Roaming in the dark

Chapter 176 Sister Chen Walks to the Door That Leads to the Balcony

Sister Chen walked to the door leading to the balcony in the living room and looked outside. She saw her daughter and Sheng Chuncheng sitting there, and her emotions had calmed down. She let out a sigh of relief and walked back to the living room.

Just now, she heard two people yelling at each other outside, and she was still very worried, fearing that Guo Shuang would be stimulated, Sister Chen tried her best to control herself, so she didn't come out.

The two people outside were fighting fiercely. After a while, there seemed to be no movement again. Sister Chen couldn't bear it anymore and decided to come over to have a look. While she was worried that her daughter would be hurt, she was also worried that her daughter would be hurt. Sheng Chuncheng, her daughter's mouth, she has experienced it before, and Sheng Chuncheng, after all, is a disabled person, even if he is with a girl, he is at a disadvantage.

Fortunately, the two outside seemed to be safe and sound, and her daughter did not leave the balcony angrily and went back to her room, which meant that even if they quarreled, it was not to the point where they were not speculative, which made her feel a little relieved.

Guo Shuang sat there silently. She felt that this blind person was right about one thing just now, that is, she had an acting personality. Guo Shuang felt that it was true. , Which one is not, their acting personality is still cultivated by them.

Many times, when she saw them on TV and online, sitting on the rostrum and speaking sanctimoniously, this feeling was even more profound.

Guo Shuang remembers that when he was a child, his father and mother often quarreled. Before the quarrel, they would close the doors and windows and draw the curtains, because they were afraid that the neighbors would hear them quarreling.

The three of us were sitting and eating, or sitting in the living room. Because of something, my father and mother were talking, and the voice became louder. At this time, when one person stood up to close the door and window, Guo Shuang began to tremble. Escape to your room whenever you get a chance.

She knew a storm was coming.

In front of outsiders, they are a happy family of three, but when they quarreled, these two college graduates, party members, and small leaders in the unit at that time, Guo Shuang felt that they were no different from uncles and aunts in the farmers' market.

Almost all of them choose the most unpleasant, straightforward, and most stinging words to yell at each other. When one party suddenly raises his voice, and when he scolds too loudly, although the other party is furious, he still can’t forget to turn on the stereo. Sometimes neighbors come knocking door, protesting that the stereo in their house was too loud.

As soon as this kind of knock on the door rang, the two people immediately died down, walked to the door together, opened the door, and faced the outside together with two smiling faces. I was too happy.

Close the door and come back, the fight can no longer be arguing, as soon as my mother turns around, she will slam the door of the room and lock herself in the room.

At night like this, Dad can only come to sleep with Guo Shuang.

The two young leaders usually talk about the bad influence, but they never thought that every time they quarreled, the daughter went through the whole process. They knew that being heard by the neighbors was not good, but they never I don't even think about whether it's good to be influenced by my daughter's hearing.

At this time, Guo Shuang was sitting there in his room, shaking all over, not anger, but humiliation. , So hypocritical, their hypocrisy made Guo Shuang feel as if she was hypocrisy with them and faked together, this is what made her feel ashamed the most.

That’s right, at that time, her mother took her to many occasions and met many people. In every place and everyone she met, Guo Shuang felt that she was dressed up on stage, and she was responsible for playing a happy and happy Smart daughter, mother is responsible for playing a capable and virtuous mother, there will be no second role.

Guo Shuang often feels that he is composed of two and a half people, one half is the one in front of the people, and the other half is the one behind the people. It is clear which half is the real self.

Look again, isn't mom the same?Isn't dad the same?They are all composed of two and a half people, what a strange parents, and what a strange family.

Performing personality, hehe, Guo Shuang doesn't even know which half is performing and which half is the audience, and how quickly their roles are switched.

Guo Shuang sighed, and Sheng Chuncheng asked, "Why are you sighing?"

"Ask you a question, okay?" Guo Shuang said.

Sheng Chuncheng nodded: "You said."

"Do you ever feel that you are split, that is, there are two people on you." Guo Shuang asked.

Sheng Chuncheng thought, I am divided every day, there are two people, one is wearing sunglasses, and the other is taking off the sunglasses.He said honestly:
"Yes, it often happens."

"Then what will you do?" Guo Shuang asked.

"Try not to think about it." Sheng Chuncheng said, "Don't be serious with yourself. If you are too serious, you won't be able to live."

Guo Shuang thoughtfully, nodded, then shook his head.

Sheng Chuncheng said: "In fact, how many people are the same on the outside and the inside? People in this society have several faces and need to change their faces constantly to survive. If it is true that the outside is the same, there are A place where such people are most concentrated."

"Where?" Guo Shuang asked curiously.

"Psychiatric hospital." Sheng Chuncheng said, "Those people will express whatever they think in their hearts."

Guo Shuang couldn't help laughing, and felt that what Sheng Chuncheng said made sense, and then became sad again, thinking that he was going crazy, and he would soon become a person there.

Through the sunglasses, Sheng Chuncheng saw a smile flash across Guo Shuang's face, and then there was a mournful expression on her face, and couldn't help asking:
"What are you thinking?"

"You said, is that a good place?" Guo Shuang asked.

"where?"

"Psychiatric hospital, at least everyone doesn't need to pretend." Guo Shuang said, Sheng Chuncheng's heart skipped a beat.

"You think too much, if you don't pretend, you're not human." Sheng Chuncheng said.

"Why?" Guo Shuang asked.

Sheng Chuncheng said: "Primitive people probably don't pretend, animals don't pretend, why, we degenerate back? The history of human progress is a history of disguise, and pretending is the art. Think about it, it is very easy for a person to be a dick , How difficult it is to pretend to be a rich second generation, how many outfits, props, and selfies he needs to convince others that he is a rich second generation.

"It's the same if he wants to pretend to be a master of all kinds, how many books he needs to memorize, so that he can talk freely, and he must be able to pretend to be a master, so that he can look like a master.

"By the way, there are also actors who are not well-known at all. When they go out, they need to hire thirty or forty bodyguards and line them up in two rows to clear the way in front. As a result, there are not as many onlookers as his bodyguards. The sad thing is The few people who came to watch were still looking at the bodyguards, not him."

Guo Shuang finally couldn't help it, and giggled.

"Well, you're right." Guo Shuang said.

"Originally, pretending isn't scary, as long as you don't be too harsh on yourself, it's not that scary. Many times, letting go of yourself is more important than demanding yourself. If you demand yourself, you will then ask others and the people around you. , let go of yourself, that is, let go of others, let go of the people around you, so that everyone can relax, how wonderful."

As Sheng Chuncheng spoke, Guo Shuang fell silent again.

It was getting late, and Sheng Chuncheng was about to leave. He got up and thought of something, and quietly said to Guo Shuang:
"Give me your mobile phone, and I'll fix it for you. There is a mobile phone repairer at the gate of our community."

Guo Shuang was taken aback and asked, "You know?"

Sheng Chuncheng said with a smile: "You snatched all my water, and told me that the phone is gone. You didn't use water to bathe the phone, what else could it be?"

Guo Shuang was stunned for a moment, and then remembered that if he asked himself to fix the phone, he would have to go out, which is really difficult.

Guo Shuang handed Sheng Chuncheng his mobile phone, and Sheng Chuncheng put it in his bag.

The two walked into the living room. Sister Chen and Aunt Chen were sitting at the dining table in the distance. When they saw them coming in, they walked over. Sheng Chuncheng and Sister Chen said that they were going back.

Sister Chen looked at Guo Shuang, and said to her: "Xiao Sheng is inconvenient to take a taxi or something, cool, you can give him a ride."

Guo Shuang hesitated for a moment, and she said okay.

The two of them went out, and the door closed behind them. Sister Chen and Auntie inside the door looked at each other. The two couldn't help hugging each other happily, and Sister Chen was about to cry.

Nearly two months, this is the first time Guo Shuang has walked out of the house.

"I'll go down and follow Shuangshuang back." Auntie said to Sister Chen, and Sister Chen nodded.

Auntie was about to go out when Sister Chen called out, "Garbage, garbage, you take the garbage down."

(End of this chapter)