Me and the Doll Girl of Zhidiao Island

Chapter 45 43. Only you can't be absent
"You always you always think of yourself!"

So far, in the silent world as deep as the deep sea, countless words suddenly emerged gradually, filling Jiang Yuanshen's mind,

"Do you think I'm easy? I've been in clubs in Tokyo, and I'm sick of thinking I'm trying harder to be normal, and now I'm back on this island, and you're saying it's because I."

Talking too much in one breath made Jiang Yuanshen feel dizzy, and he felt like a foreigner even though he was in his hometown.

The heavy rain has stopped, the night air is freezing cold, and the Najiu Mountains without any lights look like an ancient creature that has been extinct for a long time.

"Yao Xing, you have never thought about me at all."

Jiang Yuanshen heard intense choking, it was his own voice.

As if the ice inside his body melted, he kept crying, even though he knew that crying boys would be looked down upon by others, he still couldn't control his tears.

Then, the siren of the railway suddenly sounded in the distance, and the only electric train on the island was coming from the foot of the mountain in the distance with warm orange lights.

Suddenly, the white sandals stepped on the water puddle, making a nice crisp sound, but it was immediately drowned out by the distant railway siren.

The slender body in a thin shirt, accompanied by scattered water droplets, rushed up and hugged Jiang Yuanshen.

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Jiang Yuanshen's hands trembled in the air for a moment, and finally hugged Chaokong Yaoxing's soft and warm body tightly.

Unspeakable emotions spread in his heart, Chaokong Yaoxing sobbed and said:

"Xiao Shen, I. I'm sorry."

Jiang Yuanshen frowned hard, he didn't want to continue crying in front of girls, especially in front of Chaokong Yaoxing.

Chaokong Yaoxing's whole body was trembling violently, his little face was buried in his shoulder, crying like a torrential rain like a child.

"Actually, I hope you can be happy more than anyone else, but, but."

In Lihua's weeping with rain, her throat barely mixed with words, her little nose was crying pink,
"When I think of your happiness without me, I feel so sad."

The sound of shaking apricots in the sky made Jiang Yuanshen suffocate.

The hands holding her body wanted to be tighter, but they were afraid of making her uncomfortable.

"Every day after you leave, I think you're happier than me." Zhao Kong shook Xing as if he was spitting out the air in his chest, his eyes stained his clothes, "I don't want to be hated by you——!"

The depths of Jiang Yuanshen's throat seemed to be separated by a transparent water film. He tried to speak with a calm voice, but found that the words he spit out were trembling like weeds blown by the wind.

"There will be, there will be happiness, whether it is my happiness, or Takimitsu, Shimizu, Chunya, they will definitely have you"

There was a slight tremor in Chao Kong's shaking fingers, and the moist breath leaned on his chest.

"Xiao Shen, do you still have a place for me in your heart?"

Jiang Yuanshen gently held her small head, closed his eyes and said, "Stop talking stupid things."

"You're scolding me again"

"It's all because you're always saying stupid things."

After the heavy rain, Zhiniao Island was unexpectedly quiet after the sound of the railway siren ended.

Chaokong Yaoxing in his arms left his chest, raised his red and swollen eyes from crying.

"From now on, I will cheer myself up, but I don't have the confidence to do it, but I have to do it, Xiaoshen and I are both, right?"

Because of the hug, the clothes of the two were stained with brown and yellow soil.

Listening to her words, Jiang Yuanshen's heart was relieved because he felt that he had exaggerated.

"Didn't I come to comfort you?" Jiang Yuanshen said, looking into her clear and bright eyes.

However, Chao Kong's shaking apricot eyes overflowed with embarrassing love, like waves covered in white flowers, crashing into the Strait of Gibraltar.

"I know Jiang Yuan that you will definitely become an outstanding and gentle boy. No matter where you will go in the future, I will continue to like you."

She stared at Jiang Yuanshen affectionately, with tears still on her eyelashes.

After that, things seemed to be casted by magic, Kazaru Yoko stood on tiptoe, and her cherry-colored lips moved closer.

The soft touch is like snowflakes blooming on kissed lips.

The lights of the town and port were brightened up boastfully.

The two who hug and kiss are wind, rain, heartbeat, irreplaceable.

A few seconds later, Chaokong Yaoxing, standing on tiptoe, seemed unable to hold on, and voluntarily left Jiang Yuanshen's lips.

Her little face was extremely rosy, but she just kept her head down, staring at the dirt on the clothes of the two of them.

Jiang Yuanshen only realized now that the two were kissing just now, and their hearts were messed up by her sweet fragrance.

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The cold wind rushed in while the two were in a daze, and Jiang Yuanshen and she curled up almost at the same time.

"Shake My Almond"

"I wanted to give it to you on my own initiative, so you don't need to respond to me." Zhaokong Yaoxing suddenly interrupted him, and said in a sweet choked voice, "Today was originally the worst day, but now it has become my first kiss day."

Jiang Yuanshen deeply inhaled the air from the ruins into his lungs, looking at her cherry red face.

"By the way, Shake Xing, where are the things?"

"What?" She raised her head, her eyes looked like knitted dolls.

Jiang Yuanshen's face suddenly became serious, not as shy as before when they kissed.

"You came here to kill yourself, didn't you?"

"." Chao Kong shook his eyebrows and twitched, his eyes wandering, "No."

"Take it out." Jiang Yuanshen ignored her words and stretched out his hand.

Chaokong Yaoxing's heart beat faster than when kissing, why would he know this.

".Really do not have."

Her words were extremely sluggish.

"Give it to me." Jiang Yuanshen's tone became more serious.

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Chaokong Yaoxing pursed his lips, lowered his head like a child who did something wrong, and took out a small bottle from his trouser pocket.

Before she handed it over, Jiang Yuanshen snatched it immediately.

"Succinylcholine?" His face changed, "Why do you have this thing?"

Chaokong Yaoxing gritted his teeth tightly, and his words were mixed with pale sighs.

"I found it in my mother's drawer when I was cleaning out her belongings."

Jiang Yuanshen seemed to be frozen, and it took a long time before he said:

"Yao Xing, death is not a dramatic thing, it just disappears, you can't talk face to face, even if you cry, you can't help it, it just disappears from this world forever, that's what it is, do you understand?"

Chaokong Yaoxing pursed his lips and said, "I'm sorry."

Seeing the girl in front of him bowing his head and admitting his mistake, Jiang Yuanshen couldn't hold back his heart softened, and stretched out his hand to stroke her head.

"Dress like a kid."

"This is the cheapest second-hand clothes ever..."

The identity between souls lies in the tiny details that can only be understood and unspeakable.

"Found it! Found it! Here it is!"

Suddenly, a shout came, and a dazzling light shone on the two of them.

Jiang Yuan looked aside carefully, and at some point, several policemen were rushing towards the ruins.

The ruins are filled with the desolation of the dark past, but above the desolation is the light of the people left in the world.

Before he left, he took a deep breath of the air of the ruins as a reminder.

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