After retiring from the circle, I became famous by live broadcast farming

And this intelligence is not necessarily certain, it needs to be observed the day after tomorrow.

He didn't even know whether it was something to be thankful for under such circumstances that Xiaopingan didn't have any mental retardation.

Maybe if you have mental retardation, you won't think so much, which is fine, at least you won't have so many worries.

If Xiaopingan had normal intelligence, how would he feel when faced with his own physical condition and his disabled and intellectually disabled parents?

How should he face the eyes of the outside world?

Thinking about it, he felt sad for Xiaopingan.

Mostly out of sympathy, and knowing that Chunhua and Ah Sha couldn't afford the money, the doctor still helped Xiao Ping An purchase the treatment medicines he needed at his own expense for the sake of his life. As for asking him to pay for Xiao Ping An's surgery, , but he had no choice.

His family is not wealthy, he has his own family to take care of, and he has his own life pressure to bear.

He could only help so much.

Therefore, in fact, Xiaopingan's illness has not been treated or alleviated very much.

Little Ping An, who grew up in a stumbling world, matured earlier than any other child.

He learned that his parents were disabled people with intellectual disabilities, and he also learned that he was also a disabled person who had lost the soles of his feet and suffered from epilepsy.

When he was three years old, he finally made a friend, but because he had epileptic seizures, convulsions, and foaming at the mouth, he frightened his friend, so he had no friends anymore.

Since childhood, Xiaopingan has grown up in the strange eyes of others.

His father only made money by picking up scraps. At the age of five, he followed behind his father and made money by picking up scraps.

"The fool is coming, the big fool is coming with the little fool."

"He's so weird. He doesn't have any legs. He looks like a monster."

"Ah, let's leave quickly. If you don't leave, you idiot will hit someone."

"We don't want to play with little fools. My grandma said that anyone who plays with little fools will also become a fool."

"..."

These voices were childish, and the children screamed and ran away, but these words were engraved in Xiao Ping'an's mind word by word.

Later, when he was seven years old, he was old enough to study.

When he was still doing charity work in the community, he discovered that he had not yet gone to school when he reached the age, so he contacted someone to arrange for him to go to school.

Everything in the book opened Xiaoping's eyes. Gradually, he understood that perhaps studying was his only way out, so he studied hard and tried to get the best grades.

Even though that strange look still accompanied him as he grew up, even though he had never had friends, even when he was questioned when he got No. 1 in the first exam, those people said: A fool is born as a little fool. How could the little fool get No. 1 in the exam? Maybe he cheated.

Later, Ping An proved itself with its achievements again and again.

And his character is withdrawn and taciturn. Many times, he is always alone, like a misfit and an outsider.

He went to elementary school, middle school, high school, and university with excellent grades, and even his later tuition fees were earned through part-time work.

Every day, he spends his time either studying, working part-time to make money, or...taking care of his parents.
When he was in college, Ping An met a girl he liked. The girl even confessed to him that she didn't mind his disability.

But he didn't dare to accept it.

To be honest, when he heard the girl he liked confessing to him and saying that she liked him, he was ecstatic.

But after being happy, I was filled with endless fear, uneasiness and low self-esteem.

So, he refused.

Because he is afraid.

He is afraid that the girl he likes will know that his parents are mentally retarded and disabled. He has already lived a very hard life. He has even thought about dying many times since he was a child. His future is gloomy and doomed. He has to carry such a pair of parents on his back, so he can't drag the girl he likes into his misery.

Ping An knows that since his parents gave birth to him, it will be his responsibility to take care of his parents when he grows up.

Yes, with an IQ of only 8 or 9 years old, they don’t know how to take care of themselves. Many times they don’t even know when they are sick or how to deal with injuries.You can only rely on the only person with normal intelligence to be safe.

After rejecting the girl he liked, Ping An never contacted any girl again throughout college.

He has decided that he will make money, not get married, not fall in love, and just be tied to his parents for the rest of his life.

Later, Ping An graduated and started interviewing for jobs.

He knows that if he works, he will have money.

Just being interviewed again and again and not being admitted again and again completely destroyed his self-confidence.

Just when he doubted himself, he heard those words.

"If you can recruit a healthy person, who will hire a disabled person? These days, there are many people looking for jobs, but jobs are hard to find."

"I heard that his parents are idiots. He also has epilepsy. This is a crazy disease. It is very scary when it occurs. What if he goes crazy one day and hurts us."

"Idiots shouldn't just live on the overpass and pick up scraps, instead of studying and looking for a job."

"..."

At that time, Ping An realized that it was not that he was not good enough, but because of his disability and illness, and because of his parents' disability.

He knew it was discrimination.

this is not right.

But he didn't have the courage to step forward and argue.

He admitted that for so many years, he had grown up with all the strange looks and treatment, and he admitted that when he heard these words, his faith and confidence collapsed.

In an instant, his world was shattered.

At that moment, he knew clearly that the world was unfriendly to people like them.

He knew that maybe he was right, and maybe his parents were right too.

But he felt that his birth was a mistake.

Especially after returning home, he saw the commotion at home, heard his father arguing and fighting with others, saw others coming to the door asking for medical bills, faced his overwhelmed mother, and his frightened father, and he collapsed. Deepen again.

The medical expenses were compensated and the person was sent away.

Facing his bewildered parents and looking at their cautious eyes, at that moment, Ping An was really hysterical uncontrollably.

For the first time, he vented his inner dissatisfaction and unfair fate.

At that moment, he even thought about death.

But he still didn't choose this way.

Because the responsibility of taking care of his parents still lies with him.

After all, they gave birth to him and raised him.

Ping An thought, just live in a muddle.

When one day, he sends his parents away, he will find a mountain, dig a hole, and bury himself.

Maybe then, he can relax a little and take a good rest.
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Chunhua held this black train ticket in her hand. She didn't recognize the words on it, but there seemed to be a voice in her heart telling her what it was and what it was used for.

She knew this was her ticket back to the past.

She doesn't understand what it means to go back to the past.

But she vaguely knew that by holding it and getting in the car, she could help Ping An fulfill his wish.

Fulfill my wish to be safe, no longer tired, no longer cry. (End of chapter)