Abyss of ignorance

Chapter 314 Angry

"Zhu Sheng, I want to eat the lotus cake from the City God's Temple. Go buy some for me and take it to the United States." Shen Pan said to Zhu Sheng behind him.

Zhusheng was already a middle-aged man in his 40s at this time, but in front of Shen Pan, he still acted like an obedient child.This child of Lu Sixian and Shen Pan possesses Lu Sixian's innocence and Shen Pan's youthful simplicity, but has no wisdom at all.A kind, obedient but weak and incompetent son, this was the child Shen Panyongming gave birth to in the bamboo forest. It seemed that the Lu family was destined not to be able to rely on her.

Hearing that his mother wanted to eat lotus cake, Zhusheng responded and left without even asking his father Lu Sixian what he thought.Zhusheng is a simple and direct person. He seems to have never thought of expressing some filial piety to this father who fell from the sky against his will. He has no feelings for this father, yes, no feelings. He neither likes nor hates him.

Shen Pan has never said a word about the past with her son. She has seen Zhu Sheng's innocence and ordinaryness. Those dark past events, if not for Lu Sixian's appearance, she would have planned to die in her belly and take them into the coffin.

At this time, in Dongshi, above the disappeared Xiaoyao River, only Shen Pan and Lu Sixian were left.

Shen Pan stood behind Lu Sixian, looking at the twilight. This already had an old figure, and that handsome young man was just an old man with a stout figure. After those confusing appearances faded away, All that remains is a dull soul and foolish selfishness.

"I've always wanted to ask you something." Shen Pan asked Lu Sixian.

"Huh?" Lu Sixian looked back at her, with impatience in his eyes. He was afraid that Shen Pan would discuss feelings with him.

In the past few years that they had known each other, he and Shen Pan had not been happy together. They did not quarrel, nor were they intimate.The well-matched wife had long since passed away, and Lu Sixian continued to live a life of debauchery outside, seducing beautiful young girls by bragging about his family affairs.Shen Pan only focused on fighting for the family property and never asked about his private life, nor was he angry.

The more peaceful they were, the more Lu Sixian was afraid of losing his current freedom.He knew that he owed Shen Pan, but he was lucky and hoped that Shen Pan would ignore his past grudges.Because he had "luckily" escaped too many disasters in his life.Shen Pan, to him, was just a love debt that was not worth mentioning.

Shen Pan saw Lu Sixian's impatience. She didn't care at all. After being completely disappointed with someone, she wouldn't worry about so many things.

At that time, there were only a few taxis in Linzhou. Shen Pan knew that Zhusheng was frugal, so a trip to the Chenghuang Temple would take more than an hour on foot.

This time is enough.

"Where were you that day?" Shen Pan continued to ask. She knew that Lu Sixian understood what day she was talking about.

"Pan'er, that's in the past, don't mention it again." Sure enough, Lu Sixian was anxious. He frowned and complained in his words, as if Shen Pan asked the wrong question, and the mistake was to destroy him. Good mood today.

"That day, I was in this place..." Shen Pan took a few steps forward. This place was completely different from what it was back then, but it did not prevent her from finding the place where she lay down.Closing her eyes, she could still see the rain on the rainy night. The black rainwater on the corners of the eaves gathered in a stream between the corrugations and poured down, but it could not extinguish the tongue of fire licking the window lattice.Lu Yaowu's mount, the brown war horse, seemed to be able to trample her to death with just one hoof lift.

"Okay, I know why you did this. Isn't it just money? My money will be distributed to you." Lu Sixian interrupted her in a dismissive tone.Shen Pan looked at him coldly. If he didn't always understand these things so superficially, he wouldn't be Lu Sixian.

She looked at him for a while and suddenly smiled to herself. Indeed, what was the point of being so persistent in wanting to know where Lu Sixian went that night?His angry look said it all.

"I was worried for you at that time, thinking about how cruelly your father treated me and these innocent people by the Xiaoyao River. I didn't know what would happen to you. It seems that I was overly worried. You are one, Lu People in the family can never make mistakes. Those who are wrong are people like me who don’t regret dying." It was already dark. In Linzhou in 93, there were no tall buildings and the lights were dim. Shen Pan’s face could not be seen clearly. The words were full of cold flavor in the night wind.

"I have begged for you, but he is so angry that there is nothing he can do!" Lu Sixian said, but Shen Pan did not expect that he could say such painless words.

"Plead for me?" Shen Pan repeated incredulously, without any further retort. This man who had been having sex with her, it turned out that they had never understood each other.During the decades of suffering and hatred, she comforted herself by thinking that the man who abandoned her would feel guilty and blame herself on the other side of the ocean. It turned out that it was her fault all along.Lu Sixian didn't, not because he didn't want to, but because he didn't view these things that way at all.Lu Sixian and his father Lu Yaowu had the same idea. It was Shen Pan's fault for having an affair with him, not him.

"Huh, indeed, it's all my fault." Shen Pan sneered.

This sneer made Lu Sixian feel inexplicably frightened, and he said in the coaxing tone he used to coax her: "Pan'er, it's getting cold. Let's go back. Let the past be bygones. We should look forward. Look, From today on, all the money belongs to us, and no one will care about us anymore. From now on, we can live however we want!" As he said that, he had already walked to Shen Pan's side and reached out to take her in. In arms.

Shen Pan avoided.

"What's wrong?" Lu Sixian suppressed his displeasure and asked.

"You make me feel sick like this." Shen Pan said word for word.

"Shen Pan, what do you want?" Lu Sixian finally lost his patience and asked.

The night wind blew through the grass and made a rustling sound. There was no smell of blood or roasted human flesh in the wind. There were only human fireworks not far away and the fragrance of someone's food.

Year after year, the world forgets things faster than she does.

"I want you to do something for me." Her tone changed. That condescending tone would not come from the mouth of Shen Pan, whom Lu Sixian knew. "The lonely ghost buried under the ground , often ask me for an explanation in their dreams, and I tell them that I can’t explain this matter clearly, only people from the Lu family can.”

"Shen Pan, you're crazy!" Lu Sixian rushed towards her in two or three steps. Whether it was a fist or a slap, Shen Pan couldn't see clearly in the darkness. She didn't dodge at all, because she knew that Lu Sixian couldn't reach her.

(End of this chapter)