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Chapter 218 Extra Story Xie Nanzhi: You were born to be a queen ([-])
Chu Yu was very happy.

He took dozens of names overnight and poured all his good wishes and wishes into them.

Father was also very happy.

On the second day, I couldn't wait to bring a "famous doctor" into the palace, saying that I was worried about my health.

In fact, he is eager to know the gender.

After I found out that I was pregnant, I was in a state of confusion.

Although she is pregnant, she may not be the prince.

Even if the father brought a famous doctor, he couldn't tell whether he was a man or a woman when he was only two months old.

Even the prince, the whole palace is staring at Fengyi Palace, I can't do anything to him.

Even the prince, the relationship between Chu Yu and his father...is not necessarily as bad as I thought.

In fact, in the final analysis, although I used anti-child medicine, I wanted this child to come back a few years later, but he really came...

I can't bear to have him.

I have many flukes in my heart.

What if my father wasn't as ambitious as I'd surmised?

In case Chu Yu wins, will he show mercy to Mrs. Xie for my sake?
Or, if I give birth to a princess, then all my worries are nothing but nothing.

I lied that I was unwell, and stayed behind closed doors at Fengyi Palace, refusing to see my father again, preventing him from taking the doctor to take my pulse.

I numb myself over and over again, I will be a princess.

Even the princess Chu Yu would be happy and pampered.

Even if it is a prince, there must be a way to get to the front of the mountain. I know my father and I know Chu Yu, and I can always think of ways to deal with them a few more times.

My belly is getting bigger and bigger, and the imperial doctor expects to give birth at the end of February, when the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming.

But before the new year, war broke out in northern Xinjiang.

Chu Yu gave the decree almost without hesitation, and the emperor personally conquered it.

"Azhi, when I come back after winning this battle, old man Xie can't do anything to me!"

It turned out that he was not so sure.

Although he is well-known, he has no military exploits, let alone not many generals in his hands.

In the name of his own conquest, he can establish his prestige in the army, and he can also take back a lot of military power.

"Don't worry, I will return to Beijing before your delivery."

"There is Rong Hua in Beijing, she is younger than you, if I really can't make it back, she will take care of everything."

In fact, I had some bad premonition at that time.

My father can't bring a doctor to give me a pulse, but he can bribe the imperial physician.

The imperial doctor was afraid of committing the crime of deceiving the emperor, so he never mentioned men and women lightly in front of Chu Yu. His father wanted them to speak up, and there were plenty of ways, and Chu Yu went out at this time...

The night before Chu Yu left Beijing, I cried behind his back.

I want to tell him not to leave Beijing, or to leave Beijing with me.

But I am so clear that he has a great cause ahead of him, so it is impossible for him to march outside the capital for me, and it is even more impossible for him to take the queen with him.

As soon as he left, I became restless.

The whole day was like a raging fire, biting by thousands of ants.

For a while I was worried that my father would take the opportunity to harm him and make him "die in battle", and for a while I was relieved that I might not be a prince in my womb, and my father might not be so ruthless. Given the opportunity, he will not give in easily.

While tossing and turning, I had a ridiculous idea in my mind.

At the beginning, I quickly rejected it, but the more I thought about it, the more eager I was to move.

Chu Yu was not in the palace, and he was not used to keeping an eye on me, and even gave me half of the token of the Jinwu Guard.

If I want to, this man in the palace is at my disposal.

As long as there is careful planning, even if a boy is born, it may not be impossible to replace it with a girl quietly.

But in the end it was too absurd, I could already feel every fetal movement of the baby, and I was even more reluctant.

Until one day, Nanci sent me an urgent letter, saying that my father had secretly transferred away eight thousand elites of the Xie family army, and asked me if there was any difference in Beijing.

It was snowing heavily that day, and the earth dragon in the temple was burning warmly, but I was trembling all over.

I am seven months pregnant, my father must know something.

What does he want eight thousand elites for?
Does he want to cause trouble in northern Xinjiang, or set up an ambush in Beijing?
Does Chu Yu know about this?
Will it be fortified?

I wrote many letters all night.

Outspoken, insincere, and ultimately put into candles.

Once the father's move is discovered, it is for treason.

Not only his life could not be saved, Nan Ci's life could not be saved, the entire Xie family, even the eight thousand Xie family troops, would be guilty of this.

If I don't report the letter, I am afraid that Chu Yu will be plotted against by his father. If I report the letter, how can I face Xie, who gave birth to me and raised me?
That ridiculous idea surfaced again.

As long as I don't give birth to a prince.

As long as I give birth to a princess, my father will never be so eager and blatant.

Otherwise, even if this time is avoided, there will be a battle between Chu Yu and his father sooner or later.

I wrote to my father, saying that I dreamed of giving birth to a princess, and I was depressed and worried.

This reminds him that taking the pulse is not foolproof, and before the child is born, don't act rashly.

He also wrote back to Nanci, ordering him to go to the northern border as soon as possible. If something happened, no matter what, Chu Yu's life would be saved.

His father loved him the most, and he stood in front of him, so his father would not bear to kill him.

Finally, Sang Liu was called.

Sang Liu couldn't believe it, she cried and begged me to say no.

It is said that His Majesty said that he will come back before the delivery, and let me discuss it with him before making a decision.

If he could really end the war before I gave birth and return safely, the ending might really be different.

But that war was extremely stalemate. From the New Year's Eve years ago to the early spring, when I gave birth, it was a critical moment in the war.

And everything seems to be doomed, the most difficult stage for me to steal the dragon and turn the phoenix, Princess Ronghua, was born prematurely.

On the day I gave birth, she was still lying on the bed and unable to stay.

Chu Yu chose so many names for that child, but none of them were used in the end.

The name is "you" and the word is "forgiveness".

I basely hope that one day, if he knows the truth, he will forgive my choice and forgive me for abandoning him.

I never thought that he would appear in front of me so unexpectedly.

I never thought that when I met him again, the situation would be even worse than the year he was born.
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I sent You'er away and made what I thought was the most comprehensive arrangement.

The people who take care of him are all trusted confidants.

The place to send it to is Lingnan, where Nanci is located.

Nan Ci has been close to me since childhood, he is generous and loyal, not as ambitious as his father.

If there is any emergency, let Nan Ci take care of him.

But things still had unexpected side effects.

Northern Xinjiang calmed down after Chu Yu's personal conquest, and was restless, replaced by Southern Xinjiang.

During those one or two years, floods and epidemics came in turn, the Nanman couldn't hold back and took advantage of the situation to invade, and wars broke out frequently.

I was terrified all day long, and every one or two months I would receive news from the south, and every time I saw that Yu'er was safe and sound, I was relieved.

When Yu'er was two years old, a major event happened in Beijing.

The prince of the Duke's Mansion was kidnapped.

The eldest princess is pushing girls to go to school and make them officials, which is strongly opposed by various families.

Someone abducted her two-year-old son at her birthday banquet, and when he was found, it was already a shapeless corpse.

Rong Hua was devastated, and Chu Yu was furious.

Only the family can do this.

Among the aristocratic families, the Xie family is the head, the Wang family is the second, and the two families are still relatives by marriage.

The sword between Chu Yu and his father was once again on the verge of breaking out.

I circle between the two of them every day, exhausting my thoughts.

When I realized it, I suddenly realized that I hadn't heard from the south for half a year.

The current situation cannot alarm Chu Yu, let alone father. It took me a bit of effort to find someone to look for in Lingnan.

This search took another half a year.

No news.

Trembling with fear, I wrote a letter to Nan Ci, asking him to return to Beijing quickly and discuss important matters.

I told him everything, and Nanci looked at me incredulously: "Sister, why didn't you discuss such a big matter with me? You sent him to Lingnan, why didn't you inform me earlier? Do you know..."

He paused for a moment, then came to his senses, and said with red eyes: "Sister, I am incompetent."

"Sister, just wait, one day, I will ask you to pick him up in a graceful manner!"

Although Nanci is my last retreat, if it is not a last resort, I don't want him to know about it.

Although Xie Jiajun was formed by Nanci, all of them are his father's old confidantes.

After all, Nanci was young, and his name was Xie Jiajun's coach. Those people who really obeyed were their fathers.

If he knows this, his father will easily notice his actions.

"Sister, I know what you are worried about. Don't worry, I will act carefully."

Nanci really found Yu'er.

He didn't say too much, he only said that his servants probably encountered bandits, and none of them survived.

He was adopted by an ordinary family. The family was loving and kind, and treated him like their own son.

He said that he looks like me, smart and intelligent, he only teaches him martial arts once a month, and he can always understand the fundamentals and make rapid progress.

Every time I receive a letter from Nanci, I cry and get sick.

Even Chu Yu noticed something strange: "Why don't you transfer Ah Ci back to Beijing? He has also reached the age to marry a wife."

He thought I was just thinking about Nanci.

Of course, Nanci would not return to Beijing. On the contrary, when Yu'er was eight years old, he invited himself to fight in northern Xinjiang.

"Sister, I've grown up, and I can't live under my father's wing forever."

"I want to bring out my own Xie Jiajun!"

In fact, the battle was fought very smoothly, and it was obviously won, but at the last moment, a cold arrow flew from nowhere, piercing Nan Ci's heart.

Just as Chu Yu didn't believe that the prince's captivity had nothing to do with his father, his father didn't believe that Nan Ci's death had nothing to do with Chu Yu.

He was certain that Chu Yu had arranged for people to assassinate Nanci.

When I was circling between the two again, I only felt that I was wrong.

Wrong.

Back then, when my father asked me to choose, I shouldn't have chosen Chu Yu.

The emperor's family shouldn't have feelings.

If I'm ruthless to Chu Yu, if I'm on Xie's side wholeheartedly, if I advance and retreat with my father, there won't be so many dilemmas at all.

I completely gave up the idea of ​​bringing You'er back to the palace one day.

Nanci, who could support me the most, is gone. In order to suppress the Xie family, Chu Yu also supported the mother clan of several princes.

The situation in the DPRK is changing rapidly, and the huge palace is like a dense prison.

Nanci said that although his life was poor, his father and mother loved him and he was free.

Nanci said that he is smart and hardworking, and even without the blessing of status, he will be able to break through the world in the future.

Nan Ci probably also guessed that I felt guilty and worried, and only reported good news but not bad news.

I really thought that he didn't suffer any pain, but just grew up smoothly like an ordinary child from an ordinary family.

Until the day when the Dongchuang incident happened, Chu Yu threw at me word by word in a rage.

"Do you know that the bones of Lingnan were everywhere in the past few years, and he was picked up from the mass grave?!"

"Did you know that when he was less than three years old, he was dragged to beg on his knees, and if he was a little careless, he was locked into the woodshed and deprived of food and drink all day and all night?!"

"Do you know how many people bullied and ridiculed him because he has no father or mother?"

"He was supposed to be His Royal Highness, Dayin's most honored prince, but it was you who made my prince prostrate in the dust and let others humiliate him!"

I have never experienced such profound pain.

I didn't expect him to suffer so much.

I thought he didn't have rich clothes and fine food, but he didn't have to worry about food and clothing. He didn't have thousands of people worshiping him, but he was happy and at ease.

After Nanci's death in the war, I sent people to Lingnan. They all said that the couple loved him very much. He studied and studied like ordinary people in the city. He lived an ordinary life without too many worries.

I secretly took care of some of the family's business, and then I was worried that Chu Yu and his father would be suspicious, so I stopped and ignored it.

I don't know his past before he went to that family, and I don't know that they moved to the capital with their family.

There was a sudden rift between me and Chu Yu. Whenever we meet, we will quarrel, quarrel, and quarrel.

He doesn't listen to any explanation from me.

Nanci was dead, and the eight thousand Xie family troops who were secretly transferred back then, his father did not do anything in the end, and Chu Yu didn't know about it.

After Nan Ci's death, his father fell into a slump, and the Xie family was no longer in trouble.

What I did back then has become a foolish joke.

"Even if there are eight thousand Xie family troops, are you so sure that he can take my life?"

Chu Yu decided, "You are just worried that Mrs. Xie will be convicted!"

He even questioned my feelings for him: "Xie Nanzhi, your whole heart is crooked, it's my fault, you never admired me from the beginning, you don't want to marry me at all, do you?! "

I can't argue with it.

I can't prove that if I didn't send Yu'er away, my father would definitely kill him, and I can't prove my love for him and Yu'er.

Chu Yu said that facts speak louder than words.

The fact is that Mrs. Xie didn't pose a threat to him, and Yu'er was really sent away by me and suffered so much.

Not long after Chu Yu found out the truth, his father also found out about it.

The day he entered the palace coincided with a cold spring.

The coldness between father's brows and eyes was far more piercing than the north wind.

"Zhizhi, this is the Zhizhi I taught you with all my heart, the Zhizhi that your mother cared for since childhood, and the good daughter-in-law brought up by the Xie clan with all their efforts!"

"Infidelity, disfilial piety, ungratefulness, betrayal of righteousness."

"You betrayed your father, you betrayed your clan, you killed your dear brother."

"Father, I'm really disappointed in you."

If it is said that Yu'er's previous encounters made my heart feel like a knife, every word Chu Yu and his father said was nothing more than cutting flesh and bones.

Every negation and every accusation they made was gouging out the vital parts, dripping with blood.

I was wrong, I was wrong.

I am that sinner.

I'm sorry for Chu Yu, I'm sorry for Xie Shi, and I'm sorry for You'er.

it's all my fault.

I started crying one after another and getting sick after one.

I dare not see Yu'er.

Even though he often goes in and out of the palace now, he is just a stone's throw away from me.

I don't know what attitude and expression I should use to face this child who was abandoned by me back then.

I don't want to step out of Fengyi Palace.

The sun outside is too dazzling, and as soon as I go out, I can hear many people criticizing me.

it was all your fault.

your fault.

your fault!
I don't want to see Chu Yu, my father, or even Zhaohe.

For so many years, I have treated Showa as my own, and placed all my feelings for Yu'er on her.

Now when I look at her, I think of You'er, and I even called her "You'er" to her twice.

Showa probably guessed it.

Once when Chu Yu came over, there was another quarrel, and Showa came in not long after he left.

Her eyes were red, she hesitated to speak, she didn't ask any questions, she just came over two days later and fell on my knees: "Mother, get well soon, I will listen to my father, and I will listen to my father in everything. Your father will be happy."

Chu Yu wants to promise Zhaohe to You'er.

Simply absurd.

He could see my objection just from my expression: "How? Showa can afford to call your mother, but he can't? My son is not worthy?"

Ever since Yu'er was discovered, Chu Yu and I have never spoken a word properly.

Even if you come calmly and talk, you will start to sarcasm, sarcasm, and anger.

The most serious quarrel was when King Rui was convicted, and he wanted to confess Yu'er directly.

I disagree.

After suffering so much before, he had eaten all he could, and finally stayed away from the palace, away from the battle for succession, and recognized him back, how could it be so easy for the Prince of the Eastern Palace to do so?
Now he is the son of the Duke of the State, he can make a difference in the court, and he can be like Duke Pei, living a leisurely life with the title of title.

Besides, I have met his wife, the eldest son.

Although he suspected that he didn't want to marry Zhaohe early in the morning, he hurriedly married the daughter of Honglusi's family, but when he actually saw the girl, saw the joyful light in her eyes, and heard her describe the Yu'er she knew, I know he really loves her.

Only in front of the girl he admired would he unconsciously expose his weakness.

My Yu'er, it's the same as when I was a child, I just want to eat a candy, but I can't get it.

Now that there is a girl who gives him candy, do you want to confine them in this impenetrable palace and make them become a couple like me and Chu Yu?
But my many considerations, in Chu Yu's eyes, turned into one sentence: "You are nothing more than worried that things will be exposed, and I will punish you for the crime of Xie Shi!"

This was Chu Yu's heart disease.

I refuted him for the first time: "Since you think so, why come to discuss with me?!"

"After all, you are Your Majesty. If you want him to be named Pei and Chu, what does it have to do with my surname Xie?!"

Chu Yu was furious, reprimanded me for being useless, and ordered to abolish the empress.

Let it go.

He hated me so much earlier, he was crippled earlier, and his eyes were clean earlier.

Father came to see me again.

He said that thunder, rain and dew are all the favor of the king. Now you understand that the only thing you can rely on is your family?

I lowered my eyebrows and said, "Father is right, everything my father said is right, it is my daughter who is wrong, and my daughter deserves death."

I want to move out of Fengyi Palace, but no one in the palace dares to move.

They still respectfully called me Niang Niang, not daring to neglect.

I want to ask Chu Yu to send me to Jingfa Temple, where there are many former concubines.

But Chu Yu didn't see me anymore after the empress was abolished.

He even went directly to the palace.

Wait until he comes back from the palace.

I invited myself to Jingfa nunnery and shaved my hair to become a nun.

After all, I have no face to face Yu'er. If he knew the truth, he would not want to see me in the palace all the time.

On the second day after Chu Yu went to the palace, my father came to see me.

"The Wangs and his wife who raised him, his beloved wife, and his respected teacher all died at my hands."

I haven't seen him so excited for many years, his eyes were shining brightly, and he looked at me scorchingly: "Zhi Zhi, the opportunity to make amends has come."

"I have left enough clues, you only need to push the flames, and you will push all these to the dog emperor."

"It's just turning his father and son against each other, but he separated me from Nanci!"

"Zhizhi, the dog emperor has abandoned you, Nan Cijing loves you, so you don't want to avenge him?!"

I looked at my father, who was already a stranger in front of me, and couldn't even shed tears.

He wasn't like this before.

He is a respected general who goes into battle for the people and fights the enemy with unparalleled bravery.

He is the chief assistant of the cabinet respected by all officials, and he runs around to make suggestions for the new policy of the court.

He has ambitions, but he also looks forward to seeing the prosperity of Dayin, looking forward to Haiyan and Heqing, and the prosperity of the country and the people.

So without a prince, he can continue to be a minister instead of trying to replace him.

He knows that the change of dynasty will hurt muscles and bones, and it will only be the common people who will suffer.

But he turned into what he is now.

He said that he wanted to slaughter and return to the whole village, but Yu'er stopped him in time and only killed a dozen ants.

He said that he still wanted to get rid of the survivors I left over 20 years ago, but it was a pity that Yu'er had already taken precautions.

His eyes were full of madness and paranoia.

He said that if I was not as good as he said, he would turn against His Majesty and order all the Xie clan to be buried with Nanci!Ask You'er to personally kill his grandfather!
I can't find my mind, and I can't find my voice.

In great shock and pain, I nodded.

Ok.

as you wish.

As you wish.

The culprit of all this is me.

The damned person is also me.

As long as I'm dead, my father won't be able to blame Chu Yu.

Only when I die can I give an explanation to those undead.

Only when I die, will Chu Yu's hatred for me and You'er's resentment for me dissipate.

I, there is no light in my life.

It would be better to die to solve all difficulties.

(This article is first published in Xiaoxiang Academy, please go to Xiaoxiang Academy for updates.)
　It's not easy to be a sandwich person. The queen is actually very depressed in the later stage. We can see Emperor Jiahe's love for her and love for her. They turned against each other again.

　　The purpose of this article is mainly to see clearly the reasons for the queen's two major choices, so I won't stop here.

　　I'm sorry it took so long to update, I only have enough time on weekends QAQ
　　In addition, you have another fan-exclusive episode, I communicated with the editors, because many cuties missed the event time and failed to check in for five consecutive days during the event, and some cuties from other platforms did not participate in the event. Next, I will post it as a VIP chapter.

　　It's six o'clock tonight.

　　You don't need to buy the treasure that has already been received, the content is the same.

　　
　
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