My secret love for Bai Yueguang turned out to be my blind date

Chapter 193 So Someone Really Will Love You For A Long, Long Time

diary continues
On April 2012th, 4, on the bus to Beijing Normal University, I suddenly thought about a question, maybe she had also taken this bus in the same seat at different times, and whether we count it is another meaning pass by
On September 2012th, 9, I actually saw her on the news. She acted in a movie directed by Zhang Kaige. I don’t know why, but suddenly felt powerless.
On October 2012st, 10, I watched her movie in the cinema. She acted very well. She was liked by many people. Maybe I should understand that we are after all.
On October 2012th, 10, I made a resolution. I knew I was dreaming an impossible dream, but if I worked harder, would it be possible in the future?
In 2012, December 12th, another year of Christmas, I came out of the library at eleven o'clock in the evening, and there were few pedestrians on the road. I saw a pair of couples together, and suddenly thought that it would be nice to have her by my side. In fact, I don’t like festivals, not to mention foreign festivals like Christmas, probably because of the apple that was not given out that year. I don’t know if there will be a chance to give it away in this life.
On June 2013, 6, I watched the movie "Notting Hill" for the first time, and I ranked it No. 2 among the movies in my mind. I hope that one day I can make my dream come true like the hero.
In 2013, July 7th, this summer vacation is not wasted, and it is still filling in knowledge. She is working hard to shine, and I have to work harder.
On January 2014, 1, on the first day of the new year, I fell ill, and she had a new TV series to be aired soon.
In 2014, July 7th, the graduation season, I graduated ahead of schedule. It took me three years to complete the credits ahead of schedule. I was rated as an outstanding undergraduate graduate and was even admitted to graduate school. However, my joy was not shared by anyone.
2014, December 12th, Christmas, in the library, I wish her all the best, and I hope I have the opportunity to say this sentence to her personally.
In 2015, March 3st, this week was quite stressful, so I chose to continue to take the bus to Beijing Normal University. I don’t know when it started. This has become a way for me to relax. Looking at the place where she lived Look, I feel much better
On August 2015th, 8, when I saw a milk product endorsed by her, I immediately fell in love with it.People's liking is like this, inexplicable and sudden.Because the specific items people like are likely to be a concrete presentation of their own ideas, but unfortunately, I am lactose intolerant.
In 2015, on December 12th, Christmas, Wangyou happily shared with me that he will roll back next year, and we can see each other often in the future. He asked me why I don’t fall in love, do I like men, he won’t be in the UK Is it affected by something? Of course I have someone I like.
On June 2016, 6, after she won the Magnolia Award, she stopped reading today and was happy for her.
On July 2016, 7, I graduated with a master's degree ahead of schedule again, and I will start my teaching career and start my doctoral degree at the same time when the new semester begins.
2016, November 11th, I watched a movie "Lovers in Xinqiao" today. If I have a chance in the future, I will also express my confession like this: If the sky is white, but the clouds are black.
In 2017, on May 5th, in class today, a male student from a foreign class accompanied a female student from this class to class. I pretended not to see it. Youth is so good, but unfortunately I didn’t talk about it. In love, but lucky to meet her
2017, October 10th, it's raining today, I miss her a little bit
On August 2018, 8, this year I graduated early again with my Ph.D. The teacher found me and had a chance to be a visiting scholar in Cambridge for two years. I hope I can go there. I hesitated. After all, going abroad, we are on the earth both ends of .
On September 2018, 9, I still came to Cambridge. On the one hand, the classical philosophy of Cambridge is very attractive to me. On the other hand, I am still dreaming that incredible dream. If I can become a particularly powerful scholar, will I Have the opportunity?Well, I don't really know where the opportunities are, but I've been telling myself that for years, so keep going.
On December 2018th, 12, a student recommended to me the so-called Christmas must-see movie "Love Actually", and I hope to have the opportunity to watch it with her in the future
On March 2019, 3, I hope to have the opportunity to visit Cambridge with her in the future.
On July 2019, 7, a rare sunny day, I thought about her all day by the Cam River
2019, September 9rd, went to London today, met an interesting bookstore on Charing Cross Road, wrote a letter to myself ten years later, I wrote a letter, I don’t know if I will be with her ten years later together.
On December 2019th, 12, today's literature can't be read at all, and I want to give up, but I haven't owned it before, so how can I give up?
On April 2020, 4, I learned from a friend that she went back to our alma mater for a high school road show. Unfortunately, I couldn't make it back. I hope to have the opportunity to attend her movie premiere in the future and see her up close.
In 2020, July 7th, I returned to China today, and I probably won’t write a diary anymore. There are too many traces of her in the diary. Writing again will only add to the sadness.In the future, I should love others, and I may be alone.But she should stay in my heart forever, I will always miss her, and every festival, I will bless her until I get old
The diary ends here abruptly, which seems to represent the master's mind to some extent.

Jiang Baizhi sobbed softly, obviously there was no one in the room, but she seemed afraid that others would hear her.

In this diary, Su Ye thought about her for nearly ten years, went to Beijing Normal University hundreds of times, and went abroad to visit her for her postgraduate entrance examination and Ph. It's what you get in exchange for going to it again and again!

It turns out that the phrase "but the clouds are black", the phrase "everything is triumphant", that phrase "Happy New Year", that "True Love Actually", that "Notting Hill" has been brewing for more than ten years!
It turned out that the regret he said was really his regret. In countless unknown nights, he thought about himself countless times. He wanted to take himself to Cambridge, to Cam River, to the place where he once lived
To be honest, there is no surprise in Jiang Baizhi's heart at this moment, only regret and an inexplicable emotion. The regret is that she had a conflict with Su Ye not long ago, and she still accused him of being too selfish.

And the inexplicable emotion was: she suddenly felt that she was not worthy of Su Ye's love!

This love that spans the years and rivers is so great and sincere, it is a teenager's entire youth, but is he really that good?Is it really true to Su Ye's love?

At this moment, Jiang Baizhi was a little at a loss, to be precise, a little flustered, this love made her feel a little guilty.
(End of this chapter)