Temptation to bend over

Chapter 19
Regarding Yao Ju's invitation, Song Yan was really worried for too long, even for a long time, he didn't dare to see Yu Nian again.

The little girl was obviously a little anxious, and even once, she was really at a loss, so she ignored him and went directly to his class.Song Yan still couldn't help it, the little girl was in a dark corner of the corridor, blinking her eyes, crystal clear tears fell drop by drop from her eye sockets, how could Song Yan resist this.

He hurriedly hugged her into his arms, and the anxiety and thinking of several days were all wiped out the moment he saw those two tears. Dare to say half a sentence too much.

After all, he still gave up the method of indifference to her and told her to stay away. How could he be willing to make her sad?Grinding meat with a blunt knife, after a few days, others are going crazy, how can they continue.

His mind was so messed up that Song Yan finally asked for two days off.

The matter of Yao Ju is kept secret in the school for the time being, and the students don't know yet.

Hearing that Song Yan wanted to ask for leave, the school's first reaction was that Song Yan wanted to go back to the orphanage to discuss with those close to him. After all, it was such a big matter, so he agreed without hesitation.

But Song Yan didn't go back to the orphanage. After he left the school, he got on the bus and made several transfers before he came to a slightly messy construction site.

Without hesitation, Song Yan raised his foot and walked inside.

The environment here is really not good. There are several mines nearby. Workers are carrying heavy tools or mining some abandoned ore, carrying them with difficulty, hunched over, and passing by him.

Song Yan walked inside without squinting. Almost everyone here knew him. He walked all the way, said hello a few times, and finally came to the innermost place.

On the side of a dark waste rock hill, a young worker is leaning beside him, his head is lowered, sweat drips down his angular face, and his skin is dark.

He casually held a cigarette in his mouth, shielded himself from the wind with one hand, and slammed the lighter with the other, the flame suddenly shot up, and he licked the cigarette holder.

The young man flicked the lighter, extinguished the fire, and flicked the ash. He finally stood up. When he looked up, he saw Song Yan not far away.

Lu Jiaquan sneered, "Hey, long time no see."

He grabbed the half-black vest and touched his face indiscriminately. His dark and muscular abdominal muscles were clearly visible. He squinted his eyes, took a breath of cigarettes, and raised his head towards Song Yan, beckoning him: "Sit."

Song Yan didn't show any politeness to him either, he just sat on the only open space covered with clean cloth that was full of dirty dust, and sat on the floor.

"Why do you come to me when you have time?" The smell of inferior cigarettes filled the air, but Song Yan was obviously used to the smell of cigarettes. He used to smoke, but he quit later. The reason is easy to guess, except that Yu Nian didn't Think about it.

"You haven't been here for a long time. I just saw you and felt dazed." Lu Jiaquan smiled familiarly. He looked at some of his friends who looked like dogs, and asked from the bottom of his heart, "How are you doing?" ?"

Song Yan nodded, he smiled and said, "It's okay."

Lu Jiaquan was actually not very used to him laughing like this. For a person like Song Yan, no matter how good the relationship between the two was, he rarely saw him laughing.

What's more, Song Yan's smile really has a deep meaning, it is clearly sweet, but he feels it inexplicably astringent, the bitterness is heavy, hidden in the sweetness that is almost overflowing, it is hard to detect.

But Lu Jiaquan knew Song Yan so well that he could tell what the emotion was at a glance.

"What's the matter? It's quite abnormal today." It's okay to laugh, and I'm here to smile bitterly. It's been a long time since I haven't seen him like this, Lu Jiaquan is really not used to it.

"Lu Jiaquan." Song Yan murmured to him, "If you were with a girl you really liked, would you break up with her?"

Lu Jiaquan stopped.

"will not."

He wiped his dirty hands, and sat down beside Song Yan: "What's the matter? Asking such a question suddenly?"

In fact, he knew that Song Yan must have something hidden in his heart. He had been suspicious for such an abnormal appearance in the third year of junior high school, but this guy has always been tolerant and never revealed a word to him.Was it because of a girl?
It's no wonder that Lu Jiaquan guessed like this, it's really strange that Song Yan's state and this endless question.

"I don't want to either, but I don't think I'm good enough for her." Before we were together, he felt that he was looking up at her like mud on the ground, and after we were together, he felt like a dream, so he worried about his suspenders. Now that this kind of thing happened, although Song Yan was reluctant, he became somewhat cowardly.

"Song Yan, this is not like you." Lu Jiaquan looked at him, "This is not like what you would say." The person in his memory was terribly reckless and stubborn, but he did not refuse to do anything he believed in. He did it well, but he was so smart and loved by the heavens. Apart from this bad fate, he seemed to have nothing that could not be perfect.

as long as he wants.

The young man straightened his back, and Lu Jiaquan patted him on the shoulder: "What are you afraid of, just go forward."

Song Yan turned his head and saw the calmness and trust in Lu Jiaquan's eyes. He could see the shadow of his firmness to him. For some reason, he suddenly became enlightened.

Yes.

why not?

He didn't want to think about any consequences, he wanted to let go, and he tried his best.

Either way, it's nothing in the end, at least he's given all the effort and everything he wants year after year and year after year.

The evening wind blew, and the green treetops in summer rustled. This time Song Yan smiled sincerely: "Okay, go forward bravely!"

The word was simple and plain, but it gave Song Yan endless courage at this moment. When he stood up, Lu Jiaquan also laughed.

"It's been a long time since we've come together, why don't we go after a drink tonight?" Lu Jiaquan asked with a smile.

He didn't ask more about the specific reason, he knew Song Yan knew it well, and finally put his arm on the other's shoulder and said with a smile: "If you have time, next time, bring your sister-in-law with you?"

This sentence was very teasing, and Song Yan didn't realize it for a while. After a long time, he laughed too, very frankly: "Okay."

No matter how you say it, no matter what it is, he will never let go, so when we meet, we will naturally meet each other.

Tomorrow weekend, he should also take the little girl to meet her mother.

He doesn't have many friends and no relatives, but he still wants to let everyone around him who knows the news congratulate him, and he wants to keep going with the eternal goal.

　This chapter is written in a mess, and the thinking has been messed up recently, and it should be changed later.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)