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I was born in a hot summer.

It is said that the gardenias in Xie Mansion bloomed like clouds and brocades that year, and my mother loved it very much.

My father has always loved my mother, so following her preference, he embedded the word "Zhi" in my name.

As the eldest daughter of the family, and also the eldest daughter of the Xie family, the first thing I remember is stepping on a chair to reach candy on the table.

Just a little bit.

I had already touched the candy wrappers, and was so frightened that I fell down when Mammy yelled.

Afterwards, I was reprimanded by my mother and punished by my father to kneel for half an hour.

"Hey, don't blame your father for being strict with you, my Zhizhi, she will be a queen in the future."

My mother put ice on my knees and soothed me.

I blinked Shang Hong's eyes and asked her: "Mother, what is a queen?"

They said that the eldest daughter of the Xie family was born to be a queen.

To be a queen, one must behave elegantly, speak appropriately, and even smile with a certain curvature.

He learned piano at the age of three, poetry at the age of four, chess at the age of five, and painting at the age of six.

When I was less than ten years old, I was famous all over the capital.

Everyone says that I am a model of aristocratic women and a model of women in the world.

All I know is fake.

I like to sneak up on the roof to watch the stars in the sky at night when no one is around.

I like to take off my shoes regardless of etiquette in the cold winter, and walk around the room with bare feet.

I envy the side cousins, who can laugh out loud when they are happy, and act like a baby in mother's arms wantonly if they make mistakes.

My father always warned me in my ear: "As the eldest daughter of the Xie family, every word and deed is the honor and disgrace of the Xie family, and there must be no mistakes."

My mother reminded me from time to time: "Zhi Zhi, the only thing a woman can rely on is her natal family. Even if you become a queen in the future, the Xie family is your only backing."

what queen.

I don't want to be queen at all.

I want to be like my cousin, choose a clean and elegant son-in-law, and the husband and wife will close the door, laughing and cursing, doing whatever they want.

If I don't want to be a queen, I don't like Chu Yu either.

Chu Yu is Dayin's prince.

As a daughter of the Xie family, I have many opportunities to meet him.

Nan Ci is his companion in the East Palace, and I often bump into him when I go to find Nan Ci.

But since I don't like him, I naturally won't get close to him.

He often even shows his face without any trace.

I hope that he can find that I am not as dignified and elegant as the rumors say, and that I have a bad temperament, and I am not suitable to be his princess, so he rescinds my engagement with him.

But he doesn't seem to be as smart as the rumors say.

I was so obvious, but he still didn't realize it, and people called me "Azhi" and "Azhi".

It was the Lantern Festival of the year.

I was 14 years old that year, and I was about to reach my age.

A lantern banquet was held in the palace.

Like the countless palace banquets I have participated in before, I was neatly dressed and sat at the head of the daughter of the family in a decent manner, listening to the compliments and flattery all night.

Before I went to view the lanterns, I excused myself to go to the bathroom.

No one knows my secret.

When I was in Fuchu, I was guarded even when I went to the toilet.

On the contrary, when I entered the palace, every time I borrowed the Gong room of Chaoyang Palace, the servants who accompanied me dared to wait for me outside Chaoyang Palace without the permission of the eldest princess.

Every time I am in Chaoyang Palace, I will dawdle for a stick of incense.

During this fragrant hour, in the remote and uninhabited palace road, I can loosen my stiff shoulders and wantonly kick small stones on the ground.

It was a little unlucky tonight.

Chu Yu actually came to Chaoyang Palace to use the toilet.

He has a close relationship with the eldest princess, and he has already moved to the East Palace, so it is not surprising that he would come here to use the toilet.

I saluted him distantly, preparing to walk around him.

But he stopped me: "A Zhi, do you want to see the lantern?"

He always likes to call me so intimately, obviously, apart from a marriage contract, we are just nodding acquaintances.

"Thank you for the reminder, Your Majesty, I will..."

Before I finished speaking, he added: "Let's go to Chang'an Street to see."

My words stopped on the tip of my tongue.

"I made an agreement with Rong Hua, she will let you and me play chess at Chaoyang Palace tonight." For the first time, I looked at Chu Yu's face squarely, with Zhang Yang hidden in his handsomeness, looking at me with his chin raised, "How? Go or not? go?"

Your Royal Highness, this move is not in line with etiquette.

A word can't be uttered no matter how it rolls in the throat.

When I was 14 years old, I only saw the appearance of Chang'an Street in the gap of the carriage.

Both father and mother said that Xie's daughter should not show her face in public.

"Go!" Chu Yu smiled and came over to pull me.

It is inappropriate for an unmarried man and woman to be so intimate even if they have a marriage contract.

But I simply can't say no.

That was my first time on Chang'an Avenue.

Seeing that I was a little cramped, Chu Yu bought two masks from the vendor.

To cover up my face, without the risk of being recognized, I gradually let go of my hands and feet.

I have always remembered that night since.

Chu Yu led me from the street to the end of the street, introducing me to every storefront and every stall, and bought all the items that my eyes stopped with a smile.

He took me on a boat and took me to listen to operas.

He said Ah Zhi, how about I often take you out to play in the future?

By coincidence, I did not refuse him again.

That night we played until the end of the market before returning home slowly.

I have never been so happy, and when I took off the mask, I couldn't stop the smile on my face.

Even when returning to the yard, his footsteps could not help but be brisk.

I think Chu Yu would be pretty good if he wasn't the prince.

But this buoyancy didn't last long.

Mother was waiting for me in the boudoir.

"Zhizhi, have you gone out to play with the prince?"

I keep my head down.

Mother won't scold me.

His mother's surname is Wang, and she comes from the second largest family of Dayin.

She is truly dignified and elegant, calm and generous.

She never spoke loudly to even one of the servants.

But I know it's not right to do this tonight.

"Is Zhizhi happy tonight?"

I hang my head lower.

My mother took my hand lovingly: "Zhizhi, the prince is indeed handsome and graceful."

"He is in a high position, but he puts down his body to make you happy, do you know why?"

I grabbed the handkerchief in my hand and raised my eyes.

"Because you are the daughter of the Xie family." The mother smiled, "Because you are the eldest daughter of the Xie family and the only daughter of your father."

"Oh." I lowered my eyes again, and couldn't help but let go of the hand holding the veil.

"Zhizhi, it's natural for a man to love a woman, but you have to remember that your honor is given to you by your family. Without the Xie family, you are nothing."

"You can be tempted, but you can't fall, understand?"

I lay on my mother's lap: "Yes."

After that, Chu Yu really often took me out to play.

He is the prince, I have been engaged to him for a long time, and he often pulls the eldest princess as a cover. Although my mother feels that it is not good to get too close before marriage, it is not easy to refuse.

In fact, every time I go out with him, the eldest princess disappears immediately, leaving me and him alone.

Chu Yu is familiar with every interesting corner of the capital, and always has some novel ideas.

He is not so conformist, even a bit retrograde.

He even dared to take me to places like Goulan.

But I have to admit that it is much happier with him than I am at home.

He is elegant, gentle and considerate.

He often fixes those deep pool-like eyes on me, as if I am the only one with all his heart and eyes.

Sometimes I can't help but want to ask him: If I wasn't Xie's daughter, would you still be so kind to me?

But this question is silly.

If I wasn't Xie's daughter, I wouldn't have a marriage contract with him, or even know him.

How about good or bad?

Two months before Jiji, my marriage with Chu Yu was on the agenda.

Before the engagement date, my father called me to the study and had a solemn talk with me.

He asked me if I really wanted to marry Chu Yu.

My father was strict with me and had high hopes for me, but he also loved me.

I know what he meant by asking this sentence.

His Majesty also has several talented princes, and Chu Yu's crown prince is not so stable.

But who I marry will definitely determine who Xie supports.

I nodded without much hesitation.

I am no longer so childish.

I was born to be a queen, not because of my marriage contract with Chu Yu, but because I am the eldest daughter of the Xie family.

It is his great love for me that my father allowed me to choose among several princes.

Since the one who is always going to be the queen, the one who is going to be the emperor is still Chu Yu.

Seeing my decisiveness, my father sneered: "He will work hard on you."

He also said: "If he treats you badly in the future, just tell your father."

"I, Xie Chang Yuan's daughter, will not be wronged!"

Chu Yu didn't treat me badly.

The three years of my marriage to Donggong were the happiest three years of my life.

There are only me and Chu Yu in the East Palace. The first thing he does when he returns to the dormitory every day is to drink away and ask me to put down the shoulders I was carrying.

"Aren't you tired of sitting like this all day?"

Chu Yu disliked my elegant sitting posture that was praised by others, "Old man Xie is probably abusing you!"

He said that I can do whatever I want in the East Palace, I can climb the roof if I want, go barefoot if I want, and he will pull out the tongue of anyone who dares to speak nonsense.

He still often takes me out to play.

Teahouses, restaurants, markets, Ci'en Temple, Wanggui Mountain, Tianshan Pool, we are everywhere.

The whole capital knows that His Highness the Crown Prince loves the Crown Princess and is inseparable wherever he goes.

Once he took me to and from the place of fireworks, and said that there was a new oiran with a first-class singing voice.

As a result, he was bumped into by an old minister.

On the second day, I read a copy of him, saying that he disregarded etiquette and was out of order.

He retorted at the court: "What does the lonely princess have to do with you?!"

The old minister didn't sue him, but I was called home by my mother.

At that time, my mother was ill.

As usual, she held my hand gently: "Zhi Zhi, remember what I said to you?"

"Why does the prince spoil and protect you so much?"

I lowered my eyelashes: "Mother, don't worry, my daughter will remember."

It is nothing more than that Chu Yu has a wolf in front and a tiger in the back, and needs Xie's full support.

He spoils me and protects me, he does it for the world to see, and he also does it for Mrs. Xie.

"After being married for so long, there is no movement in the belly?" Mother asked with a sick face.

I shook my head.

Worrying about her thinking too much, he added: "I didn't do much."

It means that I am not avoiding children.

But the mother shook her head: "Silly Zhizhi, this kind of thing is not something that only women can do, how could he let you know if he did it?"

Sighing: "Just look, he still doesn't dare to let you get pregnant.

I don't want to be called home by my mother anymore, so I don't want to follow Chu Yu to do whatever I want.

I am very satisfied to be able to stay freely in the East Palace, and climb up to the roof with Chu Yu to look at the stars from time to time.

But even such a time is too short after all.

In the third year of my marriage with Chu Yu, Your Majesty passed away.

When His Majesty was seriously ill, the situation in the court was already tense. Not only his father, but even Nanci frequently entered and left the East Palace.

In the past few years of my marriage, Nanci has become more and more prosperous, won many battles, and has a lot of prestige among the people.

With them here, and Chu Yu being the main lord of the East Palace, I wasn't too worried.

The result was as I expected, Chu Yu inherited the Datong without any risk, and we moved from the East Palace to the Imperial Palace.

The night before entering the palace, my father came to see me.

"Next time we meet, I will call you Niangniang."

After I got married, I didn't see him much.

But every time we met, I felt that he was more energetic.

Just like the official titles that Nanci continued to confer, his father's coercion became more and more severe.

I stood beside him serving tea: "Zhizhi will always be my father's daughter."

Father took the teacup with satisfaction: "Do you still remember your last name?"

"My last name is Xie." I replied.

"I understand what my mother taught me." I said.

The father was even more joyful: "In this way, there is no need to say more for the father."

He drank all the tea in one gulp and walked away.

I lowered my eyes and put down the teapot in my hand, and lowered my shoulders.
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The days of moving into the imperial palace were very different from those in the eastern palace.

Chu Yu is busier, and it is even more impossible for me to go out of the palace. The palaces in the Imperial Palace are higher than the East Palace. When Chu Yu is away, I can't climb up to the roof to look at the stars.

Chu Yu ascended the throne and gave the Xie family many awards.

Xie was in the limelight for a while.

In the first year of entering the palace, his mother passed away.

Before she passed away, she stroked the hair on the top of my head over and over again: "My Zhizhi, mother knows that you are caught between the emperor and the Xie family, but as a woman, you are already struggling."

"You have inherited the honor of the family, so you have to bear the corresponding responsibility."

"Besides, what mother expected was not wrong, right?"

"Zhizhi, you haven't been pregnant yet."

As I have done countless times before, I obediently fell beside my mother and answered her softly.

I didn't tell her I wasn't pregnant, she reminded me last time.

I am carrying Chu Yu on my back, and I am using anti-child medicine.

Chu Yu had just ascended to the high position, most of the ministers and generals in the court were under his father's command.

Father didn't take Chu Yu seriously.

If a prince is born at this time, I can guess my father's next move.

A young emperor who is learning to speak is easier to control than a young emperor who has begun to develop strength.

At that time, the empress dowager's surname is Xie, the chief assistant's surname is Xie, and the general's surname is Xie. Dayin, who only needs to change one surname, will be the empire that his father hopes for.

Chu Yu didn't seem to think so.

He often touches my lower abdomen before going to bed, but there is still no movement.

He wanted a righteous eldest son, he wanted him to be born as the most honored prince, he wanted him to be completely different from him, not suffer the crime of being excluded, and not suffer from the pain of seizing the heir.

Many times I couldn't help but want to ask, can you really not see your father's ambition?

He could see it.

It's just that he doesn't care that much.

His mother and concubine gave birth to him but didn't treat him very kindly. The previous emperor made him a prince, but made him betray his enemies everywhere.

His brother either kicked him out of the East Palace or put him to death.

In his eyes, the so-called kinship is like a gorgeous dress to hide ugliness.

He took it for granted that I was like him.

He often said, Ah Zhi, we are husband and wife, we are the birds of the same forest.

In his war with his father, he had no doubts that I should be on his side.

And he was just as conceited as his father. He didn't think he would lose this war.

So what if I give birth to a prince?

If Mrs. Xie did something wrong, he would just take the opportunity to win over the imperial power.

I can't accuse my father of being a wolf and make him give up his secret Sima Zhao's heart; nor can I ask Chu Yu to let Xie continue to dominate for me.

All I can do is to make their war break out later, and later.

In a few more years, Chu Yu's throne will be more secure, Xie's power is not as strong as it is today, and my father has no chance of winning. Even if I give birth to a prince, he can't touch a stone with an egg.

I carefully reconcile the relationship between the two parties.

In front of my father, I have always been well-behaved and obedient, and Mrs. Xie is indeed my only backing, he never doubted him.

In front of Chu Yu, I have always been gentle and submissive. He gave me all his hot emotions, and he never doubted it.

They were all eagerly expecting me to have a child.

The father pointed at this child to make the Xie family's position in the court more stable, and with the prince in hand, he could have other plans.

Chu Yu pointed at this child to make me and him more inseparable and make us a real family.

I was the only one, drinking bowl after bowl of Bizi Tang, praying that this child would not come at an untimely time.

But the world is like this, what to be afraid of, what to do.

Not long after my mother passed away, the imperial physician diagnosed me as pregnant.

(This article is first published in Xiaoxiang Academy, please go to Xiaoxiang Academy for updates.)
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