our family is gone

Chapter 132 Invalid oath
Listening all the way, Lance probably understood the change in his mood.

To put it simply, he knew that he couldn't find that nobleman, and felt that revenge was hopeless, and he relied on revenge to support his heart all the way. Now, once this collapses, he will definitely feel at a loss.

At this time, his heart is extremely empty, and he urgently needs to find a new reason to live.

And in this case, he was directly swallowed by the guilt brought about by the wrong things he did back then.

What he was looking for was not redemption, but like Leonard, he had done many wrong things in the first half of his life, and finally longed to die on a... at least nominally correct path.

Lance thought he knew Disma before, but now he realizes that he doesn't know him at all. It wasn't until he came into contact with his story today that he understood why he has such a strange personality.

However, he was not confused by the complex psychology in Disma's story, but quickly sorted out the key issues.

"I found that you got a very important question wrong, that is, you used the wrong person for this oath."

"What do you mean, my lord?" This sentence made Disma a little confused.

Seeing him like this, Lance was not in a hurry, so he turned to another way and asked, "Do you know why you made this oath?"

"Because I shouldn't kill women and children."

"Then why shouldn't you kill them? You've already killed so many people, and it's not just one or two."

Talking about this Disma, he was silent. After thinking for a while, he realized that it was difficult for him to explain why. Only then did he realize that something was wrong~
"Because the guards in the prison oppressed you, those gangsters attacked you actively, that person betrayed you, the carriage guards took money to do things, and they were threatening you with their weapons, so you are already mentally prepared for the mission.

But women and children are innocent, weak people who have no weapons and cannot threaten you, and their appearance without warning is not what you expected at all. This scene arouses your desire to protect, but they were killed by you by mistake, so this protection Desire becomes guilt. "

Lance understands that the reason for his such a big reaction is that watching the scene of his lover's death left him with a psychological shadow. What he feels guilty about is that he was unable to protect his lover back then. Women and children were just an introduction, which affected his memory and inspired him. his desire to protect.

But this can't be said, he didn't want to touch Desma's sensitivity so as not to be contradicted, and then explained.

"The desire to protect is a very common psychology among human beings. This is an important manifestation of human social evolution. The source is a special mechanism that evolved over millions of years to maintain the reproduction and growth of species."

In fact, Desma couldn't understand Lance's accompanying explanation at all, but he understood the general meaning.

That is, they are weak and innocent, so they feel guilty.

"But your oath is useless!"

Suddenly, Lance threw out his point of view with a serious expression, and even made a conclusion.

This time, Disma was even more confused. According to what the lord said just now, women and children are weak, so he did nothing wrong?

He wanted to refute something, but the lord took the topic before he could speak.

"What you really want to express should be to protect the weak and spare the innocent. It's just that the manslaughter shocked you too much, so you subconsciously bind the attribute of women and children to the weak and innocent. Judging a person's attributes from simple gender and age.

People are complicated, don't you know who tricked Barton to rob the town?It's a woman, and I'll tell you another thing, the female cultist you backed down and didn't kill, she joined the cult by sacrificing her own daughter..."

Lance told him about the parents who sacrificed their daughter to the church.

"What does your oath protect? Because you have spared bad guys countless times because of this, and they will continue to do bad things. In some cases, you are their accomplice."

"Damn! What have I done?" Disma became agitated when he realized what he had done.

Lance looked at him calmly, and didn't intend to comfort him, and even talked about how they killed people.

Those terrifying scenes further stimulated him, and he shouted like venting fury:

"Ah! I want to cut off the filthy bodies of those heretics! Cut them open! Chop them up!"

"So you get it, you're bound by a shallow oath to protect the good, but you're unknowingly pampering the bad."

"I was wrong……"

"No, you still have a chance to correct~"

"I still have a chance?"

"Of course, you have to be clear that what you need to protect is good people, not pure women and children. Sometimes women and children are also bad people. They need to be completely purified. Only in this way can we truly protect those good people."

The time was ripe, and Lance's intentions hidden in the words were slowly revealed. He didn't need a Disma who was limited by his oath and was timid, he needed a ruthless robber who only obeyed his orders.

As for a good guy, isn't that what he defines~
When Lance was discussing religion with Leonard, he despised them for occupying the right to explain and control believers, but now he is doing the same thing...

"I see." Disma was enlightened, and only at this moment did he realize how stupid and blind he was before.

Sure enough, it was correct for him to decide to stay, and he reconciled with himself only after receiving the guidance of the lord, and understood the true meaning of his life.

If it is said that although Disma was active before, he still had a belief in seeking relief, referred to as courting death.

But now he has found the meaning of existence again - to kill those bad guys and protect those good guys.

The two quickly returned to the caravan. Leonard noticed that Disma's state had changed significantly from before going out. The feeling of being careless disappeared and became stable.

But he wasn't too curious, the lord had his own arrangements.

…………

"kill!"

Lance swung his long sword and slashed, but this time he didn't wear armor, so he couldn't be as crazy as last time, but relied on fighting in the convoy.

He didn't even use [Blessing] to refresh his status, but simply used his own strength to fight.

This was a sudden attack, but it was destined to be a one-sided massacre.

Leonard tightened the reins to slow down the horse's pace, and the long sword in his hand was still dripping blood.

When he turned his horse back and went back, he saw broken corpses all over the ground. None of the gangsters who dared to attack the caravan could escape, and the last one just now fell under his sword.

Within three to five minutes from the start, the battle was over.

　I have read all your suggestions, the real problem is not my problem of writing farming, it is simply that my plot is flat.

　　To sum up, I feel that the protagonist's will is not strong enough, which leads to the lack of excitement when finding the hero.

　　For example, if the protagonist knows that there is a talent (dog trainer) in the town, and then goes there specially to accept him, the town accepts the dog trainer by cracking down on the evil cult conspiracy, so that it can show a sense of refreshment with the preparation in advance, so that Cohesion is more coherent.

　　To put it simply, the plot should be based on the protagonist's perspective, with the protagonist's will as a transfer, rather than using accidents to promote the plot.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)