investigative chronicle

Chapter 57 Diary

The failure of the Meilin incident made Ji Si'an and the others sluggish for a long time.After Lu Quan knew that they were secretly helping Meilin, he threatened them even more.

After that, Yu Na moved into the villa that her boyfriend had arranged for her.Ji Si'an took out the little bee and the alarm again, and she returned to her life in Suburb Tian.Luo Li and Yuan Mu were worried about her safety, and they took turns to stay with her from time to time.

After finishing the psychotherapy, Ji Si'an described Wang Meilin's situation to Yang Ningning in detail and asked for her opinion.

"I'm not a psychiatrist, so I'm afraid I can't give you any advice." Yang Ningning replied gently.

Although Ji Si'an guessed that she would say this, she was still slightly disappointed in her heart.

"However, as far as I know, doctors should be very cautious in judging whether a person has a mental illness. They will refer to her behavior, daily life, and some tests. During this period, her co-resident, Lu Quan, described It will serve as a great reference.”

Ji Si'an was a little excited: "If Lu Quan lied...doctors will misjudge, right?"

Yang Ningning patted her hand to signal her not to worry.Ji Si'an took a few deep breaths, she felt that she was a little irrational, she always wanted to prove that she was right, and this would not work.

"I judged from your description that the previous doctor did not diagnose her with a mental illness, but only said what symptoms she had."

Ji Si'an calmed down this time, she looked at Yang Ningning quietly, waiting for her to continue.

Yang Ningning said with a smile: "The key is the hospital that receives her later. Since they arranged for her to be hospitalized, it means that they think she has a mental illness."

"But don't be nervous. Some mental illnesses can be cured clinically. As long as she can cooperate with the doctor to take medicine on time and receive appropriate treatment, the mental symptoms can be effectively controlled and will not affect her normal life and work."

Yang Ningning's words gave Ji Si'an limited comfort, and now no one can help her except Meilin herself.

After leaving the psychological clinic, Ji Si'an locked himself in the room, quietly thinking about the things he discovered during this period.At this time, the phone rang, which startled her who was immersed in thinking.

It was an unfamiliar number, after a moment of hesitation, she answered it anyway.

"Hello, are you at home? I have your courier."

"Express delivery? I didn't buy anything." Ji Si'an was a little surprised.

"It was sent to you by Ms. Wang. The address is right here." The courier was very sure.

"Ms. Wang?" Ji Si'an quickly searched for information in his mind, and a name flashed in front of his eyes, could it be Meilin?

After receiving the package from the courier, Ji Si'an couldn't wait to open it, and there was a notebook inside.

Opening the title page, a name appeared on the paper, Wang Meilin... The beautiful font showed that she was in good condition.

Ji Si'an sat by the window and began to read by the orange light.

On September 9, the first day I was sent to the mental hospital, I was sedated, and the restraint belt made me extremely uncomfortable.Pointless struggle here will only lead to more restraint.Accepting rather than fighting is the only thing those two men have taught me over the years.

On September 9th, it started to rain lightly outside, but I was in a very good mood.When everything quieted down, my brain began to resume thinking.I asked the doctor to bring a lot of books, and I want to tidy myself up during this rare quiet time.

The doctor was very satisfied with my condition, and he also encouraged me to regain my confidence.

On September 9th, I have been admitted to the hospital for 10 days. Except for some concerns about my daughter, I am fine.

On September 9th, Xiaoan... I seem to have discovered a secret, but I need time to verify it slowly....

Ji Si'an was eager to know what secret Meilin had discovered, but she kept her mouth shut and began to introduce her past.

Don't worry, listen to my story first.

When I met Lu Quan, I was in the cold war with my father.My father wanted me to return to China to work directly after graduation.But these years of college life have made me understand what freedom is. I don't want to go back, and I don't want to be controlled by him again.

At that time Lu Quan was planning a trip to Northern Europe. He saw my frustration and invited me to be his guide.He was mature and very gentlemanly, and his respect for me attracted me.

Let's formulate the route together, plan the attractions together, the stops of the house, the supply points...

At that time, he listened to me gently and patiently, with infinite tolerance in his eyes.

I, who had never been so respected before, fell into it all at once.

Lu Quan is 14 years older than me. From him, I not only get the love between men and women, but also feel the love of a father...

This trip is perfect. We have enjoyed the magnificent natural scenery, visited the ancient civilization with profound heritage, experienced extreme weather and picnic camping, and left good memories and feelings of companionship.In just ten days, I decided that he was my future partner.

After the trip, Lu Quan was leaving due to work reasons, and he asked me to go back to China with him to register for marriage.I didn't hesitate at that time, but my father's strong opposition not only didn't stop me, but made me more impulsive.

The moment I posted the marriage certificate to him, I was full of the pleasure of revenge...

Xiaoan, how stupid I am, I should have found out at that time.The paternal love I feel is exactly the same as my father..., they are both overly controlling people.But I, who have long been used to being controlled, can't tell the difference if I give a little freedom.

After I worked for a short period of time after marriage, he persuaded me to resign with various reasons such as pregnancy, taking care of the family, and taking care of children.Losing my only job, plus taking care of my daughter and him, slowly my life was locked in a cage by him.

During the period when the child was just born, my parents and I had the opportunity to ease the relationship.But Lu Quan's strength and father's strength kept colliding, and I was caught in the middle like a prey they tore apart, which was extremely uncomfortable.To end this pointless fight, I chose to cut back on my parents.

I wanted to get rid of the past so much, but I didn't expect that my current life is still repeating the pattern of the past...

In the second year after his daughter was born, something went wrong in Lu Quan's company. He was often in a bad mood, and his child's crying could cause him great reactions.He loudly accused me of being incompetent, blaming me for not being able to take care of children.

This bloody plot finally happened to me.It was that year that he hit me for the first time....Once this kind of thing starts, it never ends....

At that time, I was completely controlled by him, I had no job, no friends, and even no contact with my parents... I was just a bird in his cage, with no power to resist.

I tried to understand him, to help him, and even to ask my father for him.

But my father never forgot the "humiliation" that my resistance brought to him. He laughed at me gloatingly, constantly boasting that he was right, as if if I didn't resist him, my life would be all beautiful...

The terrible thing is that for a while, I actually believed it....I kept reflecting on myself, and kept doubting myself, whether, if I listened to my father's words, it would be different...

(End of this chapter)