our family is gone

Chapter 131 Revenge
According to the information given by the broker, he was waiting for the target on the road, and soon the carriage arrived. Those guards were no match for him at all, and he completed the task with excellent lethality.

At this moment, there was movement in the carriage, and the vigilance he had cultivated for a long time made him subconsciously draw his gun and shoot.

The entire carriage was covered under the bombardment of shotguns, and the movement completely subsided.

But it turns out that the satisfaction he got from killing was only short-lived, and remorse bound him tighter than any shackles.

Because when he was proud of his quick reaction, what he found when he opened the car door was not an enemy, but the corpse of a woman holding a child who was severely damaged by gunfire and completely lost its vitality.

Disma stared quietly at the corpse in the carriage, as if caught by the cruel scene in front of him, he felt a cold shackle called remorse tightly bound his heart.

The sight in front of him became Disma's lingering nightmare... It was a pursuer he could never shake off, a prison he could never escape.

"Looking back on that time—I really didn't mean to..." Disma couldn't help crying while holding his head.

Lance also felt quite emotional all the way. It is hard to imagine that this man who can survive in such a harsh environment in prison, and is willing to hide in the sewer to eat rats for freedom, would show such a reaction because of manslaughter.

You must know that he is a wanted criminal, and he escaped from the prison after killing the guard. It can be said that he doesn't care about killing people at all.

But now that he shows such remorse, it is obvious that what restricts him is not the actual law, but what he is unable to pass is the barrier in his own heart.

It's a bit ridiculous to say~ A bandit like Disma would have such feelings.

wrong!Lance thought about it for a second and felt that there was something wrong with his understanding.

Disma was already extremely tragic, and he experienced unimaginable torture. What supported him in the end?
It's hatred, it's unwillingness, it's revenge!
For this, he can do anything, even if it is to eat the rats in the sewer, he can accept the task of killing people and robbing goods.

It can be said that at this moment he is inclined to degenerate, which can be seen from the fact that he killed the carriage guards simply and neatly.

The turning point was that he killed women and children by mistake. When he saw this scene, he remembered his childhood sweetheart and realized that he had become an unscrupulous person like his enemy?
The emotions suppressed by hatred before impacted his reason and put him under crazy pressure.

The last moment instead allowed him to explore the brilliance of human nature and enter a state of virtue, pulling him back from the brink of degradation.

To a certain extent, if he hadn't awakened him by killing the woman and child by mistake, his bottom line would be lowered indefinitely if he degenerated step by step. At that time, Disma would be no different from those real robbers.

However, it is precisely because of remorse that he can still be saved. He did not fall because of unfair treatment, and the brilliance of humanity still shines on him.

"Does it feel easier to say it?"

"Hmm~" Disma calmed down.

For such a long time, he hasn't told anyone about himself, but just poured it into glasses of ale, hitting each body.

Now after telling the matter, I really feel that the suffocation that has been accumulated in the chest for a long time has been spit out, and my breathing has become smoother.

"That pale silhouette...she is still following me along the road, and I don't remember how I got back, but after this incident, I made an oath not to kill women and children."

Lance also didn't expect such a story of ups and downs behind this oath.

"What happened later? How about your family?"

Lance did not bring up revenge, but put the topic in another direction.

"Moved away, moved to a place I don't even know..."

Disma's expression was a little sad. When he went back, he found that the family had changed, so he found out after some inquiring.

Not long after he was imprisoned, the small workshop at home was smashed, and the business couldn't continue, so his parents moved to other cities. As for the tailor's family, they also moved away from this right and wrong place.

In this era, this move also completely severed the connection.

At that time, he stood on the street and felt that everything was right and wrong.

When a person finds that he cannot protect his family or his lover, and everything he cherishes is destroyed, then he becomes extreme.

Either be infinitely decadent, or completely crazy.

Unfortunately, Disma's character destined him to have only the latter path.

He found the younger brother who had betrayed him back then, and found that that guy had actually occupied the territory he had laid down and developed into a big gang leader with a large number of gangsters under him.

"I asked him why he betrayed me in the first place, do you know what the answer I got?"

Disma felt absurd even thinking about it, and couldn't help but give a helpless wry smile.

If that person was doing it for money, or for power, he would still understand, but he was surprised by the answer he got. It was only because he was afraid of being implicated in himself, and at the same time, he restricted them from collecting protection fees in the past, which made everyone feel uncomfortable. dissatisfied.

Even that person blamed him for why he provoked the nobles for a woman in the first place, causing the brothers to panic, and he did it for everyone's benefit.

That person thought that with so many younger brothers around him, he wasn't afraid of Disma at all, but soon he realized how stupid he was.

A massacre was staged, and those street gangsters were no match for Disma at all. He stepped on the road paved with corpses step by step, and walked in front of the man.

"He begged me for mercy, but I stabbed him in the stomach, and it was a fucking good feeling."

The feeling of revenge made him intoxicated, but fortunately, he still had the bottom line and didn't do anything to that guy's family.

With the death of the traitor, Disma's goal also shifted to the source of everything, the noble.

It's just a pity that several years of prison life made him lose contact with the outside world. The nobleman left the city long ago. He is a wanted fugitive, and there is no way to find the trace of that person.

In order to find the nobleman who caused his miserable half life, he became a wandering mercenary. Mercenaries in this era are more or less part-time jobs, and of course they can also be called robbers.

But these years have passed, and he still hasn't been able to find it. The experience of traveling all the way has changed his state of mind, and the heart of revenge has gradually quieted down. On the contrary, the guilt has gradually risen and become stronger.

Whenever he thinks of the scene on the carriage, he tosses and turns. Even if he is immersed in alcohol and flesh, he can hardly find a moment of comfort and silence.

He was tormented by this resentment, and even later, this strong psychological pressure made him often hallucinate.

Until he received a mission to Hamlet, where he found hope of redemption.

　This is the story about Disma that I pieced together and perfected based on the clues of the original work. Because it is a whole, I will release it together, so as not to follow up with the brothers and so on.

　　The water is a little watery, but my saved manuscripts are about to be drained...

　　
　
(End of this chapter)