Tokyo Wingman King

Chapter 70. 68. Lonely Qualification and Youthful Approach

They looked at each other silently.

Under the scattered light of the silver-gray sky, Hana saw Ayano showing a shy expression, perhaps because the scrutiny of the "big teacher" was too severe, she felt a sense of oppression locked by a cold-blooded animal.

He looked at her like a cold abyss approaching him.

Four eyes facing each other.

[Great Teacher] The huge and terrifying soul frightens her before the abyss.

When her back got cold, she wanted to say "excuse me".

However, perhaps this is her only chance in this life to lead to a great and lonely destiny.

If she misses this time, she will never have the courage to visit this place again.

【The Great Teacher】has no intention of answering his request, nor is he willing to question himself, and he doesn't even have the intention to ask himself to say more.

He didn't push himself out, however, and seemed patient.

In other words, it is not patience, but just like a 20-meter-high Buddha, looking at the believers who have rushed to visit indifferently.

Yes, it's not the sharp gaze like a knife, but the oppressive feeling of looking up at the giant peak from a close distance.

Those eyes were like mountains and rocks.

Continue to look at each other in silence.

She seemed to understand that this was the first test for her by [Great Teacher],

Feeling the aura contained in the indifferent eyes as if looking at the air, she put away a little bit of disappointment after seeing the deity of [Great Teacher] at first.Yes, the shadow of a famous tree has no real ability, so how could it become a campus legend?

Therefore, in the eye-to-eye confrontation, there cannot be a slight retreat.

[Great Teacher] It should be through this exchange of eyes that she should tell her that cowardly loneliness is the way to death, and lonely people must be brave.

Hanami remembered a sentence by Flaubert:

In a person's life, the most glorious day is not the time when success or fame is achieved, but the day when a challenge to life emerges from lamentation and despair, and the day when courageously moves towards will.

As expected of [Great Teacher]!
Asama felt that the girl in front of her was very unusual.

After staring at each other for 5 minutes, the girl only blinked three times.

This stare at each other is naturally not as long as the 736 hours and 30 minutes of Abramovich's performance art work "The Artist Is Live".

But for two high school students who have never met before, this kind of staring time is already unconventional.

He always felt that the girl who had been staring at him hadn't finished speaking, so he kept waiting for her to speak.

Then he found that she seemed to be planning something, and her eyes were wandering, so she continued to wait.

Goodman, a professor of psychology, once pointed out: "The role of silence in conversation is equivalent to the role of zero in mathematics. Although it is "zero", it is very important, and sometimes it can magnify the effectiveness by dozens of times. Without silence, everything No communication can take place."

At present, the embarrassing effect has been magnified dozens of times in just 5 minutes.

Asama felt that if he broke the silence, he would lose.

But this kind of desire to win is quite naive. If you lose, you lose.

"Pursue solitude?"

Seeing [Big Teacher] close his eyes, he pointed at the center of his eyebrows with his index finger and massaged gently.

The sense of oppression dissipated, and the test was over.

Hana breathed a sigh of relief when she saw Ayano, this was much more stressful than the entrance exam put on herself!
"Yes, Master! I, Hana Mi Ayano, want to find a way to embark on the great lonely road!"

Komaba, I just said goodbye to the artistic madman Ten God, and you brought me a new surprise!

Think of my love counseling department as a house of everything, right?

Can you learn from others Oshima?
but,

Heh heh heh heh heh heh——

It's no problem for Shizumi Asama to do this commission!

Or rather, as it should be.

In the entire Yinghe, perhaps no one knows loneliness better than Asama.

He didn't have any friends before high school and was regarded as a different kind. Instead, he was relieved and could spend his weekends freely.

The superficial but rich adult cognition can't find resonance. Instead, he has a sense of superiority and breaks away from childish play early.

Enjoy solitude and become the habit of Asama Shizumi early on to protect your mediocre soul from intrusion.

Chasing loneliness is the inevitable way for Asama Shisui to obtain a higher quality lonely experience.

[The Lonely Collector] is not in vain.

Among the writers related to loneliness in the world, Asama has dabbled in junior high school.

Andersen, Thoreau, Kafka, Hemingway, Osamu Dazai, Fitzgerald, Hesse, Maugham, Camus, Marquez, Calvino.
Without a cynical or independent mental state, it is impossible to write those lonely and thorough characters in their works.

And frequently substituting himself into the lives of those who are lonely and thorough, Shizumi Asama also acquires the mental illness of intermittent cynicism or independence from the world.

I'm afraid this is also the due price to pay for embarking on the lonely road.

Asama looked at Hanami who was carefully sitting opposite, maybe the weak character's character made her yearn for the lonely and strong character.

"Take loneliness as an experience, most people can do it, take loneliness as a habit, few people can do it, take loneliness as a way, few people can do it, do you know why?"

"why?"

If it was Futami or Jianjima, at least he would answer it.

"The mystery of loneliness is not achieved overnight. The path of loneliness requires qualifications."

When saying this, Asama forcefully squeezed out the crystal ball and Dou Zhili three sections from his head.

"Qualification?"

"Hanai, classmate, how many students are you taking in this monthly grade test?"

"404"

Asama used her mobile phone to check the first two monthly tests of Hana Jian, and they both hovered around 400.Most of Yinghe's top 400 can go to a decent university.But the bottom 100 is no different than the idiots of other colleges.

"Do you like reading? When was the first time you finished reading a book independently?"

"Is it 4 years old or 6 years old? I can't remember clearly."

"Do you like sports?"

"I don't like it very much."

"Have you experienced anxiety to insomnia before going to bed?"

"Had."

After asking more than a dozen questions, Asama preliminarily judged that she had a tendency to be slightly autistic, so she found a document on her mobile phone and printed a paper on the printer in the relationship counseling department.

"You take this test first, there are 40 questions in total, can you finish it in 20 minutes?"

"Well, I'll try."

Asama ignored it, took out a book, and read it slowly while drinking tea.

From time to time, the girl raised her head to look at [Big Teacher], and she actually finished the test within 15 minutes.

According to the test, girls like to stay up late, like to procrastinate, like to ask questions in their hearts, are not good at communication, have empathy, have rich imagination, and are prone to anxiety and depression.

A typical question in the test paper.

[Meeting the supervisor at work in the empty aisle, you will——

A. Warm greeting
B. A plain hello
C. Pretend not to see it, and return the gift if the teacher greets you
D. Pretending to look at the phone seriously, passing by
E. Glaring at the teacher and telling him to go away

F. Turn around and turn the facing motion into a chasing motion.

G. Hide and wait for him to walk by]

The girl chose G.

Yes, the Finnish personality is equivalent to having one foot on the road of loneliness.

Another question in the test paper.

Which of the following sentences do you find most resonant-

A. There is nothing in the distance except the distance.

B. In this vast world, you have no one to turn to but yourself.

C. The sorrows and joys of human beings are not connected, I just think they are noisy.

D. There is a fire in everyone's heart, and those who pass by see only smoke.

E. The brilliance once possessed in life must be repaid by loneliness after all.

F. I broke up with my 101st friend in my heart. He is too wordy, and he is still comfortable alone.

The girl chose B.

An independent tendency that is not cynical is also an excellent trait for the lonely masters to maintain their sanity.

According to the score on the test sheet, Hanami's IQ is below 120 and above 115, barely able to enter the ranks of lonely people.

Asama looked at the test paper, asked a few questions repeatedly, and got the same answer, so it didn't look like she was fooled.

Asama nodded, and at the same time heard Hana Mi Ayano greatly relieved.

Great, [Great Teacher] passed the second test!

Asama looked up at the girl.

This student at the same level has a beautiful appearance, a hot figure, and a humble temperament.

It seems that as long as she is willing, student life will not be lonely.

Now that her qualifications are clear, it's time to understand why she wants to embark on this path.

"There are many emotions that eliminate loneliness in life, such as family, friendship, career, love, faith, etc. No one can implement loneliness unless she is a god. Can you tell me the reason why you want to learn the way of loneliness?"

".Do I have to give a reason?"

"Better let me know."

Hanami hesitated for a moment, stretched out her hand, and took off a wristband, showing the tattoo on her right wrist.

"Teacher, guess what the three birds in my hand mean?"

Asama shook his head.

"I don't know, but I know that this is a group, not alone."

Hanami raised her head and looked out the window, saying:

"When I was in junior high school, I was sitting in the last row of the classroom, next to the balcony, and one day when I was in English class, a bird flew in.

It stood by the window sill, didn't bark, it was very close to me, I could touch it, but I didn't touch it, just watched it quietly, it stayed beside me until the end of get out of class, when the bell rang, It just flew away.

But it didn't fly very far, I can still see it, hovering in the sky not far away.Then, two birds joined it, and they flew away.

And then, they flew onto my hand and became this tattoo.

At first, I didn't understand what kind of bird would circle around a place all the time, like drawing a circle.Until one day I saw on Twitter that the flock of birds had been circling in the same place.It's to gather companions.

Lone birds can fly in and join when they see the huge flock circling in the sky.

At that time, I kept thinking, why do birds with such a small brain have a way to summon their companions, but people become more and more lonely among themselves? "

Asama looks at this paradoxical girl, a girl who seeks a way out of solitude, but wants to call her companions?

Hanami went on to say:
"There is a boy in the back, he told me - have you ever thought about every expression we export to the world, every sentence we say in school, every comment, sentiment, expression, and photo we leave on social networks , are they just circling around looking for companions again and again?"

The girl closed her eyes with a painful expression,

Asama poured out the cold tea in front of her, refilled a cup of hot tea, and said calmly.

"Then you strengthened [Circling] and obtained false companions."

Banai saw Zhan Yan forced a smile,
"Yes, very disappointed."

"You are hovering in the wrong place. Looking for fish on trees, pigs on clouds, moon in the sea, video game cafes in the library, and autism in bars are just a waste of time."

"Yes, he said the same thing, and encouraged me to continue [circling]."

"It runs counter to your quest for solitude. Do you still have contact with that boy?"

"No, he's dead."

"."

After a long time, Asama broke the silence,

"Have you lost the courage to find another him?"

Hanami doesn't seem to have much sadness,
"No, I have lost the qualification to find companions, but I still can't stand loneliness"

"In other words, you don't like to be alone, but to avoid [circling]?"

The girl pondered for a moment, then nodded.

Looking at the girl who was a mixture of timidity and bravery in front of her, Asama unconsciously tapped her fingers on the table.

"Hanai sees classmate, I will give you two choices:

Or, get support from me, take courage to find your companions again,

Or, let yourself become a strong person in a certain field that others cannot understand, because the strong person is inherently lonely.

You don't have to answer me right away, next week, you should think about it.Come back if you have nothing else to do. "

Banai told Zui to leave, and before leaving, Asama asked her to take back the 4 Da Yukichi and gave her a snack.

Although your own life is your own choice.

But if she still chooses the lonely road, Asama will feel sorry for the boy whose name and cause of death are unknown.

Two birds can already dance together, why do you have to find a third one?

Asama was holding an umbrella, Fushikawa, Konoe, Miwa, Takishima, Emiya, Jugami, Kuroda, Hanami, today's exchange of information made my brain ache slightly.

It is impossible to suffer from high blood pressure at a young age, right?

Talked to Komaba about Jugami and Hana.

On the other end of the phone, Komaba smiled narrowly and said, "It's okay for the big teacher to be her [that boy], and you'll be able to solve the problem directly."

"Why does your bad breath travel along the data network?"

"Yinghe's harem king seems to have been plotted by me?"

"The ones on Takishima's computer are pretty, aren't they really pretty?"

".beep beep."

It's the first time I've seen Komaba like this, does one thing drop one thing?

Unknowingly, I walked to Lao Qin's Chinese restaurant, and briefly said hello to a few busy people.

Erjian was wearing a Chinese cheongsam, with a slim figure like bluegrass after the rain, which made Asama recover a little bit of vitality for a while.

The girl got off work at 8 o'clock. Asama wanted to say hello and go home, but Futami asked her to wait for her to get off work.

Inadvertently, the two looked at each other, the slightly drowsy eyes met the eyes hiding the stars, like butter met a fire knife.

Even if it is only 5 seconds, its power is much greater than staring at Hana for 5 minutes.

Some people say that looking at each other is the kiss of human spirit, its warmth cannot be felt in the air, but it will set fire in people's hearts.

Asama's lonely road, once again suffered from the torment of youth.

　I just woke up now, moving bricks and moving bricks.

　　Thanks to the bosses of 【Xingyuzhiyue】【Autumn Cimoxiang】【Xiaoxu Story】for their rewards
　　
　
(End of this chapter)