Yan pushed the door and walked in, Zheng Xin left this world with the regret of love and infinite gratitude to his parents.

All that was left to Gu Yan was a marriage certificate. She did not give birth to a son and a half for Gu Yan as she wished. What she left to her adoptive parents was a million passbook and a real estate.

Zheng Yaozu and his wife just lost control that day and gave Gu Yan a heavy slap.Every day after that, they followed their daughter Zheng Xin's last wish - to understand and persuade Gu Yan, hoping that he would start his life again and look forward.

The more they were like this, the more Gu Yan felt guilty. The accumulation of years could not reduce his guilt, but it increased with the mottled gray hair of Zheng Yaozu and his wife.

Mo Xiaobei knew that all her comforting words could not comfort Gu Yan at all, and she also understood that there was a corner in Gu Yan's heart that no one could enter.

Mo Xiaobei looked at Gu Yan's profile, except for the guilt towards Zheng Xin on his face, she couldn't tell that he had any love for life.

She thought of all kinds of emergencies that would happen in the company. The boss was always furious, and the employees were trembling. Mo Xiaobei had never even seen Gu Yan speak loudly to the employees.

No matter what happens, Gu Yan will always be in front of the mountain and never change his face. Even if the world is full of chaos, it will be a peaceful and prosperous world for him.

After such a life experience, I am afraid that everything in this world will not be able to enter his heart—yes, everything will not be able to enter his heart.

Mo Xiaobei was even more ashamed of her own sentimental thoughts before, she couldn't help laughing at herself, that smile - lonely, sad, helpless, low self-esteem!How could she, Mo Xiaobei, be worthy of such a Gu Yan? !
When Mo Xiaobei faced his emotions, he felt inferior again!

The first time I felt inferior was in the face of An Ruo's fiery and violent love.

At that time, Mo Xiaobei was influenced by her growing environment. She was extremely unconfident. She thought that everything she had was not worthy of An Ruo, and he felt that she was not worthy of having love and such a good person by her side.

But the beauty of love is too tempting, and she can't avoid this fierce liking, so she doesn't care about the consequences, no longer weighs the pros and cons, and responds to An Ruo's love.

But the lack of self-confidence engraved in her bones will not be concealed so easily. She is not confident. She repeatedly probes and confirms...

Repeatedly use extreme behaviors to verify whether the other party really likes her. Repeatedly confirmed behaviors and temptations will destroy the foundation of trust and relationship between the two.So their love was wiped out by each other.

But this time, Mo Xiaobei's inferiority complex was different.

She hopes to make herself better, and she is more determined. In life, you must work hard to make yourself better, and then meet better people, achieve each other, inspire each other, and grow each other.

When you meet someone you really like, you feel that you are not good enough for the other person. This is a good behavior. In itself, it is a kind of self-motivation and self-encouragement. This is a relatively healthy state and psychology.Mo Xiaobei gradually realized the change in himself.

Seeing that Mo Xiaobei was a little dazed, Gu Yan asked, "What's wrong? Xiaobei?"

Mo Xiaobei came back to his senses and said: "Um, it's nothing, I just feel like I reminded you of some unhappy things, I feel sorry."

She paused and continued: "Is it too early to retire so early? Besides, I feel that you don't seem to have expectations for things. I don't think your life should be like this."

Gu Yan smiled and said, "How could it be? I believe, and I hope you believe, that although a person is born lonely, the years are long, but it is still worth waiting for."

When Mo Xiaobei met Gu Yan's eyes, her heart was full of sadness...

Similarly, when Gu Yan looked into Mo Xiaobei's eyes, besides resentment, there was also blessing in his heart...

Once again, they were tacit!
Maybe for them: for this one person, they will always have a place for each other in their hearts. It may not be love or marriage, but each other is happy in their hearts. Seeing each other happy makes him very happy .

Perhaps, Gu Yan's love for Mo Xiaobei is not as ignorant and deep as he thought.

He saw the shadow of Zheng Xin in Mo Xiaobei, regardless of background, character, or facing difficulties in life...

"Thank you, Gu Yan." Mo Xiaobei continued, "Thank you for trusting me and telling me about the past that you may not want to mention."

Mo Xiaobei always wants to comfort Gu Yan, but she thinks that comfort without any factual evidence is mostly irrelevant and cannot help the other party.

If you want to walk into the other party, you have to let yourself become the other party, or be similar!
Even though she knew that nine times out of ten she was hesitant to speak, and she was lucky when she thought about it in the future. Most of the people who opened their hearts would regret it afterwards.

But Mo Xiaobei still exposed his scars, and told Gu Yan everything about him since he was 6 years old, every detail...

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(End of this chapter)